Song Lingdang took a deep breath, suppressed the sadness rolling in her throat, and slowly calmed her emotions that were almost on the verge of collapse.
It’s not that she doesn’t want to divorce, but that she can’t.
To Song Lingdang, she is an educated student, a girl who has received modern education, and an independent woman loved by her parents.
In her opinion, there is no such thing as "husband is the heaven".
Nor do they think divorce is a shameful thing like traditional women do.
In Song Lingdang's worldview...
Marriage should be based on mutual consent, and it should be the stimulation of love between a woman and a man that makes people enter into marriage.
And her marriage...
It is more like a redemption in this era.
She had to marry Lu Jianmin in order to survive.
There is no so-called love between them, not even basic familiarity.
When two people like this are put together, even if they are officially considered "husband and wife", their life will still be numb.
Even after getting married, Song Lingdang still couldn't develop any romantic feelings for Lu Jianmin for such a long time.
The child in her belly was another major reason why she was unwilling to stay in this marriage.
But the child died shortly after birth...
Song Lingdang felt completely disheartened at that time...
She even thought that it would be better to follow in her parents' footsteps, perhaps she would be happier that way.
Although the thought of suicide only flashed through my mind.
But it also shows that no matter how hard life is, Song Lingdang is unwilling to compromise in this marriage.
So, he filed for divorce from Lu Jianmin.
Late that night.
When Lu Jianmin heard the word "divorce", he was shocked at first, and then sneered sarcastically.
"Song Lingdang, you dare to ask me for a divorce? Hahahaha... Ridiculous, what a joke... If it weren't for me, you would have been dead like your parents for who knows how long..."
"I, Lü Jianmin, give you a house to live in, food to eat, and everything you have is given by me. You stinky bitch, you actually dared to ask for a divorce from me? You must be tired of living."
"I'm telling you. It's impossible for you to divorce me. It's impossible in this lifetime! You'd better give up on me as soon as possible!"
In addition to his sarcasm, Lu Jianmin also showed his angry and violent side.
After Song Lingdang still insisted on divorce.
The man raised his fist and punched Song Lingdang hard.
The man's rough fist landed heavily on a woman who had just given birth and was heartbroken.
One by one.
In the dark night, there was a muffled sound.
Inside the cabin.
Recalling what happened that night, Song Lingdang couldn't help but shed tears again.
She said crying.
"That was the first time he hit me, and it was also the first time I saw his true face... It hurt... It really hurt... But the physical pain wasn't the most fatal..."
"I just want a divorce. My parents are gone, my child is gone, and I have no feelings for him at all. Living under the same roof is torture. I really just want a divorce..."
"But he told me that he's a soldier and I'm just an ordinary civilian, and I even have a blemish on my record. I think divorce is impossible!"
This marriage was burdened with a heavy burden.
Song Lingdang tried desperately to open it.
But I can't open it.
Instead, they fell into an even more serious dead end.
Lu Jianmin's words "I am a soldier" blocked all chances for Song Lingdang to survive.
It was also on that night that she suffered a blow even more severe than the death of her child.
and……
With Lu Jianmin's rough attitude, a fist flew over and landed on Song Lingdang's temple.
Her head was buzzing...
The heartbreak recorded in the medical records and the severe blow suffered by the body all fell on Song Lingdang.
It was after that day that she gradually began to lose her mind...
Song Lingdang could always vaguely hear the crying of a child in the middle of the night.
As long as the crying continues...
Then her child would still be alive!
Live!
Must still be alive!
Song Lingdang was so sure in her heart that she ignored Lu Jianmin's rude obstruction and began to look for the child.
Those memories of loss of consciousness were vague to Song Lingdang.
She just... vaguely remembered that Lu Jianmin seemed to have stuffed something into her arms.
Lu Jianmin said in annoyance, "This is your child! Don't go out and embarrass me! The child is afraid of the dark and can only stay indoors! The child is not in good health and can't go out to get exposed to the wind!"
Lu Jianmin said many similar things.
After hugging the "child", Song Lingdang began to mutter and repeat what Lu Jianmin said.
Can't go out of the house, the darkness will scare the children...
Children cannot be exposed to the wind, and all doors and windows must be closed...
Don't let the child get in the sun, or he will disappear...
During those days, Song Lingdang spent every night in such agony.
When it's more serious.
Just like last night...
Lu Jianmin would tie her up with ropes in the small kitchen, preventing her from moving at all.
The only thing Song Lingdang could do was to learn the sounds in her memory and cry like a child.
As long as the crying is there, her child is there.
However.
Song Lingdang woke up during the day, and even though she realized that she was mentally ill, she was powerless to change the current situation because she could not do anything.
divorce……
It was something that was out of her reach.
So now when Qiao Anle talked about it, Song Lingdang just shed tears and shook her head in despair.
"That's impossible. That's impossible... As long as Lu Jianmin doesn't agree, the higher-ups won't approve the divorce."
The energy that Song Lingdang had slightly recovered earlier completely disappeared at this moment.
She was as pale and fragile as a broken glass doll.
Covered with scars.
Qiao Anle finally understood everything, but he also heard a huge problem in it.
"Lingling, you said... Lu Jianmin is a soldier?"
Qiao Anle frowned and asked in disbelief.
Song Lingdang asked back with tears in her eyes, "Isn't it?"
It was because of this identity that she married Lu Jianmin!
"Of course not!"
Qiao Anle said firmly.
In this way.
Song Lingdang was completely stunned, tears welling up in her eyes, but at this moment she seemed to be frozen in shock.
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