81. Goodbye, childish child

Real life does not develop according to the plot of dramatic conflict, and the grudges will not be resolved after a quarrel.

Wen He firmly believed that she had only said a few angry words. She believed that every pair of sisters would quarrel, not to mention that her own life was a mess.

Wen's father and mother felt that they definitely loved Wen Hua, but they were just not good at expressing it. They felt that their daughter's resentment was understandable and bearable.

Love can be kept in the heart. They are not the only couple who leave their children to the elderly for work. They can find several examples in this community. Those children are all doing well, have become parents, have smooth careers, and have harmonious families.

Wenhua will be getting married soon. She will have someone to rely on for the rest of her life and everything will be fine. Maybe when Wenhua becomes a parent, she will be able to understand herself a little better.

Lin Zhengze saw this, closed the bedroom door and came out, wanting to say something.

Lin Zhengze told them what Wen Hua had experienced over the years, in return for a "Mom, why didn't you tell them?"

"She can't say it. If she wants to tell the truth, she has to start telling it from preschool, saying loudly that she hopes to be with her parents, or since she will only be back for a month, she might as well not come back. If she wants to tell the truth, she has to tell the gifts and wishes she wants on her birthday. If she wants to tell the truth, she has to pick up the phone when someone is sick and sad," Lin Zhengze tried his best to control his emotions.

"There was a child who didn't find out until she was twelve years old that the person she had always called "Uncle" was her biological father. However, the child accepted this very quickly. She said it would be better if "Uncle" became her father, because since she could remember, "Uncle" had been like a father to her, better than her classmates' fathers. Chinese parents are more reserved and don't express their love verbally. But in addition to verbal expression, they also have to take action. It's not fair that you don't say it and don't do it, but you ask Wen Hua to say and do it at the same time."

"The truth is, as parents, you have gotten used to your youngest daughter growing up away from you. Every time you come back, she grows a year older, and when she grows up, she leaves home again very quickly. It has become your subconscious mindset not to worry about Wenhua. This is not something that can be changed overnight. Start by acknowledging this sense of distance."

The living room was unbearably quiet, with only Wen's mother sobbing. Lin Zhengze actually wanted to say, "Now that you see Wen Hua getting married and starting a family, do you feel that your parental responsibilities have been lifted after completing this step?" But he couldn't say it. It was too harsh.

The bedroom door was quietly closed, and Wenhua lay back down, biting the quilt and crying until she became dehydrated.

She woke up at five in the morning and found Lin Zhengze half asleep leaning against the headboard, his hand still holding hers. Wen Hua quietly got up, helped him lie down, closed the door and went out.

After a quick wash, she went out and saw Wen's father sitting in the corridor smoking. The ashtray next to him was full. Wen's father looked back at her with red eyes.

"What can I do for you?" Wen's father only said this one sentence, and his hoarse voice frightened her.

Wen Hua bit her lip and pressed the elevator button without saying anything. When the door closed, she still said, "Parents and children always quarrel. Let me regard it as a reversal of my teenage years when I am 30 years old."

What can you do for me?

You should accompany me to grow up, teach me what is right and wrong, you should hug me when I am sensible, educate me when I am naughty, you should attend my parent-teacher meetings, and you should know the size of my shoes.

Or just ignore me and let us be a pair of strangers, father and daughter.

But you didn't do it. Your care and love are like an intangible shadow. No matter how hard I try, I can't transform them into a concrete shape. You just tug at me from a distance, making me incapable of love.

Just a few words from me made your eyes red, but you don’t know what else I want to do.

I want to return Wen He's irresponsible verbal violence double, I want to expose your irresponsible parenting behavior to the sun, I want to live my life like the worst kind of zombie, and everyone who sees me will sigh and say how heartbroken my parents would be if they saw me like this.

Most importantly, you don’t know how good a person you have lost.

Wenhua walked along the path all the way to the gate of No. 1 Middle School, bought breakfast and took it home.

Lin Zhengze was waiting for her at the gate, and she walked into his arms with a smile.

It turned out that she was the only one who enjoyed the breakfast bought. Wen's mother wiped her tears and said, "Go ahead and complain if you want to. As long as you live a good life, that's enough."

Wen He had already sent a WeChat message to Wen Hua in the early morning, saying, "If my words hurt you, I apologize, but you know, I'm just not good at talking. I'm not mean, but you don't say it. Who would have known that you were so sad? You're the same. Family members should keep in touch to maintain their affection."

The atmosphere at home was very awkward. Wen Hua felt sorry for her parents as they cautiously observed each other's expressions in front of her. No one had helped Wen He take care of the children these two days. She was so tired of taking care of the two children by herself that she didn't even have the energy to scold anyone, let alone take care of her family's emotions.

Wen Hua knew that all this was caused by her. She knew very well that they both needed some space to breathe at this time, but she had to control the degree.

If she bought a ticket to go back now, it would only increase her parents' psychological pressure and make them feel that they left in anger. So no matter how difficult it was, she had to stay for a few more days, try to be the one who took the initiative to chat with everyone, take Lin Zhengze out to play when she had nothing to do, and leave them some space.

She took Lin Zhengze back to her high school years, told him the story of her and Xiao Ma bit by bit, and then took him to meet Xiao Ma.

She told Xiao Ma that she was going to get married, her husband was handsome, rich, gentle and generous, and he loved her, a weird person, so much, and they would live happily in the future.

After leaving the cemetery, Wen Hua took Lin Zhengze to the back mountain park where she and Xiao Ma used to skip classes.

"Honey, I want to apologize to you," she said.

"Um?"

"That night I was thinking, why not I not get married, never have a romantic relationship, or work hard, and live alone in a daze. Why should irresponsible people feel at ease seeing me living a happy life? I have thought about this," Wen Hua looked straight into his eyes and confessed her childish revenge.

"What now?", he asked.

"Now I know how stupid I am. I want to punish irresponsible people, but I am the most irresponsible person. Not only do I want to abandon myself, I also want to abandon you." Wen Hua had thought about these words many times in her heart, and now she felt scared just to say them out loud.

"I'm sorry, why would I have such thoughts? You are so nice, how could I want to hurt you? I love you so much."

Lin Zhengze held her in his arms and said, "Don't cry. You have the right to vent your emotions. You can also have negative emotions. It doesn't matter. I'm here. How could I let you go?"

Wen Hua cried silently in his arms. After this time, she would stop crying. From now on, she would not cry for not getting what she wanted, nor would she cry for stupid revenge. She wanted to live a happy life.

They booked their return tickets. Mother Lin had called her many times already, waiting for her to choose the wedding menu together, and Huhu was still waiting to show her the flower girl's dress.

On the eve of her departure, Wen Hua sat down and calmly chatted with her family, "If I had taken the initiative to fight for family warmth earlier, my life would be different. Unfortunately, life is a one-way street. I know you love me in your hearts, and maybe your love will be more explicit in the future, but it still won't be enough. I am a greedy person, and I have found someone who can fill my heart."

Wen Hua left. She knew that her relationship with her family still had a long way to go. She didn't know how long this process would take or what the ending would be, but fortunately, she was no longer alone.