Chapter 20 Do you have a goodnight kiss today?
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After leaving the bathroom, Di Ling left the restaurant directly and took a taxi back home.
She sent a WeChat message to Pan Zheng on the way, with only four words: I'm going back.
She knew she shouldn't be like this. If Pan Zheng was still skeptical when she first threw the cup, he must have known by now that there was definitely some kind of entanglement between her and Jiang Xingran.
But she really couldn't do it. She couldn't go back to that suffocating box and stay there for another second, continuing to play the role of that mechanical vase.
She couldn't bear to look at that person even once again.
She couldn't even muster a fake smile.
Di Ling felt that all her strength had been drained away in that bathroom, and along with it, all her enthusiasm, courage, happiness... everything disappeared from her body.
Now she is like a walking corpse.
She didn't know what she was doing or what she should be thinking.
…
When Pan Zheng came back, the room was pitch black.
He immediately saw Di Ling hugging her knees on the sofa. She curled up tightly like a seriously injured little animal. Just by looking at her appearance, he knew that she had closed herself off.
He looked at her for a while, changed into slippers, and did not turn on the light, but just walked towards her slowly.
When he walked in front of her, she raised her face from between her knees, looked at him, and curled the corners of her mouth slightly, "You're back."
Her voice was hoarse.
He looked down at her without saying a word.
She looked at his solemn and handsome face in the moonlight outside the window and smiled again, "I'm sorry, Pan Zheng, I've embarrassed you so much. If you sell me out, I may not be able to afford to compensate you."
Pan Zheng's eyes moved, and the next second, he gently raised his hand towards her.
She bit her lip and said, "Go ahead."
"Pan Zheng, hit me."
Seeing that he didn't move, she raised her face even higher, "Hit me harder. I'm such a slut, rushing to sleep with someone, and being treated like a joke, and in the end, I even lost my heart... I'm really fucking sick, beat me to death, okay? Otherwise, I won't feel any pain..."
He stared at her pale face motionlessly, and his hand, which had not used any strength to begin with, finally fell gently on her fluffy head like soft cotton.
He rubbed her soft hair twice and said softly, "Don't laugh like that. It makes me sad."
As soon as he said this, Di Ling's tears burst out and she couldn't stop them at all.
"Be good, don't cry,"
He took off his scarf, sat down beside her, and said word by word, "I don't blame you at all. After all, our Di Ling is the most charming girl in the world. She's smart and beautiful, with an even more interesting soul. She's full of drama, making people want to stop every day. Whoever stays with you is enjoying a free movie every day, isn't it?"
Hearing his last words, she couldn't help laughing, and ended up with tears and snot flowing into her mouth. "...Who told you it was free?"
He kept patting her back. "So you see, you're so good, who can resist liking you? You're like the sun, everyone who sees you wants to reach out and hold it, want to possess it for themselves."
She seemed to have thought of something, and tears continued to flow silently, "But as long as I give my heart, there will be no good results in the end."
Pan Zheng looked at her and shook his head gently, "Don't lie."
After hearing this, she was stunned for a moment and looked at him blankly.
"You clearly know that he has not let you down."
In the silence of the room, only the ancient ticking sound of the wall clock was heard. They looked at each other in the dim light.
"Di Ling, you actually know that there are some things that he can't deceive you with even if he really wants to. You know it very clearly."
She looked at him, her eyelashes trembling slightly.
"The first time you pushed him away, it was because you knew he was truly in love with you, and you didn't want me to suffer the consequences of that, so you ran away. And today, when you pushed him away again, it wasn't because you were truly angry about his lies. You just had already decided to drive him away, so you took advantage of the opportunity. You know that since he took the initiative to meet us today, he was determined to be with you and was willing to pay any price."
Di Ling listened to his steady voice, keeping her eyes down and silent, but her wrist joints were turning purple due to excessive tension.
"The fact that you love him has nothing to do with who he is. You pushed him away twice, not because you didn't love him, but because you loved him too much. You didn't want him to act impulsively, you didn't want him to be dragged into this ridiculous marriage between us, and you didn't want him to suffer and be troubled because of you, so you forced him to leave."
"Also," his eyes gradually turned red, "I know that you are willing to sacrifice your own love in order to protect me."
I don’t know how long it took.
She closed her eyes and sighed, "I've never been able to successfully deceive you."
Perhaps the scene she had in the restaurant bathroom deceived Jiang Xingran and herself.
She expressed hatred, disappointment, pain, and determination. She seized on Jiang Xingran's lies and made up the best reason - because you lied to me, I don't believe you, and we will not have a future.
But in the end she failed to deceive Pan Zheng.
"Because I'm the person you trust the most," he laughed. "For over twenty years, I'm probably the person who knows you best in the world."
"Yes," she nodded, "you are."
He leaned over and gently touched her forehead. "Well, since you believe what I say, you must believe that there is such a person in this world who truly loves you as himself, loves all of you, no matter how beautiful or ugly you are, he accepts you without any hesitation."
"I believe it."
Because she has already met him.
"But he's so nice, I don't deserve someone as nice as him."
I don't deserve true love.
"You're the best girl I've ever met, and I think you deserve the best," he told her seriously.
"Okay, stop talking," she frantically wiped the tears from her face and teased him weakly, "I've known you for all these years and I've never heard you say so many nice things. Tell me the truth, did you secretly sell my house? Or my car?"
Pan Zheng looked deeply into her eyes for a long moment before answering irrelevantly, "Di Ling, thank you."
Thank you for always being with me all these years. The days in the tower were not so hard because of you.
Thank you for protecting me and my loved one all these years and caring about us like family.
Thank you for being willing to give up the person you met with great difficulty for me, no matter how painful it is.
Thank you for being able to be your husband and wife. Even if it is just a piece of paper, it is enough for me to remember it for the rest of my life.
"What are you thanking me for? Thanking me for cheating on you?" She rolled her eyes.
After a while, he touched her hair and said with a smile,
"Di Ling, let's get a divorce."
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Di Ling slept from early morning until the afternoon of the next day.
After she opened her eyes, she felt a splitting headache. She felt as if she had had a very long dream. So many things happened in the dream. She cried, shouted, and laughed... Finally, she heard Pan Zheng say something to her.
He said he wanted to divorce her.
...This must be a dream, right?
She was too lazy to even look at the phone on the bedside table. She covered her head and walked from the bedroom to the living room, then sat down on the sofa. She stared blankly in front of her for a while, then turned on the TV casually.
She was switching channels aimlessly, and suddenly paused on the news channel.
At the bottom of the TV screen, a line of words was flowing: P City's richest man, Jiang Xingran, publicly announced that he had interfered with someone else's marriage.
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The remote control in Di Ling's hand fell to the ground. She felt that the blood in her body had frozen. She looked back and forth at the line of words for a long time, and even wondered if there was something wrong with her eyes.
Then she saw a video start playing on TV.
The background of the video seemed to be a place similar to an office. The man she was so familiar with was sitting on a large sofa, looking at the camera with an indifferent expression.
"I have always run the Jiang Group in a low-key manner and have never made any private matters public. However, due to reasons that have arisen today, I do not want to negatively impact the other two parties involved, so I am here to give the public an explanation."
"I, Jiang Xingran, fell in love with Di Ling, the wife of Pan Zheng, the head of the Pan Group. Di Ling didn't love me, but I pursued her relentlessly, which affected her marriage to Pan Zheng. If there are any changes in their marriage, it will be due to the trouble I caused them, and has nothing to do with either of them."
"Also, no matter what Di Ling's attitude is, I will love her forever."
The video came to an abrupt end after just a few tens of seconds. One can imagine what kind of uproar this video would cause. She sat on the sofa with a cold body, staring at the TV screen, and even seemed to be unable to hear the loud ringing of the home phone and mobile phone.
After a while, the doorbell at home started ringing.
Di Ling gritted her teeth, slowly stood up from the sofa, trembling all over, and walked towards the door.
She was frantically thinking about who would come... The security of her and Pan Zheng's residential complex was extremely secretive, so it was impossible for it to be the media or outsiders. Moreover, their house had an independent elevator that led directly to the password lock of the garage downstairs. Usually, only she and Pan Zheng could come in, and no one else could.
So, could it be Pan Zheng?
She grasped the door handle with one hand and opened the door tremblingly.
But the person outside the door was not Pan Zheng.
The man was wearing the dark suit she had just seen on TV. His hair was slightly messy and his face looked very tired, but he just stood in front of her, looking at her with the same gentle eyes that he had always looked at her, and smiling at her.
Even though she had just hurt his heart badly last night and told him to get as far away from her as possible.
Even though she had unilaterally announced that she had given up on him and all possibilities between them.
"...Jiang Xingran,"
She raised her head, pointed at his face and said, "Are you fucking crazy? Huh?"
"Yeah, did you just find out?" He was still laughing. "I'm afraid there's no cure for my illness in this lifetime."
"Do you know what you just did?" Her tears, big as beans, rolled down her cheeks. "You brought all the fire and attacks upon yourself? Are you happy only when you completely destroy yourself?!"
"I'm happy,"
He took a step closer to her, his eyes reddened, "As long as I can see you one more time, I'll be happy."
She yelled at him with red eyes, "Go away!"
He shook his head. "I'm not leaving."
She stared at him motionlessly for a long time, then burst into tears. "Xingran, just for someone like me...is it worth it?"
He was despised by thousands of people, attacked by everyone, and endured condemnation from all sides. He carried this unjust reputation with him for the rest of his life, which ruined all his beautiful and peaceful life.
Just for her.
"Di Ling, you want to protect me and Pan Zheng, but who will protect you?"
Amid her sobs, he sighed, his eyes slightly moist, "How come you don't understand at all?"
"I'm willing to become the enemy of the world for you."
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