"Sister Xia Xia? Why don't you go in and sleep, and by the way... keep Brother Mo company."
Ningxia looked at him. Lin Yi felt a little uncomfortable. This was his first time as an accomplice. "Sangsang and I are not sleepy yet. We need to play for a while before we come in to sleep."
"Well, I'll rest first. Don't play too late."
Lin Yi looked at Ningxia's back, and he finally realized that Brother Mo, although he seemed to be at the bottom of the food chain, was actually in the clouds!
But Sangsang refused to listen and insisted on challenging Mo Ge. He didn't want to be beaten and wanted to stand right next to Mo Ge.
"You... fell asleep?" Ningxia got on the bed quietly and couldn't help but ask the iron bed.
"No." Mo Guanshan's faint voice came from the other end.
Ningxia heard his coldness and lowered her eyelids. "Then go to sleep quickly. I've left some pancakes for you in the pot. You can heat them up yourself tomorrow." After saying that, she turned around and closed her eyes.
Mo Guanshan sat up slowly. Ningxia heard him sigh, and then his bitter voice came.
"I should have thought of this earlier... When I left without saying goodbye, it was over between us..."
Ningxia felt a tightness in her heart.
Mo Guanshan continued, "In such a turbulent time, I should have been content to be able to love you for a few years... I heard about you at the trading post and learned that you were doing well and had adopted two lovely children. And... Le Zheng is also very outstanding...
I shouldn't have disturbed your life, but I couldn't let go, and I wasn't willing to give up, so I thought I'd give it a try, maybe we were destined to be together."
Ningxia frowned tightly, "Sangsang is talking nonsense."
Mo Guanshan smiled, "I know Sangmei is just a child and doesn't know what she's talking about, but Ning... Ningxia, Sangsang immediately enlightened me.
You were living a good life, but I was the one who shamelessly used the gift money as an excuse to stay. I know you're soft-hearted, and I'm sure you're soft-hearted. I thought that one day you'd be fed up with me, and then we'd go back to the way we were before.
What am I doing? Just like before, you kindly saved me and took me in, but I still begged and pleaded to be with you. Just as we finally connected, I left you and ran away again...
Now, am I going to let that happen again? Hurt you again? You're living a good life now. You have lovely siblings, friends, a mentor, and a whole army of people who look after you.
I was self-righteous and wanted to be with you, not to let you be lonely. But in fact, I was selfish and lonely.
Mo Guanshan laughed softly when he said this, and it was obvious that he was relieved. Ningxia heard him breathe a sigh of relief and thought to herself that something was wrong.
"I've figured it out now. You know I'm homeless, and you remember our past affection, so you can't bear to reject me, just like when you adopted those two children.
I shouldn't have taken advantage of your softness to stay with me and tried to coax you into doing something, just like when you couldn't stand my constant hesitating and agreed to be with me.
I...I hope you can live a happy and carefree life for the rest of your life, Ningxia. Not be trapped in the high walls I built in the name of love but in reality it is a bondage."
Listening to Mo Guanshan twisting the fact that he loved him into a soft-hearted compromise, Ningxia felt a surge of anger in her heart, unable to stop it, and she sat up suddenly.
"So, you think I'm a living Bodhisattva who saves people from suffering? I took you in out of a soft heart, and I was soft-hearted to be with you, and now I'm soft-hearted to keep you at home, right? Do you think that if anyone else comes to do this, I will treat them the same way I treat you, right? Because I'm soft-hearted?"
Mo Guanshan smiled and pretended to be generous, "Don't be angry, I'm leaving early tomorrow morning, and before I leave I will try the pork pie you made.
You don't have to worry about me. Morning's military camp treats me like a treasure. I'm having a very good time in there. You... take your younger brothers and sisters with you, and come to me if you have any difficulties.
Of course, it would be best if there weren't any difficulties. We could just treat each other as friends. Come visit me often, and I'll... treat you well." His tone was filled with deliberately feigned cheerfulness.
Ningxia's eyes suddenly turned red. She got out of bed, stood in front of Mo Guanshan, and reached out to grab Mo Guanshan's collar tightly.
Her movements were so swift and smooth that Mo Guanshan was taken aback. "What's wrong? Did I...did I say something wrong to upset you?"
Ningxia gnashed her teeth and said, "Mo Guanshan!" The hatred in her voice was very obvious.
"You were the one who provoked me first! You, a top student from a military academy, shamelessly clung to me, an unwanted orphan. I thought I had finally found a companion! But you left without even saying goodbye! Two years, two whole years!
I was worried all day that you would die and no one would collect your body. I finally decided to let it go, but you died again!
I tried to digest those emotions, trying to convince myself, did I ever blame you? Didn't I say something to you?
Why are you pretending to be pitiful here? It's like I'm so cold-hearted that I've let you down for your touching and self-sacrificing love!
Mo Guanshan felt a panic when he heard the sob in the girl's voice, and then he felt a deep regret that he shouldn't have been so impatient and forced her.
He hurriedly hugged her, "Ningxia! Ningning, I was wrong! Don't cry, please don't cry..."
Ningxia tried hard to open her eyes, but the other party held her too tightly. She felt the power in her heart soften in his arms, and she raised her hand to wipe her face casually.
"It's up to you. I'm really tired. It's my own fault for not loving myself. I've fallen in love with you, but I can't forget you. I really don't know how to deal with this feeling. Just go away. It's really a good idea for each of us to be well."
Mo Guanshan was stunned by the huge surprise. He lifted Ningxia's head forcefully, "Ningning, are you serious? You... you still like me?! I, I'm so happy..."
Before he could finish his words, Mo Guanshan felt his fingers touch something wet. He panicked like crazy, "Ningning... don't cry... I'm sorry, I'm sorry! Don't cry... It's my fault, it's all my fault, love..."
Hearing Mo Guanshan's voice choking with sobs, Ning Xia almost laughed out of anger, "Why are you crying?"
Mo Guanshan gently wiped the tears from her face. "It's my fault for making you cry. I won't leave, even if you kill me. I want to stay by your side forever!"
Ningxia said nothing, sniffed softly, and tried hard to suppress the sobs that were about to come out of her throat.
Mo Guanshan gently stroked her face, and the tenderness in Ningxia's invisible eyes almost overflowed.
He gently pressed his lips against Ningxia's smooth face, then separated them. Their bodies were very close to each other, and Mo Guanshan spoke softly, his voice full of joy, his clear and pleasant breath spraying on Ningxia's face.
"Ningning, I'm so happy. I'm so afraid that this is just wishful thinking. Ningning, I love you..."
The last syllable disappeared on the two people's lightly touching lips.
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