Li Wan Heng Jin

A rosy glow gradually illuminated the distant sky, dispelling the darkness. The clatter of weapons and horses' hooves faded, leaving only the whirring and howling mountain wind, carrying with it the pungent, bloody smell that made one nauseous and nauseous.

The young boy held two shriveled lotus buds tightly, looked at the mountain peaks breaking through the clouds, and ran on the rugged path up the mountain.

The grown-up boy is contained in the small body. He still has that icy face, showing no emotion, and his eyes are filled with the emptiness and numbness of a known ending.

Halfway through the run, there were several shallow bloodstains on his exposed delicate skin. His messy hair was soaked with sweat and stuck to his forehead and face. His fair face and white robe with auspicious cloud and gold patterns were all stained, and he looked extremely miserable.

He was so tired that he was out of breath, but he never stopped.

Yuanli wanted to turn around and ask him why he didn't use magic or reveal his true form to fly to the top of the mountain. Just as this thought came to her mind, she remembered that if he could, he would not use this most clumsy and laborious method.

She felt inexplicably upset, and even felt a little sorry for what he had gone through.

When Xiao Hengjin fell, she subconsciously knew that this was a memory scroll, but she still subconsciously stretched out her hand to catch him, but she forced it back in time halfway.

But it also caught Heng Jin's eyes.

He turned his head and looked at her silently, his eyebrows moving slightly, and a hint of surprise and joy appeared in his empty and numb eyes.

Before his eyes, little Heng Jin, with no one to rely on, had fallen flat on his face. He didn't cry, but got up. His palms were covered in scrapes and wounds from gravel, but he didn't bother to clean them and continued running.

Fortunately, the heavenly soldiers and generals who arrived discovered him.

The leading general flew down from the clouds to his side and asked anxiously, "Xiao Jin? What's wrong with you..." Noticing something strange about him, the general quickly changed his tone and said with concern, "Don't run away, don't run away. Uncle will take you back to the heavens and wait, okay? They'll be fine."

"I smell it, I know I can't wait any longer, please take me up the mountain quickly, uncle."

As Xiao Hengjin said this, her voice was filled with tears, tears rolling down her cheeks. Fear, despair, and sadness filled her eyes...

At this moment, he completely recovered to his youthful state.

The general said nothing more. He looked at the clouds that were already starting to turn red, and resolutely chose to carry him and fly quickly towards the top of the mountain.

He tried his best to control his sobs, and the tears he had been holding back filled his eyes and overflowed, overflowed, and filled again, over and over again.

But as they got closer to the clouds covering the mountain top, the two black shadows falling from the clouds became darker in color, and they could see clearly that the blood-stained phoenix feathers were falling from the clouds like a drizzle, and in mid-air, they ignited into invisible and intangible ashes.

The general's flying speed was already at its limit. The two people, looking up at the clouds, secretly prayed that the two black shadows were not Xiao Hengjin's parents.

But the black shadow still fell before their eyes.

Everyone present saw clearly that it was the true form of little Heng Jin's parents. A bloody phoenix, a long, god-killing stone spike piercing its chest, its entire body engulfed in flames.

The miracle of the phoenix rising from the ashes will never be repeated.

because.

The flames were devouring their bodies.

After calling out for her parents with all her strength, little Hengjin fainted.

The scene before his eyes instantly returned to darkness again. Little Heng Jin was lying alone on the ground, and was once again awakened by his own childish voice calling for his parents in the darkness.

When little Heng Jin opened her eyes, her gaze returned to the numbness and emptiness that belonged to the grown-up Heng Jin.

He wiped the tears from his face, stood up from the ground, listened to the noise rising again and gradually became clearer, swung out his magic sword, gathered strength and slashed out a sword energy towards the darkness.

All the sounds disappeared.

He also recovered his grown-up body and continued to wander in the darkness searching.

Heng Jin, who was standing beside Yuan Li, said, "This is Xie Yuan recreating the fear and despair deep within me. It's like a nightmare that's been replaying itself in my mind for years. Even though I've become numb to dreaming, the moment I wake up from the nightmare, my heart is still immersed in the sadness and fear left behind for a long time."

When talking about the nightmare that had been replaying in her mind for many years, Yuanli remembered her own nightmare that had troubled her for many years.

She had wanted very much to know the identity of the man in her dream and his connection with herself, but now that she had confirmed his true identity and the whole story through Kyuubi, and knew that he was crying for his dead wife Liwan, she felt mixed emotions.

Perhaps, the answer she has been looking for for a long time can be found in this scroll of memory.

He turned his head to look at her, his lips corners lifted reluctantly, trying to force a smile that said "I'm fine", but he pursed his lips due to the uncontrollable grievance. The two of them were in a confrontation, and in the end he couldn't help but tremble and burst into tears.

"But just as I was getting used to the nightmare of my parents and clansmen dying in that great battle, my wife died in the stone formation that suppressed the evil abyss. Again, not a single bone remained. Everyone who came to comfort me told me that my soul had been torn apart, trying to persuade me to move on and live a good life. But both times, I was alone, suffering through recurring nightmares in those long nights, drowning in an endless abyss of sorrow, unable to find the will to live. So, after I prayed to every god, Buddha, or bodhisattva in the universe, only to receive despair, and finally finding you again, I would break down and cry again and again when I felt you were abandoning me completely."

He cried even harder as he spoke, and it seemed as if Yuanli began to understand his helplessness at this moment.

The reason why she gave up her love for him was that he loved her so much that she couldn't let go of the past and was disappointed.

But what she cared about in his past was her past life.

He had collapsed and tried to explain, but he had also been unable to speak out about the misunderstanding, and could only silently endure her distance and hurt from him due to misunderstanding, and then he would approach her again and again without getting tired of it. Now the truth seemed to be confirmed again, she had refused to believe her claim that she was Li Wan's reincarnation.

Her heart has changed.

But she also knew that her goal for the rest of her life was to make A-Cha happy.

"I really want to comfort you for seeing... and... your grief again, but I also don't want to lie to you. Even if I'm Li Wan's reincarnation, that was only my past life. It's all in the past. Ah Cha and I are getting married."

"The past? I can't get over it! I can never get over it! We've been in love for two lifetimes, and you want me to, how can I get over it? Yuanli, how can I cut off the relationship of this life because of jealousy from the previous life! I like you too much, is there anything wrong with that? I have kept myself clean and guarded our love alone for tens of thousands of years, and spent all my energy planning to renew our past relationship with you. Catering to your preference for handsome men in both lives, just to get one more look from you, I dress up like a peacock all day long, running to you to woo you with all kinds of fancy tricks. You have so many favorites and so many beautiful women in the mortal world, I don't care, I even! I am even willing to be your mistress, just to be with you forever! What on earth have I done wrong that makes you stop liking me?"

He spoke a little excitedly, but lost his composure when he looked at her. His voice weakened and he cried, full of sadness and helplessness.

"I've explained everything you care about, so why...why do you still...don't want me anymore?"

He knelt helplessly at her feet, clutching her robe and crying bitterly, sobbing uncontrollably, unable to speak a complete sentence, and only repeatedly asking her why she still didn't want him.

Looking down at the humble him, Yuanli's heart was clenched into a ball and she felt very uncomfortable.

Yes, he was not wrong. He was not at fault for disappointing her and making her no longer like him.

The rekindled old feelings made her unsure how to face Heng Jin and Cha Su Xun.

She was like a sinner who had wronged both parties.

She was a coward who escaped from the situation. Before she could think of a way to completely have both of them, she even felt a little grateful for the marriage proposal to repay the favor.

She was aware of her thoughts and even mocked herself in her heart, calling herself despicable.

"Heng Jin, I'm engaged. It's too late. You did nothing wrong. I saw your love. The fault is mine. I didn't firmly believe in your love for me, and I didn't believe your explanation without hesitation."

"If you had entered into a marriage contract out of love for him, I wouldn't have come and bothered you in the slightest. But you chose this marriage contract out of gratitude, and it's unfair to you, him, and me."

Even though he tried his best to control his sobs, he still couldn't speak clearly because of the sobbing reaction caused by sobs.

"But no matter what, I will never abandon Ah Cha again in this life. It is neither moral nor logical for me to break the engagement and abandon him again. There is no absolute fairness in the world. He knows why I entered into the engagement with him and why I wanted to please him and be intimate with him, but he acquiesced. Then the purpose of my life is to make him happy. My love for you will always disappear in the time of separation. I will fall in love with Ah Cha again when I am alone with him. No one can escape the extinguishing of love by separation like in the storybook. Hate me, one day, you will forget me too. Throw away these memory scrolls and stop indulging in them again. There is no need for you and me to continue reading this, right? Let me out, Heng Jin."

Even though she felt bad, she pretended to be calm and relaxed as she finished saying these hurtful words.

"No one can escape the extinguishing of love caused by separation, as the story goes. In the days when you may have already turned to ashes after your death in your previous life, I continued to love you for tens of thousands of years, tens of thousands of years! My love has only grown stronger. Yuanli, the emotions and reactions in your eyes just now can't deceive me. The misunderstanding is dissipating, and I believe that your love will definitely return. I will never let go. I said, as long as you love me even a little bit, I will never give up trying to win your heart."

Heng Jin stood up staggeringly, trying to wipe away the tears that kept flowing down her face, and smiled bitterly.

"I won't let you go even if the Heavenly Lord comes looking for you."

He approached her with the attitude of an aggressive prey, holding her cheeks with both hands with such force that her fair skin turned red. No matter how she struggled, he slowly and forcefully approached her.

Yuanli was afraid that he would go crazy and forcefully kiss her again, so she kept twisting his hands and leaning back desperately, "Let me go!"

However, he just forced his forehead to touch with hers.

Heng Jin greedily felt the warmth on her forehead, trying to temporarily comfort and soothe his cold and frightened heart.

"If you don't finish reading it, how can you have all the past events of our love in your mind? I don't believe that after you finish reading it, your heart will remain calm."

After letting her go, he quietly stood beside her, keeping a little distance between them. After all, he knew that if he didn't realize it, when she came to distance themselves, they would be far apart.

He kept stealing glances at her out of the corner of his eyes, but he couldn't understand her emotions at the moment.

Panic.

Heng Jin, who was wandering and groping forward in the darkness, finally confirmed that she was right in front of him by constantly trying to sense the ear feathers he gave her, but he could not see her.

Heng Jin tentatively reached out his hand to grab her, and tried several times. By chance, they both reached out at the same time, wanting to grab each other's hands and they touched each other. In an instant, she appeared before him.

However, Li Wan, who was as dull as a puppet, did not react at all.

Heng Jin noticed that her drooping eyes were covered by a thick gray film.

He didn't dare let go, interlocking his fingers with hers, for fear of losing her again.

Heng Jin had never "experienced" Xie Yuan's method before, but he had "experienced" many similar illusions. Relying on his past experience, he continued to cast spells to wake her up.

Although, he understood when he first tried to cast the spell that this black fog was similar to the poison in the Misty Forest, and once he cast the spell, the fog would corrode his body.

After trying all the methods he knew, she naturally had no reaction at all. However, black lines similar to lightning patterns had already appeared on Heng Jin's arms.

"Are you going to cripple these hands for her?"

The young man who was speaking was hiding in the darkness and laughing happily. One could clearly feel the direction from which the laughter came.

Heng Jin wanted to pull Li Wan back away from him, but she first grabbed his hand tightly and pulled him towards the direction where the laughter came from.

He put his arms around her from behind, restraining her unconscious body and preventing her from getting closer to the dangerous madman.

"I've been to heaven throwing shit so many times, and almost every time, you, the unfortunate one, are forced to admire my masterpiece. It's really hard for you. I'll be merciful and give you a little sweet taste."

As soon as the young man finished speaking, Li Wan, who was struggling to take a step, suddenly stopped moving.

"What did you do to her!"

Heng Jin anxiously turned her around so that she was facing him. He bent down to her eye level to check on her condition.

The next second, her lips moved forward in a quick kiss.

Caught off guard, Heng Jin widened her eyes in shock, her breathing stagnated, and her brain was buzzing.

He immediately stepped back to put some distance between them.