Chapter 56 Steadfast

◎“You can continue to be yourself in the future. Whether you are good or bad, you will always be someone I love.”◎

"Heart?" Upon hearing Chen Jingshu's words, Lin Yujing didn't even have time to consider his sudden, unusual behavior. "Where's your medicine?"

As she spoke, Lin Yujing reached into his pocket for a medicine bottle.

Chen Jingshu chuckled softly, then grabbed her hands and placed them over his heart. "Now you don't need to avoid suspicion anymore?"

"Stop fooling around. If you have a seizure here, it can be very serious."

Seeing Lin Yujing's expression change, Chen Jingshu hurriedly explained, "You've already eaten, don't worry."

"Really?" Lin Yujing helped him sit down on a chair, still frowning and complaining, "Your Chen family is really something, knowing you have heart disease, you still sent you to Hoh Xil."

"They all said they cared about you and loved you. If I had known, I would have..." Lin Yujing stopped mid-sentence, realizing she had seriously lost her composure and almost revealed the truth of what happened back then.

"So what?" Whenever the two met again, Lin Yujing always maintained a cool and composed demeanor, let alone acted like she had just now, like an angry pufferfish standing up for him.

Chen Jingshu smiled mischievously, anticipating her answer.

Lin Yujing straightened her expression, shook off his hand, and said, "Now that you've finished discussing work with the station, you should go back as soon as possible."

Chen Jingshu playfully leaned into her arms, his head resting right on her shoulder blade.

He seemed to be in great pain, but his expression and complexion were different from his usual appearance when he had an attack; he looked more like a child throwing a tantrum.

"Jingjing, just let me stay by your side. Sending me away is the death of me." Chen Jingshu's words were always straightforward, and today his tone was even more sincere. Even his burning breath seemed to penetrate through the fabric of his clothes and into people's hearts.

Lin Yujing sighed softly, the question Qi Woxue had asked her earlier that day still lingering in her mind.

"No one will die because of someone else," she replied calmly.

Chen Jingshu, however, seemed oblivious to her low spirits and continued showering her with sweet nothings as before, saying, "Yes! I am. Just think about how many times I've had heart attacks because of you."

"That's moral blackmail."

"Would you be willing to be with me if I morally blackmailed you?"

"Won't."

"Don't worry, I won't morally blackmail you. I'll just brainwash myself and be your loyal admirer, even without any official status."

Lin Yujing couldn't bear to be amused by him and said with a playful smile, "Aren't you afraid that you'll find out later that it wasn't worth it and regret it? After all, you're the only one in my life who thinks I'm important."

She had very few friends, and even her biological parents never expected her to be born.

Therefore, she has known since childhood that she should not place too much of her emotions on others, because no one cares about her thoughts except herself.

“I’m choosing what I love, not what the masses love.” Chen Jingshu’s voice was calm, but her words were profound. “Moreover, I’m choosing with my heart, not just with my eyes looking at appearances.”

Lin Yujing suddenly felt as if a bottle of mixed emotions had been shattered inside her heart.

"But often, what hurts you the most is the very thing you treat with the most care."

She never understood how Chen Jingshu could still love her without holding a grudge after she had hurt him so cruelly back then.

They even went so far as to promote her without reservation.

Money, power, and connections—he gave them all away.

"Jingjing, have you ever heard this saying? If you want to form a bond with someone, you have to be willing to risk tears."

Her hatred for Lin Daguo and Li Yan stemmed from their irresponsible parenting.

Even though the whole world tells them that only parents can give their children the most selfless love, she has never felt even a fraction of it.

Even so, she still couldn't bring herself to leave them to fend for themselves.

It seems that as long as Li Yan and Lin Yuyan are still alive, she is not an orphan.

Is her refusal to date or marry really just due to the difference in social status between her and Chen Jingshu?

However, she never forgot that, in order not to be sold, she swore to Lin Daguo that she would never marry and would support the couple until they died.

"Even though the tears hurt?"

"right!"

Without the slightest hesitation, Chen Jingshu said, "Also, the order in which each person appears is very important. You were such a wonderful part of my youth, so wonderful that I'm not afraid of being hurt by you, I'm only afraid that you're not doing well. So I just want to stand by your side, so that you have the confidence and support to do what you want to do."

At that moment, it was as if a gentle touch, unique to her, firmly settled in her heart.

It turns out that my dark and dull youth will become a dazzling light for teenagers.

“A-Shu…” Lin Yujing still choked up, “But I still feel that I’m not as good as you say.”

"I'm very realistic, very selfish. Even the honors and titles I've received feel incredibly fake." She's neither a healer nor likable; even her parents, who should love her unconditionally, have never considered her family. How can she dare to hope for someone else's eternal love? "In the future, I will still only put myself first in my heart."

Like a final warning, she said, "You'll get very tired..."

Chen Jingshu smiled helplessly, then looked at her with pity and affection. "Jingjing, but not everything in this world has a predetermined cause and effect."

"Feelings and love mean that I love you even though I know your emotional flaws, your selfishness and meanness; I love you even though I know your ambitions, your intentions and your ideals; I love you even though I know your cowardice and vulgarity."

Chen Jingshu put his arm around her shoulder and gently kissed the corner of her eye.

"Jingjing, you can continue to be yourself in the future. Whether you are good or bad, you will always be someone I love."

Lin Yujing's heart completely melted into this snow-capped mountain grassland, and she no longer cared about avoiding suspicion.

She hugged Chen Jingshu's waist, stood on tiptoe, and placed her lips on his.

Like a silent response, it was his unwavering love.

The sacred Tibetan antelope can bear witness for her; she is no longer the girl who was forever abandoned.

There was also someone who came for her and was happy because of her.

The fleeting kiss was not enough for Chen Jingshu. Just as she was about to pull away, his hand gripped the back of her head.

The long yet tender kiss was like a romantic, peaceful moment, lingering between the two of them.

She couldn't escape his every breath, nor did she want to escape his every kiss.

If time were kind enough, she would want every dawn and dusk.

A note from the author:

Note:

To form a bond with someone, you must risk tears. —From *The Little Prince*

"Feelings, love, it's that I know your emotional flaws, your selfishness and meanness, yet I love you; it's that I know your ambition, your schemes, and your ideals, yet I love you. It's that I know your cowardice and vulgarity, yet I love you." Adapted from—The Painted Veil: I had no illusions about you. I know you're foolish, frivolous, and empty-headed, yet I love you. I know your schemes, your ideals, your snobbishness and vulgarity, yet I love you. I know you're second-rate, yet I love you.

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