Chapter 137 You Would Have Been Happier

"At that moment, I felt extremely sad, not for myself, but for the hurt you suffered.

If I were in your shoes, I would probably never forgive someone for treating me this way.

So at that time I was thinking, if you don’t want to forgive me, that’s okay, let’s just end it here between us.

At that time, I was in a very pessimistic and negative mood, and I was actually very timid.

I am afraid to face you, and I am also afraid to face the bad self I once was.

You asked me to calm down and slow down, but I know my habits well, and behavioral patterns formed over a long period of time are difficult to change.

I have long been accustomed to bullying others for fun.

I like to use other people's emotions as my bow and arrow. I will feel happy only when I shoot others with arrows and injure them all over.

After all, my world has always been like this.

I am no different from those bad guys, just as despicable and ugly.

At that time, I just wanted to find a place to hide and escape from everything in front of me.

So, I shut myself off, subconsciously thinking about taking a good sleep, hoping to isolate myself from the outside world and hide myself.

But, I didn’t expect that I would sleep for so long, making you wait for me for so long, and making you so sad. I’m sorry…”

Lin Tian held Ji Beichi's hand tightly.

"Ji Beichi, I'm sorry."

Ji Beichi raised his eyes and looked at Lin Tian.

Eyes met.

He seemed to see Lin Tian’s past that he couldn’t bear to look back on in those deep yet vicissitudes of life eyes.

Those few words, like needles, pierced Ji Beichi's heart madly, hurting Ji Beichi's heart and causing dull pain.

If you are born with a dog, what kind of life would you live, worse than that of pigs and dogs?

Struggling to survive in the midst of everyone's disgust.

Living just for the sake of living, the hardships involved are simply unimaginable to others.

It's a miracle that Lin Tian is still alive.

Ji Beichi's eyes were red, and the feeling of heartache almost overwhelmed him.

He also held Lin Tian's hand tightly and interlocked their fingers.

Tears welled up in my eyes, one by one, falling into the bathtub.

If... Lin Tian could come to this world earlier.

This way he wouldn't have to suffer.

Lin Tian raised his hand, and gently stroked the corner of Ji Beichi's eyes with his broad palm, wiping away the tears that rolled down, and sighed softly with a hint of helplessness:

"Don't cry, don't look at me with such a heartbroken look on your face. Haven't you also been through a lot of hard times? Haven't you also been through this kind of life? Being bullied and looked down upon by others, we are the same."

Ji Beichi cried and choked up as he said:

"Lin Tian, ​​fortunately, you came to this world."

Hearing this, Lin Tian's eyes dimmed and slowly drooped.

After a long silence, he slowly raised his head and looked straight at Ji Beichi, his eyes full of complicated emotions:

"Ji Beichi, if, if, in the next life, we meet again, I hope we won't meet like that.

I hope we can meet normally and get to know each other again.

I hope that by then, we can be real friends.

Actually, I think it’s good for us to be friends.

At least you won’t be so tired, at least I won’t make you so sad.

I'm such a bad person and I'm not suitable for you at all.

You deserve someone better. I know when I say this, you will think that I don’t want you anymore, but if there is a next life, this is what I really think. ”

When Ji Beichi heard this, his face turned pale instantly.

Sound Panic:

"What do you mean? This life hasn't even passed yet, why do we need the next life?

We still have a future, why do you mention the next life?

Why do you say I'm not right for you? We haven't even tried being together yet, so why do you know we're not suitable for each other?

We just haven't gotten used to each other yet. If we had, we would have been fine. Why would you abandon me for someone better?

Where are you going again? Or are you going to fall asleep again? ”

Lin Tian pursed his lips and did not answer immediately. He just leaned his head on Ji Beichi's shoulder and patted his back gently to calm his nervous mood:

"I don't want to break up with you either, but our initial meeting was a mistake, and I magnified this mistake until it became irreversible.

I was wrong and I should bear the consequences.

The only thing I regret in this world is taking you as my slave and making a contract with you.

I shouldn't have taken it upon myself to accept someone who didn't know me at all as my own. I was too selfish. ”

Ji Beichi hugged Lin Tian back tightly, his arms tightly around his back.

As he listened to his words, he became more and more panicked and his mind was in a mess.

Afraid that Lin Tian would leave him.

The voice was hoarse and rapid, with a crying tone:

“What are you talking about? What are the consequences and why do you have to pay the price?

It’s okay if you’re wrong, we can start over again.

If you want to know each other, we will get to know each other again.

If you want to be friends, then we will be friends.

We still have this life. I don’t want the next life. I just want to be with you in this life.

Let’s forget about the past. I don’t want to pursue it. I’m not sad anymore. I don’t feel ashamed anymore. I don’t feel uncomfortable anymore.

I'm fine now, don't blame yourself, I don't blame you.

Although it was painful for me to meet you, actually, I also had happy moments and I was not miserable all the time.

I love you, please don’t leave me, I don’t want you in the next life.

You can bully me all you want, just don't leave me again. ”

Lin Tian gently rubbed his head against his neck, speaking softly and slowly, intending to lay things out and make things clear:

"Ji Beichi, stop crying. I don't want you to cry. I don't like you crying. I hate the way you cry so sadly. I really don't like it. It's so humble, just like me when I was a child.

It was a mistake for us to meet, and I should bear the consequences.

I don't belong to this world. I came to this world with a mission. You should have a happier life.

You should have had a better life, but it's all because of me that you became like this and became so sad. Your sadness is all caused by me. ”

After hearing this, Ji Beichi hugged Lin Tian even tighter with his arms. His emotions instantly collapsed and he shouted angrily:

"What do you mean you brought it here? Even without you, I would still be bullied and looked down upon.

My life has always been suppressed by others, and it has not been easy to begin with.

You just slept with me a few times, I don't blame you.

Why do you say such things and why do you make me sad? ”

Lin Tian's body was held tightly by Ji Beichi.

He also hugged Ji Beichi's thin body tightly, trying to calm him down and communicate with him normally.

"Don't be angry. I just said if, if, but I didn't say it must be. Don't get excited. Don't be so excited. Calm down."

However, Ji Beichi simply couldn't remain calm.

He suddenly pushed Lin Tian away, held Lin Tian's cheeks with both hands, and kissed him without hesitation.

He bit Lin Tian's lips hard and kept sucking the air from Lin Tian's mouth, as if he wanted to vent all the longing, grievances and fears of these days through this kiss.

But Lin Tian suddenly closed his mouth, turned his head away, and avoided this hot and rough kiss.

He gently pressed Ji Beichi's shoulders.

Push him away a little, try to calm him down and make him sober up a little.