Chapter 30 Chapter 30 is a deliberate decision, not a spur-of-the-moment one (……

Oh, I thought so.

It turns out that you like... me.

Ruan Chao felt his breathing stagnated for a moment, and his heart seemed to be disturbed for a moment.

He raised his head and unexpectedly met a pair of eyes that were suppressing emotions.

Nguyen Chao was handsome and had a good personality, and many people expressed their love for him when he was in school.

The love letter stuffed in the hole of the desk, the milk tea placed on the corner of the desk, the eyes that quickly dodged after the occasional eye contact, and the simple math problem that had to be asked over and over again...

The way high school students express their affection is so green and immature, because the person they like is a top student who only focuses on studying. They are afraid of being disliked and annoying, so they dare not use overly drastic means. They can only use this euphemistic way to keep the relationship going for a long time.

However, in most cases, Nguyen Chao was unable to realize their love, and even if his friends reminded him, he would still refute them.

No, that's impossible, you are seeing things.

…

Therefore, since he was a child in the Nguyen Dynasty, Gu Xingyan was the first person who said he liked him.

No one has ever said love to his face like he did.

Nguyen Chao couldn't explain his current emotions.

It seems a little messy.

Because Gu Xingyan has a very handsome face.

He has a high nose bridge and narrow eyes.

The slightly raised corners of the eyes have a cool arc, and when she looks at people with her eyelashes drooped, she has an affectionate buff.

Especially when he said he loved someone, that kind of strong emotion seemed to overflow from inside... No one would doubt his sincerity.

A bit poignant.

However...

Even though this face looks unexpectedly pleasing and unexpectedly pleasing to the eye, it does not mean that he will like him or have the same feelings towards him.

Ruan Chao thought coldly.

He quietly raised his hand and touched his chest.

His heartbeat quickened a bit, but it was still within the normal range. It was probably just because Gu Xingyan suddenly confessed to him, not because of any heart-throb.

No matter who you are, it is impossible to remain completely calm when facing someone else's love.

He is no exception.

After successfully convincing himself, Nguyen Chao considered it and decided to refuse directly.

Before he could get the words out, Gu Xingyan covered his mouth to stop him.

The other person's palm and his face were only separated by a thin mask.

The boy's eyes, as red as lacquer, stared at him without blinking, and there was bright, straightforward love in them without any concealment.

Ruan Chao looked as if he was scalded and hastily looked away.

An indescribable atmosphere began to fill the air.

The steaming heat begins to burn.

The scalding temperature seemed to be transmitted as well, from Gu Xingyan's palm all the way to his face.

Nguyen Chao's heartbeat was completely disrupted.

Faster and faster.

But fortunately, his was not the only one hearing the chaotic heartbeat in this room.

"I really like you."

"So I also want you to think about it carefully before answering me..."

Gu Xingyan paused.

The next second, the boy's hoarse and heavy voice rang out in the silent room, containing a little bit of nervousness and a little bit of expectation.

"You have feelings for me, don't you?"

Ruan Chao's eyelashes trembled slightly.

The originally clear thoughts suddenly became blurred at this moment, as if they were covered by a thick layer of fog, impossible to see through or touch.

In response to Gu Xingyan's questioning, he expressed his true feelings in a somewhat confused manner.

"……I have no idea."

Because of the mask and the obstruction of Gu Xingyan's hand, Ruan Chao's voice sounded muffled and not very clear.

But it still reached Gu Xingyan's ears accurately.

"I'll let you know," he said firmly.

Gu Xingyan grabbed Ruan Chao's hand and forcefully inserted his fingers through the gap between the boy's fingers.

Just like at the beginning, Nguyen Chao forcefully inserted himself into his world, messing up his life, his heart, and everything about him.

Hold it tight, close it.

It is an ambiguous pose with fingers intertwined.

You can't escape even if you want to.

"Come and try it with me, Chao Chao." Perhaps sensing Ruan Chao's loosening attitude, Gu Xingyan's tone was slightly seductive, sticky, ambiguous, like a dense web that tightly wrapped the emotionally dull boy, leaving him no chance to escape. "I know your preferences and all your little habits. No one knows you better than me, and no one is more suitable than me."

A blush appeared on Ruan Chao's face.

In the past, Gu Xingyan was very taciturn and didn't like to talk. He often had to say several sentences before getting a brief response of one or two.

But now, it was as if some incredible switch had been turned on. She would stare at him with those dark eyes from time to time, and then say a lot of... things that made him unable to adapt.

He seemed to know exactly where his strengths lay.

Knowing what angle will make your face look more in line with the aesthetics of the Nguyen Dynasty, and knowing what voice will be more seductive and addictive.

He also knew how to please the Nguyen Dynasty more.

From being awkward at the beginning to being able to do it with ease now.

Nguyen Chaoxia consciously tried to turn his head to avoid his gaze.

Gu Xingyan held Ruan Chao's face, not letting him hide, and forced him to look at him.

There seemed to be a deep whirlpool hidden in the boy's eyes. If you were not careful, you would fall into it and never get out.

"I will be very, very, very good to you," he promised, "a hundred times better than I am now."

"Although I don't have much, I can share it all with you..."

He paused for a moment and continued.

"If I don't have it, no matter what you want, I will do everything I can to find it for you."

"So, can you please consider me?"

Ever since Gu Xingyan returned from the capital, things have become out of control and everything has become extremely strange...leaving the Nguyen Dynasty at a loss as to what to do.

His thoughts seemed to be wrapped by an inexplicable force, and he was forced to follow Gu Xingyan's ideas and move forward.

He did not respond.

He just lowered his head and stared at the two people's clasped hands in a daze.

Yes, ever since Gu Xingyan grabbed Ruan Chao's hand, he has never let go.

The two people's fingers were intertwined tightly and kissed each other, and they looked like a sweet couple.

Ruan Chao felt it carefully.

This kind of physical contact...doesn't make him feel disgusted or hateful.

Or maybe he had already gotten used to it, used to having such a person around him, used to them holding hands, used to Gu Xingyan's "taking action" from time to time.

What if he took the initiative?

Ruan Chao placed his palm on Gu Xingyan's palm and held his fingers in the same way.

Hmm...nothing special.

It's just that there are many rough spots on Gu Xingyan's hands, and Ruan Chao has always been delicate and has never done heavy work. The backs and palms of his hands are very tender, and the contact between the two brings a tingling sensation.

Still a little hot.

I don’t know whose sweat it was that made the skin feel stickier.

Ruan Chao loosened his fingers and wanted to pull his hand back.

Gu Xingyan, however, still held on tightly, his fingertips firmly pinching the base of his fingers and digging lightly into his skin, with no intention of loosening.

An inappropriate thought suddenly came to Nguyen Chao's mind, prompting him to ask a question out of the blue in this unspeakable ambiguous atmosphere.

"So am I being robbed now?"

Gu Xingyan was stunned.

I remembered the old sad novel that I mentioned to Ruan Chao before.

He didn't understand Nguyen's intentions.

Is it because he's addicted to drama again, or is it just pure curiosity?

He thought about it for a moment and said according to his own heart: "No."

"We are in love with each other and have a common goal."

"It's pure love."

Ruan Chao: “……?”

etc……

I haven't even promised you yet, how come it becomes pure love?

…

The discussion about whether it was pure love or rape came to an abrupt end due to a sudden knock on the door.

Ruan Chao was startled and his whole body tensed up. He reacted violently and wanted to pull his hand back.

Gu Xingyan didn't know what was going on and still held him tightly, as if he would run away if he let go.

The Nguyen Dynasty could not be shaken off.

"What are you doing? Do you want to be discovered by my mother?" Afraid that the people outside the door would hear him, he could only lower his voice and urge, "Let me go quickly!"

"She'll know it sooner or later."

Gu Xingyan wished that everyone knew about their relationship.

In this way, they will bear each other's labels.

No one can regret, and no one can deny.

Seeing that he couldn't convince himself, Ruan Chao got desperate and bit down hard on the back of Gu Xingyan's hand.

Leaving behind a few deep tooth marks and a few wet water marks.

Gu Xingyan stared at the small red mark, his eyes darkened: "...Why did you bite me?"

"If you want to bite, bite it." Ruan Chao said, "Do you want to break my teeth out?"

Gu Xingyan: “…I don’t think so.”

In the end, the two people separated.

However, a deeper and heavier tooth mark was left on Gu Xingyan's finger, which would be noticed at a glance even if he tried to hide it.

Ruan Chao pulled up his mask and hurried over to open the door.

Mother Ruan had been waiting for a long time, holding the cut fruits.

Ruan Chao's eyes sparkled and he called out "Mom".

Mother Ruan's gaze paused on Gu Xingyan for a few seconds.

The boy's expression was the same as usual, nothing unusual could be seen.

Seeing her looking at me, I nodded slightly and called her "Auntie" politely.

Her child obviously is not very good at hiding his emotions. Even with a mask on, one can see his red ears and flustered eyes.

The story of "there is no silver here" is vividly interpreted.

It seemed that if you scared him a little, he would tell you everything.

Fortunately, they were dressed neatly and there was no disorder in the room, so they probably did not do anything out of the ordinary.

Mother Ruan calmed down her emotions and said silently twice that the child is no longer under the control of the mother when he grows up.

She also went through this age, so naturally she knows everything, but she still needs to remind people when necessary...

"Chao Chao, you are still in high school..."

Ruan Chao couldn't wait to ask, "Do you want us to focus all our attention on studying?"

I know.

The most important thing now is to study.

So we should focus on our studies, not fall in love, and not have close relationships.

"Mom is not that rigid." Ruan's mother shook her head, denying Ruan Chao's guess, "I won't let you study so hard. If you continue like this, you will only make a good child stupid."

Ruan Chao's expression was blank for a moment. He never expected that his mother did not play according to the routine.

He was still thinking that if his mother continued to follow his words, he would have a suitable reason to reject Gu Xingyan.

Ruan's mother touched Ruan Chao's head and said, "Mom just wants to tell you that you have grown up and should know what you can and cannot do."

There was a gentle smile in her eyes, and delicate lines appeared at the corners of her eyes, which were traces left by time, but she was still very beautiful.

"I hope you guys don't make this decision on impulse, but after careful consideration."

She put the fruit plate in Ruan Chao's hands and said, "Okay, the commercial is over. Mom has to go back to watch TV."

"You guys keep talking."

…

The door closed again.

Nguyen Chao took a strawberry from the fruit plate and took a bite.

A bit sour.

Not sweet, not tasty.

"Here you go."

He habitually stuffed the remaining strawberries into Gu Xingyan's hands. Just like before, he would throw all the food that he found unpalatable to him.

Gu Xingyan stared at the nicks on the strawberries: "Only lovers would eat each other's leftovers."

Ruan Chao pretended to snatch it: "…Then give it back to me."

Gu Xingyan quickly stuffed the strawberry into his mouth and said, "I've already eaten it." He picked out all the big, red strawberries from the plate and put them in Ruan Chao's palm. "Auntie didn't object to us."

He seemed to intentionally reveal the red and purple teeth marks on the back of his hand. Ruan Chao could see them clearly as long as he lowered his head.

He is obviously pretending to be pitiful in order to arouse sympathy.

Ruan Chao was indeed hooked. After glancing at the back of his hand, he quickly looked away.

His attitude had obviously softened, but he still couldn't help but retort.

"My mother didn't say anything. How do you know she didn't object?"

Gu Xingyan: "Auntie told us to think carefully and not to act on impulse and do things that we would regret."

"I thought about it over and over for several nights before making a serious decision, so I will never regret it."

He stared at Ruan Chao for a few seconds and gave a faint smile.

"But if it's morning, it doesn't matter if you do it on a whim."

He was thoughtful, but he didn't care if I acted on impulse...

Even if you don't want to admit it, you can't deny it.

At that moment, Nguyen Chao did have a slightly different feeling towards Gu Xing.

He couldn't tell whether this feeling was love or not.

But it is undeniable that Gu Xingyan has indeed become a different person in his heart.

He was in a trance for too long.

So much so that Gu Xingyan has already announced that he is Ruan Chao's boyfriend from now on, and the two of them will be officially together from today, and their anniversary will be on September 4th...

"Wait, I haven't agreed yet!"

"But you have already acquiesced. It is too late to regret now."

…

Nguyen Chao's senior year of high school continued as usual.

Apart from having a cheap boyfriend, there is nothing worth paying attention to.

After two autumn rains, the weather turned cold very quickly.

Even if I was wrapped in a thick scarf, I could still feel the cold wind blowing on my face, which was like a knife and hurt me a lot.

He shrank behind Gu Xingyan.

After thinking for a while, she put her hands into the boy's sleeves again.

The cold palm of my hand completely touched the other person's warm skin.

Gu Xingyan shivered from the cold.

Ruan Chao, however, seemed to have succeeded in his prank and couldn't help but smile with his eyes squinting. The slightly sunken corners of his lips showed his relaxed and happy mood.

Gu Xingyan tolerated his little movement and asked softly, "Is it cold?"

"It's cold. It's freezing cold."

At this point, Nguyen Chao couldn't help but accuse.

"This city only has two seasons: summer and winter. There is no autumn at all."

Clearly last weekend he was still wearing light clothes, drinking cold drinks and eating ice cream, but who would have known that in just a week he was wearing super thick cotton clothes and wrapping himself up like a round ball of fur.

Even so, he would still feel very cold if he stayed outside for a long time.

Gu Xingyan took his hand out, placed it in his palm, and then completely wrapped it with his palm.

No matter what time it is, Gu Xingyan's hands are always hot, as if they contain a big warm fireball that can block out all the coldness from the outside world.

Ruan Chao squinted his eyes comfortably and didn't feel so cold anymore.

This weekend, they made an appointment to go to the library to study together.

But Gu Xingyan left his things at home, so Ruan Chao had to go back with him to get them.

The apartment he rented was very close to the school and was a simple one-bedroom apartment.

Clean, tidy, bright, and has an elevator.

Ruan Chao poked Gu Xingyan's shoulder and asked, "Where is the old house?"

“Sold.”

Although it is simple, narrow and dilapidated.

But it has a good geographical location and was sold at a good price.

Gu Xingyan never thought about selling the house even during the most difficult times.

He thought it was his home, and only with it did he feel a sense of belonging. In the dead of night, he felt that he was not alone.

In the end, everything is fake.

Memories mixed with deception and hurt no longer have any need to exist.

The elevator stopped on the twenty-third floor.

The apartment is equipped with floor heating equipment, so even in cold weather, the temperature will be maintained at a comfortable 25 degrees.

The Nguyen Dynasty wore a scarf and a hat, and was fully armed.

Gu Xingyan helped him take off his hat and then untied the tied scarf.

The two were quite close.

You can see the boy's red nose and his clear eyes that are still a little misty.

Gu Xingyan's breathing stagnated for a second.

He grabbed a corner of the scarf and pulled Ruan Chao into his arms. His eyes gradually moved down and landed on the boy's red lips.

With a light press of the thumb, the soft lip flesh sank, forming a beautiful arc... You don't have to think about how comfortable it would be to kiss it.

The moment the boy's lips fell, Ruan Chao quickly covered his mouth and spoke righteously.

"You are still in the probation period."

"No kissing."

The boy lowered his eyelashes and said nothing.

The wet and hot touch flashed across the sensitive palm.

Ruan Chao was horrified and shouted in panic: "You are not allowed to lick it!"

…

Finally they kissed.

Kissing could be a very comfortable thing if Gu Xingyan didn't lick and bite like a dog.

But Nguyen Chao would only feel comfortable for a few seconds before the other party's true colors were revealed.

His legs and feet became weak from the kisses and he could hardly breathe. He was forced to follow his rhythm and breathe in small gulps in between his slower movements.

Nguyen's cotton coat was taken off and thrown on the sofa.

I don't know where I lost the scarf.

He grabbed the boy's hair and pulled him out, his eyes were a little confused, and he said vaguely: "Gently, a little more..."

Gu Xingyan responded sullenly with "OK".

Then he caught up and bit me.

…………

The Nguyen Dynasty was pressed on the sofa.

The other person's hand restlessly reached under his clothes, touched his sensitive waist, and rubbed it twice without any method. Almost instantly, Ruan Chao's body went limp.

The knees that were originally together were forced apart.

The delicate kisses gradually moved down and landed on his neck, causing a burning shudder.

A sense of fear suddenly arose in Ruan Chao's heart, which woke him up from his dazed state.

"Gu...Gu Xingyan..."

The boy pretended not to hear anything and licked his Adam's apple again and again, and gently bit it with his canine teeth, leaving ambiguous and charming red marks.

The feeling of having such a vulnerable position in someone else's hands... is strange.

Gu Xingyan just licked his neck twice, and Ruan Chao couldn't help shaking all over.

His fingertips were trembling, but he still tried to raise his hand and put it on Gu Xingyan's shoulder, trying to push him away.

Gu Xingyan grabbed his hand, and as if kissing was not enough, he placed two more burning kisses on the slender white fingertips.

Then he clamped his wrists and lifted them up to his head.

"You, if you keep doing this... I'm going to get angry." Because of the unfamiliar reaction and disordered breathing, Ruan Chao's voice became a little hoarse, with a hint of weak crying.

Gu Xingyan stopped.

Then he turned his head and swore.

Ruan Chao stared at him in disbelief.

Gu Xingyan hurriedly explained: "Baby... I'm not scolding you..."

As if he had been severely bullied, the corners of Ruan Chao's eyes were slightly red, and there was a hazy watery color in his eyes. He was breathing lightly.

"Why don't you get up quickly..."

"Right away." Gu Xingyan's hoarse voice was tinged with lust, and beads of sweat rolled down his forehead, as if he had endured to the extreme, "Let me... let me slow down for a while."

…

Gu Xingyan went to take a shower.

Even if Nguyen Chao had no common sense, he knew what he was going to do.

With his face flushed, he listened to the sound of water coming from the bathroom.

The sound of the flowing water is loud enough to cover up all the sounds that should and should not happen.

Ruan Chao's face turned even redder, and he couldn't help but complain to the system quietly: [How old is he...he's always thinking about these things in his head, what will happen in the future. ]

Systematic science: [Eighteen is the age when men are most energetic, reaching their peak at twenty-three, and then slowly begins to decline.]

Ruan Chao thought: [Then I should agree to be in a relationship with him after I turn 23. Is it too late to break up now? ]

It seems too late.

Nguyen Chao picked up the mirror from the table and looked at himself.

After his repeated warnings, Gu Xingyan finally learned his lesson and did not leave any obvious, fine teeth marks on his lips.

But it still hurts bluntly.

But at least I don’t have to wear a mask anymore.

He moved the mirror down.

I saw the messy marks on my neck.

Some of it was bitten out, and some of it was licked out, one piece after another, from the Adam's apple down, it was all...

Ruan Chao's hand shook and he almost dropped the mirror.

Break up, break up now!

Right now! He can't wait any longer!