Chapter 111
"Song Yiyi!"
"What's wrong?" Xu Zhiyan called her name as soon as she entered the house. Song Yizhu was a little confused. She didn't do anything bad today.
"I have some questions for you."
Xu Zhiyan beckoned at her, and he quickly walked over to her and sat down.
"What do you want to ask?" She sat on him so familiarly, forcing him to look up at her.
"Were you unhappy when you came back from the Song family last time? You can only answer yes or no." In order to prevent her from changing the subject, Xu Zhiyan added a sentence.
Song Yizhu was silent for a while, not understanding why she suddenly asked about the previous matter, but still answered obediently: "Yes."
"Why didn't you tell me?" Xu Zhiyan didn't ask her why. Compared to this, she cared more about her not telling her about this.
"I forgot."
I even forgot to tell her that I was in a bad mood. What kind of answer is that?
"Forgot? Did you forget that you were in a bad mood or forgot to tell me, or did you just not want to tell me?"
"I don't know." Song Yizhu buried himself in her arms, his voice muffled.
"What do you mean you don't know?" Xu Zhiyan was almost amused by her. The first sentence "I forgot" was enough to make her angry, and now she added "I don't know", which was just adding fuel to the fire.
"I just don't know." Song Yizhu didn't understand what was going on in his mind.
"Don't you know how to tell me or don't you know you should tell me?" Xu Zhiyan put some distance between them and let her look directly at him. The other party kept glancing around, her eyes rolling around, and refused to look him in the eye.
"I don't know." I didn't know whether I should say it or how to say it.
"Am I your partner?" After a long silence, Xu Zhiyan chose to change his approach to solving the problem.
"Yes." The question was simple, and Song Yizhu answered her without hesitation.
"Do you want to be with me forever?"
"want."
"Shouldn't you tell me when you're unhappy?"
The other party fell silent again, and the two firm answers just now seemed like an illusion.
"Since I'm your partner and you want to be with me for the rest of your life, you should honestly tell me when you're unhappy. Sometimes I can't tell, Song Yiyi, you can't keep me guessing. What if I can't figure it out? What if those emotions take a long time to settle, and you've digested them all by yourself? What should I do then?"
"As your lover, your wife, I have the right to know your emotions and to help you get rid of your unhappiness. Don't keep your emotions in your heart. That would make me sad because you don't need me, because you haven't revealed your true self to me, and I can't peel back your heart layer by layer to get to the real you, the complete you."
"Dear, love is a very complicated thing. It will magnify one's tolerance and desires. When I love you, I want you to be mine alone. I want to feel your emotions and your love. Don't shut yourself off, okay? Let me get close to you."
As she spoke, she felt more and more sad. There was an indescribable bitterness in her throat. The anger that was originally just because she didn't express her emotions to her turned into the bitterness of being unable to get close to her.
Song Yizhu was silent for a long time. She said she didn't know how to express her emotions. She could never say those words that begged for comfort. It was difficult to speak of them. Exposing herself at her most vulnerable moment was like deliberately exposing her wounds, asking for people's love and sympathy.
"I had a heart-to-heart talk with them last time. I hope they can stop disturbing my life. Even though I said that and I really think so in my heart, I still feel sad."
"Would you be happy if you didn't push them away?" She was finally willing to talk to him about something else, and Xu Zhiyan was of course happy to see it happen.
"No, I don't want to have any contact with them. They are not nice at all and don't care about me at all. My birth was like a disaster to them. I can't explain my feelings towards them." Song Yizhu didn't dare to say that he didn't love them at all, but he couldn't guarantee that he hated them purely.
"It doesn't matter. Just make a choice. Sometimes it's okay not to choose. There's no need to force yourself to make a decision, because sometimes, the options are not satisfactory, and the results will still be unsatisfactory no matter how you change them."
Xu Zhiyan slowly stroked her hair again and again, kissing her from time to time.
Unsatisfactory options will also lead to unsatisfactory outcomes, so there is no need to force yourself to make a choice.
"What should I do next time I feel unhappy?" After finishing what he wanted to say, Xu Zhiyan still had not forgotten his original purpose.
"Stay close to your wife and ask for her comfort." Song Yizhu said, leaning into her arms again.
"Well, I hope you can do what you say. If you can't, I will bite you." Xu Zhiyan snorted and threatened her again.
"I will do it, honey, I'll be close to you and give you a kiss." Song Yizhu nodded like crazy, pressing his whole body against her. She had her own pheromone smell, the smell of peach wood, mixed with the fragrance of flowers.
"Can you not do that tonight?" After finishing the serious business, Xu Zhiyan changed the subject.
"What, that, what?" Song Yizhu pretended to know nothing, but he was only deceiving himself.
"Can it be less astringent?"
"Can't."
"Is there no other choice?"
"Yes, I know. The answer to this question is C."
Choose c, c again!!
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