Chapter 436 (Catching Bugs)
Her head still hurt, but when the other person handed the cup of water to her mouth, Yun Mian lowered her head and drank it obediently.
Maybe because she was not feeling well, she did not have the energy to do anything provocative. She just sat on the bed, holding the pig doll in her arms and drinking water obediently.
Piglet doll?
Yun Mian was slightly stunned, and turned her head to ask the person sitting beside the bed: "Why did you give me this?"
Doesn’t it mean that these things don’t belong to me?
System: ...Just now I thought Mianmian was well-behaved, but it turned out that I was having an illusion.
A kid who can ruin the atmosphere with just one sentence.
Yun Jinyi did not really confront her daughter. She looked up at the pig doll that the child was holding subconsciously. Seeing Yun Mian's defensive look, she said gently, "This is newly bought."
Without waiting for Yun Mian to say anything more hurtful, Yun Jinyi continued, "No matter which memory you were in, I never treated you differently. Whether it was game coins, photos, or dolls... these things were all left behind after different Mian Mian owned them."
Yun Mian was a little confused. She didn’t understand what Yun Jinyi wanted to express by saying this.
But she didn't need to be too confused, because the other party quickly gave the answer.
Yun Jinyi said softly: "So Mianmian, you will also have what you have in your other memories."
Some Mians have many dolls, some can leave photos, and some can draw beautiful flower pots by themselves.
So what does this Mianmian have?
Yun Mian was unusually confused. She found that not only did she not understand what was said, but her heart was also beating faster for no apparent reason.
Yun Mian was in a daze and wondered if this body of hers had a terrible heart disease.
Before she could figure it out, she was wrapped in a thick blanket and fell into a familiar embrace.
"What... are you going to do?" Yun Mian nervously grasped the clothes on her shoulders. She vaguely guessed something in her mind, but quickly denied it.
Impossible, what belongs to me... I am different from other Mians.
I don't want anything that belongs only to me.
Thinking of this, Yun Mian calmed down, pursed her lips, leaned her head on the other's shoulder, and yawned unenthusiastically.
She didn't care much about what this person would take her to see.
Even though the ball of light always looked mysterious, she didn't care.
Because her head was aching slightly, she simply cleared her mind and watched the other person carry her out and then go downstairs. There was no one downstairs. Yunmian didn't see other people in the house, but she did see a cat. However, the cat was very cool. When it saw them coming down, it wagged its tail listlessly like Yunmian, and didn't even meow.
Go out the door and walk back.
Before turning the corner, Yunmian smelled a very rich and familiar fragrance.
She was stunned for a moment, then followed her inner thoughts and looked up reflexively.
Then, his eyes widened in amazement at the roses blooming in the yard in the cold wind of late autumn.
So beautiful!
Yun Mian stared blankly at the colorful roses in the garden and was unable to come back to her senses for a long time.
It's not a flower that accidentally popped out from the railing of someone else's house, but rather a flower that is clustered and scattered all over the garden.
They swayed in the cold wind, so beautiful that Yunmian couldn't help holding her breath just by looking at them.
Yun Jinyi put the stunned little girl in her arms on a chair in the corner of the garden, and sat with her to look at the flowers that had been brought in and planted in just half a day.
It took Yunmian a long time to come back to her senses.
She opened her mouth and wanted to say something, but looking at the garden full of roses, she didn't know what to say.
A player once told Yunmian that politeness means saying "hello", "please", "thank you" and "sorry".
But Yunmian never said that.
She wondered if she should say thank you now.
But she couldn't say it.
The child sat on the stool, clenched his fingers a little helplessly, and glanced secretly at the people around him again and again.
Is this something that belongs only to me?
Although I don’t have what other Mianmian have, other Mianmian... don’t seem to have owned these flowers either.
Yun Mian didn’t know how to describe her complicated and helpless mood at the moment. She really had no expectations.
She had no expectations from the beginning for her mother and for this new world that was completely different from the game, and she always denied her own existence and value.
But when someone really waited for me outside the door for a whole night, someone forcibly hugged me and wrapped me in a quilt to sleep for a whole night, someone rubbed my head with fragrant bubbles in the shower... and I got natural hugs again and again.
Yunmian would still secretly rejoice in her heart like a thief.
It was as if she had obtained something that did not belong to her, and no one would notice and no police would arrest her.
But now she suddenly had a garden full of flowers.
The flower was so beautiful and fragrant that she was afraid it would wither if she reached out her hand and touched it gently.
Just like a poor miser was suddenly given a mountain of golden treasure, the momentary shock and fear were actually greater than surprise.
"Are these flowers for me?" Yun Mian opened her mouth to ask more clearly.
But she didn't dare to ask.
If she wasn't asked, she would still be secretly happy in her heart, secretly thinking that these flowers all belonged to her.
But what if you ask and the other party denies it?
Even though she knew the possibility of this happening was very small, Yun Mian still felt timid.
She is really not a very brave child as she keeps revolving in death and sin.
At least compared with other Mianmian, Yunmian felt that she was the most unpopular coward.
So she didn't ask anything, but pretended to be ignorant and quietly looked at the flowers in the garden, smelling their cool fragrance, and relaxed a little bit.
The system squatted on her shoulder and, like Yun Jinyi, said nothing.
No one disturbed Yun Mian at this moment, but just quietly accompanied her to enjoy this moment.
At least, the joy and bright light in the child's eyes would not be deceived by her stubbornness.
She liked this surprise very much.
Yunmian sneezed because of the wind.
Even though I was wrapped in a thick blanket, the early winter wind still penetrated every pore.
After Yun Mian shivered, Yun Jinyi would not allow her to stay there staring at the flowers stupidly any longer.
"I'm not cold!" Yun Mian pursed her lips and wanted to argue.
Yun Jinyi held her in his arms and said calmly, "Well, it's not cold, I'm just catching a cold."
Yunmian: “…”
Why is this person so annoying!
That's not nice to say at all!
She must not be my mother. My mother would never be like this!
After denying three times in her heart, Yun Mian couldn't help but lie on the other person's shoulder, looking at the garden of roses that were still quietly blooming behind her.
After turning the corner and entering the hall, Yun Mian looked away with a bit of disappointment, then hesitantly tugged at Yun Jinyi's ear and asked her in a low and shy voice, "Can I come and see those flowers again?"
Even if they are not your own flowers, it's okay to take a look at them, right?
She just wanted to see more.
Yun Jinyi's answer was almost exactly the same as the one she gave when she bullied Guangqiu in the morning.
"Those are your flowers. Look at them if you want. No need to ask me."
Yunmian: “…”
Something that she had been guessing about for a long time was suddenly said in such a sure tone. The light in Yun Mian's pupils dispersed for a second, and then quickly gathered. She asked nervously: "You just said that it was my flower? Really? You are not lying to me? If you lie, you will turn into a puppy!"
She even resorted to threats, which showed how desperate she was for the answer.
Yun Jinyi turned her head and saw the child's eyes wide open, staring at her nervously without blinking. A smile flashed across her face.
Yunmian: “…”
What are you laughing at? Speak!
"They are your flowers." Yun Jinyi nodded at her daughter's silent urging, "Every flower in the garden belongs to you. It has nothing to do with me or anyone else, and it has nothing to do with Mianmian in your other memories."
Knowing the secret yet overbearing possessiveness in Mianmian's bones, Yun Jinyi did not leave any room for Yunmian to continue to make uneasy guesses, and truly placed the ownership of the roses in the garden on Mianmian at this moment and in this memory.
That flower belongs completely to Mianmian.
It is a special gift that the little kid who is trapped in a game of rules and has been reincarnated and died countless times has in this world.
Yunmian: “…”
The sudden surprise made her a little confused.
She turned around and wanted to take another look at the little flowers that now belonged to her, but she had already walked past and could no longer see them.
Before Yun Mian could express regret, the system light ball excitedly flew to the balcony not far away, allowing her to see the roses planted in several pots there.
So the surprise that Yunmian had just received finally came true at this moment.
She belatedly became delighted, looked at the flowers, then turned to look at Yun Jinyi who was holding her.
The child's eyes were sparkling at this moment. His previous arrogance seemed to have been paved over by the fragrant and soft petals. With full of joy and expectation, he raised his little face and asked cautiously, "Then, then why... did you give me flowers?"
Then why are you so nice to me?
I wanted to kill you with a knife last night.
I bit your arm and made it bleed last night.
Obviously... I have said hurtful words many times, and never acknowledged your identity once.
Even so, will you still give me gifts and plant a garden full of flowers for me?
Yun Mian felt a little blocked in her heart, with so many questions and emotions flooding in her mind. However, she couldn't say a word at this moment, so she could only ask the least obvious question.
But before she even asked the question and got an answer, Yunmian's heart started beating very fast again.
She couldn't help but raise her hand to cover her heart, frowning and a little confused: Is this body really free of heart disease?
However, just as Yun Mian covered her pounding heart, another touch of warmth gently touched her forehead.
Yunmian: “……!!”
She froze and looked up at the other person blankly.
Yun Jinyi nudged her daughter's forehead with a little force and said helplessly, "Why does Mianmian always do some little tricks to distract herself when she's nervous?"
Yunmian flatly denied: "I didn't!"
I regretted it after I refuted it.
I could only keep a straight face and look fierce and say nothing.
You can almost hang a small oil bottle on your mouth.
Yun Jinyi didn't laugh at her this time. She just raised her hand to ruffle the child's soft and fluffy hair and answered her previous question in a gentle voice.
Yun Jinyi: "Mianmian, mom doesn't just want to give you flowers. As long as it's something you want, mom wants to bring it to you to make you happy. This is not a lie I told you, but something that mom has always been doing and always wants to do better."
Seeing the little girl standing there listening quietly, Yun Jinyi lowered her head and bumped her forehead again, and said gently, "If you want mom to treat you as an independent and complete Mianmian, then mom will do as you want. But Mianmian, I also have things I want you to do."
Yunmian: “…”
"What do you want me to do?" Yun Mian's voice was very low, but she no longer tried to refute the title of "Mom" as she did before.
Yun Jinyi wrapped the little girl, who always felt annoyed after answering, in a blanket. Seeing her puffy face and unhappy expression, she chuckled and said, "I want Mianmian to call me mom, is that okay?"
Yunmian fell silent.
In the blanket, the little hands that were wrapped so tightly that no movement could be seen were clutching her clothes tightly. If the blanket was torn away now, one would probably see her clothes being ravaged and wrinkled.
In silence, Yun Mian heard the woman's lost sigh, and her voice seemed to be filled with endless sadness: "Mian Mian still doesn't want to... I won't force you, but in that world, I lived in the cowshed next to Mian Mian, listening to Mian Mian's voice, and thinking every day, it would be great if mom could take you away from there, but I..."
"...Stop talking!" Yun Mian couldn't help but interrupt her.
The system noticed that Mianmian’s eyes were red, but she was trying hard not to cry.
Yun Mian glared at Yun Jinyi with red eyes, wanting to tell her to stop acting pitiful and saying that she would not fall for it.
But when she raised her eyes, she saw Yun Jinyi's gentle gaze when she looked at her, and saw the glaring sadness and loss in her eyes.
The other party did not deliberately play the victim or pretend to be pitiful.
What she said was exactly what she was thinking at the time, without a single word of pretense.
Yunmian: “…”
She suddenly felt a little regretful for yelling at this person so harshly.
Because of this little bit of guilt, or the touch brought by those words, or everything that happened in this short day and night, and the flowers in the garden outside...
In short, at this moment, Yun Mian's heart had already collapsed silently.
She softened her heart.
So even though she didn't call her mother, Yun Mian still pursed her lips and lowered her head, burying herself in the other's warm embrace.
The child's voice was also muffled: "Don't say anything, I won't forgive you."
Although he said this, he couldn't help rubbing his head in the other's arms, finding a more comfortable position for himself.
"Then what will it take for Mianmian to forgive me?" Yun Jinyi asked as he raised his hand to touch his daughter's head.
A little guy with a hard mouth but a soft heart.
It looks like it's covered with thorns, but it's actually very easy to satisfy.
Just a few flowers and a few words.
The thorns on her body were pulled out one by one, and she spread out her soft belly tentatively for people to touch it.
The last protection for myself was just a meaningless sentence.
Yun Jinyi actually couldn't tell how to describe the feeling in her heart.
In fact, when Mianmian showed extremely strong attacking power in this memory, she was already prepared to not be accepted by her.
So Yun Jinyi did not blindly follow her, but told her more clearly and firmly what to do, which was completely different from how he treated Mianmian who had different memories before.
It’s not that Yun Jinyi is unwilling to treat her daughter better or more indulgently, but she simply hopes that with this attitude, Mianmian can at least maintain some emotions towards her.
It doesn't matter if there is only hatred.
What Yun Jinyi fears most is that Mianmian doesn’t care about her. Perhaps no mother in the world can accept that her child is indifferent to her.
Because in that world, Yun Jinyi did not raise Mianmian, did not protect her, and in countless reincarnations, Mianmian died and was reborn again and again...
Yun Jinyi didn't have too many expectations for Mianmian in this memory from the beginning. She didn't expect her to love her as much as before, nor did she expect her to be a child with a good personality, nor did she expect her to show her true heart that she had carefully hidden as before.
She only hoped that she could leave a distinct mark in her daughter's memory so that she would not leave with the memory but without any emotions towards her as a mother.
But Yun Jinyi didn't expect that her Mianmian would be so well-behaved and easy to coax.
Just a few flowers...
She changed from a little hedgehog covered with thorns to a kitten lying in the palm of the hand with its soft belly spread out.
Just a few flowers...
Yun Jinyi stretched out her arms and embraced the little girl who whispered that she would not forgive her. She rested her chin lightly on her tender shoulder, closed her eyes, and all the emotions in her heart finally turned into a sour ball.
Mianmian always proudly tells her: Mom is the best mom in the world, and Mianmian is the one who loves mom the most in the world.
The child did not lie. Even if he had no memories and even if they were just strangers when they met, Yun Mianmian was still the child who loved her mother the most in the whole world.
She doesn't hide her kindness and love at all.
I foolishly offer my sincere heart, as if I am not afraid of being let down or hurt at all.
Yun Jinyi took a deep breath silently, holding her tiny daughter in her arms. The surging emotions almost suffocated her.
Waking up from another nightmare.
Yunmian sat up from the bed, opened her eyes, and looked down to see her mother who was also awakened by her.
"Mianmian?" Yun Jinyi sat up, pulled up the warm quilt, gently embraced the awakened child, hugged her and patted her gently with her hands.
Yunmian buried herself in her warm embrace, feeling her rhythmic soothing touch on her back, and the panic in her eyes slowly faded away.
Yunmian raised her head.
"Are you feeling better?" Yun Jinyi wiped the cold sweat from her daughter's forehead.
Yunmian nodded and shook her head.
Within the range of the warm yellow light, Yun Mian suddenly reached out, hugged her mother's waist and buried herself in her arms again.
Yun Jinyi seemed to sense something, and the expression on his face was blank for a moment, then he lowered his head and asked the silent child slowly: "Mianmian... this memory is about to end, right?"
Yun Mian said nothing, but she held her waist and abdomen with her hands a little tighter, and squeezed herself into her arms a little harder.
"..." Yun Jinyi reached out and picked up her daughter. Holding back her heartache, she touched her lowered head and said, "Don't be afraid, Mianmian. Your soul is damaged. When your soul slowly recovers, these memories will be connected again. Then you won't forget anything. Mom will always be with you and will never leave you alone again."
So even if you are leaving soon, don't be sad or afraid.
Yunmian heard the comfort in her words, but it was hard for her to convince herself.
Because she is now a person with independent memory.
She didn't want to leave, at least not so soon.
But it didn't work... As the memories of the nightmares became clearer and clearer, her head hurt more and more, as if it was going to explode at any time.
Yun Mian bit the soft flesh on her cheek and grabbed the corner of Yun Jinyi's clothes. Because of the discomfort, her voice was low and hoarse, and she whispered softly: "Mom... I still want to go see the flowers."
She wanted to see her own flowers.
It's not other Mianmian's flower, it's her flower.
Yun Jinyi felt a little choked in the chest when Mianmian called her "Mom" in a low and hoarse voice. After hearing her daughter's words clearly, she reached out and took the clothes not far away and put them on her one by one under the warm yellow light.
While putting on her clothes, she whispered to the child, "Okay, Mianmian, besides wanting to see those flowers, is there anything else you want?"
Yun Mian shook her head and looked up at her. After a moment, she tilted her head to look at the wound on her arm that had just been bandaged and changed the medicine last night. She pursed her lips, reached out and touched it carefully, and then asked her, "Does it still hurt?"
Yunmian raised her little hand and put it to her mouth: "You can bite it back. If you bite it now, the next Mianmian won't feel any pain."
Only I will feel the pain, no other children will be hurt.
But she was not bitten. Instead, she was hugged helplessly with a sigh.
"Mianmian, you are the same as you in other memories. You are my baby. No matter what you have been through, what kind of personality you have, whether you become good or bad, you are still my daughter. I will never dislike you. I will only feel distressed and guilty, afraid that I am not good enough for you, afraid that you think I don't love you enough, afraid that you don't feel safe, afraid that you will be sad and cry..."
A mother will never dislike her daughter for becoming too bad. At least Yunjin will never dislike Yunmian for not living a good life and not meeting her expectations.
She would only feel guilty about her own powerlessness and guilt that she couldn't make her daughter feel more loved.
"So mommy won't bite you." Yun Jinyi pinched her daughter's thin wrist, bent down and kissed her, smiled with crescent eyes and said, "Mommy can kiss you, so that neither of us will feel any pain."
Yunmian: “…”
"You're the one who didn't bite. Don't regret it when I'm gone!"
The red-faced child seemed to have turned into the stubborn hedgehog Mianmian again. He retracted his hand and glared at her fiercely.
Under the warm orange light, the child's cheeks were flushed by the heat, but he still puffed up his face and pretended not to care, putting his hands behind his back, as if this could ignore the kiss he had received earlier.
This was also the first time she was kissed by her mother in this memory.
It was a picture and feeling that she had never imagined in so many reincarnations, not even in her dreams or fantasies.
If, if all the Mianmian in other memories are kissed and cared for by their mother like this, then it seems not bad that I am just one of the memories, right?
In this way, when I have truly integrated all the memories, will I be able to get more closeness and love from my mother?
Do we no longer have to be so cautious in testing and possessing things?
Thanks to the little angel who irrigated the nutrient solution:
Shuchen 30 bottles;
Not returning 10 bottles;
etc. …… 5 bottles;
4 bottles of Yansi Sheng;
Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!
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