Chapter 52 Gritting Your Teeth and Persevering
"That's right. The old Shen Cuifen would never have been so violent. She was always smiling and speaking softly to everyone. She had such a good temper."
"She lived in Daqiao Village for more than ten years, and no one ever saw her argue or quarrel with anyone. She never even chased after a chicken and cursed at it."
"But that day her head was wrapped up like a rice dumpling, with layers of gauze wrapped around it, and blood was seeping out. Several people saw it with their own eyes, it was terrifying."
So everyone was saying behind her back that Shen Cuifen's brain had probably been damaged by that blow.
The person is a bit out of it, their mind is not right.
Some say she's gone mad with fear, others say she's gone mad with anger.
Some people say that she was so badly beaten by Lu Weidong that she lost her mind and became a completely different person.
From that day on, the news that Shen Cuifen had "gone mad" spread like wildfire.
Adults and children alike were gossiping behind their backs; even a three-year-old knew about it.
"Don't mess with Shen Cuifen, she's crazy, she'd dare to hit someone."
Even the story of her grabbing Luo Qinqin in public and throwing off her underwear has been circulated in exaggerated and outlandish ways.
Some people say she chased Luo Qinqin around the village three times with scissors.
When Shen Cuifen heard these rumors, she just gave a wry smile.
She gazed at the gradually darkening sunset on the horizon, her mind clear and calm.
In the past, Lu Weidong would beat her as casually as eating or drinking.
He would resort to violence at the slightest disagreement, whether he was drunk or sober, and afterwards he would make her kneel down and apologize.
Back then, nobody cared, nobody asked, and even the neighborhood committee was too lazy to come and mediate, only saying, "It's a couple's business; they fight in bed and make up in bed."
But now that she finally dares to stand up, fight back, and expose the truth, everyone says she's gone mad?
Ah, so the silence of the weak is "normal".
Rebellion, on the other hand, is what constitutes "madness."
"I should have done this a long time ago!"
"The sooner I succumb, the sooner I'll be free! I'll never let those people step on my head and live a better life than me again!"
Ever since the day I was reborn and first hit Lu Weidong.
Shen Cuifen felt the tightness in her chest finally dissipate completely.
She should have fought back the first time he laid a hand on her.
Back then, she was young and soft-hearted, always thinking that if she just endured it, it would pass; if she was beaten once, she could have a stable home in return.
But what is the truth?
Instead of understanding, they received even more humiliation and trampling in return.
If she had resisted earlier and woken up sooner, none of the subsequent series of terrible things would have happened.
You won't be tormented to the point of physical and mental exhaustion, and you won't wait until late-stage cervical cancer to get checked.
She still remembers the day she was diagnosed with cancer.
She was completely stunned, lying on the hospital bed with cold hands and feet, her mind blank.
The first thing Lu Weidong said when he rushed into the ward was a fierce question.
"Did you get this disease because you couldn't stand being alone and messed around with other women?"
The doctor, unable to bear it any longer, walked over with a cold face and explained in a serious tone.
"This is a common gynecological disease, related to personal hygiene and immunity, not a matter of conduct."
Lu Weidong then awkwardly shut his mouth.
But the disdain and disgust in her eyes are still etched in Shen Cuifen's mind.
Looking back now, that guy probably thought from the beginning that it was some kind of shameful, dirty disease.
He wasn't afraid of her dying.
Rather, he feared that if she died at home, it would bring bad luck and affect his ability to marry a new wife in the future.
It's both laughable and pathetic.
From this day forward, Shen Cuifen made up her mind never to wrong herself again!
"Cuifen, I'm sorry... I didn't tell you about Luo Qinqin right away."
Fan Erni lowered her head, her voice tinged with guilt.
She knew that Shen Cuifen must have overheard her private conversation with Luo Qinqin.
People have always treated her like a sister, but she kept this matter a secret, and she felt really guilty about it.
Shen Cuifen waved her hand gently, a faint smile on her face.
"Actually, I already knew, so you don't need to blame yourself."
Fan Erni was startled and looked up at her abruptly.
She felt that Shen Cuifen was too calm, to an abnormal degree.
This is completely unlike the Shen Cuifen who used to be easily angered and had a fiery temper.
But she didn't know that someone who had died once in their past life had a completely different heart.
To die for Lu Weidong?
impossible.
That kind of selfish, cold-blooded, and ungrateful man is not worth her even a fraction of her affection.
In her past life, she endured humiliation and toiled for him for half her life, only to be met with indifference in return.
In her last moments before she died, she was still thinking about whether she hadn't done enough.
But in this life, she finally understood.
The fault was never hers, but that family's and that person's.
What I couldn't do in my past life, I certainly won't do in this one!
She would never again risk her life for someone who wasn't worth it.
Now, Shen Cuifen just wants to treat herself well, take it one day at a time, and live a clear-headed and joyful life.
I will no longer feel sad for these vampires, nor will I feel heartbroken for their scheming and indifference.
Her life belongs only to herself.
"Cuifen, you must hold on!"
Fan Erni held her hand, her eyes slightly red.
"Didn't that shameless guy just now want evidence? If you really want to break up with Lu Weidong, and make a scene at the brigade level, I'll be your witness!"
"Just get a divorce! Stop torturing yourself!"
She knew how much suffering Shen Cuifen had endured, and she also knew how difficult this family was to deal with.
But she knew even more clearly that only when Shen Cuifen herself figured things out could she truly move on.
Seeing Fan Erni's anxious expression, Shen Cuifen felt a surge of warmth in her heart.
In this world, there are still people who truly care about her.
"Don't worry, I've figured it out now, I won't be foolish anymore."
She said softly.
Fan Erni nodded with some doubt.
She hoped that Shen Cuifen had truly let go, rather than just putting on a brave face.
Knowing that Shen Cuifen was going back to her parents' home, she didn't try to keep her any longer.
He could only watch as Shen Cuifen led her two children away into the distance.
Fan Erni stood at the door, gazing at that thin but straight spine, and sighed softly.
She only hoped that this time Shen Cuifen could truly live for herself.
Because she knew in her heart that Shen Cuifen was the kind of person who would never complain even if she suffered.
No matter how painful it is, I grit my teeth and bear it.
No matter how difficult it is, I'll bear it all alone.
This time, however, she really hoped that Shen Cuifen could fight for herself and risk her life.
Fan Erni turned around and went back to the riverbank, where she continued to squat down and scrub the pile of dirty clothes in her hands.
The river water was cool, and the foam shimmered in the sunlight.
As she vigorously scrubbed the stains on the hem of her clothes, she coldly glanced at the empty space left by Luo Qinqin after she finished washing the clothes.
The red plastic basin lay forlornly tilted on the riverbank.
A few wet vegetable leaves were still stuck to the bottom of the bowl.
She stared at the pot for a while, a slight smile playing on her lips.
Suddenly, he raised his right foot, hooked his toe, and the basin slid down the slope into the river.
With a splash, a circle of water rose up, and then it was slowly pushed downstream by the current.
Several women who were washing clothes nearby glanced at her upon seeing this.
They lowered their heads and continued washing their clothes.
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