Chapter 659: Extra Chapter: Xu (3)

When Qiao Xi woke up, she was completely dazed.

She was indeed drunk last night, but she hadn't forgotten what she had done. Images flashed through her mind as she sat on the bed, holding her head.

What should I do now...

How should we deal with it? Drinking alcohol can lead to mistakes and cause serious harm.

But no matter how hard she tried to hide, she would have a chance to run into him as long as she went out. Qiao Xi didn't want to run into Xu yet. It was obvious that they would never see each other before, but since they became friends, they have been seeing each other every day.

Anyway…

Just follow your previous life today and don’t go out.

Qiao Xi calmed herself down and asked the aunt hired by her family to prepare lunch for her. She slept a little long today and didn't get up until almost eleven o'clock in the morning, so it wouldn't be long before she could have lunch.

Just eat it together for breakfast and lunch.

Qiao Xi crawled back into bed, wanting to take another nap. However, as soon as she closed her eyes, her mind was filled with the ambiguous scenes from last night.

No, I can't sleep at all.

She stared at the ceiling in a daze.

After tossing and turning for a long time without feeling sleepy, Qiao Xi could only get out of bed silently, wash up, sit on a chair and pick up the book she had not finished reading.

The facts prove it.

This distraction is effective.

Before she knew it, her auntie arrived and Qiao Xi had her lunch. After her auntie packed up and left, Qiao Xi immersed herself in her own happy time, reading with relish.

As for Xu on the other side.

He had just woken up, having slept a bit longer today because he was tired from the attack yesterday. After taking his usual medication, he began his examination.

The doctor in charge of him had a serious expression, and his face looked even worse than usual.

Even if you don't say it.

Xu also knew what he wanted to express. He simply wanted to say that his physical condition was getting worse and worse, and they had no choice but to delay the disease.

Xu himself is quite open-minded.

After all, he has been dragging around with this body for more than ten years, so he knows what's going on.

After the doctor left, Xu fell on the bed. He squinted his eyes, put one hand on his forehead, and looked at the white ceiling in a daze.

He lay there for a long time.

Then he stood up, tidied himself up a bit, and went to the cafeteria.

More and more patients' families come here to eat.

The cafeteria, once deserted, was bustling with activity. However, Xu couldn't find the familiar figure. Qiao Xi wasn't there. He looked away, feeling a sense of emptiness for no apparent reason.

If this happened in the past.

That was perfectly normal, because Qiao Xi basically never showed up in the cafeteria and didn't eat here.

The girl was either asleep or not.

Or after waking up and completing the examination, they will be discharged from the hospital immediately and naturally will not stay here.

It's just a return to normal.

This should be something Xu was used to, after all, he had never run into Qiao Xi here before. However, after what happened last night, he couldn't help but care about Qiao Xi.

Xu ate his lunch absentmindedly.

He had no appetite and couldn't even eat much.

His condition worsened and his organs were in the middle to late stages of failure. After all, he couldn't even swallow food and should have rested in bed.

But he couldn't do it.

After all, he still wanted to see Qiao Xi, and he didn't want to be seen by girls in such a weak state.

Anyway, it won't dissolve completely so quickly. With his physical condition, he can still survive for a year or two.

only.

By that time, he probably won't be able to move freely like he does now.

"Bang—"

Suddenly, a dull sound came from the door near the cafeteria. Everyone who was eating in the cafeteria was stunned and subconsciously looked towards the source of the sound.

I saw a middle-aged man wearing a hospital gown over there.

At this moment, he was leaning against the entrance of the cafeteria, his face was abnormally red, his eyes were distracted but he was unconsciously looking at the people eating in the cafeteria.

"Why did he run out again? Oh my god, hurry up and help him back!"

Several people in plain clothes came running hurriedly from behind.

Judging from their anxious expressions, they must be the patient's family members. There were both men and women. Two men hurried over to support the uncle who was clinging to the cafeteria door, holding his arm and leading him outside.

Everyone just thought it was a farce.

He didn't pay much attention to the person behaving abnormally and continued to eat his lunch with his head down.

Xu frowned.

I feel an indescribable weird feeling. Those people must have come to this hospital with a fever. Logically, the fever should have gone down after a few days, but looking at the appearance of that person just now.

There is no sign of this coming down at all.

Could it be some infectious disease that has not been discovered in time and is spreading?

The thought had just surfaced when Xu dismissed it. If that were the case, it would have been on the news by now, not his guess.

Qiao Xi is not here.

Xu was not the type to sit and wait for death; he always preferred to take the initiative. Therefore, he took the initiative to visit Qiao Xi's ward.

The girl is still reading.

When she heard the knock on the door, she probably thought it was the nurse making her rounds. The little girl holding the book said without even looking up, "Come in."

Xu walked in.

The first thing the boy saw was Qiao Xi sitting upright in a chair reading a book intently. He walked straight behind her and glanced at the book in her hand.

"What are you looking at?"

The young man's clear and gentle voice sounded in her ears, and Qiao Xi was immediately frightened. She reacted quickly and subconsciously closed the book in her hand.

When I turned around, I saw the young man's handsome face close to me.

Xu's body is always clean.

There was a faint smell of medicine and a vague sense of nothingness that was as elusive as the wind. Although he was very close to her, she always felt that this slender boy would disappear in the next second.

"I didn't see anything..."

Qiao Xi hurriedly picked up the closed book and wanted to put it back into the drawer.

only.

The boy immediately noticed the book with a colorful cover in her hand.

"Hmm? Reading a romance novel?"

You can tell at a glance that the cover shows a man and a woman sitting together and posing, with a string of special effects words on it, which is very fancy.

"……Um."

Qiao Xi blushed and nodded slightly. The shame of having her little secret discovered almost made her feel so embarrassed that she wanted to crawl into the ground and die on the spot.

The boy I like discovered that I was reading a romance novel.

This is too...

Too socially dead.

Anyway, Qiao Xi felt that she couldn't stay on this earth for even a second. She was so embarrassed that she wanted to escape quickly on a rocket.

"Do you like that kind?"

The boy, however, looked at her with his eyes curved, a faint glint in his cheeks that seemed to be half a smile. His clear, piercing eyes were like a slightly cool autumn day, not quite gentle, but not cold either. His smile was faint, yet hard to ignore.

"What type?"

Qiao Xi concealed her feelings and put away her book.

She didn't know whether Xu had seen it or not, but when Xu just came in, she happened to see the page where the male and female protagonists were interacting.

I'm enjoying shipping this CP.

Being interrupted by Xu who suddenly appeared, she now recalled that she couldn't help but raise the corners of her mouth, and felt annoyed.

Asking means regret.

The person involved really regrets it!

Especially since she treated her like that yesterday, she already cared a lot about Xu, and the boy's attitude was the same as usual, calm and indifferent, making it completely impossible to understand what he was thinking.

Xu rubbed his chin.

Looking at the girl in front of him with a red face and wandering eyes, not daring to look her in the eye, he also recalled the fragment of text from the novel he saw when he approached Qiao Xi just now.

"That is, he pushed her against the table and kissed her viciously on the lips?"

Xu recounted the strange plot with a smile: "And then..."

"Ahhh, stop it!"

She was so embarrassed that she couldn't listen any longer. Qiao Xi didn't care about her blushing face and hurried over to cover his mouth in panic.

The boy blinked and looked at her.

He looked quite innocent, but Qiao Xi covered his mouth, so he couldn't say anything even if he wanted to. So...

While the girl was still in shock.

At this moment, Qiao Xi suddenly realized that something wet and soft touched the soft flesh of her palm as she covered the boy's hand.

Qiao Xi felt like she was electrocuted.

“!”

She was startled and quickly pulled her hand back, looking at him warily. It would have been better if she hadn't looked at him, but when she looked over, she happened to see the boy unconsciously licking the corner of his dry lips.

“…”

Qiao Xi, who inexplicably cared about him, looked away, but the soft feeling in her palm could not be dispelled.

"W-What are you doing here today?"

She could only lower her head slightly, not looking at the boy in front of her, feeling her heart pounding in her chest, and feeling some anticipation for no reason.

"I didn't see you in the cafeteria, so I came to look for you. I missed you a little."

Xu was sitting casually beside her bed as usual, and said this in a nonchalant tone as if he was chatting about daily life.

Qiao Xi's face turned red.

I stole a glance at him secretly, but as soon as I looked over, I was caught off guard and met the eyes of the smiling boy.

There's no escaping this time.

It would seem too deliberate to deliberately avert her gaze, so Qiao Xi could only bite the bullet and look at him, and then try her best to maintain her composure.

"Oh, I missed you a lot."

When the doll-like delicate girl said this with a slightly blushing face, Xu's eyes also showed a strange and deep emotion.

But soon.

When facing such a Qiao Xi, he still restrained himself and suppressed his emotions completely.

"So good."

The young man smiled and rubbed her head, as if he was satisfied with Qiao Xi's reaction.

However.

The girl couldn't suppress her curiosity and couldn't help but cast her gaze towards him. She asked hesitantly, "Don't you have anything else to say?"

"Hmm? What else do you want to say?"

Xu looked at her, a faint smile still in his eyes, but his deeper meaning was hard to discern.

seem.

He really had nothing to say.

Looking at the gentle young man in front of her, Qiao Xi's nervousness instantly disappeared. The little girl lowered her head in disappointment. It seemed that Xu didn't want to talk about what happened last night at all.

Why?

Did she make him angry?

Because she was a little drunk and kissed him forcibly, Xu got angry.

But……

Then why did he kiss her back and gave her a goodnight kiss as he left her room.

I thought the relationship would be different.

However……

Looking at it this way now, isn't it back to square one? She's the only one who's shyly struggling with these things.

Qiao Xi didn't want this to happen.

She didn't like things being muddled and she wanted a definite answer. Her body was different from that of a normal person and she spent most of her time sleeping.

This continues.

Missing out is only a matter of time.

In her limited life and time, she wanted to leave a mark at her best age, so that when her future self recalled the past, she would have no regrets or regrets, at least she had tried her best.

She likes to boast.

Therefore, I want to be with this boy who is as illusory as a mirage and live on with strength.

"Xiao Xu, I like you."

The girl's soft and sweet voice was light and floating, like the leisurely floating clouds outside the window chasing the beauty of the blue sky. In this quiet ward, her soft and sticky voice full of tension and anxiety, with a slight tremor, reached Xu's ears.

Maybe I have made up my mind.

Even if you feel scared because you are afraid of being rejected, and nervous because you have to suppress your shyness to express your feelings.

But she still said it, her tone firm.

There is anxiety, tension, and anticipation, but no regrets.

This also made Xu's pupils shrink.

The blood in my heart seemed to freeze at this moment, suddenly stopping. The time flowing between them seemed to be suspended at this moment, and silence spread throughout the hospital room.

Something began to brew between the two of them.

It is a faint, immature and ambiguous heart-beating feeling.

I can't bring myself to say no.

Xu couldn't find any reason to refuse, but his mind knew that he should reject Qiao Xi and make a joke as usual, casually bringing up the topic.

But.

He himself is very clear about it.

After what happened last night, he could no longer ignore his own feelings and Qiao Xi.

Just like a stream flowing into a narrow channel to reach the sea.

The burning candle flame and the dripping candle wax burned up in the air, but illuminated the entire dark room.

Just like seeing a rainbow after a storm.

At the end of the night, you can see the dawn of dawn. At the end of every dark period, there is a hymn written by light. The pain and sorrow endured will eventually turn into the dawn of hope for the future.

Qiao Xi will gradually get better and be healthy.

But he won't.

He is the stream that pours into the soft soil, he is the candle wick that no longer exists after it is burned out, he is the first broken flower in the storm that is knocked down into the dust by the strong downpour.

Before the dawn.

Just exhaust yourself in the dark world and be unable to wait until the moment you embrace the dawn.

He longed.

He wanted to stand under the same sky with Qiao Xi.

But his life wouldn't allow it, his health wouldn't allow it, and the rare disease he was born with wouldn't allow it.

Huhu from the beginning.

He was deprived of the hope of living and could only live in darkness, relying on the cold light of the moon to deceive himself and pretend that it was his sun.

That's just the kind of person he is.

It can only exist in the darkness and disappear when it encounters light.

Therefore, he was destined to not be able to accompany Qiao Xi out, to accompany the girl who was full of hope for the future, to greet her own dawn. Xu would be burned, and the moment Qiao Xi embraced the dawn would also be the moment he disappeared from this world.

They are like this...

How to be together?

How can we be together?

The greatest despair is to give someone hope and beauty, and then make a promise and then completely betray him. He can't bear it, nor can he bear Qiao Xi's pure and sincere feelings.

"I see."

Therefore, he could only squeeze out these words with difficulty from his lips and teeth. This was a reply without a reply, and a rejection without an explicit statement.

Such a clever little girl.

How could I not see his euphemism?

Sure enough, the girl understood his hidden meaning, and the girl who was nervous and shy just now quickly became gloomy.

"I see..."

Qiao Xi opened her lips and stammered, as if she wanted to say something, but in the end she couldn't say it.

Why would you refuse?

I believe she could guess something. Zero has been excluded by others intentionally or unintentionally because of his illness, and his illness is incurable.

There is no way to go under the sun.

During the day, he couldn't even go out and walk like other normal people.

And Qiao Xi.

From his actions yesterday, one could also feel the deep feelings that Xu had hidden for her.

She probably knew Xu's concerns.

But she didn't care. She didn't care how much time the boy had left, or how much he hated her or how much he valued his life.

Because for Qiao Xi.

He was someone she cherished.

An idea was gradually taking shape. Qiao Xi understood that this might be an act of anger, but even so, she still wanted to confirm it.

As long as Xu showed even a little bit of care for her.

She won't let go.

After all, she is a persistent and stubborn person, and she doesn't want to miss the person she likes in vain.

The young man was still sitting beside Qiao Xi's bed with his eyes slightly lowered.

Calm thoughts surged in his eyes, and no one knew what he was thinking at this moment. Qiao Xi had already arrived in front of him.

Suddenly, a breath came from in front of me.

Xu also withdrew his thoughts from his dazed state, raised his head slightly and looked at the serious-looking girl in front of him.

"What's wrong? You're suddenly so strict... Ugh!"

He pretended to be relaxed, and before he could finish his half-joking words, his thin shoulders were pushed by Qiao Xi in front of him. The girl leaned forward, pushed him down, and kissed him on the lips.

soft.

It was warm, just like the unexpected kiss last night, so sudden and so passionate.

only.

The difference was Qiao Xi now. Last night, she was drunk, her vision blurry. But now, as if she was still remembering his kiss from yesterday, she clung to him, unwilling to let him go.

well……

How could this person always make him lose his mind so easily?

What a troublesome girl.

His first reaction to being treated like this was to feel helpless, to indulge and indulge Qiao Xi. Xu thought, he must be crazy too. He was clearly the one who wanted to completely reject and sever this relationship.

But I can't let go.

He was also unable to give up anything related to Qiao Xi. From beginning to end, he was the biggest loser and the most cowardly coward.

He had to force the girl he loved.

In this way, she put aside her dignity as a shameless little girl and forced him to face up to the fact that he had already fallen in love with her.

Lying on Xu's body.

Qiao Xi was trying hard to find the feeling to kiss him, but after several unsuccessful attempts and failing to find the right method, she seemed a little discouraged.

Just when she was about to give up.

The boy's arm suddenly went around her waist, and the slender pale hand that came from behind gently pressed down Qiao Xi's head, gently and domineeringly pushing the girl who was about to leave back irresistibly.

Turn passivity into initiative.

Xu took the lead in the kiss.

He was obviously not experienced in this kind of thing, but when facing Qiao Xi, he could always easily find the girl's weaknesses.

Just like countless times before.

The two of them worked together in perfect harmony.

This gave him the same illusion that had happened many times before. Perhaps it was because the little girl disturbed his mind too much.

The lingering and long kiss ended.

Qiao Xi's mind was in a mess, and she was still lying on him, breathing slightly, as if she was trying to calm the throbbing brought by this deep kiss.

"...Xiao Xu."

From between the girl's soft lips, she whispered his name uncertainly.

"What's wrong?"

The boy's somewhat hoarse voice sounded above her head, and the boy's beautiful hand was stroking her hair, gently and lovingly, as if protecting a treasure.

He can't hide.

Whether it is this deep love, the desire for Qiao Xi, or the inferiority complex about his own illness.

After this kiss.

Everything collapsed. Qiao Xi saw his original self, and now he was truly moved by Qiao Xi.

The girl seemed uneasy.

At this moment, she clutched the clothes in front of his chest and whispered in a trembling voice.

"Don't give up on yourself so easily, okay?"

“…”

Xu was silent for a long time, but he still didn't want Qiao Xi to worry about him, so he finally responded softly.

"good."

This was a promise he could not fulfill, and he was destined to disappoint Qiao Xi by lying to her.

His life is counting down every day.

How can I say that?

Qiao Xi probably understood this, but she was still deceiving herself, thinking that he would recover one day and be discharged from the hospital with her.

But this is destined to be a dream.

He stroked Qiao Xi's hair without saying a word. At this moment, the girl felt a familiar strong feeling of dizziness.

She was conscious when the illness occurred.

That's how it feels.

"It's over. I...it seems like my waking cycle has arrived. I'm so sleepy. I'm about to fall asleep again."

Qiao Xi suppressed the dizziness and shivered.

She doesn't want to sleep.

She really couldn't sleep.

How long would she sleep? Three months? Five months? Or even longer?

With each attack, her sleep time increases. She sleeps longer and longer. Will there be a day when she will never wake up again?

Qiao Xi didn't know.

She was afraid that she wouldn't be able to see Xu after she woke up, and she was afraid that after finally expressing her feelings, she would have to endure separation.

"But I don't want to sleep, I don't want to miss you..."

The girl's slender fingertips weakly clenched the clothes on his chest. Xu also hugged her and slowly sat up, stroking the girl's back as if to comfort her.

A gentle and deep voice coaxed her gently.

"It's okay, I'm always here. You can see me anytime when you wake up."

Such a gentle gesture from him.

This undoubtedly exacerbated Qiao Xi's dizziness and drowsiness. Tears welled up in the girl's clear eyes, and her gaze gradually dimmed uncontrollably, losing its former lively brilliance.

Until she closed her eyes completely.

Xu was still holding her, but the boy's eyes fell on the girl's delicate cheeks, which were still covered with tears. He was silent, and quietly raised his hand, using his cold fingertips to wipe away the tears from the corners of the girl's eyes.

Lower your head slightly.

Just like he did before, this time, he left a kiss on Qiao Xi's forehead.

"Goodnight, Sleeping Beauty."

The equipment was reinstalled on Qiao Xi's body, and spare ones were piled next to it for replacement at any time to maintain the nutrition her body needed.

She just lay quietly on the white, soft bed.

Pure and beautiful.

Like angels descending to earth, they are intoxicated in a wonderful dream. If staying together means being in love, then they are cruel lovers to each other.

They cannot fly into the clear blue sky and be free.

There is no way to escape from this small cage.

Xu left her room, closed her door and locked it.

Even if it was just a brief moment, or he was selfish, he had already changed. He didn't want anyone who sneaked into Qiao Xi's room to see the sleeping Qiao Xi, who only belonged to him.

They are not passionate lovers.

But they yearn for eternal companionship beyond life and death.