There are two lines, one black and one blue, on the paper, interweaving the cause and effect, love and hate of the previous life, and entangled with the true and false past.

Song Yu looked down blankly, his expression shocked and confused.

He was scared.

Xie Sui said, "Who wrote "Gentle Control" and where did you read it? Can you tell me, Yu Yu?"

Song Yu stepped on the blanket barefoot, feeling a chill spreading throughout his body, his head in a mess.

He pursed his lips and grabbed his hair, then he decided to confess: "At first I thought I was not from this world."

"I saw this book in another world, and it came back here after I slept."

"There was something that called itself a system. It told me a lot, basically asking me to follow the plot, but I didn't listen. I chose to go to Jingcheng to find you, and then it got angry and disappeared. It came back and told me not to like you, but I still liked you, so it got angry and left again."

Xie Sui nodded, his eyes gentle.

Song Yu's emotions gradually stabilized, and he was silent for a while. He didn't intend to tell Xie Sui about the revenge and regret that 008 mentioned. He just said seriously and calmly: "Xie Sui, if one day I suddenly faint or fall asleep, don't be afraid. By that time, I should have met the system and the Lord God it mentioned. I will definitely kill them, and then wake up to find you."

Xie Sui held his cold hand and said in a low voice: "Yeah."

Song Yu raised his head and carefully traced his face under the light. Eyebrows, nose bridge, lips, familiar and intimate. The chill in his heart was driven away by the warmth, and he laughed again: "Finally, we talked it out."

Xie Sui also smiled, lowered his eyes and kissed the corner of his eyes.

"Let's talk about it."

Song Yu felt that she couldn't quite figure out what Xie Sui was thinking.

But all the roots and crises are on him. As his boyfriend, Xie Sui should also feel bad.

Song Yu said soothingly, "Don't panic. Since I woke up, I haven't followed a single word the system said. It can't do anything to me now."

"That's amazing, Yu Yu."

Xie Sui said with a smile, but his eyes were cold.

Song Yu felt a little bitter in his heart. He knew that talking about 008 and the Lord God would only cause trouble. How could the two ideologies be resolved? But this was the only sense of security he could give Xie Sui now.

He changed the subject: "When you were reborn, did you look at me as a fool at first?"

"What?"

"…I think so."

Thinking of this, Song Yu cursed inwardly.

Xie Sui said, "No, I already said it was love at first sight. I like whatever you do."

Song Yu was comforted, and his eyes fell on the diary next to him.

"Is that what Aunt Xu wrote?"

"Well," Xie Sui opened the diary and said softly, "Do you want to read it?"

With the dim yellow light of the desk lamp, the words took him into the life of a woman who died for love.

Xie Sui said slowly, "After I was born, she severed contact with the Xu family and lived in a villa in the mountains, focusing on painting. There was only one nanny at home, and my father might come once every few weeks. When I was a child, she and I didn't have much to talk about. She always lived in her own world and no one could disturb her."

"After she died, I always hated her. In the eyes of many people, she was just a beautiful but stupid woman. No one sympathized with her and thought that everything was her own fault."

Xie Sui paused and said calmly: "In my eyes, it was the same before."

Song Yu quietly held his hand.

"Before she died, she gave me indifference. After she died, she gave me torture. She gave me life but didn't ask me if I wanted to come into this world and endure these things."

"She ended her life on my birthday," Xie Sui paused and said calmly, "Life and death, joy and sorrow were all on the same day."

He turned the diary to the middle pages: "This diary has been in the cabinet at Jingcheng's house, but I have never read it. In my previous life, Xie Sinian personally handed it to me and asked me to read it."

"When I started to understand her, I realized that there was no point in hating her."

"She's just a failed mother."

"She was spoiled since she was young. Others only gave her endless love. She had no idea how to love others. Xie Sinian was only one of the reasons why she broke off relations with the Xu family. What made her collapse was her family. Her parents, who had raised and spoiled her for more than ten years, began to push her to those powerful men in City A like an auction. Her marriage became a transaction. She was sad and collapsed, and chose to have a cold war with her family first."

Song Yu looked at Xu Qiao's small handwriting in the diary. During the time at the mountain villa, every word showed her concern and fear, as well as the cautiousness of being a first-time mother.

"A Sui was praised by the teacher again today, he is such a smart child" "I want to do something for him, but I don't know how to do anything" "A Sui drew a picture for me, I should praise him and pat him on the head to encourage him, but what did I do" "My A Sui is great, but I can't even get him to go to school normally" "Xie Sinian came and we had a fight. A Sui must have been scared. He cried so hard during the day that I didn't dare to see him. The nanny said he was asleep, so I dared to go and see him secretly"

Xie Sui didn't say anything else.

Song Yu took the diary and slowly turned the pages. Xu Qiao seldom mentioned Xie Sinian later on. All he recorded was Xie Sui's growth bit by bit. She had aloof and aloof personality, and didn't know how to get along with her own children. She could only learn to respond slowly and clumsily. There was a page in the diary that was heavily wrinkled, probably because it had been wet by tears countless times. When she learned the truth, she collapsed and was speechless. Why, these three words keep repeating.

During the time when I was framed by Qin Qiuyun and hid in Jingcheng, my diary was empty for many days.

By the time she picked up the pen again, it was already the third day in Jingcheng. In Xie Sui's memory, the mother who locked herself in her room because of love driving her crazy was actually sometimes calm and sometimes crazy. When she was calm, she thought about her own future and Xie Sui's future. She thought that she could still paint and raise her children to grow up healthily. In fact, she had opened the door countless times. When Xie Sui was sleeping late at night, she would stare at her child all night long and cry silently.

Xie Sui recalled an incident in Jingcheng: "Do you know why Zhu Zhixing's family hates me so much?"

Song Yu was stunned: "What?"

"She actually tried to go out to work, but on the first night, Zhu Zhixing's father followed her upstairs. He forced her at the door, and I rushed out of the room and pushed the man downstairs, breaking his leg."

Song Yu's throat was dry.

For a moment I didn't know what to say.

Xu Qiao was too well protected. She was like a fragile and precious flower, unable to withstand the slightest break. Any wind and rain from outside could easily destroy her. The Xu family raised her like this because they hoped that she would live docilely and beautifully as a canary in a gorgeous cage in the future. She is completely helpless against the evils of the world; beauty is her original sin.

She is such a proud person, but she lives with the vicious words of women every day.

After her death, Song Yu slowly found clues from her diary.

"I'm sorry. I haven't been a qualified mother since you were born. I didn't give you a brilliant childhood, and I didn't fulfill any of the obligations associated with the word 'mother'. I even had to learn little by little how to communicate with you. I didn't even hold you in my arms until you were one year old."

"You were born when I was at my worst, so my most embarrassing and worst side is also left to you."

When she wrote this line, she seemed really sad, her handwriting was trembling, and she was so sad that she couldn't hold the pen and couldn't write a single word.

There were no tears on the paper, but it was more despairing than any previous collapse.

"She already knew Xie Sinian's identity at that time. She couldn't face it and felt that her existence was bound to drag me down."

"Before she died, she wrote a letter to Xie Sinian. When the call didn't go through, she sent messages and emails, and also contacted the Xu family."

"She thinks she is the sinner who caused all my sufferings, and wants to use her death to exchange for Xie Sinian's guilt, or the Xu family's forgiveness, so as to give me a good future. But she is too naive. The Xie family has Qin Qiuyun, and the Xu family has Xu Shien. How can she get what she wants? And I don't like this birthday gift at all."

Song Yu's eyes showed some sadness. He looked up quietly, but only saw Xie Sui's expression without joy or sadness.

Xie Sui whispered to him, "It's just something from the past."

Song Yu nodded slowly.

He turned the diary to the first page. On the title page was a line of words written in pen. It seemed to be the lines from a play that Xu Qiao heard on an old TV when she first came to Jingcheng. It might also be the words that Grandma Chen whispered in her ear. Each stroke was faster than the last, as if he wanted to vent all his anger and frustration; until the last two words, he slowed down and paused for a long time, and the ink seeped into the paper. "He taught me to let go of my lingering hatred, stop being coquettish, and reform myself, change my character, stop lingering on the passing of time, turn back from the sea of ​​suffering, and realize Lan Yin as soon as possible." It was as if at the end of the snowy time, I saw the woman with tears on her face.

She didn't realize Lan Yin earlier.

Instead, he was trapped in a sea of ​​suffering and had to bear the consequences alone.

Ends with death.

For some reason, Song Yu's heart ached when he saw these words. He didn't know what he had done in his forgotten memories.

Xie Sui said, "Are you sleepy?"

Song Yu shook his head. He was very energetic. He closed the diary and whispered, "Don't ask me about Zhao Ziyu."

Xie Sui ruffled his hair: "He also remembered things from his past life, I know."

Song Yu widened his eyes slightly: "Did you hear everything?"

Xie Sui smiled and said, "Yeah." Not only did he discover it, but perhaps he also found clues to break the deadlock from these messy and chaotic things.

Song Yu sighed, and cursed the system and the Lord God again in his heart. Aren’t they having a good life in this life? Why are there so many bad people and things?

Thinking of this, Song Yu said: "After the New Year, you...?"

Xie Sui said, "You promised to accompany me through three years of high school. You won't go back on your word, right?"

Song Yu: "That was before I didn't know you were reborn!"

Xie Sui smiled and said, "I'll follow you. Wherever you go, I'll go."

After talking about so many heavy topics, Song Yu's feet were cold and he shivered all over. Xie Sui raised an eyebrow, leaned over, grasped his cold ankle with his warm hand, and then urged him to get on the bed without any resistance.

Song Yu couldn't fall asleep while lying in bed. He turned on his phone and saw the explosive information that he hadn't finished reading.

The phrase “Thank God for being my boyfriend” on the forum has become extremely popular.

Song Yu received Ma Xiaoding's question.

Deeply sad.

[Sadako never forgets the well digger: Brother Yu, it turns out you have been lying to me all along! That’s too much! What is your relationship with Xie Shen? 】

Song Yu was stuck for a second, thinking about how to explain. After all, his speech at the psychology lecture about how love is not as good as learning is still being talked about, and he couldn't just slap himself in the face.

What's the relationship.

The relationship of sleeping in one bed.

[Your husband, Brother Yu: A serious relationship.] 】

[Sadako never forgets the well digger:? ? ? You actually took so long to reply. Okay, I already know! I guessed it! Not only did I guess it, I'm going to go out and tell everyone about it! 】

The emperor is far away and he is getting more and more itchy.

Song Yu gritted his teeth.

[Your husband, Brother Yu: Then you can calculate your fortune first. If the number is less than six, it is very unlucky.]

Xie Sui asked: "Why not tell him?"

Song Yu quickly put away his phone and hesitated, "We are still too young."

Xie Sui smiled, leaned over and hugged him, the hot breath from his lips blew into his ears: "But we did everything we should have done in our last life."