Chapter 208: Confessions
Yu Huatang covered her lips tightly, squatted down, and told herself not to cry. She had already shed too many tears for him.
Just as he said, she regretted it now, she could afford to lose, she was no longer the girl who had nothing before, she still had her own skills, her own shop, now she was hurt by him again, she should give up, let's go, let's all go.
She was destined to live out her life alone. She had never had any hope in the first place, so she shouldn't be so sad now. She stood up, wiped away her tears, and looked up for a long time until her eyes could no longer shed tears, then she went into the room.
But not long after, she heard another knock on the door. She quickly wiped her face and asked, "Who?"
Someone answered, "It's me, Senior Sister."
She opened the door, Xu Fu came in, and closed the gate again. As if he was about to make a decision, he took a deep breath and was about to speak.
Seeing him like this, Yu Huatang felt a little uneasy. He took a step back and asked, "Xu Fu, what are you doing?"
Xu Fu said, "Senior Sister, don't be afraid. I've been holding it in my heart for a long time and have always wanted to tell you..."
He wanted to say something but stopped himself, and looked at Yu Huatang with an unprecedented look, as if Yu Huatang was no longer his senior sister.
Yu Huatang clenched his fists and took a few steps back.
Xu Fu took a step forward and said, "Senior Sister, my father has been arranging blind dates for me since last year, but I always refused... because I knew I didn't like them. In fact, from the beginning, the one I always liked was... was..."
There was hesitation in his eyes when he looked at her, but Yu Huatang understood.
She immediately comforted him, "Maybe you haven't met enough girls, or you're too young. Why not wait another two years? When you're older, your understanding of people and things will be different, and then you'll find a girl you like."
Xu Fu wanted to say something, but Yu Huatang didn't give him the chance. "Senior Sister has always treated you as my own brother. I hope you can marry a woman you like and live happily ever after. If you really don't find anyone you like, I will be your matchmaker if I meet a good girl in the future. I won't let my brother be lonely all his life."
When she said this, Xu Fu was shocked and speechless. Brother? Is he just treated as a brother?
She obviously knew what he was thinking. If he still insisted and did something unethical, he would be a piece of shit.
After a long moment, Xu Fu's eyes moistened, and he finally said, "I understand, Senior Sister... take care of yourself."
Yu Huatang smiled, looking at him and said, "Our Xu Fu has good looks and a good personality. He will definitely have a happy marriage in the future."
Xu Fu nodded, unable to say anything more, and took a few steps back, bowed to her, and finally opened the door and walked out into the night.
Yu Huatang looked at the disappearing figure, and the smile on her face gradually disappeared. The appearance of Xu Fu reminded her of Zhao Yan's words.
Zhao Yan had said before that she went out with a man who had intentions towards her, and it was on her birthday. She was very angry when she heard it and didn't know why he said that.
Now she understood, so Zhao Yan had always known what Xu Fu was thinking.
He left so sadly just now. Where is he now? Did he return to Fuzhou Prefecture, or go somewhere else?
Back in the room, she stared at the candlelight in a daze.
So the two of them can only go this far, right? But she actually can't let him go in her heart. No matter what, she wants to tell him what she thinks. She didn't know what Xu Fu meant before, but now she knows; she has never thought of revenge on him, she can't let him go, and she really wants to start over with him.
But what does it matter? They will have conflicts sooner or later, so it’s better to end it from the beginning.
She sat there for a long time, and suddenly realized that many years ago, she had also been waiting in the room like this, and she never had the courage to go over and question him, asking him why he married her and then insulted her like this.
If it were now, she would definitely ask him why he did this.
Just like now, will I regret this incident many years later? Will I regret not telling him clearly today, at least to make him understand what kind of person I am?
She was used to guessing, waiting until the end and then swallowing all the pain in her heart.
This time, she didn't want to do that. She wanted to tell him that she had never thought of taking revenge on him.
She stood up, took out the lantern and walked outside. It was already a little cold in early winter, but she didn't care at the moment. She walked along a small path and was about to reach his courtyard gate when it opened. A man came out, also holding a lantern.
Seeing it was her, he immediately came over and asked, "Where are you going?"
Yu Huatang looked at him and said, "I want to talk to you about something." Then he asked, "What about you?"
"I came to see you, too." He paused, then slowly approached her, as if thinking for a moment. He took her hand and said, "I think I was wrong just now. I couldn't control my anger and said a lot of things I shouldn't have said. I should have understood you. If you wanted to retaliate against me, you wouldn't have agreed to start over with me. From the moment you agreed, you sincerely wanted to be with me. I apologize for what happened just now. I'm sorry."
"I still sincerely hope to marry you, and I hope you won't reject me again. Every time you reject me, I'm very sad and very scared. What I said before was all from the heart. I admire you, so I naturally don't blame you for going out with a man. But Xu Fu is different. He..."
"I know, I just found out..." she said, "I want to tell you that before this, I went out with him only because we were senior and junior sisters, nothing else. I won't go out with him again in the future."
Zhao Yan was extremely delighted. Since she came to explain, it meant that she cared about him.
He pulled her hard, hugged her, and said anxiously, "So you haven't changed your mind, right? You will still marry me, right? I was too impatient just now. I apologize."
"That's exactly why I came to see you." She came out of his arms and looked at him. His heart tightened and he was a little afraid to listen to what she was going to say next.
She looked around and said, "Let's go to the stone table over there and talk."
Seeing how serious she was, Zhao Yan was even more afraid that she would say something like, "I regret it now, but I'm serious this time."
The two sat down, and Yu Huatang said, "I agreed before because I sincerely wanted to be with you, but I was still a little hesitant. That day, a couple came to Changming Pavilion. The pattern on the man's clothes was very beautiful. It was embroidered by his wife. I originally wanted to embroider a dress for you, but I was afraid. I was afraid that I would do something meaningless again... Later, I gave up and didn't ask that person because I was afraid that the result would not be good, and that you still wouldn't even look at it..."
"Then don't do it. I'll do all this from now on." He stood up and hugged her.
He then pulled out a brocade box from his bosom and opened it, revealing a hairpin inside. "I had someone make this in the capital. It was originally a set, but the master wasn't finished yet, so I took one of them. It has a butterfly pattern, and I drew the design myself. It suits you perfectly."
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