Chapter 145 (Chapter 145) Shut Up (Chapter 145) Shut Up...

Chapter 145 Shut Up

"How could that be?" Linghao released Gongziyu, cupped his face in her hands, and said earnestly, "Whether it's Ayu or Mingyue, I care about them both very much."

"Does Ah Hao care more about me or him?" Gongzi Yu's eyes held a hint of expectation, hoping to hear the answer he wanted from her.

“Of course…” Ling Hao met Gongzi Yu’s gaze, released his face, and flicked his forehead with her finger. “Naturally, I care about both of them. I won’t be biased.”

Gongzi Yu looked somewhat aggrieved and muttered, "I just want some favoritism."

"Huh? What did you say, Ayu?" Linghao asked in return.

Gongzi Yu was somewhat deflated. "No." How could Ahao not hear him at this distance? Her internal strength wasn't just for show. But her attitude clearly showed she didn't want to hear, so what could he do?

Sigh. Oh well, they still have plenty of time; he still has a chance.

Ling Hao didn't care what Gongzi Yu was thinking. Instead, she reached out to take his pulse. "His pulse is normal. It seems you're alright. Yu, lie down and rest." She helped him lie down. "I'll go tell Master and Madam Zhu. They've been worried about you for a long time."

"Alright." Gongzi Yu really wanted to ask Ling Hao to stay and keep him company, but he knew she was probably worried about Feng Qingyang and his master's wife, so he could only let it go.

Ling Hao placed her hand on Gongzi Yu's eyes, "Alright, go to sleep early, that way you'll get better."

"Mmm." Gongzi Yu obediently closed his eyes, but opened them again when he heard her turn and leave. He didn't close his eyes again until she closed the door behind her and until her footsteps had completely disappeared.

[You bastard, let me out!]

[Shut up. I won't let you out.] A sinister smile appeared on Gongzi Yu's face. [I want you to disappear completely. I can decide your appearance, and I can decide your disappearance. Ah Hao is mine, and no one can share her with me, not even myself.]

[Ah Hao will find out, she definitely will, and then she'll leave you!]

[Heh.] Gongzi Yu's eyes held the unyielding ice and snow of a snow-capped mountain peak. [Leaving me is leaving you. Don't forget, we are the same person.] He would not let Ahao leave him, and she would not leave him either, absolutely not.

[You and I are not the same person.]

[What a coincidence, that's what I was thinking too.]

[You're talking incoherently; you're practically sick.]

[Thank you for the compliment.] Gongzi Yu smiled gently and closed his eyes to rest. Although he hadn't completely eliminated Gongzi Mingyue, the fact that he could no longer escape was a good thing.

Given enough time, he could gradually wear down Gongzi Mingyue until he completely disappeared. Ahao was his alone; no one could take her from him, not even himself. Gongzi Yu fell asleep with a strange smile on his face.

On the other side, Linghao, who had walked far away, frowned. Had the bright moon really disappeared? She looked up at the bright moon hanging in the sky, her eyes filled with loneliness and pain.

It seems her greatest strength isn't the sword she wields, but her ability to deceive herself. Clearly, her feelings for Mingyue go beyond friendship, yet she keeps telling herself that they are, repeatedly convincing herself, and she's even fooled her own heart.

As a result, she only realized her feelings when Mingyue might really disappear. What a fool she was.

Ling Hao felt a little uncomfortable, yet also found it ridiculous. As she walked, she casually pulled out the poems hidden in the shadows and told her to tell Zhu Qiqi that Gongzi Yu had woken up. Then she went to Feng Qingyang's room.

Seeing her so distraught, Feng Qingyang was exasperated. "Didn't Gongzi Yu wake up? Why are you still like this?" That kid is lucky; as long as he doesn't die, that's fine.

“Master, I’ve discovered that I’m a fickle person.” Linghao lowered her eyes halfway. “I thought I could like someone, and that’s what I did. So, in my eyes, Mingyue was just a friend. But when he might really disappear completely, I realized that he was more than just a friend to me.”

Every heartbeat was accompanied by pain, making it impossible for Hao to deceive herself any longer that her feelings for Mingyue were merely those of a friend. Even though her master had clearly told her otherwise, she had still managed to hypnotize herself until just now, when she truly felt the pain of losing a loved one.

Ling Hao placed her hand on her heart, feeling a heavy weight on it, each beat causing her discomfort.

Feng Qingyang opened his mouth to scold her for being spineless, but seeing her like this, he felt sorry for her. "What do you call being fickle? You only like one person. Aren't Gongzi Yu and Gongzi Mingyue the same person? How are you fickle? You just like every little thing about him. Good disciple, you are a rare person in the world who is devoted to one person."

Although it was meant to comfort her, Feng Qingyang actually thought so too. Liking someone might mean disliking a certain aspect of them; but liking every single one of them—that's love. In his view, his disciple wasn't fickle at all; on the contrary, she was devoted and single-minded, after all, she liked every single thing about that boy.

Ling Hao said, "But in my eyes, they are two different people, I..."

“There was never a person named Gongzi Mingyue. He was derived from Gongzi Yu.” Feng Qingyang interrupted Ling Hao. “They look different, but they are the same person. If they weren’t the same person, how would Gongzi Yu know all of Gongzi Mingyue’s memories?”

“Ah Hao, your master has also seen other people who suffer from dissociation syndrome. The memories of the different people in those people are not connected. Since Gongzi Yu’s memories are connected, it means that his dissociation syndrome is different from others. He has just created another person to share his pain. Ah Hao, in essence, they are the same person.”

In Feng Qingyang's eyes, Gongzi Yu is Gongzi Mingyue, and Gongzi Mingyue is Gongzi Yu. Therefore, Linghao liking two people is no different from liking one person, because they are the same person. This is not fickleness at all. And even if she were fickle, so what? It's an honor for his disciple to fall in love with her.

“But Master,” Linghao raised her eyes, pain seeping from between her brows, “the bright moon has disappeared.”

He's gone now, completely gone.

“Then let Gongzi Yusheng be born again.” Feng Qingyang waved his hand and said in a very unreasonable manner.

Even though Ling Hao was very sad, Feng Qingyang made her laugh. "Master, how could such a thing be done just like that?"

"That's Gongzi Yu's business, not yours," Feng Qingyang continued unreasonably. He was very reasonable when he was young, but he lost too much in the process. Now that he's old, he doesn't want to be reasonable anymore, especially when it comes to his disciple.

He only has this one biological disciple, so what if he's biased? So what if he's unreasonable? He'll protect him, who cares?

Seeing Feng Qingyang's reaction, Ling Hao forced a smile. "Okay, I'll talk to A Yu and ask him to give birth to Mingyue again." She said this only to reassure Feng Qingyang; she would never actually do that.

Losing Mingyue caused her great pain, but wouldn't she feel the same pain if she lost Ayu? She didn't want to trouble Ayu, nor did she want him to know about this. So be it. Perhaps Mingyue hadn't disappeared; perhaps he was just asleep.

If she just kept waiting, maybe she could wait until Mingyue woke up. Let's just call it greed; she didn't want to lose either Mingyue or Ayu. Linghao smiled self-deprecatingly; it seemed she really was going to become a fickle person.

"Master, please rest early."

Watching Ling Hao's departing figure, Feng Qingyang sighed, "Alas, what a tragedy."

Love in this world is always heart-wrenching, so disheartening that it makes one lose oneself. Fortunately, he is old now and will no longer have such tangled emotions.

The next day, Ling Hao and Gongzi Yu appeared in the main hall together, while Feng Qingyang and Zhu Qiqi were already waiting for them to have breakfast together.

Feng Qingyang observed carefully and found that his disciple didn't seem to have changed much compared to before, as if the distraught person from last night wasn't her at all. Well, whether she was hiding her feelings or had truly seen through things, it was all good.

However, based on his understanding of his apprentice, he knew that seeing through things wouldn't happen so quickly; he was probably hiding it. Oh well, life goes on, and things will probably get better soon.

Zhu Qiqi: "..."

How strange. Whether it's A-Yu, A-Hao, or even Senior Feng, they all seem odd, but then again, they're gone. Strange, she only slept for a month, didn't she? Why do I feel like I can't keep up with them anymore?

"Master, Madam Zhu," Linghao said, placing a piece of pastry on Gongzi Yu's plate. "Hong Qigong will be visiting with Yang Xiao later. Would you like to meet them together?"

Feng Qingyang asked, "Are they Hong Qigong of the Beggars' Sect and Yang Xiao of the Ming Cult?"

It's them.

"Then forget it." Feng Qingyang waved his hand. "I have nothing to say to the younger generation." He had long since retired to the mountains and forests, no longer seeing outsiders. If he hadn't known that his own disciple had someone he liked, he wouldn't have come down the mountain, so he had no desire to see other people in the martial arts world.

Once Shen Lang returns and takes Zhu Qiqi away, he will also return. There's no need to see any junior figures in the martial arts world.

"Me too," Zhu Qiqi nodded. "I'll just play with Senior Feng." The two of them had a great time, whether it was playing cards or anything else. Besides, she had already retired from the martial arts world and didn't want to see anyone from it anymore, so it was best not to.

"Then let Ayu come with me." Linghao turned to look at Gongzi Yu. "Is that alright?"

"Alright," Gongzi Yu nodded with a smile. "Besides, I already promised you, didn't I?"

No, it was Mingyue who promised her. Ling Hao's hand paused, but she concealed the slight unease in her expression. "Yes, you did promise me."

Ah Yu already knew about Mingyue's memories, so it wasn't a big deal. Although she told herself that, Ling Hao still felt that something was amiss.

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Author's Note: On the track of self-criticism and self-destruction, Gongzi Yu is far ahead of the competition [winking emoji]