Chapter 137 Let's keep going like this

Qin Mengmeng originally decided to change her name from Qin Long to Qin Mengmeng.

Everyone in the family, except herself, was very opposed to it and was completely unwilling.

Qin Chuan was even more devastated. He and she were twins, but he could never figure out what she was thinking.

"Takigawa, this is the name of a river, and you split it up to give it to the two of us. What on earth do you want to do? You've been using that name for so long, and you changed it to... It would be fine if you changed it to something else, but you changed it to such a rustic name? It sounds like only illiterate people of my grandparents' generation would give themselves such a name."

Qin Long just said coldly at that time: "I am not asking for your opinions, I am just informing you."

At that time, Qin Long was almost like the kind of person who was rumored to have become stupid because of studying too much. Although she would definitely not admit it, Qin Mengmeng, looking back many years later, was sure that she really had become stupid because of studying too much.

Maybe it’s just because my academic performance is good.

From childhood to adulthood, she has basically never experienced any setbacks, and she seriously regards herself as a queen, princess, or something else, someone who can dominate the world.

…Of course that was just an illusion.

In the summer after the college entrance examination, she soon discovered this after leaving the closed high school where only grades were considered.

Her idea of herself - she thought she was great - she thought she was the center of the world - all of it was completely wrong.

She is not the center of the world.

She is really just an ordinary person. In this vast world, there are many hidden dragons and crouching tigers. It is easy to find someone who is smarter, stronger, luckier, or even better than her in all aspects.

She soon realized that she could no longer remain arrogant.

From Qin Long to Qin Mengmeng, it was a crucial step for her to completely kill the arrogant person she had originally been and give birth to a humble, down-to-earth and easy-to-get-along-with new person.

But changing oneself is not that easy. It is not possible to completely transform oneself and reform oneself simply by changing one's name.

During her college years, when Qin Mengmeng was not being beaten down by society, she was still self-centered and arrogant... She couldn't even get along well with her only roommate.

She sat on the rooftop, thinking about her future.

She thought for a long time, until her legs became numb from sitting, thinking about the future and her life.

Then she looked back and realized that when she chose to change her name, she already knew what she should do. It was just that she didn't really realize it at that time, but just treated it as a ritual... thinking that changing her name meant changing herself.

But she hadn't really changed.

Real change is really difficult. It’s not like you can just say, “Oh, starting tomorrow, I’m a new me,” and then really become a new me.

Just keep doing it.

Completely abandon everything in the past.

To really change your mindset from the inside...

She had read those principles countless times in books, but had never seriously put them into practice.

Gentle, modest, honest, hardworking, mutually beneficial and win-win... all these principles are mentioned in books, but Qin Long just thinks those things are too ordinary and too common, and she is unwilling to accept them. Qin Long is a person floating in the sky.

Where is Qin Mengmeng?

She should be a down-to-earth person, but she has never been able to do so.

She has never really accomplished anything meaningful. In the process of doing things, she has never gained the trust of others with her own abilities, and she has never really... protected others.

At that time, Qin Mengmeng was a good-for-nothing and worthless person.

When she realized this, she knew the path for the future.

Just four words.

down to earth.

People floating in the sky will fall down. Only people with their feet on the ground look rustic and too ordinary to be looked up to or worshipped. But they never feel empty, and the world belongs to them.

Qin Mengmeng, who used to be a test-taker in a small town, moved to a bigger city and became an ordinary person. After being depressed for a long time, she finally understood this truth: ordinary people are just ordinary people, and ordinary people are not unable to live.

Ordinary people have their own philosophy of survival.

From now on, I will never think about Qin Long again...Qin Mengmeng is an ordinary small town girl, very ordinary, very mediocre, and she can no longer dream.

Once she accepted this fact, she felt very relieved. She patted her butt and stood up from the rooftop - then her feet went numb and she fell down.

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Many years later.

Hades.

Qin Mengmeng and Qin Long sat side by side on the steps of the hospital.

"So, what you said is really your style, waiting for me in Jiangdu Yinfu or something..." Qin Mengmeng said: "It's very stage play, very unusual, and very unrealistic. I can tell at a glance that you don't have to worry about worldly troubles at all, and you're not down to earth."

Qin Long sneered: "You make it sound like you and I are really two different people."

Qin Mengmeng stared at the moon in the sky: "We are just two people."

There is no way Qin Lang would jump into the pit in dirty clothes in the wilderness under the scorching sun to pick up the garbage that fell into it.

Qin Long is the kind of person who only knows how to hold a glass of red wine in an air-conditioned museum and chat with celebrities about the changes and origins of architectural design styles from 1980 to the present.

To be honest, Qin Mengmeng knows Qin Long too well.

And when she woke up from the hospital bed and looked at the painful faces of her parents and brother... she knew she had to be Qin Mengmeng.

Dreaming did her no good.

"If you really have completely forgotten me... then why did you enter the live broadcast room?" Qin Long said with a smile: "After I woke up in the Jiangdu Netherworld, I knew that you would definitely come here."

Qin Mengmeng shrugged: "I did come, but I arranged everything and I didn't make my family sad."

Qin Long just remained silent.

"You've never cared about your family, right?" Qin Mengmeng said, "You've never cared about your friends either... You don't have any friends at all."

At that time, she was really very arrogant.

"You have nothing."

She is proud, arrogant and looks down on everything.

However, she really had nothing at that time. Qin Mengmeng was sometimes very curious about why she could believe that the world should operate according to her own ideas when she had never earned a penny.

However, now she has reconciled with herself.

Teenagers...it's normal. She was really less than 20 years old at that time.

Qin Long turned his head and looked at her: "But what about you now? You now... already have everything, right?"

The twenty-year-old herself, standing at the other end of time, asked herself this question.

Qin Mengmeng wanted to smoke, but she actually had no addiction to smoking. She just felt a little disappointed.

"Yes," she said. "I work hard, keep my promises, protect everyone's interests, meet their wishes, and make them believe that I am a reliable person, so many people are willing to gather around me... I have built something, probably more than you have."

Qin Long lowered his eyes silently.

Qin Mengmeng could see that she was a very powerful existence in the underworld. Qin Mengmeng never doubted her ability to kill people...but in the end, there was only desolation and nothing left.

Qin Long had nothing either.

Qin Long sighed: "I have you."

"I can't replace you," she said, "because I don't want to do anything you do. I want to have friends, but I don't want to do everything they want me to do."

She always does what she wants to do.

“I don’t want to live in reality at all.”

That cold and harsh, yet seemingly warm reality.

Qin Long said: "I have no hostility towards you. In this world, few people would hate a worker who works hard and is willing to help others. What's more, I am you."

"I just want to ask you." Qin Long asked her: "Do you like everything you have now?"

Qin Mengmeng said: "I built all this with my own hands?"

"I like."

"Even if it's just that, in such a strange world, it's just like in reality, repairing, building houses... taking orders, live streaming... just working like an ordinary person?"

Qin Long said: "You know what? I can make you the emperor in the underworld."

"I believe you have the ability, but what then?" Qin Mengmeng asked: "So what if you are the emperor, are you happy?"

"There's really nothing wrong with being an ordinary person." Qin Mengmeng said, "Labor and work are not that scary."

"Just do the work you love, be an honest and reliable person until the end of your life, be serious and diligent, and everything will be perfect."

Although this is not an easy thing to do.

But thinking of Er San who surrendered voluntarily... and all the things she had experienced during the live broadcast for so long... Qin Mengmeng thought that she was probably doing a good job.

In this strange world, she has completely established her foothold.