Chapter 103 I Want to Be the Queen

Xiao Ji's body was obviously stiff for a moment, and then he relaxed completely. He buried his face in Qing Wu's shoulder and wrapped his arms tightly around her waist, like a drowning man grabbing the last piece of driftwood.

He had endured it for a long time since he guessed about this. It had been two years since his mother passed away. Xiao Ji thought he had been able to remain calm, but when he really talked about this, those emotions still surged out like a river.

Qing Wu felt the dampness gradually spreading across her shoulders, and her heart ached so much that she couldn't speak. She could only hug him tighter, her fingers gently combing through his drooping hair, as if soothing a wounded cub.

"Qingqing..." Xiao Ji's voice was muffled, with a slight nasal sound, and he hesitated to speak, "I want to say..."

Qing Wu didn't ask what he wanted to say, but simply placed a soothing kiss on his temple. The thing he had been asking for during the day was now offered to him, but Xiao Ji had no time to savor it.

After a long time, Xiao Ji was finally ready. He slowly raised his head, kept some distance from Qing Wu, and tremblingly pulled Qing Wu's hands and put them in his palms.

The boy's eyes were still red, and a strand of hair wet with tears stuck to his face, making him look particularly pitiful, but his eyes were filled with cold yet hot hatred.

"Qingqing, I hate the emperor. You know I hate the emperor."

Qingwu nodded and reached out to wipe the tears from the corners of his eyes.

How could he not hate him? He had shielded the mastermind behind his downfall, murdered his mother, and deposed his crown prince. He was deeply hurt both physically and mentally by the emperor.

But Xiao Ji knew that she hadn't understood the meaning of his words yet, so he grabbed her hand again and said in a serious tone: "What I mean is that I want revenge, I want to fight, I want to regain the position of crown prince and go one step further."

Xiao Ji said these words in front of Qing Wu without any concealment, which would have resulted in beheading if heard by others outside.

The moment Xiao Ji overheard Qing Wu's life story, he vowed to take back the throne, let his wife sit on the throne of empress, grant her supreme honor, and make her twin sisters, brothers and mother regret it.

But when Qingwu told him in person about her past with her grandmother, how could he not know what kind of life Qingwu wanted to live?

What Qingwu needs is freedom, a peaceful and harmonious life, the ability to do what he likes, and to cure diseases and save lives. But if what he wants succeeds, Qingwu will have to return to the capital and enter the palace, which is equivalent to returning to a cage and being subject to even more constraints.

The constraints on a country's crown princess or queen are much greater than those in the Xi family. Although he doesn't care and will give her as much freedom as possible, people's words are scary. If you hear them too much, you will get worried. He doesn't want to see her depressed all day long.

But the girl still didn't understand Xiao Ji's implication. She was stunned for a moment, then smiled and said gently, "If you want to fight, go ahead... When I first met Liu Lang, he was already above the clouds."

In Qingwu's eyes, when she knew Xiao Ji, Xiao Ji was already the prince. The heroic young man riding on the horse was forever imprinted in Qingwu's heart. Even though Xiao Ji was now demoted to a commoner, Qingwu never thought that Xiao Ji would live in the palace for the rest of his life.

However, before he could finish his thought, the young man in front of him lowered his head and asked solemnly, "What I mean is, do you want to continue living this peaceful life?"

Qing Wu was stunned for two seconds before he understood what Xiao Ji meant. He couldn't help but stutter, "You...you will give up the fight just because of me..."

Seeing that Xiao Ji actually showed signs of nodding, Qing Wu almost immediately frowned and rejected it for him.

"How can that be?!"

"Absolutely not!"

Xiao Ji stared blankly at the girl in front of him. Her reaction seemed to make her give up practicing medicine.

"How can you easily change your ambitions because of others? If you want something, you should fight for it. How can you think of giving it up for others?"

"But Qingqing is not just anyone else. She is my wife who has shared my hardships and is my only wife."

Qing Wu's expression almost collapsed under his sweet words, but he still said solemnly, "Let me ask you, do you really want to become the crown prince again? Become the emperor in the future?"

Her eyes were originally narrow and long, and if she was smiling or gentle, there would be nothing wrong with it. But now that she had a stern face, even Xiao Ji could sense some of her dominance, and he couldn't help but pull Qingwu's hand and shook it for mercy.

"My dear..." Xiao Ji was halfway through his words when, under that captivating gaze, he tactfully returned to the topic: "Of course I do. I've been the crown prince for over a decade, and I'm used to it. Before this, I hardly considered any other path..."

"But now..." Xiao Ji raised his eyes and looked at Qing Wu, a glimmer of light gradually appearing in his peach blossom eyes. "I've heard Qing Wu's experience, and I've spent more than a month in the palace. I've seen many things I've never seen before, and I also have many things I want to do..."

Under Qingwu's gaze, Xiao Ji sighed, "I also want to see places outside the capital, to measure the mountains and rivers of Dayu with my feet, to see the suffering of the people, and to understand where the ills of this country lie..."

If he had said the first few words, Qingwu would have thought that he really just wanted to travel around the mountains and rivers, but the words that followed had already exposed his true heart. He could not let go of the things he had insisted on for more than ten years, nor could he give up the responsibility that was in his blood.

Qing Wu paused, and just looked at Xiao Ji for a while. Seeing that Xiao Ji was a little flustered, he suddenly laughed softly and said, "What if I said that I wanted to be the Crown Princess or the Queen?"

"Qingqing, stop joking. How could you..."

Xiao Ji thought that this was just what Qingwu said deliberately to support him in seizing the throne, but when he saw Qingwu's clear eyes, his words gradually disappeared.

Those eyes were crystal clear, and there might have been a hint of joking in them, but Xiao Ji also saw something he had never seen in her before - ambition.

"Are you serious, Qingqing?" His voice trembled a little.

Qing Wu raised the corners of her lips slightly, and her fingertips gently traced his eyebrows and eyes: "Liu Lang, do you think I only want to cure diseases and save people, and travel around?"

"There were times when I was looked down upon, stepped on, and insulted."

Even with the protection of their grandmother, they inevitably experienced some bullying.

Not to mention those far away, let’s just talk about those nearby, Madam Zheng, Xi Qingtong, Xi Qingbai, Song Yunhe, every one of them, how could Qingwu not feel resentful?

She sneered, "Who wouldn't want to stand at the top, so that those who have hurt them can look up to them and regret it?"