Chapter 404 The Taste of Regret
Lin Anan had a very comfortable time throughout the first month of the year. Du Juan and Chu Minglan cooked for her in various ways, fearing that she would have a poor appetite.
Neighbors often visit each other, and the relationship is much better than last year.
"Zi Huai, after you finish filing your marriage report, remember to take a photo. You will be assigned houses on the 20th, so you can print it out and put it at home, it will look nice."
"Okay."
Lin Zihuai was dressed quite formally today, wearing brand new clothes and having his hair specially cut. He looked very energetic.
Du Juan also put on makeup, braided her hair into thick pigtails, and smiled with her eyes curved.
The two of them stood there, looking indescribably perfect together.
"Sister, let's go first."
"Go ahead, go ahead."
Lin Anan leaned back in the recliner, watching Lin Zihuai helping Du Juan get on the bicycle. The sunlight shone through the snow-covered branches, casting mottled shadows on the two of them.
"Ride slower!"
"good."
Lin Anan raised her hand to block the sunlight and watched them ride away on their bicycles.
Suddenly I remembered that at this time last year, Lin Zihuai was still being silly, like a brainless fool, and now he is about to start a family.
"It's time to go to the hospital this afternoon." Chu Mingzhou's shadow fell over, covering Lin Anan completely.
He reached out to adjust the angle of the recliner for her, his fingertips brushing across her temples, "Professor Liang said that Doctor Gu returned to the Military Region General Hospital the day before yesterday, and should be on duty today."
Lin Anan looked up at him and found that he had an exquisite silver button on his collar. She designed it using an old bullet shell and asked Lin Zihuai to polish it for three days. There was a small word "An" engraved on it, which was particularly exquisite and beautiful.
I'm just asking because I'm free and want to do something naughty with Chu Mingzhou.
"Okay, then we'll leave in the afternoon. This is all trivial."
Chu Mingzhou squatted down and looked at her at eye level. The sunlight shone through the branches and leaves, weaving a golden and green web on his face: "Nothing about you is trivial."
He paused, and then said, "By the way, I heard that Dr. Gu's mother passed away a few years ago. We should also express our condolences."
The smile on Lin Anan’s face froze!
Gu Yan's mother passed away?
That's the person he cares about the most...
"What's wrong?" Chu Mingzhou saw that Lin Anan's expression was not right, so he helped her up, keeping his palm on her lower back.
"Let's go now. Brother Yan's mother was a great lesbian and also his spiritual support. She passed away. I should go see him."
"Change your clothes first." Chu Mingzhou reached out and straightened her crooked collar.
"good."
The two arrived early and it was lunch time.
Lin Anan went directly to Gu Yan's office.
The door was slightly open. When she pushed it open, she saw Gu Yan leaning against the window with a cigarette in his hand.
The second button of his white coat was undone, revealing his white collarbone. He looked out the window, not knowing what he was thinking. The cigarette between his fingers was half-burned, but he didn't smoke it. The ashes fell down like a thin layer of snow.
"Brother Yan."
Gu Yan looked up and his eyes met hers.
The cigarette at my fingertips suddenly felt like it was burning my skin...
He quickly put out his cigarette, "Why are you here at this time?"
Lin Anan noticed that the dark circles under his eyes formed a stark contrast with his fair skin.
Chu Mingzhou looked at the two of them deeply and did not move.
"Mingzhou, let me have a chat with Brother Yan."
Chu Mingzhou hummed lightly, stepped out of the door and closed it behind him.
"Brother Yan." Lin Anan opened her mouth, but the words got stuck in her throat.
Gu Yan suddenly smiled, very softly, put his hands in his pockets and returned to his seat, looking at the chair opposite him, "Sit down."
"My aunt..."
Gu Yan lowered his eyes slightly, "She passed away on New Year's Eve, and she was very peaceful when she passed away. I haven't been with her for so many years, and I feel very sorry for her."
Lin Anan's eyes were sore.
She has the original owner's memories and knows very well how important Gu's mother is to Gu Yan.
Gu's father is a well-known missile wireless technology engineer. He has been away from home for many years since he was young, and it is still the same today. He is devoted to studying missile engineering and has little affection for Gu Yan and his mother, and cares very little about them.
When Gu Yan was in adolescence, he even hated his father a little.
Gu Yan was also brought up by his mother.
Gu's mother was also very famous in Shanghai, she was a bridge designer. But no matter how busy she was, she always took care of Gu Yan herself, never asked others to do it, and always took Gu Yan with her to take care of him.
It is not an exaggeration to say that the mother and son depend on each other.
Gu Yan is not good at expressing his emotions, and he is restrained and tolerant in dealing with people and things.
The same applies to parents.
He is in a very bad state now…I guess he couldn’t even say anything considerate when Mother Gu was dying.
Over the years, he switched to studying medicine and came to the Northwest as soon as he returned to China, missing too much time with his mother.
As she thought about it, Lin Anan couldn't hold back her tears and finally fell, two drops fell on the back of her hand.
Seeing her like this, Gu Yan subconsciously reached out to wipe away her tears, but when his fingertips touched her skin, he quickly withdrew them as if they were burned.
He took out a handkerchief from the pocket of his white coat and handed it to her, "Don't cry, my mother is very sick, and it's my fault that I didn't keep her."
The clock in the clinic was ticking and the sound of a nurse pushing a cart could be heard in the corridor.
Lin Anan reached out, grasped his wrist, and gently pulled him towards her.
Gu Yan rushed forward unexpectedly and met her eyes.
"Brother Yan, I will be your family from now on."
Gu Yan's body was stiff. He looked at her with his eyes flashing. Suddenly he smiled and rubbed her head with his hand. "Thank you, An An."
"Actually, I... regret it a lot. I regret not talking to her more, and I regret always saying 'after I'm done with this'."
Lin Anan's fingertips clenched the hem of Gu Yan's white coat. The smell of disinfectant on the fabric mixed with the faint smell of tobacco on his body smelled very much like the smell of regret.
She looked up at him and found that the shadows cast by his eyelashes under his eyes were deeper than before, like two deep grooves, hiding thousands of unspoken words.
In fact, at this moment, Lin Anan really wanted to tell him that she was not the person he loved at all, and there was no need for him to give so much for her.
And he is loved by someone, his mother is, and the original owner is also...
But she couldn't say it, and didn't dare to say it.
"She knows." Lin Anan's voice was very soft and choked with sobs, "She knows how much you love her, just like she loves you."
Gu Yan's Adam's apple rolled, his eyes fell on her bulging belly, and he nodded slightly.
Lin Anan wanted to say something, but Gu Yan's emotions subsided quickly. He reached out and pulled out the file on the table, which contained her medical records. "Dry your tears and let Chu Mingzhou come in."
"Oh well."
After Chu Mingzhou entered the room, he sat next to Lin Anan, glanced at the two of them, said nothing, reached out and gently held Lin Anan's hand, squeezing it lightly, as if to silently comfort her.
Lin Anan pursed her lips and didn't mention Gu's mother again.
During the time when Gu Yan was away, Professor Liang took over Lin Anan's condition. Although Professor Liang was an expert in this field, he was not as professional as Gu Yan in treating Lin Anan's condition. After all, he specialized in Lin Anan's case.
Another series of examinations followed. Due to the pregnancy period, some machines could not be used, so all decisions depended on Gu Yan's professionalism.
"The special treatment is scheduled for June. Once you have given birth and are well again, we will start."
"OK."
"The baby is fine. When the due date approaches, you need to come to the hospital in advance."
"no problem."
"Um."
When leaving the hospital, Gu Yan sent them to the outpatient building.
Lin Anan turned around and saw his lonely figure, feeling depressed and uncomfortable.
Chu Mingzhou held her hand and comforted her softly: "Don't worry, everything will be fine."
Lin Anan nodded, "Well, I sincerely hope that Brother Yan will be fine and live a peaceful and smooth life."
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