Chapter 88 Because I’m Afraid You’ll Be Sad

Lin Zixia picked up the chopsticks and started eating silently.

She didn't speak a word during the whole meal.

Lu Xiangye, on the other hand, would occasionally pick up some food for her.

After finishing the meal, Lin Zixia slowly spoke, "Lu Xiangye, let me take you for a walk by the river."

Lu Xiangye: "Okay."

On weekdays, the riverside was sparsely populated. Lin Zixia led him down the stone steps and onto the lawn by the river. The grass had withered and yellowed in the winter, and a specially built footpath had been built along the river, winding along the winding riverbed.

There was still some wind by the river, and Lin Zixia subconsciously tucked her neck into her collar. The next second, Lu Xiangye pulled her arm and switched places with her, letting her walk on the inside.

Lin Zixia spoke slowly, "How do you know where my home is?"

Lu Xiangye glanced at her sideways and said, "I asked Brother Yulin."

Lin Zixia curled her fingers slightly, "Besides telling you where my home is, did he tell you anything else?"

Lu Xiangye paused, thinking of what happened last night.

After he finished calling Lin Zixia in the billiard hall, he felt more and more that something was wrong. Lin Zixia was never like this normally.

When she called just now, there was a slight nasal tone in her voice, soft and sticky, as if she had just cried.

His speaking style was not his usual style, and he seemed to be in a very low mood.

She did well in the exams, so she shouldn't be scolded by her family because of her grades. But why does she act strange when she gets home?

He always felt that she seemed to be aggrieved in the WeChat message she sent him.

So Lu Xiangye went directly to ask Xu Youlin for her home address.

Xu Youlin looked puzzled when he opened the door for him, and didn't give him any at first. "You want to go to her house to find her? I advise you not to go."

Lu Xiangye looked at him with dark eyes, a hint of confusion flashing across his face. "Why?"

Xu Youlin's eyes flashed with a complicated expression, "Xia Xia's family situation is a bit complicated. Her mother is a teacher, serious and old-fashioned. It's not convenient for you to go to her rashly like this."

"What's more, you, a boy, are going to visit my sister, and you're asking me for my address. Do you think that's appropriate?"

Xu Youlin leaned against the door, his peach blossom eyes slightly narrowed, and he looked at Lu Xiangye with indifference.

Lu Xiangye was not afraid at all. He met his gaze with a sharp and stubborn look. "But she is very sad now."

Xu Youlin was stunned by his words. He raised his eyes and looked carefully at the boy in front of him.

He is serious.

Xu Youlin finally told him the address, but warned him, "She's still young, you'd better not have any bad thoughts."

"Lu Xiangye?" Lin Zixia called him again.

Lu Xiangye finally came back to his senses and looked at her with raised eyebrows, "Tell me what?"

Lin Zixia bit her lip, looked at the cobblestone steps beside her, and walked up them. "Let's go sit there for a while."

Lu Xiangye followed her, "Okay."

The two of them sat by the river, the river breeze blowing from the water, bringing a biting chill. Lin Zixia put his hands in his pockets, looked at the rippled water surface, and said in a low voice, "I just lied to your face, and you don't ask me why?"

Lu Xiangye turned to look at her, "Why should I ask?"

The tone is matter of course.

Lin Zixia's heart moved, "Then why did you come to me? Don't try to scare me with words."

Lu Xiangye's dark eyes stared at her deeply, his thin lips slightly parted, and every word he spoke entered Lin Zixia's ears, hitting her eardrums heavily.

He said, "Because I'm afraid you'll be sad."

I was afraid that something might happen to her, that she would be sad, that she would be wronged, so I had to come and see it with my own eyes to feel at ease.

Lin Zixia's heart trembled, and her watery eyes seemed to be wrapped in moist mist. She turned away in panic, not daring to look into his eyes.

"Lu Xiangye, don't look at me."

"Okay, I won't look at you."

Lu Xiangye retracted his gaze, "Then can you tell me why you were unhappy last night?"

If nothing had happened, why would she tell him such aggrieved and pleading words as "I want to hear his voice".

Lin Zixia's eyes were filled with tears. He looked at the rushing water in the river in the distance, his fingers clenched tightly together.

She moved her lips, but found that she didn't know where to start.

She had never told anyone these words or these things.

Seeing her bite her lips again, Lu Xiangye couldn't help but frown, "If you don't want to tell me, I won't ask."

Lin Zixia blinked hard, "Do you know why I study so hard?"

"I study hard and never slack off for a moment, hoping that one day I can leave here and live my life completely on my own."

"I don't want them to interfere too much in my life, so I can only use my grades to exchange for a brief period of freedom and a moment of respite."

Lu Xiangye looked at her tense little face and felt a dull pain in his heart.

Lin Zixia pursed her lips and raised her head slightly, "I'm not a good girl either. I've told a lot of lies and done a lot of bad things. I even bullied other children."

"So what you call a bad thing when you bully a kid is kicking his ball away?"

Lu Xiangye's faint voice came from the side. Lin Zixia suddenly widened his eyes and looked at him in shock. "You...saw it?"

Lu Xiangye raised his eyebrows slightly, "Yes, I saw it all."

He knew from the beginning that she was not a good girl, from the first day he met her.

She could throw his books away, kick away other children's balls, and even lie to his face.

But this is not a serious crime, just some harmless little things.

It is her personality and her way of survival.

It was because of these things that he initially thought she was interesting and fun, and kept teasing her.

Lin Zixia even forgot to blink. It turned out that he knew what kind of person she was from the beginning.

A strange feeling suddenly arose in my chest, like a traveler walking in the snow and ice, and suddenly his whole body was soaked in warm water.

Lin Zixia thought, it would be okay to tell him those things that she had kept in her heart for a long time, right?

She picked up a stone nearby and threw it into the water, causing a splash.

Lu Xiangye subconsciously stretched out his hand to block her.

Lin Zixia took his hand away and looked at him with a smile, "Lu Xiangye, let me tell you a secret."

"In fact, my parents and I are not in the same household registration book."