My name is Yang Xuan, and my nickname is A Xuan.

I also have a twin brother named A Zhang.

When I was a child, I was often addicted to reading, which made my mother very worried. She was afraid that I would read too much and not behave like a child, so she always asked my two brothers to take me to the mountains to play, or to other places.

After my mother finally realized that I really didn't like such activities, she became much quieter and I had more time to read.

After moving to Grandpa Nian's place, I was like a fish entering the sea. I was so happy because Grandpa Nian had so many books.

However, Grandpa set a time limit for reading. In addition to reading, we also had to learn English, Russian, practice calligraphy, and learn martial arts with our mother.

The origin of my learning martial arts was a fight. Seeing my mother kicking someone away, my heart was filled with emotion. It turned out that my mother was much more powerful than I imagined.

In addition to learning these, my mother also adheres to a principle, which is "Reading ten thousand books is not as good as traveling ten thousand miles and writing ten thousand reading notes." You can imagine how difficult our lives were, but we were happy to accept this kind of difficult life.

After Fu Fu and Le Le came, they studied with us, but our progress was different. At this time, Grandpa Nian was very happy to let us study together, saying that it was "reviewing the old to learn the new."

Okay, Grandpa Nian is the person my parents respect the most and one of my favorite grandpas, so let’s listen to Grandpa Nian.

Before we knew it, we were growing up slowly, and Grandpa Nian and the others were getting old. At this time, Mom was a little anxious. She was afraid of Grandpa Nian and the others leaving, so she took them to various places to play while they were still able to walk.

It was almost ten years since she left. When she came back, Grandpa Nian and the others had very satisfied expressions on their faces. Some people might think that what her mother did was right.

But I think judging from the expressions of Grandpa Nian and the others, they are happy, and Mom did the right thing.

My grandfather’s passing in 2006 made my mother sick for half a year.

Later, Mom slowly came out with our company, but then Grandpa and Grandma, and Grandpa and Grandma, all left one by one, which made Dad and Mom's spirits suddenly wilted.

After returning home, we younger ones didn’t dare to go to work far away, for fear that our parents would be gone when we weren’t paying attention.

Although we all understand that birth, aging, sickness and death are normal, the departure of our loved ones is like a wound to our hearts.

It was our parents who sent us away, saying they didn’t want us to worry about them and that they wanted to go somewhere else.

By the way, there is also the school founded by my mother. Every year, people come to visit her. Every time they bring a lot of gifts, and my mother gets angry, saying that they have not been working for long and where do they get the money to buy these things.

In fact, it’s not that mom forgot, but that mom was reluctant to let them spend money on her.

How could she not know that they had been working at Yiyi Ai since high school? Or maybe they were working part-time at a factory?

My job is not as high-end as my two brothers'. I choose to be a writer, just like my mother did before, to write about the beauty and filth in this world with pen and ink.

Maybe what I write can bring a different kind of light to people in darkness; maybe what I write can bring the touch of life to pessimistic people; maybe the darkness I write can reveal a different kind of life. I think this is probably the purpose of my mother and I wanting to become a writer.