Chapter 40 Daily 08

Daily 08-It’s our sixth wedding anniversary!

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The annual update series is here again. When I wrote the essay for our fifth wedding anniversary last year, I was already secretly pregnant with my baby. But in the blink of an eye, when I wrote the essay for our sixth wedding anniversary, my baby was already eight months old and could stand and walk with support.

Oh my god! Time really flies by so fast!

First of all, I want to thank everyone again for all the blessings you have sent me since I announced the happy news of Mibao's birth. I sincerely thank you all for accompanying me every step of the way over the past twelve years, witnessing my transition from a college student to a social worker, from being single to dating, and then to marriage and motherhood. All your beautiful and heartfelt blessings and wishes will always be with our whole family. Thank you so much!

Furthermore, everyone might be curious about whether my mental state has changed since having Mibo. I can honestly tell you: Yes, I feel like I'm becoming more resilient and more tolerant of everyone and everything.

People and things that might have angered me before, now can't stir up the slightest ripple in my heart. Although I am a carefree and forgetful person, this overwhelming calmness and tolerance are simply invincible. Maybe this is what it means to be a mother, hahahaha?

As for some of the interesting, touching, and memorable things that happened during pregnancy and childbirth, after I finish writing about Guagua and Chacha, I'll take the time to calm down and slowly record them here. Firstly, it's a souvenir for myself, and secondly, when Mimi grows up, I can show her how great and hard it was for her to give birth to her, hahaha!

Of course, among everyone's blessings, I also saw some children telling me, "Sangsang, you must always love yourself the most! Don't ignore your own happiness for Liu Ge and Mi Bao."

I want to tell everyone who's worried about this: I absolutely won't compromise myself. I'm probably too self-critical, hahahaha (I'm just putting Sixth Brother down, doge). I've always had a strong sense of self-esteem, and generally speaking, I tend to be quite assertive. While I'm nice to everyone, that doesn't stop me from cherishing myself above all else. I believe that only when I have confidence and self-love can I have more love and energy to give to those I love. It's a positive cycle.

So, don't worry! Giving birth to Mibao didn't bring any negative effects to me from beginning to end. Although giving birth and raising a child is definitely hard work, it also brought a lot of joy and happiness.

Of course, I have to thank my sixth brother, who's been the biggest contributor, for his meticulous care. He's been keeping me going both physically and emotionally. So, now it's time to show off some sweet love, hahaha! Here are some daily snippets I've recorded in my memo this year. I'll write them down in short snippets for easier reading.

#1

I remember one night, when I had my period, I was in so much pain that I curled up in bed like an enoki mushroom, feeling like I was dying.

Then I hugged my Sixth Brother, a human-shaped hot water bottle, and said to him in agony, "I absolutely do not want to be a girl in my next life! Menstruation is the public enemy of mankind! The kind of thing we can never reconcile with!"

The Sixth Brother said, "Sure! Then let's switch in our next lives. You'll be a boy, and I'll be a girl."

Just when I was about to hug him and give him a kiss as a reward, he said to me: "Since you are mine, you will have to be bullied by me for the rest of your life. Are you willing?"

I pushed him away and said, "Forget it. In my next life, I will still be a girl and continue to ride on your head and bully you."

Sixth Brother spread his hands ┓( ` )┏: “…”

#2

One morning, as soon as I woke up, Brother Six grabbed me and said, "Baby, I want to share my dream with you."

I was still confused and asked him, "What dream?"

He said, "Last night, I experienced an endless cycle of reincarnation in my dream. We were both old, and you passed away before me. I cried so hard in my dream. When I woke up, I found that I had experienced the scene again. Everything was the same, and you still passed away before me. I cried so hard, and when I woke up completely, I realized it was just a dream. You were still lying next to me. It was so nice."

When this poor little thing was describing this dream, his eyes were a little red, which was really heartbreaking to see.

After hearing this, I was both angry and amused: "I had a similar dream some time ago! I dreamed that you died before me, leaving me alone in the world. I woke up crying loudly, and my pillow was covered with tears. You were laughing at me at the time, saying that I was crazy and had nothing to do but think about these things in my dreams. And now you have the same dream..."

Sixth Brother laughed twice, then he hugged me tightly and said, "I understand you now. I won't say you're crazy, I'll be crazy with you."

Actually, I never used to think about death, or fear it. But now, I find that I'm deeply afraid of it. I don't want death to separate me from the people I love. The thought of one of us no longer being in this world, of not being able to experience life together, makes me feel deeply sad and heartbroken.

Sixth Brother is like another me in this world. I think he probably shares the same sentiments as me. This has further reaffirmed my determination to live happily and cherish every day. I also believe that life shouldn't be wasted on negative emotions like anger and depression. I should do my best to enjoy the fleeting happiness and joy that life has.

Until death separates us, I will seize every minute and every second to love you well.

#3

Two diaries of Gong Baonu.

First, as a clumsy person, I wanted to braid my hair, so I watched the instructional video on Xiaohongshu, but I couldn’t learn it even after watching it twice.

So I turned around and said, “Husband, come over and watch this video, learn a little bit and then teach me.”

The sixth brother watched the video for two or three seconds and took the hair tie: "Come here, it's that simple."

Me: “Hey, hey, I love you!”

Second, I am really not good at putting on makeup, especially eye makeup. I watched a lot of videos and tried to learn from them, but I still did it very badly, so I turned around and asked Brother Liu to come and watch.

After reading it once, Sixth Brother wondered, "Isn't this simple? What's so unclear about it?"

Me: "I don't understand anything, and my makeup is not right at all."

The sixth brother sighed: "If it really doesn't work in the future, I'll help you with it..."

Me: “Yeah yeah yeah!!!”

Sixth Brother: "...? I'm a straight man, are you serious?"

Me: "Why can't straight men put makeup on their wives?"

#4

Routine chat time before bed.

Sixth Brother said, "Actually, after marrying you, I realized that I don't have any particularly lofty ambitions. I don't have to get or achieve anything. I just want to live happily with you and spend the rest of my life happily."

I said, "When I was single, my dream was to become a superwoman, the kind who could delay marriage and having children for work. But after meeting you, my dream changed. Now, I just want to do what I love, enjoy a balance between work and life, and live every day happily with you."

Sixth Brother: "Great minds think alike~"

#5

One night, Sixth Brother was holding Mimi and playing on the windowsill. When I went to find them, he hugged me with his other hand.

He said: "Right now, I feel like I have the whole world in my hands."

Because I didn't expect him to say that, I was a little surprised by him and stood there in a daze.

Before I could say anything, he added, "You two make up my whole world."

At that moment, I was really touched! This kid can do it too! QAQ!

#6

We have been in love and married for more than seven years, but we still have a lot to talk about all the time. We can talk about any little thing, and then we feel the same resonance countless times.

My sixth brother and I went out to celebrate our anniversary and had a great chat in the restaurant.

We talk about Mibao, life, work, friends, social hot topics, funny jokes... We can talk about anything and laugh together.

I said to him, "You know what? Although I think you're handsome, you're really not the type of person girls would like. Even before we were together, I thought you were cold and even aloof. You don't actively provide emotional value. Unlike some guys who are warm and caring, with all kinds of sweet talk or romantic gestures, you're just a very honest, straight guy."

The Sixth Brother fully agreed with this: "You are right."

Me: "At the same time, I'm not the type that guys like, because I'm really strong and not at all docile. A friend's boyfriend once said that I'm the type of wife he would never choose. I'm too strong and opinionated, and he can't handle me at all."

Sixth Brother: "Isn't it good to be strong? Isn't it good to have your own opinions? Why do I have to hold you back?"

Me: "Anyway, you can rest assured that no one will compete with you for your wife."

Sixth Brother: "...No one wants it, no one wants it, should I be happy?"

Me: "Hahahahahahahaha of course! Only you are lucky enough to enjoy it!"

Sixth Brother: "I like you this way anyway."

Me: “What about me?”

Sixth Brother: "I think you're cute."

Me: "...You might be the only one in the world who thinks I'm cute!! I feel like I'm just a queen! What does being cute have to do with it?"

Sixth Brother: “Really?”

Me: "Because I only know how to act like a spoiled child with you. I'm like a giant baby to you, but I'm like an autumn wind sweeping away fallen leaves to others."

Sixth Brother: "Cute baby."

I asked again: "What part of my body do you like?"

Sixth Brother: "I like it everywhere."

Me: “…Can you be more specific, bro?”

Sixth Brother: "There's no way to be specific! I really like it everywhere."

Sixth Brother: "Liking you is not a multiple-choice question, nor a true or false question, but a comprehensive question."

I:"……"

Where did you get your skills from, kid?! Why do you always come up with a golden sentence that kills me instantly! ! QAQ!

#7

Every year on our wedding anniversary, my sixth brother would write me a handwritten letter with great sense of ceremony.

In this year's letter, he wrote the following:

"All the unhappy things no longer exist in my mind, just like quicksand flowing through my fingers. The waves wash away the sand, and what remains in my memory are only our happy memories that glitter like gold and are as precious as gold. I think this is why our relationship has been so enduring. We always keep only the good things, let the bad things flow away, and always let each other soak in the sugar jar."

In my heart, all the memories of him are shining, and everything I can think of about him is warm and sweet.

This person is the one who makes me full of vigorous impulse and love, and makes me run towards him and throw myself into his arms like when we first fell in love, no matter how much time has passed, no matter how many new identities I have, and no matter how time and environment change.

He is also the person I will love deeply with all my life and passion forever.

Happy six years, happy forever.