My name is Shen Lingling. As a native Beijinger, I am a typical model of three-good youth.
Good background, good study, good personality.
Since I was a child, I have been what adults call "the other people's child."
Until...I was going to the countryside as an educated youth.
"Mom, do you really want to go?"
I asked pitifully while standing at the entrance of the train station, carrying large and small bags of things.
"Yes, we must go, and hurry up, or we will miss the train if we don't go in."
Miss Wang suppressed her reluctance and took her precious daughter towards the train station.
There's nothing we can do. If she shows any reluctance, Lingling will start crying. It's better not to make the child cry in such a hot day.
"oh……"
When my mother said this, I knew there was no room for maneuver. In order not to put them in a difficult position, I boarded the train to Liaoning Province with a nervous heart under the eager gaze of my parents.
The first day... Yeah, it was ok~
The next day...this female comrade named Lu Wensheng is so amazing!
On the third day...I want to follow her!
In just these three days, I happily invested the rest of my life in it.
From then on, I was almost inseparable from her, learning how she behaved, her attitude towards life, and her ruthless methods in dealing with the worst.
That kind of full and passionate soul is so attractive.
It seemed like it wasn't just me. I saw that Lu Hao and Han Muchen, who went to the countryside with me, also got involved.
The days passed one by one, and just when I thought it would be nice to live a peaceful and stable life in the countryside, God played a joke on me...
I was reborn! I was reborn in the summer when I first went to the countryside.
Maybe it was because I experienced inhuman treatment in my previous life, so my heart was full of hatred when I came back, and my broken soul was already riddled with holes. If it weren't for the desire for revenge, I would have died long ago.
But it was Shengsheng's appearance that pulled me back from the darkness.
She would comfort me, care about me, feel sorry for me, help me get revenge, make me happy, and even find some lame excuses to hide Xiaoguang's existence from me.
But... she was not like this in her previous life. In my memory, she was timid and kind, completely different from the cunning and intense girl in front of me.
If I hadn't been sure that she wasn't her, I would have thought she was also reborn.
But as time went by, I was really afraid that Shengsheng would die in Li Laizi's house like in her previous life, so I confessed.
She told him all about her experiences and her ending in her previous life.
What I didn't expect was that she had no doubt about my "Arabian Nights" and even quickly accepted all of its contents.
What was even more surprising was that when she learned about her tragic death in her previous life, she was not moved at all, as if... she had known it for a long time.
From then on, I boldly speculated that if she knew the ending of all of us, would she no longer be herself?
Apart from this, I can't find any other reason to explain a person's drastic change in temperament.
But so what? I still like her very much and want to take care of her.
To put it bluntly, although my age in both lifetimes combined is enough to make me her mother, the fact is: she is still protecting me...
This realization sometimes makes me feel a little frustrated, so I can only be extra nice to her and take care of everything for her within my ability!
Later, I found that something was wrong with Han Muchen. Although he didn't say it directly, I could still feel that his identity was not just an educated youth.
So I will avoid him intentionally or unintentionally, but...
The more you hide, the harder it is to hide. Under his subtle influence, I actually developed different feelings for him.
How can we talk about love when we haven't avenged ourselves from our previous life?
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I will never forget that night when Shengsheng took me to the farm to meet Chen Shanhe.
When I saw him struggling hard in the pit, the breath I had been holding in my heart disappeared as his body gradually relaxed.
It was as if a heavy burden had been lifted off my shoulders and I didn't know what to do. Fortunately, Shengsheng was by my side.
Feeling the warmth in my palms, I clenched them tighter. This was the only salvation I could grasp.
She didn't say anything, just quietly pulled me down the mountain. When I came to my senses, I leaned on her shoulder and cried loudly, like a child who finally found a home after wandering for a long time.
Later...we returned to the city.
The night she married Shen Qingchen, I secretly hid in the quilt and cried for a long time, secretly hating myself for not being a man.
Later, I got married to Han Muchen because he followed Shen Qingchen's example and gave me his house and savings.
Most importantly, Shengsheng said: "Give birth to a daughter and marry her to my son. After they get married, we can live together!"
So I agreed, fantasizing that when we were old, after Han Muchen and Shen Qingchen had died, Shengsheng and I would return to the Ping'an Brigade to spend the rest of our lives.
The village chief said that the house we built will always be kept, and we can go back to visit it when we are tired. It will always be our home!
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