178 Self Hug

◎The gap in my childhood was gently mended by Li Yiqing in this moment◎

In the past few copies, Qi Qiuxue has always played the role of leader.

She is strong, brave, and determined, with absolute judgment and reason. Time and time again, she leads players to victory and helps them break free from the shackles of fate.

But everyone gets tired.

No one in this world can be strong forever. Even Qi Qiuxue will inevitably have vulnerable moments. She needs her lover's kisses and hugs, as well as her touch and caress. She needs him to express his love in her ears over and over again.

Raising a human being is both simple and difficult. If you just want her to live, you only need to provide food, water, and appropriate rest time. But if you want her to live better, happy and content, you need to water her with constant love.

"Axue." Li Yiqing paused for a few seconds before opening his lips again, speaking word by word, just as she wished, "I love you."

"I love you very much, I love you very much."

She caressed Qi Qiuxue's cheek again, each stroke extremely gentle. After the fusion of souls, Li Yiqing could no longer fully control this body. The only thing he could control was Qi Qiuxue's hands, but it didn't matter, this was enough.

Qi Qiuxue's eyelashes trembled slightly in the dim light, like the wings of a fluttering butterfly.

Her lips were warm and soft, and her breaths exhaled heat that was higher than her body temperature.

Li Yiqing could feel her heartbeat, her trembling, and even her emotions.

She suddenly wanted to see her lover.

So she said to her, "I want to see Axue."

Qi Qiuxue, who was lying on the bed, paused for a moment, then stood up and dimmed the lights in the room again. Then she raised her hand and tore off the white cloth in front of the bed.

What appeared below was a huge half-length mirror.

This mirror is very heavy and is tightly connected to the cabinet behind it, making it difficult to move. Qi Qiuxue noticed it when she first moved into this room and felt uncomfortable, so she covered it with a white cloth.

The white cloth was removed and Qi Qiuxue's face was clearly visible in the mirror.

"Can you see me now, Aqing?" She spoke, stroking her eyes through the mirror. Those were eyes, but also a window, through which her lover was looking at her completely.

"I saw it." Li Yiqing slowly opened his lips, with an ambiguous smile in his voice, "It's beautiful."

Qi Qiuxue came back to the bed and sat down.

Li Yiqing once again took the use of her hands, and slowly moved his hands down along her eyes as if he were caressing a work of art.

Qi Qiuxue kept looking at herself in the mirror, as if she was staring at her lover in the void, stubbornly grasping at shadows, or as if she was admiring and witnessing this uncontrollable "self-satisfaction."

The lights in the house were dim, and the candlelight outside was flickering. The light and shadow swayed back and forth on her body, sometimes clear and bright, sometimes dim and unclear.

Sometimes, Qi Qiuxue felt that there was not only herself in the mirror. She seemed to see another figure, that was A Qing who was hugging her tightly from behind, his heart and eyes full of her.

It was clearly my own hand, but the feeling it brought was particularly different.

Qi Qiuxue leaned back slightly against the wall behind her, and her body began to tremble again. Through the mirror, she knew for the first time what she looked like when she was aroused. She accepted everything that Li Yiqing brought her, whether it was happiness or pain.

Perhaps she was trying to lower her voice, Qi Qiuxue unconsciously bit her lips.

So Li Yiqing raised his hand and touched her lips, kneading her soft lips with his fingertips neither lightly nor heavily.

"Don't bite, Xue."

"They will be back soon." She fell silent and listened carefully to the noise coming from outside the door. The voices of Liu Ge and others talking came from a little distance away. They were not loud, but they were endless.

They talked about dungeons, missions, tomorrow's arrangements, and how to weave thousands of knots. Although there was only a door between them, the inside and outside of the door were completely different worlds. Her friends and partners were chatting lively outside the door, while she was gritting her teeth and breathing softly outside.

"Listen." Li Yiqing kept talking to her in his mind, reporting on the other players' movements. "Now they've said goodnight to each other."

"Some people started walking back, and some followed her and prepared to go back to their rooms to rest."

"There seem to be footsteps coming towards our room." Li Yiqing said softly, pulling the coat beside him to wrap around Qi Qiuxue's body. "She stopped in front of the door. Who is it?"

As soon as he finished speaking, there was a knock on the door.

Qi Qiuxue took a deep breath and tried to keep her tone steady: "Who?"

"It's me, Axue." Wu Shanyue was still worried about her. After hesitating for a moment, he still wanted to talk to her. "Are you free now? Do you need someone to chat with?"

If it were usual, Qi Qiuxue might agree to let her in, but not now.

So she lied, "No, I'm ready to rest."

"Thank you for your kindness, Shanyue." She responded softly, "Don't worry, I'm fine. You should go back and rest as soon as possible."

"I'm glad you're okay." Wu Shanyue nodded gently, finally feeling relieved. "Then I'll be leaving."

"Good night, Axue and Aqing." After saying goodbye properly, she turned and left.

“…”

Li Yiqing's smiling voice sounded again: "Are you really going to rest, Axue?"

"Don't you know clearly?" Qi Qiuxue looked at herself in the mirror again, and the corners of her lips slowly rose.

Li Yiqing said nothing and manipulated her hand to start moving again. This time, no one would disturb her. The guest room had good sound insulation, so Qi Qiuxue didn't have to be too patient.

Her breathing began to become heavy and hot.

Her senses were infinitely magnified, and she completely handed over part of the control over her body to Li Yiqing, including herself.

Perhaps the feeling was a little extreme, and some of Qi Qiuxue's feelings seemed to be transmitted to Li Yiqing's body.

At this moment, the two of them were indistinguishable from each other and no longer cared about anything. Qi Qiuxue heard two gasps, one more obvious, her own, and the other was her lover's.

“…”

When she was about to reach the highest point, she saw her eyes turning bloodshot in the mirror.

-

Everything returned to calm.

Qi Qiuxue sat quietly staring at herself in the mirror, silently adjusting her breathing. Then she came to her senses, got up and washed up again.

Then she went back to bed and lay down, turning off the bedside lamp.

She thought she had gotten used to the feeling of Li Yiqing not being by her side, but until darkness came, she realized that her judgment seemed to be wrong.

Fortunately, this copy is about to end, and after returning to reality, she can still see Li Yiqing in good condition.

The heat faded, and was replaced by a strong chill.

Qi Qiuxue was forced to curl up in the quilt. She didn't know if it was because her emotions were so volatile today that she inexplicably recalled some things from the past.

——That happened when Qi Qiuxue was very young in an orphanage.

Qi Qiuxue has been weak since childhood. In addition, the food was not good, the nutrition was insufficient, and the resistance was also very low. He would get sick from time to time.

Sometimes she had a headache and a cold, sometimes she fainted from a fever. There were too many children in the orphanage and the teachers often couldn't take care of her. Qi Qiuxue was a person who didn't like to show her emotions, so she usually took care of herself.

Take some medicine, drink some hot water, then lie down in bed and take a nap.

Because she was cold, she would curl up as much as possible and hug herself in a more secure posture, just like today.

She never expected anyone to love her, nor did she expect anyone's kindness and help.

Until I met Li Yiqing, until I met her teammates.

Li Yiqing manipulated her hands again in this position. In a trance, Qi Qiuxue felt like someone was patting her, coaxing a child, and singing some nursery rhymes she had never heard of in her mind.

Qi Qiuxue didn't open her eyes, but slowly raised the corners of her lips.

"This one doesn't sound good, let's change it." She opened her lips and murmured, her tone soft and low, as if she was about to fall asleep.

"Okay." Li Yiqing obediently began to sing the next song, his tone warm and soft.

Perhaps from the perspective of others, Qi Qiuxue's behavior of hugging herself and lulling herself to sleep is undoubtedly a bit weird.

But it doesn't matter.

Only she herself knows that the one who is truly hugging her is not herself, but her lover.

The gap in childhood was gently filled by Li Yiqing at this moment.

【Author’s words】

Here we come!

It's so hard to write this chapter, so I'll just update once today and try to write more tomorrow~

Today is also a day of loving everyone. Thank you for the tickets and nutrient solution, thank you for leaving comments and reading, muahmuhmuhmuh!