Chapter 445
When Yun Jinyi put on his mask and took a step back, Yun Mian's originally tense body relaxed almost visibly, and even his tense shoulders and neck relaxed a little.
Yun Jinyi naturally would not miss this change in her daughter. She did not feel lost or sad about it. After putting a mask on the child, she did not get too close. Instead, she once again maintained a distance that was enough to make Yun Mian feel a little at ease, and did not delay the children's play time.
Yun Mian was wearing a mask, and most of her face was completely covered by it, so no one could see her tightly pursed mouth under the mask and the shallow teeth marks on her lips.
"Mianmian, shall we go over there?" Jiang Yao came closer to her and interrupted her feeling of discomfort.
Yunmian did not refuse.
And the netizens behind the camera were also frantically discussing the strange atmosphere between Yun Mian and Yun Jinyi in the live broadcast room.
"Anyone with a discerning eye can see that these two don't look like a normal mother and daughter, right? How can a daughter and her mother be so distant from each other?"
"I don't know if it's my illusion, but I always felt that when Yun Jinyi approached just now, Mianmian seemed a little scared."
"It's not an illusion. I recorded the whole process and went back to watch it. When Yun Jinyi approached, there was indeed some fear in the child's eyes. I thought I was seeing things."
"Hiss... I suddenly feel a little scared. Could it be that the problem is not with the child, but with the adopter?"
“…It’s terrifying when you think about it.”
“…+1.”
"+1008611..."
However, no matter how much netizens speculated, it was impossible for them to go through the screen and question Yun Jinyi, so after the initial speculation, some more rational netizens calmed down.
Just like before in the Blue Sky Orphanage, if there is really a problem, it usually cannot escape the ubiquitous cameras. Instead, it is more likely to be exposed due to a moment of relaxation.
So instead of guessing without any evidence, it is better to watch the live broadcast. No matter who has the problem, it will most likely be exposed in front of the camera in the end.
After all, netizens are best at magnifying details and making speculations and criticisms.
Just like before.
Yunmian was not very interested in this childish game of picking fruits.
The reason I followed them out in the beginning was because of fear and a bit of rebelliousness in my heart.
But when she really felt bored, she was not willing to stay among the children and be surrounded by them to demonstrate her outstanding hidden weapon skills.
So Yunmian left them alone.
Behind her, Meng Meng grabbed Jiang Yao's sleeve, looked at her back, and asked worriedly, "Sister Xiaoyao, Sister Mianmian doesn't seem very happy..."
Zhao Yu listlessly threw away the last stone in his hand and continued to say, "I also feel that after sister Mianmian got sick this time, she doesn't like to play with us anymore. Will she not want to be good friends with us anymore?"
Jiang Yao also wanted to sigh.
But it was not because of Yunmian, but because of herself.
Jiang Yao is very sure that the current Mianmian's body is definitely not filled with the soul memory of a five or six-year-old child, so...as an adult, why does Mianmian act so cool and powerful, and is out of tune with real children?
And I... blended into it without any sense of disobedience!!!
Even though Mianmian didn't do anything, just her back view when she left, Jiang Yao felt as if she was being mocked by Mianmian.
Yun Mian didn't care what the children behind her were discussing. She walked along the woods and soon walked out of the not-so-vast forest. At the end of another path, she found a slowly flowing stream.
This stream is not the source of water for nearby residents. It just nourishes the soil on both sides, making the grass and trees growing on it more vibrant than other places.
Yunmian walked near it, found a relatively flat edge, and sat down casually.
The ball of light Yunkong flew beside her, and after she sat down, it tried to squat on her head or shoulders.
But because Mianmian was so fierce, it hesitated and tried for a long time but didn't dare to come forward and really touch the child's hair or clothes.
Finally, it could only squat on a small stone beside the child, under the cold gaze of the child.
"Don't you even ask who I am?" It was still not used to Mianmian being so silent.
So I chose to take the initiative to bring up the topic.
Of course, maybe there was also a little desire to show off my new name.
This was named by Mianmian herself. Maybe she will love me and my family too and fall in love with me again?
Unfortunately, the answer it wants can never be obtained from Mianmian.
When it asked this question, Yun Mian just looked down at it indifferently for a moment, without even looking at and observing its strange body structure and intelligence level that should not exist in this world.
When Yunkong was a little discouraged, Yunmian answered calmly in his heart: "No matter who you are, she can't leave something dangerous and uncontrollable with me."
The "she" in the words obviously refers to Yun Jinyi.
Yunkong was speechless and became even more discouraged.
This Mianmian doesn’t understand the art of speaking at all!
It jumped unhappily and whined for a long time but didn't dare to tell Yunmian its complaints.
Seeing that it had shut up quietly, Yunmian turned his attention back to the gurgling stream under his feet.
I don't know when the wind started to blow around me.
The frost that condensed late last night turned into crystal dew in the daytime and was caught in fine spider silk. Strings of small water droplets hung on the even thinner and tougher spider webs, and then were crushed by Yunmian using a thin grass stem.
Soon, a busy little spider began to diligently weave a second web among the grass leaves.
Yunkong looked at it, then looked at the grass stem that Mianmian had never thrown away, which still had the "remains" of the previous spider web on it. He couldn't help but silently light a row of candles for the innocent little spider in his heart.
Yunmian, who just now thought picking fruits with a group of kids was childish and boring, is now having quite a lot of fun poking spider webs.
Maybe she didn't think those kids were childish and boring.
Just like when she faced Yun Jinyi, she didn’t know how to get along with them.
Even after listening to Yunkong talk a lot about how Mianmian and the group of children got along in his previous memories, Yunmian was simply unable to open her heart and treat them as her good friends.
Not realistic at all.
And because of her own uniqueness, Yunmian is particularly able to understand the other children and those who film and watch herself, and understand the disordered and contradictory confusion they feel when they see different versions of themselves.
Just like her own brain and soul memory are in a mess at this moment, different Yunmian have different life experiences and thus different personalities, but these Yunmian are all in the same world and appear all at once in a short period of time.
Any normal person who can think would probably think that Yun Mian has some mental problems.
Only children whose brains are not fully developed will approach without hesitation and show kindness.
Listening to Yunkong's mutterings about Mianmian's different reactions after waking up, Yunmian threw the grass stem with the second spider web in his hand into the stream at his feet, watching it being swept away by the current, stumbling and swirling in the stream.
So Yunkong, who was sighing for the little spider, heard the child's slightly cold voice.
"I'm not the only one who's confused and conflicted."
"And her."
Yunkong was stunned and didn't spare any time to think about this sentence.
What do you mean it's not just Mianmian who is confused and contradictory?
"But I didn't notice any changes in her!" Yunkong retorted in a low voice.
Yun Mian looked down at it: "Did you not notice it, or did she not let you notice it?"
Yunkong: “…”
Don't want to talk.
bother.
Mianmian is not cute at all when she grows up.
Implying that I'm a fool.
QAQ.
However, its resentment did not dispel Yunmian's sudden desire to share.
Yun Mian even held the system in her hand, ignoring the director and several staff members who were filming behind her. She looked at the gurgling stream and asked calmly, "My memory keeps awakening, so why can't hers?"
The system wanted to refute it. After all, the host mother was obviously a very powerful person. How could it be possible...
"How is it impossible?"
Yun Mian interrupted it coldly and whispered in the sound of flowing water: "She is also changing with my memory. Otherwise, in the rule game world you mentioned, she would never treat me like that."
Yunmian is different from the previous Mianms. Having integrated the memories of three worlds, she can directly acknowledge that the Yunmian in each memory is herself, not some other existence.
Therefore, she could more clearly perceive the emotional and behavioral changes of Yun Jinyi in the role of mother.
"She will hate me in that world, just as I am still afraid of her in this world."
In the chaotic light that made Yunkong stunned due to astonishment, Yunmian analyzed the changes of Yun Jinyi in each world with it.
He takes meticulous care of Mianmian in the last world, indulges and dotes on Mianmian in the interstellar world, and has a more intimate and pure love for Mianmian in the money game world. He gets along with Mianmian in the fairy tale world in a normal way, and makes up for Mianmian in the real and fake daughter world with lots of delicious food...
Afterwards, he was rude and even harsh to Mianmian in the world of rules, but he was kind and gentle to Mianmian in the world of doomsday. He was willing to feed her with his own hands and accompany her to complete all her seemingly willful requests.
And her attitude towards Mianmian in the puppet world... No, Mianmian in the puppet world didn't give her any chance to get along with her at all, so she must have been in pain and remorse during the days when Mianmian was asleep, so she quickly agreed to participate in the show.
There is a high probability... that it was to stimulate Yun Mian from the outside so that she would not fall asleep again, even though she was about to wake up because of "hatred".
After all, if nothing unexpected happens, the person who wakes up now should be Yun Mian in the variety show world.
But Yun Jinyi miscalculated. She didn't expect that Mianmian in the variety show world had deeper feelings for her not hatred, but fear of not wanting to see her again.
It just so happens that Mianmian in the next world is just a pile of scattered soul fragments.
So Yunmian, who grew up in the ancient world and had more complete memories and clearer will, merged the latter two worlds together.
As for such a special, complex and contradictory girl like Mianmian, Yun Jinyi could only bear the complex and contradictory emotions and love as the memories of her in his mind became clearer and clearer.
So although she seemed to be as nice to Yunmian as ever, she was actually trying hard to restrain herself and keep a certain distance that would not cross the danger line.
Yunkong was clearly a bystander who witnessed the whole process, but after hearing Yunmian explain everything, he felt as if he had lived in vain.
“…How is it possible…”
The ball of light was still muttering in disbelief. Yun Mian, who had sorted out the situation, was finally willing to get up from the stream and let go of the clumsy but hardworking little spider not far away.
No one could see through Yun Mian's five-year-old skin and the determination and restraint surging in her heart at this moment.
No one could have known that after Yunmian had figured out the changes in her mother during this period, she strangely felt a sense of pleasure of successful revenge.
Yun Mian didn’t know why her other self in other worlds chose to destroy her soul, but engraved on her only soul fragment, in addition to her love for her mother, was the subtle malice of wanting “revenge” that she perceived.
Perhaps it cannot be said to be malice, but rather a desire to obtain a strange and inexplicable fairness.
Yun Mian does not have complete memories, so she doesn't know where this desire for fairness with a hint of malice comes from.
But she relied solely on her strong intuition and decisively chose to follow her own heart.
So she got up and walked back.
She took off the mask on her face at some point and casually hooked it with her slender fingers. As she walked forward, she let it hang at her side, swaying back and forth.
Yunmian walked through the woods again. There were yellow leaves under her feet, some dry and some wet and soft. The rustling sound made Yunmian slowly suppress her restless emotions while walking. She seemed even more indifferent and distant.
If someone didn't know, they might think she was going back to seek revenge.
Yunkong followed silently behind Mianmian, carefully maintaining a distance from her, for fear that he might accidentally hear some news from her that would scare her to death on the spot.
Smart people are more suitable to communicate and negotiate with equally smart people. Yunkong now doesn’t mind at all that Mianmian had previously implied that he was a fool.
Laugh at fools, understand fools, be a fool.
However, the idiot also has some special flashes of inspiration, such as when Yunmian locked him and the crew outside the door and chose to go in alone.
Yun Kong looked at the back of the child walking towards Yun Jinyi. His mind went blank and he shouted subconsciously: "Mian Mian! Killing people is against the law!!"
Yun Mian's footsteps suddenly stopped.
Yun Jinyi heard the voice and looked back.
Yun Mian hurriedly avoided her gaze, turned her head sharply and glared at the ball of light outside the door.
The camera that happens to be at the same level as the light ball and the audience behind the camera: “……???”
The system looked at Mianmian's ferocious appearance, and belatedly realized what it had just said. The light on its body became even more chaotic. Finally, in the face of the child's real "murderous" gaze, it instantly retracted the light on its body, and then fell heavily at the door with a thud, pretending to be dead.
Yunmian slammed the door shut that had just been pushed open by the system and the lens.
Turning back, Yun Jinyi was still sitting there, watching all her actions, and then he thought: "Mianmian wants to attack me?"
Yunmian: “…”
She is going to smash the light ball that is more likely to cause trouble than help!
The child was inexplicably filled with resentment. Unlike her clear and logical analysis by the stream before, Yun Mian at this moment was completely unable to control the irritability in her heart.
She tore off the wheat on her body and walked up to Yun Jinyi with a cold expression.
Yun Mian ignored the camera in the room and pointed at the wheat on Yun Jinyi's body.
Yun Jinyi raised her eyebrows slightly, but did not refuse her daughter's command. She obediently took off the microphone and turned it off. Then she looked up and asked the child with a smile: "What does Mianmian want to ask me?"
"Why do you want to kill me?" Yun Mian asked, and the answer that the self in that world could not figure out until his death was revealed.
Regarding this question, the cloud cotton of the ancient world can actually provide an answer.
But she was unwilling to think about it deeply, unwilling to comfort herself, and instead became more determined to get an answer from Yun Jinyi.
Being asked so bluntly by her, Yun Jinyi looked up at his daughter, whose eyebrows and eyes looked a bit fierce due to frowning. She looked childish yet rational and mature. Yun Jinyi's eyes were always gentle.
She didn't answer perfunctorily or refuse to answer.
Under Yun Mian's gaze, Yun Jinyi lowered his eyes slightly, his thoughts immersed in past memories.
In fact, those memories have long become dim or faded with the passing of each world.
Yun Jinyi herself also intentionally sealed those memories again and again, making them become more and more insignificant, at least so that they would no longer affect her emotions and feelings when she went to the next world.
But these days, with the awakening of Mianmian, who has different memories, Yun Jinyi was forced to unlock the layers of seals that had originally tightly imprisoned other memories.
So some memories become vivid.
Some memories caused her pain.
Some memories are stained with many mottled blood colors.
Other memories are gray and hazy, filled with embarrassing struggles in desperate situations.
Now, her daughter stood in front of her, carrying the same painful memory, asking her, why did you kill me?
Yun Jinyi struggled to pull herself away from that memory.
Her originally gentle features were forced to show a hint of pain, and although she quickly calmed down, Yun Mian did not miss it.
But Yun Mian didn't expect that the answer she thought of would be so different from what she heard.
Yunmian thought her mother would use up all the excuses for love and pain.
That's why she couldn't hide the anger in her eyes.
But she didn't expect that the first thing she heard was not some explanation or excuse that was forced out of excessive love or excessive hatred, but a gentle apology with a sigh and guilt.
"Mianmian..." Yun Jinyi looked up at her daughter's eyes that were filled with sadness. She sighed and held her daughter's face, which was cold from the wind. She said to her slowly, "Mom is sorry for hurting you in such an extreme way. Even after so long, I still feel guilty. I want to say sorry to you."
Sorry is of course of no use.
There is no way to go back to that moment and save Yunmian’s short life.
I couldn't give Mianmian a warm embrace instead of taking her to death resolutely.
You can't expect any forgiveness just because you say sorry.
So Yun Jinyi just said to her daughter: "Mom has done a lot of wrong things. I hope Mianmian won't be sad because of these injuries. From the beginning to the end, Mianmian has done nothing wrong."
In the world of variety shows, Mianmian did nothing wrong. She was imprisoned in a small home by her neurotic mother. The first time she was taken out to meet people was to clear her mother's reputation and earn more money.
She has never had contact with outsiders, so she is afraid of the camera and is not good at playing with other children.
So she could only watch her mother and other parents arguing in front of the camera for various reasons.
She could only cry helplessly. No one was willing to help her. She was not as lucky as the protagonist to have a father who had reincarnated and traveled through time. She had no audience appeal and was not pitied or loved by her mother.
She didn't even receive any healthy, positive love from her mother, a movie queen, and from beginning to end she endured all the extreme, moody and collapsed emotions of a crazy woman.
The emotions that Yun Mengjin could not express to her fans and netizens in front of the camera, as well as the anxiety, pain and uneasiness, finally all turned into a storm that hit the little Yun Mian.
Perhaps when Yun Mengjin jumped from the tall building, she regretted her impulsiveness and regretted even more for pulling her daughter down with her.
Perhaps at the moment when she fell heavily to the ground, Yun Mengjin hugged her daughter tightly and supported her small body on her fat body.
Perhaps Yun Mengjin had also thought about dying and using her body as a cushion to give her daughter a chance to live alone.
Perhaps before he died, he even regretted why he was not fat enough and flexible enough, so that he could not protect his daughter whose bones were more fragile.
But the lucky constitution of fate never favors a cannon fodder or a villain so easily.
Yun Mengjin did not get this luck, and Yun Mian, the unlucky guy who was dragged by Yun Mengjin to jump, certainly had no chance of having it.
So all the impulses had a most perfect ending.
But Yun Mian still has a chance. At this moment, a long, long time later, she stands in front of Yun Jinyi and asks her in that world why she killed herself.
Why not love her more?
Why don't you want to give her a little more room to breathe and grow?
Why...are you so stingy that you won't even give her a little bit of normal love?
Yunmian would also envy other children and would lie on the window and watch the children downstairs laughing, screaming, chasing and playing.
But Yunmian didn't even have the chance to go to school.
She could only learn about that strange and bizarre world through a neurotic mother in a small house.
At this moment, Yunmian, who had many messy memories and emotions, couldn't help but envy her other self for being able to have such pure emotions.
Whether it's a great general who can support his daughter, or a mother who is willing to fight the gangsters for her daughter without fear of life and death...
Then why, when I go to that world, I can only have a mother who has been completely destroyed by public opinion and the Internet?
How unfair.
But...the people who create these injustices and bear these injustices are the same from the beginning to the end.
Same mother, same daughter.
When copying and pasting, Chenggua always loses paragraphs.
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