Chapter 118 Retribution is Just That

After hanging up the phone, Zhang Pengfei called Chen Jingyang in.

Chen Jingyang pushed open the door, then abruptly stopped, staring intently at Zhang Pengfei with an extremely unnatural expression—Zhang Pengfei actually...!

He opened his mouth, then closed it again, silently walked to the bedside, bent down and pulled back the thin blanket, forcing himself to close his eyes and cover Zhang Pengfei's lower body.

Zhang Pengfei looked up at him and calmly stated his feelings: "I feel uncomfortable."

Even if I'm feeling bad, I can't help you!

Chen Jingyang took a deep breath, quickly adjusting his breathing, trying his best to clear his mind of all the jumbled thoughts, and asked him, "Didn't Teacher Tang teach you how to handle this?"

Zhang Pengfei shook his head, then suddenly asked Chen Jingyang, "Do you love me?"

The question was too sudden, and Zhang Pengfei's expression... was too indifferent, too calm, without a trace of emotion. It really was just a question, as if you were asking him, "Have you eaten?"

But when asking this question, you shouldn't have this expression. You can be angry, uneasy, aggrieved, or expectant, but you absolutely cannot have a blank expression, as if there's nothing there!

Even so, Chen Jingyang lowered his eyes and searched for the answer in his mind very seriously.

Does he love her?

He forced Zhang Pengfei to kneel, punished him by making him wear a smart ring for several months, and even brutally violated him. Is this love?

If I love him, would I torment him like that?

Chen Jingyang felt as if his heart was being gently pricked by a fine needle, a subtle pain rising within him.

But if he didn't love her, why would he go crazy for her?

In these hundreds of days and nights we've spent together, I've been happy because of him, angry because of him, and he's always on my mind.

I cried for him, laughed for him, stayed up all night for him, and even cleaned up his excrement and urine...

If this isn't love, then what is?

What kind of emotion can be called love?

Zhang Pengfei was no longer a dispensable dog to him; he loved Zhang Pengfei, but he used the wrong approach from the very beginning!

Chen Jingyang squatted down, his eyes slightly red, looked Zhang Pengfei in the eye, and asked him with an almost imperceptible tremor in his voice, "Then... can I love you?"

Zhang Pengfei's long eyelashes fluttered a few times, as if he were a little lost: "Never mind, Teacher Tang said that love is too complicated, and told me to stop thinking about these things for now."

Chen Jingyang: ......!

It felt like someone was tapping my brain with a small wooden stick!

He really wanted to reach out and grab Zhang Pengfei's ear, shout out all the grievances and helplessness in his heart, and loudly ask him: "Are you polite?!"

If I don't want you to think about these things, why do you still ask?

I've been completely open and honest with you, and you're backing out now? Aren't you walking the dog?!

Zhang Pengfei isn't very good at reading people's expressions yet, nor does he have the superpower to hear what people are thinking. He lay down without a care in the world and said, "Let's go to sleep."

Helpless, Chen Jingyang put the heart and lungs he had taken out back in, looked down at them, and asked tentatively, "Do you... want to keep doing this?"

Zhang Pengfei frowned, looking somewhat puzzled, and asked in a serious tone, "Is it not allowed?"

After saying that, he added, "It's covered up, I didn't let you see it."

"Hiss...!" Chen Jingyang couldn't help but gasp, pursing his lips and tensing up!

How is he supposed to see this?!

Even the most blatant attempt to cover something up wouldn't be this brazen!

Chen Jingyang gritted his teeth and said with difficulty, "Then I... will go sleep on the sofa."

"No!" Zhang Pengfei disagreed, patting the empty seat next to him with his other free hand, his tone carrying a domineering dependence: "Sleep here, keep me company."

This is going to kill him!

Chen Jingyang's temples throbbed a few times, and he suddenly felt an itch on his scalp. He scratched it up and down and left and right: "How about... I come back later?"

Zhang Pengfei didn't understand his intention at all and asked him very seriously, "Why?"

Chen Jingyang: ......

He opened his mouth, but couldn't find a suitable reason. He looked around aimlessly for a while, and finally could only vaguely say, "Um...you should ask Teacher Tang when you go to class on Monday!"

After saying this, he lay down straight, crossed his arms neatly over his stomach, closed his eyes, and silently recited: "I am a gentleman, I cannot take advantage of someone in distress! I am a gentleman, I cannot take advantage of someone in distress..."

When I close my eyes and can't see, I feel even more agitated. In addition, my hearing and perception seem to be more acute.

Damn it, what kind of mess is this?! I can't even keep up the act of pretending to be dead anymore!

Chen Jingyang wanted to get up and leave, but he was afraid of "affecting" Zhang Pengfei. If he "frightened" him, it would leave him with psychological trauma!

He took a deep breath, then tightly closed the eye that had been idly opening, his body stiff as a board, lying there motionless, pretending to be deaf and blind, completely unaware of everything around him!

Compared to Chen Jingyang's stiffness, Zhang Pengfei was much more cheerful.

Teacher Tang said that these feelings are completely normal and natural, and many people experience them during rehabilitation. There is no need to feel embarrassed or ashamed about them, so he did not feel embarrassed or ashamed at all.

I can't take it anymore!

Chen Jingyang's hands unconsciously twisted together slowly, his ten fingers as if being squeezed by an invisible force, his knuckles turning bluish-white from the force, and even the veins on the back of his hands bulged out, like earthworms floating on the surface of the water, quietly clinging to the thin skin.

But he endured it all.

Zhang Pengfei didn't understand anything and didn't reject him, but that doesn't mean he can take advantage of his "ignorance" to do whatever he wants in front of Zhang Pengfei!

What he wanted was never this kind of "taking advantage of someone's vulnerability" approach, but rather for Zhang Pengfei to accept him soberly and willingly!

He didn't want to force himself on Zhang Pengfei in this way when Zhang Pengfei had no concept of anything and knew nothing about the past!

So what if we just have to endure it? It's not a big deal!

Chen Jingyang cheered himself up in his heart.

Didn't he punish Zhang Pengfei in the same way that day?

As expected, karma is a cycle, and retribution is inevitable. He deserves to experience this kind of pain once, so that he will know how outrageous his actions were and why Zhang Pengfei's brain chose to forget him!

"Well.....!"

Zhang Pengfei's chest tightened suddenly, and his breathing calmed down.

This also marks the end of Chen Jingyang's ordeal.