20. Fuck my sharp tongue but soft heart

Before going to bed, Wenhua received a delivery reminder from the Taobao store. A week ago, her nephew called to ask for toys. Wenhua was in her third year of high school when Xixi was born, and she worked as a free babysitter throughout the winter and summer vacations in college. It's strange to say, Wenhua is not close to her family, but this child is unexpectedly close to her. Every time he goes back home during the holidays, he ignores everyone and just sticks to her.

She doesn’t understand what children like nowadays. Every time Xixi wants a toy, she lets him search on Taobao and sends him the payment link.

I asked Wen He on WeChat if she had received the goods and whether there were any quality issues. It was time to take delivery.

Wen He replied in a voice message, "What did you buy? It smells like cheap plastic and it hurts my son's hand. Dad said it was just street goods worth five dollars at most."

Wenhua sat on the bed, turned on the aromatherapy machine and took a deep breath, 12345678910..., calmed down, and replied, then I got it.

I put down my phone and wanted to slap myself. It's true that a dog can't eat shit. Last year, it was the same. Wen He posted on her Moments during her pregnancy that she wanted to eat cherries. She eagerly bought three pounds of cherries from the cold chain and sent them home. Wen He was still touched for a few minutes when she knew about it. After all, it was her sister who felt sorry for her. After a few days, she asked her if the cherries tasted good. If so, Wen He said when she bought more cherries, "Don't buy them anymore. There are so many rotten cherries on the coffee table that no one eats them. In the end, they were all thrown away."

There are countless things like this. Wen He's self-introduction probably says "sharp tongue but soft heart", and she often defends herself in this way.

Fuck my sharp tongue but soft heart. I stab others with my sharp tongue, but I am the one with a soft heart.

There is a saying in this world that goes "can't take a joke." People who can't take a joke are the most boring, stingy, sensitive, and difficult to mess with.

It took Wenhua a long time to understand this truth: if someone makes you unhappy, you don't have to endure it. You have to fight back the first time, otherwise you will have to endure it for the rest of your life. If you get angry once, you will become someone who can't be joked with by others for the rest of your life.

This principle was understood too late and no longer worked for Wen He.

Wen Hua couldn't think about it anymore. She shook her head and tried to get rid of the thoughts in her head. There was a box in her heart, filled with too many dark thoughts. Occasionally, when she opened it, she would start to complain and hate endlessly. How could she be such a bad person? From time to time, she would judge her family's words and deeds. No, no, no, she was so bad that she deserved to be treated like that.

The more she thought about it, the more confused she became. She opened Weibo to read jokes. The hot search headlines were about a first-line celebrity couple getting divorced, and netizens were shouting that they would never believe in love again.

Wen Hua smiled, took a screenshot and sent it to Xiao Ma, [Look, look, I don’t believe in love again. It’s not easy for netizens either. Their hearts are tied to the marriage of celebrities. They believe it today and not tomorrow].

[Xiao Ma, Xiao Ma, Zhu Zhiyang came to see me. Do you remember that senior year when you got drunk and hugged me in the bathroom and cried like an idiot? I never told you that before going to the bathroom that day, Zhu Zhiyang stopped me and asked me if I had deleted the text messages. He had sent me many text messages the night before saying he loved me. I told him I had deleted them, and he said with red eyes that it was better to delete them, because there was no going back anyway.]

[Then I cried like an idiot in your arms, Xiao Ma. I was really sad at that time, and I was sad for a long time afterwards. I was sad when I saw him doing well in the circle of friends, and I was even sadder when I saw him not doing well].

Looking at him yesterday, I felt like I was in another world. Xiao Ma, tell me, how could I no longer love the person I loved so much? The boy who once shone brightly in my heart has dimmed. Time is really cruel, isn't it? Even the strongest feelings will fade, so why bother starting?

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[Yes Wen Zi, time will dilute everything, love and hate, longing and sadness will all heal].

[Comrade Lao Ma, under normal circumstances, you would say to me, read less painful literature, I am trying to comfort my child].

She felt a little sleepy when it was dawn, but she probably wouldn't be able to wake up if she fell asleep, so she just packed up and waited for dawn.

She arrived at the company before eight o'clock and sat in the fast food restaurant downstairs to eat breakfast. Lin Zhengze sent a WeChat message asking her if she had gotten up, and she sent a photo of breakfast.

Lin Zhengze said he had to go back home for something, so he asked her to take care of the cat. It wasn't his cat, but his friend's, who had gone abroad and was fostering it with him. Wen Hua mentioned that she had always wanted to have a cat, so Lin Zhengze asked her if she wanted to try it.