Differences
If this is true, it would be difficult for her to get close to Ding Zheng. Betrayal is definitely a matter of once bitten by a snake, ten years of fear of straw ropes. If she forces it, she might not even be able to maintain their current relationship.
Xu Nian put aside his desire to be good friends with Ding Zheng, and the two of them got along well.
In April, the grass is green and the birds are singing. The gray mud walls and tiles suddenly have colors. Xu Nian finally dared to change into a thin shirt with confidence. She usually didn't notice it because she was wrapped in thick clothes. But today, when she put on a sweater, she found that her chest was not just a small arc, but obviously had the soft curves of a girl.
She gestured in the room and chuckled. In her previous life, she was good in every way except that her breasts were a little small. With the rapid development of the Internet and the improvement of women's consciousness, we no longer make a fuss about discussing breasts. For a slightly wealthy family like theirs, the family would start to take care of the baby when it was just beginning to develop.
Xu Nian has a fake sister. When she was 18 years old and had her coming-of-age ceremony, she wore a bright red off-shoulder dress with a wrapped chest. Her big breasts, thin waist and perky butt were so beautiful. That kind of figure would be very attractive not only to boys but also to girls.
She was on par with her plastic sisters in every way, but after that night, when people discussed her again, they would add that Xu Nianmei was beautiful, but her figure was a little lacking.
These words made Xu Nian very depressed. She had secretly eaten a lot of papaya stewed with milk, but in reality, it turned out that this recipe was really ineffective.
She lowered her head and looked at herself again, then thought of Xu Le and Xu's mother. She felt that genes were indeed powerful.
Meimei went out to school, and Xu Hongqi didn't know why she was so happy. You know, few normal people would stare at other people's private parts. Besides, they stayed together every day, so it was difficult for them to see anything.
Before entering the school, Xu Nian hummed at Xu Hongqi, which made Xu Hongqi confused. However, time for school was tight, so after seeing others enter the school, he quickly pedaled away on his bike.
When she picked someone up that evening, Xu Nian said very little on the way home. Before Xu Hongqi could even sit down, he started asking, "What's wrong with you? Are you unhappy today?"
Xu Nian looked at him worriedly and shook his head.
"So what happened? What happened?"
Xu Nian sighed, "Our teacher told us today that the second mock exam has been conducted, and asked us to think carefully about which school to apply for in the college entrance examination based on our results."
The two of them had been busy with their studies and life for the past six months and had really forgotten about this issue. Xu Nian saw Xu Hongqi in deep thought and thought that she was probably the only one who had really forgotten about this.
The main reason was that she was stubborn in her first two college entrance examinations and applied for Renmin University as her first choice. Later, she subconsciously believed that she would go to this school in the future. It was not until the teacher mentioned it today that she realized whether she should continue with her original choice.
Xu Hongqi is only a junior at this stage, and he seems to be developing very well here. She has heard him say several times in casual conversation that his tutor has made an exception and is taking him to do experiments and projects. It seems that he will have to take the postgraduate entrance examination and the doctoral entrance examination. This is something Xu Nian is happy to see, and she sincerely hopes that Xu Hongqi will get better and better.
This also led her to think about the conflict between her own future and his plans.
"What do you think?"
Xu Hongqi suddenly spoke, startling Xu Nian.
Seeing her tremble, Xu Hongqi immediately touched Xu Nian's head and stroked it three times.
"What are you thinking about? You're so absorbed."
The first few times Xu Hongqi still comforted her, but when he touched her again later, she felt like a kitten having his fur stroked.
I pushed his hand away and said, "I'm confused. I don't know where to go to college after the college entrance examination."
"Or, you can give me some reference."
Xu Hongqi said without hesitation, "Stay and be my junior."
Xu Nian had thought about this today, but he was too decisive. Didn't he even ask for her opinion?
"Why don't you ask me where I want to go?"
Xu Hongqi smiled and said, "Aren't you confused?"
"Then why don't you ask me what major I want to study!" Xu Nian's tone seemed to contain the grievance of being ignored.
Xu Hongqi said clearly, "You want to study journalism and communication in college."
After saying this, he looked Xu Nian in the eyes again and said with a hint of temptation: "Niannian, our school also has a journalism department, and it is backed by the military. We are known as the military academy's art soldiers. It will be very good for your future employment and development."
Xu Nian was a little stunned by his frankness. She said dryly, "But your school has only been established for a short time, and it's a bit too formal. I'm afraid I won't be able to adapt. I've also thought about my future. I'm not a serious person, so I'll probably focus more on entertainment activities."
Xu Hongqi took a step closer to her and said, "Niannian, your birthday will be in two months. On your eighteenth birthday, I will ask your parents for permission for us to date."
Xu Nian felt a little awkward, and had an indescribable feeling. She didn't know how to answer. She was usually very talkative, but when it came to the real thing, she felt a little panicked.
"I support your work plans, and I'm confident I can ensure you don't suffer in life. I'd rather give you the money I earn to do what you enjoy. If you don't want to work and want to stay home, I'm happy for that too. As for the future, as long as you're by my side, you don't have to worry about anything."
Xu Nian should have been moved after hearing this, and of course she was moved, but she also found the reason why she couldn't express that feeling. It seemed that in Xu Hongqi's words, she just had to rely on him, and she just had to follow him and listen to him. He was willing to use money, and maybe even have the power in the future, to support her.
But she is not really the Xu Nian living in the 1970s. Her soul is that of the 21st century. Her thoughts have been influenced by countless strong women and independent women. Faced with Xu Hongqi like this, she feels that he does not respect her from the bottom of his heart.
If her adoptive mother asked her to arrange a marriage, she would agree, but her adoptive mother's request was cold and emotionless from the beginning. She agreed more out of gratitude for raising her or as a threat.
Xu Hongqi is different. She has truly put in all the efforts she could in this barren world for him, so she hopes in her heart that Xu Hongqi really likes her, respects her, loves her, and does the best he can for her.
So when she came to her senses, she looked at him uncomfortably and said, "Xu Hongqi, you are selfish."
Xu Hongqi's eyes trembled, but he still stared into Xu Nian's eyes.
"Yes, I'm selfish. I don't want you to leave. I just want us to stay together. I'm 90% sure I'll thrive here, but if I go somewhere else, I'll have to start all over again."
"..., Nian Nian, I'll be scared."
"What are you afraid of?"
He seemed to have difficulty speaking, but knew he had to say it, "I'm afraid that my efforts won't be enough to hold you anymore. I'm afraid that at this point you'll have other choices. I'm afraid that you'll leave me in the end."
Xu Nian shook his head, "No, you forgot what I said, we will be fine in the future."
Xu Hongqi's expression remained unchanged. "But I just want to make sure of the present."
Xu Nian was speechless for a moment. She knew she couldn't convince Xu Hongqi.
Xu Nian slept uneasily the whole night. She didn't understand why a single choice of major made both of them so sad. She wondered if she didn't have enough knowledge and was therefore too superficial in her considerations, or if the two of them were too naive and stubborn.
The next day at school, Xu Hongqi was no different from usual, but Xu Nian didn't want to talk. However, she didn't know who could help her solve her doubts. She had been here for almost five years and only had three or four good friends, but they were all too far away from her and their feelings were just as naive. It was hard to say whether she had already digested the things she had written to her by the time she got back to her.
During evening study, she lay on the table with a pen and scribbled unconsciously. She sighed several times without realizing it, which made Ding Zheng next to her upset. She became more and more irritated as she did math problems.
"Hey, that's enough. If you keep sighing, I'll tell the teacher directly."
Xu Nian turned around with a pitiful look in his eyes, "Ding Zheng, why are you like this? You are an adult, and you still argue with me, a child."
Ding Zheng rolled her eyes, a little speechless.
Xu Nian was irritable and bored. She needed someone to talk to, so she said sarcastically, "A beauty is indeed a beauty. She looks good even when she rolls her eyes."
Ding Zheng was a little happy, but mostly overwhelmed, "You're done."
Xu Nian couldn't stop talking, "Ding Zheng, have you decided which university you want to apply to?"
Ding Zheng was stunned for a moment when she asked, "I guess it's just here, or at most the provincial capital."
She started talking, and Xu Nian was even less likely to stop. "Is there a major you like here?"
"Yes and no." Ding Zheng said vaguely.
Xu Nian felt that if there was anyone else in a similar situation to her, it would probably be Ding Zheng.
"Then let me ask you a question." He leaned in close, not caring whether the other person refused or not, and asked in a low voice, "If your husband didn't want you to leave him to go to school, would you agree?"
Ding Zheng looked at her in surprise, thinking she knew something, but then she thought it was impossible. How could Xu Nian know about their family affairs?
Then something suddenly clicked in her mind, and she felt as if she understood.
She wasn't like the others. She believed whatever Xu Nian said, like the boy who came to pick her up every day was her brother. She didn't believe them. What brother could look at his sister with such possessiveness? And what sister...
"Ding Zheng, I'm asking you."
"Do you have any ideals, or is there anything you desperately want to do?" After what happened to Ding Zheng, she thought she was not very good at judging people, but she had been with Xu Nian for two months. She felt that Xu Nian was not a very persevering person, and was very lazy. He seemed to be used to being at ease, and occasionally he was very opinionated. If she was cold on the outside but warm on the inside, then Xu Nian was warm on the outside but cold on the inside. People like him would not care about many things.
Xu Nian thought for a moment and replied, "No." Everything she was thinking about and wanting to do was just a budding idea. She wasn't sure if she could stick to it or succeed, and she was also very afraid of trouble, so no matter how deeply she thought about it, she just couldn't.
Ding Zheng was still confused about her own affairs and didn't want to say much, so she spoke a few words based on her intuition.
"If you have it, just follow your heart. No matter what happens along the way, at least you won't have any regrets."
"If you don't have it, find someone capable to take you away. No matter what happens, at least there will be someone to support you." This was straightforward enough, and Xu Nian felt that she understood.
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