My grandfather told me that my life was as fragile as paper, and that I shouldn't have come into this world in the first place. Every day I live now is a bonus.
However, when I was twelve...
My fifth grandfather called me to eat lunch, but I didn't. I stayed in my room practicing the Three Pure Ones Supreme Technique.
It wasn't until 5:30 in the afternoon that my fifth grandfather came to knock on the door and call me to have dinner.
I snapped out of my meditation, got up, opened the door, and headed towards the kitchen.
When I arrived at the kitchen, my fifth grandfather had just put the last dish on the table.
Looking at the five or six dishes on the table, I was stunned. I never expected that my fifth grandfather, who was usually very stingy, would be willing to use his liquor money to cook such a big meal.
There were prawns, crabs, roast goose, poached chicken, and a vegetable dish.
"Changming, would you like a drink?" Fifth Grandfather poured himself a glass of wine and asked me.
"I think I'd better not drink." Actually, it's my birthday today, and I wanted to have a drink, but I'm worried that if I get drunk, I might mess things up tonight.
"Then I'll just have to drink it myself." Fifth Grandfather tilted his head back and downed half a cup in one gulp, a satisfied look on his face.
I ate my rice silently. Although the food was very good, my mind was full of what I was going to face that night, and I had no appetite for anything.
In the afternoon, I had made all the preparations. If I didn't make it through the night, I would leave the money in my card to my fifth grandfather.
Moreover, I was a little worried that if something came looking for me tonight, I wondered if it would involve my fifth grandfather.
Grandpa Wu finished his bottle of wine, glanced at me, hesitated for a moment, and then slowly said, "Changming, Grandpa Wu is leaving tomorrow."
"Are you leaving?" I was startled and asked hurriedly.
"Hmm." Fifth Grandfather opened another bottle of wine, poured a full glass, and continued, "Yes, I've done what I promised your grandfather. I'll leave tomorrow morning; I'm going to where I belong."
"Alright then." Although I was very reluctant, I respected my fifth grandfather's decision. Thinking about tonight's events, I said, "Um... Fifth grandfather, tonight might not be very quiet. After you finish eating, please get some rest and don't go out tonight."
"Could it be that a thief is trying to steal something?" Fifth Grandfather asked in confusion.
"Um...no, just don't come out tonight." I was really worried that my fifth grandfather would come out tonight, but I didn't know how to explain it to him.
"Changming, you mustn't underestimate your Fifth Grandfather. He used to be on the battlefield. My big sword has killed countless Japanese devils. Even your grandfather, if he didn't use his crooked tricks, wouldn't be a match for me at all." The Fifth Grandfather downed his cup of wine in one gulp and said calmly.
"..." A few black lines appeared on my forehead, but I didn't say anything more. Those things were all coming for me, so they shouldn't hurt Fifth Grandfather.
"Alright, I've eaten and drunk my fill. It's time to go back and rest. Remember to tidy up later; I didn't tidy up this morning." Grandpa Wu finished his last glass of wine, stood up, patted my shoulder, and walked outside.
I finished my rice, tidied up the table, and hurried to my room.
Back in my room, I sat blankly at my desk, glancing at the time every now and then, waiting for night to fall.
At 7:30 p.m., it finally got dark. I took off all my clothes, picked up the burial clothes, hesitated for a moment, and then put them on.
With the copper coin in my mouth, I picked up the green candle, slung my bag over my shoulder, which was stuffed with the talismans I had prepared over the past few days, and the small knife.
I pushed open the door and glanced into my fifth grandfather's room, and found that the lights were on inside.
I left the room and went into the hall.