Chapter 62 Chapter 62 Optimists
In the end, Li Huanhuan chose the "cold treatment" approach.
She has not yet learned to love someone wholeheartedly. Therefore, I chose the method that I was most familiar with and best at: escape.
Also known as playing deaf and dumb.
She reduced the time she spent at Qin Shi's home taking care of him.
In addition to the daily necessities, helping to pick up three meals and taking out the garbage...
Basically, I never stepped into room 150 again. Even at night, she learned to ignore Qin Shi's messages and no longer stayed at No. 150.
No matter what excuse Qin Shi used.
She now understood that things like "afraid of being alone" and "can't fall asleep" were all fake, and were excuses Qin Shi made for wanting to stay with her. Now that she understands the other party's thoughts, she won't be fooled again.
She hoped that her indifference could extinguish Qin Shi's enthusiasm. It would be even better if he could understand her feelings and automatically take back his "like".
Qin Shi was a cold-eyed spectator.
After enduring it for a week, she finally stopped her one day when she went to help deliver meals.
"Li Huanhuan, have you figured it out?"
Qin Shi leaned against the wall at the door with his crutches, and when she was about to leave, he grabbed her wrist.
Li Huanhuan paused for a moment.
But soon, he relaxed again. She turned her head and looked at Qin Shi with complicated eyes. I had been preparing the rejection in my mind for a week, as if it was just for this day: “Sorry, I still can’t accept it.”
"Why?" Qin Shi stared at her solemnly, "Is it because of Fox?"
"No, it has nothing to do with Canyang or anyone else."
Li Huanhuan shook his head, "I just can't help but trust a relationship wholeheartedly."
"I can't trust you wholeheartedly?" Qin Shi let go of her hand, with a puzzled look on his face, "Why?"
Li Huanhuan felt that this was complicated to explain.
But if she doesn't explain clearly today, Qin Shi probably won't let her leave. After thinking for a while, he said truthfully: "The love I hope for is one that lasts from the beginning. From dating, to getting married, to starting a family, to growing old together."
At this point, she paused and said, "I hope that the person I fall in love with can know that we can go hand in hand until the end when I see him for the first time. Sorry, I know it may be a bit ridiculous to say this, but this is what I think."
"But, in reality, it's hard to find such a person. It's also hard—"
She looked at Qin Shi in embarrassment. "It's hard for people to build up this kind of 100% trust. No, it should be said that it's hard for me to have this kind of trust with someone, it's hard for me to have this kind of trust with you. The gap between us is too big, whether it's our identity, status, experience, or our personality, our circle of friends, our hobbies, there are huge differences."
This is what Li Huanhuan cares about most.
[The protagonist] and [Passerby A] are just the identities given to them by the world in the book.
But the differences brought about by this identity, whether visible or invisible to the naked eye, eventually became evidence that they could not go on for long.
In other words, Qin Shi is so good, and she is so ordinary. She really couldn't imagine what Qin Shi liked about her? Do you like her ordinariness?
He is still so young and has so many wonderful things in his life. Even if he says he likes her now, how long can this love last? Can it last a lifetime as Li Huanhuan hopes?
Even a man like her biological father, a "good man" in the traditional sense, would choose to cheat when his family is happy, his wife is loving, and his daughter is healthy and lovely, let alone Qin Shi.
Li Huanhuan didn't believe how much he liked her, nor did she believe that he could love her forever.
If there is no 100% love, no lifelong commitment, and no sense of security and trust that makes her feel more than ordinary people, then she will not be able to believe that Qin Shi really likes her.
Silence spread between the two people.
In those dark eyes, the light and shadow kept changing.
After an unknown amount of time, Qin Shi frowned and asked in a low, hoarse voice, "Li Huanhuan, don't you believe me?"
"Feel sorry."
Li Huanhuan turned his head away and said with difficulty.
This was their last conversation.
Li Huanhuan returned to House No. 149 and received a message from Qin Shi saying that he had found a professional caregiver to take care of his three meals a day. If she feels uncomfortable, she doesn't have to come over anymore. He will explain it to Aunt Zhao and her mother.
“It’s over.”
Li Huanhuan covered his face and fell on the sofa.
After a period of time, Qin Shi did not send any messages or contact her again. Outside the entrance, it also became quiet, as if it had disappeared from her world.
If she hadn't gone downstairs to buy groceries one time and saw from afar Qin Shi's newly hired caregiver taking him to the hospital for a check-up, she would have thought Qin Shi had moved out of the community.
But even if they didn’t move away, what does that mean?
They were not originally from the same world.
Now Qin Shi follows her wishes and no longer pesters her. Isn't this what she wants? But for some reason, Qin Shi really disappeared from her world, but she was not as happy as she had imagined. Instead, she fell into some kind of indescribable depression.
She had clearly returned to her "world of ordinary people" and was living her life as usual, but her life had become boring and she had no energy to do anything.
She rejected the blind date arranged by her mother Su Mei.
She didn't say why.
After Su Mei fell silent, she did not ask any further questions.
Canyang asked her out several times, but Li Huanhuan refused with excuses.
Her best friend Xiaojing asked her to relax, but she was not in the mood.
Later, I couldn't stand it anymore, because Xiaojing said that she had a new boyfriend and wanted to introduce him to her. This time, Li Huanhuan finally couldn't find an excuse to refuse, so he had to bite the bullet and go out.
"Huan Huan, this is my boyfriend."
During the meal, Xiao Jing hugged her boyfriend's arm, sat opposite him, and introduced him to Li Huanhuan with a happy face. After introducing, she turned to her boyfriend and said, "Dear, this is my best friend whom I mentioned - Li Huanhuan."
"Hello, I'm Jingjing's boyfriend. Please give me your guidance in the future."
"Hello, hello, I'm Xiaojing's best friend, my name is Li Huanhuan."
…
Xiaojing's boyfriend looks very nice.
He is handsome and has a stable job. Of course, most importantly, even Li Huanhuan, who met him for the first time, can see that he likes Xiao Jing very much. Sitting together with Xiaojing, they are a perfect match.
As a friend for many years, Li Huanhuan is truly happy for Xiaojing.
After dinner, Xiaojing suggested going to the movies together.
Seeing that there was no way for Li Huanhuan to get involved between Xiaojing and her boyfriend, and not wanting to continue staying here as a third wheel, she lied that she had something to do at home and left first.
Xiaojing knew her character and didn't try to keep her.
Just stop her before leaving and ask about her current situation?
"Um?"
Li Huanhuan looked at her doubtfully.
Xiao Jing hugged her boyfriend's arm and rested her head on his shoulder: "You, it's time to have a relationship."
Li Huanhuan glanced at her boyfriend and felt a little embarrassed.
Xiaojing asked Qin Shi again?
“There is no contact anymore.”
Li Huanhuan's mood gradually became gloomy.
Xiao Jing expressed regret: "But I believe you will find that person."
"Well, thank you. Goodbye." Li Huanhuan nodded and waved.
"goodbye."
"goodbye."
…
Say goodbye to Xiaojing and her boyfriend.
Li Huanhuan jumped on the bus to go home.
At this time, there were few people on the bus, so Li Huanhuan chose a window seat in the last row. She was happy for Xiaojing, but she also understood that they would probably have fewer times to go out together in the future.
Xiaojing has a new life of her own and enters the next stage of her life. Although they are still friends, part of her free time will be shared with the other person, leaving her with less time accordingly.
Li Huanhuan is not the kind of person who is tactless and deliberately competes with Xiaojing's boyfriend for Xiaojing's time. Accordingly, she will take the initiative to reduce such contact. Just like the many friends before Xiaojing.
Gradually, she couldn't keep up with their pace of life, and time stopped.
Pah pah.
She raised her hand and patted her cheek gently.
Li Huanhuan, you can’t be so negative!
Life goes on.
What she didn't expect was that when the elevator door opened, she would see Qin Shi, whom she hadn't seen for many days, waiting at her door.
Qin Shi was wearing a black T-shirt and a pair of loose beige shorts.
His foot was still in a cast, one hand was supporting himself with a crutch, and the other was holding a white opaque plastic bag. When Li Huanhuan came back, Qin Shi was leaning against the wall at the door of her house with his head down. He didn't know how long he had been waiting. Ding Dong.
Hearing the sound of the elevator door opening, Qin Shi, who was guarding the door, suddenly raised his head and looked over here. His eyes just met Li Huanhuan who came out of the elevator.
Li Huanhuan stopped moving forward and stopped at the elevator entrance. It was not until the elevator door slowly closed when it no longer sensed anyone that she quickly pulled the rest of her body out of the elevator.
She stood at the closed elevator door, looking at Qin Shi standing opposite her, without speaking or moving forward.
She couldn't describe her current feelings, but after not seeing him for many days, she found that she was not as repulsed by his presence as she was at the beginning when Qin Shi confessed to her.
But she also knew that there was no possibility between them.
"Here." At this time, Qin Shi handed the bag in his hand to her.
"What?"
Li Huanhuan took it doubtfully.
Then, several red property deeds, as well as bank cards, asset certificates and other documents were found inside.
"Um?"
She looked at him blankly.
Qin Shi leaned against the wall and raised his eyebrows: "All my assets, including the property certificate and bank card, as well as all the cash I have now, are here. We will go to the bank, the real estate registration department, and the tax department now to transfer all these things to your name."
What?
Li Huanhuan's eyes slowly opened wide.
"I said I like you, the kind of like that I want to spend my whole life with you. But I don't know how to make you believe me?"
Qin Shi lowered his head and stared at her closely. "Of course I can use my whole life to prove it. But a whole life is too long. I don't want to wait until we are gray-haired to be together. I can only transfer all my assets, including my future salary and all my sources of income, to you. At least, I want to show you my determination first."
Qin Shi, leaning on his crutches, took two steps forward and came in front of her.
"Li Huanhuan, I hope this can make you trust me a little more," he said.
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