Chapter 41
"You really can't tell me?" Xu Zhiyan simply held up his face and looked at her. It seemed that he was going to get an answer tonight.
"Tell you what?" She couldn't ignore the gaze next to her that was about to solidify into reality. She could only look back at her. Fortunately, the room was dark and she couldn't make out anything, otherwise her eyes would definitely be dodging.
"Tell me what you're thinking, what you're sighing about, and what makes you uncomfortable. As a marshal, I believe you've interacted with quite a few people. Why are you so stiff with me? If you're uncomfortable with me, why did you ask me to travel with you?"
The long paragraph was like an immovable mountain, pressing her to the point where she felt breathless, her head was dizzy, and even blank.
The other party remained silent, leaving her with silence.
This time it was her turn to sigh. It was so confusing. Why did she need an answer? They were obviously not very familiar with each other. In the final analysis, they were just two strangers who had slept together. It was just that she was too greedy and wanted to know more, which led to the current stalemate.
"Go to bed early, good night." After leaving these few words, Xu Zhiyan turned over and faced her with his back, his closed eyes feeling a little hot.
Song Yizhu moved her lips, but in the end she didn't say anything, not even a "good night" in reply.
As the night deepened, the only sound beside me was the gentle breathing, so light and soft.
Song Yizhu tilted her head, and only her scattered black hair could be seen. It seemed as if there was a galaxy between them, and on the other side was an unreachable pure land, peaceful and harmonious.
She has interacted with many people, including comrades, superiors, civilians, royal families, and even aliens. These were all easy for her to deal with, but for her, it was more difficult to adapt.
From the first time they met, the other person looked at her with eyes that were scrutinizing, probing, and perhaps even amazed. She had encountered many such looks before, but they were mixed together without any purpose, which was really rare, so she inexplicably allowed her to follow behind her.
Then the other party was stopped outside the base. She never thought that there would be someone so naive as to follow a passerby and even stick to her. She was obviously pretending to be pitiful, but she thought it was a bit cute, and finally acquiesced to her living next door.
After that, she begged me, whether it was a temporary mark or getting a marriage certificate. She said she wanted a consent form for employment, even if it was tied to me. At that time, I was wondering what kind of job it was that would make her spend the rest of her life asking for such a consent form.
Later she understood that it was something called a dream. That thin piece of paper was enough to make her rejoice for a long time, and it didn't matter to her that her newlywed wife left directly after getting the marriage certificate.
She knew this would be the result, so she secretly increased the injection of pheromones each time she marked someone. During that period and even for a long time afterwards, she carried her own pheromones on her body. Although she couldn't smell them, others could smell them as long as they got close. That was her unscrupulous expression of her possessiveness.
But she wouldn't know that, she was so stupid, how could she possibly know that the SSS-level Alpha pheromone was absolutely aggressive as long as it wanted to release its possessiveness, openly possessing her, declaring that she already had an Alpha, declaring that she belonged to him.
The Alpha's bad qualities were clearly exposed in front of her: occupying territory, being selfish and possessive, being tyrannical and overbearing, and wishing he could tie her to his side forever.
Fortunately, she still had her wits about her shoulders and didn't completely indulge herself; she was still under control.
When she came back, she looked a little haggard, perhaps because of the fatigue brought by work, but her expression was relaxed. She happened to meet Xiao Jingxue and herself at the same time.
She was really stupid. She didn't even dare to reveal her identity. She didn't even dare to say that she was her Alpha. Maybe it wasn't that she didn't dare, but she just didn't care. She didn't care whether she was hanging out with other Omegas or whether she was loyal. To be precise, she didn't care about her.
At the celebration party, she met her mother, the extremely strict and hostile mother. Next to her was her weak mother, the mother as gentle as water, and there was no lovely sister. She did not get close to her, but felt lonely in her heart.
So she drank when she came back. In fact, she had been drinking during the party, but this was far from enough. Alcohol can numb many emotions, empty the brain, and make her feel less uncomfortable. But she didn't expect to bump into her when she came back.
Noticing the look she was giving her, she didn't dare to respond. Bad emotions filled her body for a moment. They were bitter and could not be expressed in words, and she didn't want to infect her with them.
She still came over and asked me if I knew who she was. It seemed that she thought she was drunk.
How could he not know? It was his wife, Xu Zhiyan, the person she wanted to get close to quietly.
She put her worries aside lightly. The things that she cared about and was entangled with seemed not so important. The waves in her heart were smoothed out quietly.
She became impulsive again and wanted to go out with her, to a place where there were no worries and where no one knew her.
Fortunately, she agreed, but things did not turn out as expected.
She seemed to be eager to know something, but he didn't have the courage to reveal his heart to her without hesitation.
What was she thinking during that silence? Was she wondering why she was so strange? Or was she thinking that she was just teasing her?
She seemed to have different feelings towards herself, but she was not sure and was afraid that it was just her own delusion.
She was the cowardly one who didn't dare to take a step forward.
I was unable to tell her about my own affairs, and I wanted to linger on some more time with her.
There is basically no possibility of curing the loss of sense of smell, otherwise she would not have waited for three years in vain.
An Alpha who cannot perceive her partner's emotions, an Alpha who cannot perceive pheromones, no matter how outstanding she is, will always be inferior to others, not to mention that she is not outstanding enough.
She deserves better than this.
If there is no good result, there is no need to analyze those feelings. It is not good for anyone and will cause trouble to her.
A sigh sounded in the darkness, abrupt and strange, just like the words she couldn't say, and even just like her, awkward and abrupt.
Quietly moving closer to Xu Zhiyan and feeling her warmth, Song Yizhu finally chose to fall asleep.
It’s okay, be a little more selfish, just a little bit.
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