My grandfather told me that my life was as fragile as paper, and that I shouldn't have come into this world in the first place. Every day I live now is a bonus.
However, when I was twelve...
After Hu Tudao left, I sat alone in my room, lost in thought.
Lately, I keep encountering these kinds of filthy things. First it was Ma Jiajie, and now it's Xu Huihui. It's as if it's all arranged by God. Is it really because I have such a fragile fate?
There are still two months until my 24th birthday, which is my birth year in the Chinese zodiac. But I have a feeling that even if I get rid of Xu Huihui in front of me, more evil things will come looking for me, as if there is something on me that attracts them.
But after thinking about it, I really can't think of anything else besides my left eye that these filthy things could covet?
"Sigh!" I let out a long sigh and stopped thinking about it. I'll just take it one day at a time. Dawn broke, and today's work began.
I stood up, grabbed my toiletries, and went to brush my teeth and wash my face.
When I returned to the small room, I saw someone sitting on my bed, one hand supporting their chin, engrossed in playing on their phone.
"An Lili?" I called softly, put the toothbrush on the table, and saw a transparent plastic bag on it.
"Good morning, Zuo Changming. I brought you breakfast on my way here. It's on the table, eat it while it's hot." Lili looked up at me and said with a smile. After saying that, she looked down again and continued playing with her phone.
"Good morning, you..." An Lili was wearing a low-cut t-shirt today. From my angle, I could see a large expanse of white skin on An Lili's chest and the deep cleavage. For a moment, I forgot what I wanted to say to her.
An Lili, who was looking down at her phone, suddenly looked up when she saw that I had nothing more to say, and our eyes met.
An Lili was stunned for a moment, then looked down at her chest, hurriedly covered her chest with her hand, and leaned back to sit up straight.
It was only then that I came to my senses, and I quickly turned my head to the side, my face turning bright red.
"Ahem, Lili, I...you..." I coughed twice, trying to cover up my embarrassment, but it was no use. I couldn't even utter a complete sentence.
The room suddenly fell silent. An Lili didn't speak, and I didn't dare look at her. My heart was pounding wildly, almost as fast as when I saw something dirty.
"Pfft!" Just as I dug a hole in the ground to crawl into, I heard An Lili's soft laughter coming from inside the room.
"Zuo Changming, I'm going to clock in for work. Remember to eat breakfast!" An Lili got up, patted my shoulder, and said with a smile.
"Um, thank you for bringing breakfast." I turned my head, my face still burning, and I didn't dare to meet An Lili's eyes.
"Hehe, you're welcome. You don't need to transfer money to me, I won't accept it." An Lili covered her mouth and chuckled, then was about to walk towards the door. After taking two steps, she stopped, turned around and looked at me, saying, "Brother Changming, a new buffet restaurant opened in town, and I managed to snag two 50% off coupons. How about we go eat together tomorrow night after get off work?"
"Um... okay." I hesitated for a moment, but still nodded in agreement. An Lili had already treated me to breakfast so many times, and I wanted to treat her to the buffet tomorrow night.
"Then it's settled." An Lili smiled sweetly and turned to walk outside.
I watched An Lili's departing figure and reached out to touch my face.
But when An Lili reached the door, she stopped again. This time, however, she didn't turn around. Her soft voice drifted over, "Brother Changming, is it pretty?"
"I..." My heart tightened again, and I didn't know how to answer. Just then, An Lili suddenly quickened her pace and left.
An Lili had already disappeared, but I kept looking outside for a while longer.
An Lili has a great figure. She is 1.6 meters tall and weighs around 95 kilograms. She has curves in all the right places, fair skin, and a youthful and lively appearance. Although she is not considered extremely beautiful, she is still considered to be in the upper-middle class.
To be honest, after spending this time together, I wouldn't believe myself if I said I had no feelings for An Lili. But I know my own feelings and I'm always deliberately suppressing the stirrings in my heart.
I'm afraid I'll let her down, so my current thought is to keep some distance from her as much as possible, especially after I discovered that An Lili was trying to secretly open that brass lock. I want to stay away from her even more, because I feel that if I get too close to her, something bad will happen.
But when An Lili approached me, I felt happy deep down. I would subconsciously agree to her invitations. This feeling was contradictory to me.
Sometimes I even wonder, if my left eye were normal, if I hadn't experienced the great calamity of my birth year, if I hadn't discovered that An Lili was trying to secretly unlock that lock, would I have dared to muster the courage to pursue her?
"Sigh!" I sighed softly, returned to the table, opened the plastic bag, and found two steaming shumai inside.
I picked it up and started eating. The shumai was soft, sticky, and sweet, just like the warmth and sweetness deep in my heart at that moment.
After I finished breakfast, I left the small house, closed the door, and headed towards the courier station.
On the way, I saw Lin Xiaoxue parking her electric scooter.
"Zuo Changming, I'm sorry about what happened yesterday," Lin Xiaoxue said apologetically when she saw me.
"Uh, what's wrong?" I was completely bewildered, having no idea why Lin Xiaoxue wanted to apologize to me.
"Changming, my husband told me about the argument you had with me yesterday. It was my fault for making you suffer." Lin Xiaoxue reached up and tucked a strand of hair behind her ear, bowing slightly to me apologetically.
"Sister-in-law, you're exaggerating. I don't blame you. Brother Zhong is just worried about his son, I understand. I also made mistakes." I finally remembered what Lin Xiaoxue was talking about, waved my hand at her, and hurriedly said.
"Changming, thank you for your understanding." Lin Xiaoxue nodded gratefully to me and walked towards the express station.
I also went to the express station, clocked in, and then went to the sorting room.
"Zuo Changming, Zhong Lingui didn't come today, so you don't need to run his route today. Let Xu Dalong run it for the day."
Just as I was busy sorting packages, Zhang Guangyin suddenly came to my side, patted my shoulder, and said with a smile.
"Oh, okay." I glanced back at Zhang Guangyin and nodded in agreement.
I don't know why Zhang Guangyin is suddenly being so kind, but I'm happy that I don't have to run an extra route. It'll be a good opportunity to finish up early and go talk to Hu Ergou about how to handle Xu Huihui's matter tonight.
Zhang Guangyin suddenly bent down and whispered in my ear, "Changming, how have you been staying at the courier station these past two days?"
"It's alright," I replied casually, without telling him the truth. I knew it would be useless to tell him, because Zhang Guangyin would not believe me at all and would only say that I was making excuses.
"Well, it's good that everything's alright. Now I can give the boss my answer." Zhang Guangyin said with a smile and left.