Chapter 22 Going the Wrong Way

Speaking is an art.

You see, the two questions "How can you be so kind" and "Why are you so good to me" are obviously tracking the same cause, but they can lead the relationship between two people in different directions.

Gu Yunsu remained calm in the face of danger. When facing the enemy's sugar-coated atomic bomb, he was able to stay sober and ask such a good question in order to advance. He not only expressed his inner doubts, but also showed that he would unconsciously hold a well-behaved, gentle and slightly inferior mentality when facing the other party, making him fall into an illusion of "having the upper hand", thereby paralyzing the other party's nerves.

Gu Yunsu is very pleased with herself. She has grown in the past six months.

Qin Yuxuan really fell for it.

He showed her a look of pity, like looking at a wounded kitten. If the table wasn't long enough, she swore he would have reached out and patted her on the head. Even so, he still went a step further and touched her hand, saying with infinite emotion: "Whether you believe it or not, I've been thinking about you."

Just answer the question properly, why make random confessions?

Gu Yunsu had a lot of question marks in his mind, and his face showed an expression of hurt and anger. He stiffened his neck stubbornly, and his eyes vividly expressed the three words "I don't believe it".

To act naturally, one must combine it with the character. Suppose she is immediately moved and bursts into tears, even if Qin Yuxuan is deceived by the tears and cannot react for a moment, five minutes later he will secretly sigh in his heart that she is too good at pretending.

But in her case, it's as if she tried to hold back her emotions but ultimately couldn't hold them back anymore, revealing that fragile bit of "sincerity". The credibility of this reaction is greatly increased, almost to the point where it's hard to tell the real from the fake.

"It's true." Qin Yuxuan explained, looking a little sad. "After we broke up, I kept thinking about you and how happy we were together."

Of course you are happy, Gu Yunsu thought, I made unconditional concessions just for your happiness.

She also looked sad.

Qin Yuxuan observed her expression and said, "I kept thinking, we are such a perfect match, why can't it work? After thinking about it, I can only think of the reason that we are in different places. So why not give it another try? If we have the opportunity to start over in the same city," he held her hand, his voice earnest, "then all the problems will be solved, Susu?"

Gu Yunsu heard it, and she guessed correctly that the other party wanted to get back together with her.

But why?

To be on the safe side, Gu Yunsu confirmed with the other party again: "So, you want to get back together with me? But the premise is that I move to your city."

Her question was too direct and lacked emotional investment, so Qin Yuxuan's mood instantly cooled down. He regained his composure and stated the facts: "M City is very good, with many opportunities and great development prospects. You don't have a stable job now. I think you can try somewhere else. It won't be a loss in any way. What's more," he smiled, "you still have me. I will help you. Isn't this much better than flying around here like a fly?"

So does anyone understand that she is trying for her dream rather than being unable to find or not wanting to find a job?

Gu Yunsu is easily offended.

What's more, Qin Yuxuan's attitude was indeed condescending, as if he was doing a favor out of kindness.

It has always been like this. What frustrates her most in this relationship is not even the fact that "he doesn't like you that much", but that he doesn't value himself.

Gu Yunsu is this kind of person. She can show weakness in daily life, but she must be the strongest king at work. She must do her best in all serious things that reflect intelligence and ability, regardless of whether the opponent is a man or a woman. She is indeed strong, and she must not be a weak person even in a relationship between a man and a woman. You can take care of me because you love me, but you can't look down on me because of taking care of me. You have to recognize my strength, so that I can calmly follow you.

If it wasn't because he liked to make her play dumb and show weakness, how could the other party ever defeat her?

But he really couldn't see her good side.

It's simply as blind as a dog.

No, that's not right. If he couldn't see her, how could he want to be with her? In the end, it was his subconscious mind that saw this good thing as a weakness that could be exploited, and he didn't cherish it.

She recalled that once she told Qin Yuxuan about a colleague who secretly pushed all the work onto her, and he commented: "You are just stupid."

"Just because I'm stupid you should bully me?"

"Ah, that's not what my colleague thinks."

"Are you like this too? Do you think you can bully me because I'm stupid?"

"What nonsense are you talking about?" The other person rubbed her head.

It was sweet at that time, but thinking about it now, the other person's smile did carry a sense of guilt.

Rather than being sad, she seemed more disappointed. She was willing to expose her belly and roll around to please the other party, but the other party was watching secretly with a pig-killing knife and came to the conclusion that it was easiest to cut from the belly.

Just like now, how much did he look down on her that after disappearing for a whole six months, he suddenly appeared in her life as if nothing had happened and said smugly: "As long as I am willing, I can satisfy you in your love life and career."

But go to hell.

Qin Yuxuan was still holding her hand. She gently pulled it away and said worriedly, "Let me think about it."

He didn't force it and nodded: "Think about it carefully, don't be in a hurry."

Gu Yunsu secretly looked at the man, trying to figure out why he did this.

What happened in the past six months that made him suddenly realize and make the decision to turn back?

She didn't believe that this man suddenly came to his senses and realized that he had feelings for her, and that she was the one he loved the most, nor did she believe that he was tempted by impulse and came to her passionately. Qin Yuxuan was a man with a better brain than heart. He made this decision, and he made it with great effort. It must be the result of careful consideration.

But why?

Gu Yunsu couldn't figure it out and was worried throughout the whole meal.

She didn't know if it was because of her mood, but this restaurant that she had longed to visit was now so disappointing. The baked rice was too dry, the pasta was too soft, and even the roast chicken that was praised by diners was dry and salty. It didn't taste at all like the restaurant that was ranked first.

Neither the people nor the food were good, and each meal was painful. It was only when Gu Yunsu walked out of the store and breathed the cold air again that she felt alive again.

The hotel Qin Yuxuan had booked was nearby, so he asked her, "Want to go for a walk?" He wanted to act like a gentleman, so he quickly explained, "I didn't mean to invite you to my place."

Gu Yunsu snorted and laughed, but didn't say anything. He nodded and said, "I'll take you back."

The two of them walked along the roadside. Under the quiet, dim street lights, the atmosphere was quite poetic.

Gu Yunsu used to like holding his hand while walking, telling him about her recent experiences along the way. He would respond from time to time, then put his arm around her and kiss her on the deserted street.

Yesterday's scene replayed itself in his mind, and his mood involuntarily softened. Gu Yunsu said nothing, kicking the stones under his feet as he walked forward.

Qin Yuxuan, on the other hand, always started his conversation by saying, "Do you remember..."

Clothes are never as good as new, friends are never as good as old. This saying goes on and on. Isn't it true that when old friends are reunited, reminiscing about the past always works?

But it is.

She suddenly thought of Gu Kangqi and Wu Limei that day. Oh, there is really no difference. No matter how old a person is, he will still be trapped by these worldly affairs.

I don't know when, the two of them stopped beside a tall poplar tree. The leaves of the poplar tree had turned yellow, and when the wind blew, a few leaves trembled and fluttered down.

"I know you resent me in your heart," Qin Yuxuan said, not even looking at her. He rubbed the soles of his shoes on the steps beside the road and laughed to himself, "You may still be scolding me for being cold and heartless in your heart."

How could that be? Gu Yunsu didn't say anything, but couldn't help but follow his expression and laughed sarcastically in his heart.

Sometimes we blame our failed relationships on meeting the wrong person, but has anyone ever thought that we also chose the wrong person ourselves, or even that he is "right" precisely because he is "wrong"? Everyone has his own skeleton, and will always like some wrong but interesting and harmful things.

In Gu Yunsu's view, cruelty is also a fascinating thing. It is so enjoyable for a person to be so selfish, unrestrained, and not care about other people's feelings.

She doesn't think she has masochistic tendencies, in fact, it's quite the opposite. After countless days and nights of thinking, she came to the conclusion that due to her living environment and upbringing, she often considers others more and herself less, and compromises in the hope of making others happy, but in the end she owes herself too much. She wants to be a carefree person who only cares about herself, but she can't do it, so when she meets such a "role model", she will be attracted unconsciously.

"But I really like you, more than anyone else." Qin Yuxuan continued, he raised his head, his narrow and long eyes flashing with a serious light.

Gu Yunsu believed that what he said at this moment was true, because there was a rare look of uneasiness on his face. Although it was concealed very well, Gu Yunsu still glimpsed a bit of the truth from his tightly pursed lips and twitching facial muscles.

But when a heartless person speaks the truth, it is very sweet.

The past infatuation seems to be revived in the body in an instant. This person is definitely a dilemma. On the one hand, you hate his frivolity, hypocrisy, selfishness and even coldness. On the other hand, your soft heart is touched by his occasional gentleness, sweetness, sincerity and vulnerability.

She knows that this is a toxic relationship and a toxic person, and she also knows that this person is not worth it, just like the confession in "The Veil": "I know you are stupid, frivolous, and brainless, but I love you. I know your goals and ideals are vulgar and ordinary, but I love you. I know you are second-rate stuff, but I love you."

She used to not understand how such love could exist in the world, but when she really encountered it, she realized that once she encountered such a thing, there was nothing she could do except wait for God's mercy.

Not to mention that he still had such a strong sexual attraction for her.

His body, his facial features, his eyes, every part of him made her feel an unspeakable desire. She wanted to touch more, possess more. He aroused more desire in her, and because she couldn't express it, the feeling was even stronger.

Like now.

He looked at her, and his whole body was like a hormone power station. Not to mention his breathing, even his eyes were hot. On such a cold late autumn night, it made people want to get closer.

He looked at her with a look she could not misunderstand.

They finally kissed each other.