Chapter 44 Something unexpected happened again
Li Jianxiong's ex-wife was arranged by his family. They were from the same hometown and knew each other's families well.
The two were young at the time and had no idea what to do. Once their parents decided on their marriage, they didn't even put up a fight and got married right away.
I originally thought that marriage was a matter of adjustment for a lifetime, and that this was how it had been for generations. But after experiencing it myself, I realized that if it’s not suitable, it’s not suitable, and no matter how much you accommodate and give in, you won’t be happy.
His ex-wife hated his gentleness and weakness, and he hated her arrogance and domineering. After three years of marriage, the two finally gave up and both breathed a sigh of relief.
Li Jianxiong's mother is a capable woman. Her husband died early, and she was the one who made decisions and handled all the big and small matters in the family. She was very disappointed with Li Jianxiong's failed marriage, but she didn't say anything and just took the initiative to take care of Li Yan.
However, Li Jianxiong was resentful that his mother had controlled him for a quarter of his life, so he decided to make his own decisions on all major life events in the future.
Therefore, his leaving his hometown to pursue his career in a foreign land, or his quick falling in love with Wu Limei, can be seen as his resistance to "power".
It’s not that his feelings for Wu Limei were not genuine. On the contrary, it was because he liked Wu Limei and subconsciously he wanted to prove that his judgment was correct, so he particularly wanted to do well in this marriage, as if he were reborn and have a perfect family again.
Therefore, he was particularly looking forward to the upcoming child, but was also very frightened because Wu Limei was really angry.
Wu Limei's anger was mild.
Li Jianxiong didn't realize it at first and thought that the other party was forgiving him because he was willing to talk to him.
But as time went by, he realized that something was wrong. She no longer looked at him tenderly or spoke to him affectionately. Wu Limei still did everything she was supposed to do, but Li Jianxiong vaguely felt that he was dispensable in his wife's eyes.
He thought that this couldn't be allowed to continue like this; the two of them still had half a lifetime to live together, so what couldn't be talked about?
He tried very hard to please his wife, and even secretly asked Gu Yunsu for advice on what he should do to make Wu Limei happy.
But just when he was carefully preparing to give Wu Limei a series of surprises, a speechless incident occurred.
Wu Limei is missing.
In other words, she did something Gu Yunsu had always wanted to do: she ran away from home.
Gu Yunsu was also stunned.
She had never expected that her mother, who would have been fine if she hadn't said anything, would have been so shocking when she spoke that she would actually do something so outrageous.
Gu Yunsu: You are worthy of me.
Li Jianxiong panicked and ran to Gu Yunsu with his phone in hand, crying, "What should I do? Meimei..."
Gu Yunsu took a closer look and found that it was a "farewell letter" that Wu Limei sent to her husband.
Wu Limei said that she had rented a house and was going to stay outside for a while to think about some things and relax. There was no need to look for her; she would come back naturally once she had sorted out everything.
But when such a living person "disappears", who can say that we should not look for him? Moreover, you are a pregnant woman, please have some awareness of being a pregnant woman and don't make others worry!
Li Jianxiong first bombarded Wu Limei on WeChat, but to no avail; he then simply called her. Wu Limei did answer the phone, but she refused to tell him where she lived. This made Li Jianxiong, a grown man, so anxious that he stamped his feet and threatened to call the police.
Wu Limei then threatened him, saying that if he really made a big deal out of it, she would divorce him.
The communication ultimately failed. Li Jianxiong hung up the phone, his forehead greasy with worry, and asked Gu Yunsu what to do.
But at this time, Gu Yunsu was still angry that Wu Limei didn't say a word to her.
It is said that a couple is one body, and an adult daughter is like water that is about to be thrown out. But after all, it is a serious matter like running away from home. If you don't tell her the truth alone, at least send a farewell message to the group? You are so careless and don't take her seriously!
From this we can see that Wu Limei still doesn't have her in her heart, only Li Jianxiong.
So what did she say wrong?
Suddenly she remembered the slap she received at the resort. Gu Yunsu felt a surge of grievance in her heart, but she was stubborn and refused to show weakness.
Li Jianxiong was still staring at her helplessly. She was upset and said perfunctorily, "How would I know?"
Li Jianxiong urged her, "Why don't you give your mother a call?"
Gu Yunsu became even angrier: "She didn't tell me at all, she only sent you a WeChat message, so if I call her, will she tell me?"
"You are her daughter after all," Li Jianxiong said, "and the only relative in this family who is related to her by blood."
But maybe in Wu Limei's heart, she didn't want to have a blood relationship with her at all.
Gu Yunsu thought.
But there is no need to tell Li Jianxiong about these complaints, right?
Gu Yunsu waved his hands, indicating that he couldn't do anything about it. Although he said that, his attitude was very obvious: he just didn't want to do anything about it.
Li Jianxiong tried to persuade her no matter what, but he finally said unhappily for the first time: "After all, she is your mother, and she is pregnant. Aren't you worried about her?"
Gu Yunsu felt extremely miserable, but she couldn't express it out loud because of her pride. When others misunderstood her, she would not explain herself, but would just pretend to be hard-hearted to make others misunderstand her even more.
So she sneered and said, "She's already grown up, who can stop her from doing anything? Besides, why do you blame me instead of yourself for not being able to keep an eye on her? If you're really worried about her, you should rather get a divorce than call the police!"
After saying this, he turned around and went back to the attic without waiting for the other party to respond.
As I walked, I thought, she is really, really good at screwing up.
The room was unusually quiet, which contrasted with the noise in Gu Yunsu's heart.
There are countless voices shouting in my head, making a lot of noise.
On the one hand, she wanted to cry, and on the other hand, she was so angry that she wanted to kill someone.
I really want to find someone to talk to, but Luo Jingjing is working overtime, and Xu Wenbin is... Talking about boyfriends, my brain, which was about to explode, is even more on the verge of exploding. It has been almost half a month since she escaped that day, and the two have not met again. They only communicate through WeChat and phone calls, but Gu Yunsu feels guilty and Xu Wenbin has a knot in his heart. The two try to be calm, but they are still awkward and hypocritical, and the more they talk, the more bored they become.
If you don't have sincerity in your relationship, it will only make you lose interest. She herself has a lot of baggage in her mind and is even more unwilling to deal with it.
It may not be long before the feelings between the two people will be ruined, and then they will be irreversibly separated.
If it were in the past, perhaps Gu Yunsu would have given in and admitted defeat. Since she couldn't get married, she could always try living together, right? The other party had already made concessions for her, so why should she refuse to give in and make him angry?
But the current Gu Yunsu is no longer the same person she used to be. The 2.0 version of Gu Yunsu understands that matters of the heart cannot be done against one's will. If you want it, you want it, and if you don't want it, you can't force it. She thinks that her relationship with Xu Wenbin is not yet ripe, and she is not willing to make hasty decisions and regret it later, so she can't convince herself to make such a compromise in order to make Xu Wenbin happy.
A counterexample is Wu Limei, who gave birth to Gu Yunsu unwillingly. As a result, she regretted it all her life and regarded herself as a victim. This harmed others and herself, and led to this awkward mother-daughter relationship and the awkward Gu Yunsu.
She still remembered her first birthday after Wu Limei's divorce. Wu Limei sang a birthday song for her, but she started crying while singing. She went to the bathroom to wipe her tears. Her second aunt who came to visit them came to comfort her. Gu Yunsu sat alone at the table, wanting to blow out the candles but not daring to, staring at the flames in a daze.
I vaguely heard my second aunt say, "It's better to send Su Su to her father to be raised! Without her, it will be much easier for you to work or... "
Gu Yunsu couldn't tell whether the fear of being abandoned started at that time. She only knew that when the two sisters finished chatting, the candles were almost burned out, and the melted wax piled up on the cake, making it look disgusting and lumpy.
After that, she no longer liked celebrating her birthday. Wu Limei was surprised and asked her why, and she made up some excuse to get away with it.
There are many similar memories. Gu Yunsu was lying on the bed, wondering how the human brain still has the classification function. When the body says "I am about to cry", the brain automatically calls up the sad clips and says "Please cry as much as you want".
Division of labor and cooperation.
"The world owes me an Oscar." She wiped her tears with a tissue and praised herself, "I must win the Fairy Tears of the Year Award."
Then there was a knock on the door, a familiar knock.
Gu Yunsu knew that it was Li Yan who came.
She responded, quickly got up, blew her nose, and went to open the door.
The person who came was indeed the perverted younger brother.
The initial embarrassment was still there, but Gu Yunsu was now too exhausted to bear it.
She asked, "What's up?"
Li Yan nodded: "I heard about Aunt Wu from my father."
"Oh." Gu Yunsu responded and turned around to sit on the small sofa.
Li Yan followed him in and sat down on the swivel chair.
Gu Yunsu looked up and was suddenly stunned.
Li Yan: "What's wrong?"
She recalled how they didn't even look at each other just a few months ago, and chuckled, "We are quite comfortable now."
I don't know if Li Yan understood or not, but he pursed his lips and didn't say anything. He glanced casually and saw the waste paper in the trash can. He looked at her again and asked her, "Are you crying?"
Gu Yunsu could feel her swollen eyes and her nasal voice. She tried to pretend that she was hiding something, so she waved her hands and said nonchalantly, "Hey, just let it out for a while."
For adults, crying is just a way of venting.
Li Yan didn't say anything, but he thought quietly for a few seconds and asked her again: "Play games?"
Gu Yunsu was a little confused, but after thinking about it for a while, he figured it out.
This person wanted to comfort her.
I couldn't help but feel warm in my heart.
She smiled and agreed, and her brother took her to kill people everywhere.
During the game, she was mocked by the enemy because of her poor performance. Li Yanren did not say much but killed the opponent 18 times, turning the opponent from a foul-mouthed hooligan into a polite and good-looking boy who would call her "Grandpa" as soon as he met her. She made an outstanding contribution to the purification of the gaming environment in our country.
Gu Yunsu sat on the ground, staggering with joy, and patted Li Yan's thigh.
Li Yan silently moved to the side.
Gu Yunsu followed again: "Do you dislike your sister?!"
Li Yan shook his head: "I'm worried that your hands will hurt."
My brother’s dry sense of humor is also very satisfying!
Gu Yunsu laughed again, then sighed: "I didn't expect that the one who comforted me would be you."
Li Yan shrugged and asked, "Another round?"
"Come!" Gu Yunsu was full of enthusiasm.