Chapter 172: Denying the past hometown, she will not despise any of her children...
“Woo—woo—”
Outside the small window of the dormitory, seabirds made deep and low sounds.
Vifiya sat on her bed, stroking the small object in her hand.
The sea breeze blew into the dormitory, lifting her long hair.
She diverted her attention to Fei Yi and the others on the side.
It was lunchtime now, and children were not allowed to go to other dormitories in the past. However, since they were going to be punished anyway, it didn't matter if they made a few more mistakes.
"Mrs. Maggie can punish us however she wants. It's not like we haven't been punished before." Fei Yi sat on Dale's bed and shrugged indifferently.
The fat boy nodded in agreement. As the one who had been punished the most among them, he comforted Nerys, who looked quite uneasy during her first punishment. "It's okay. You'll just get a few hits at most. Even if you're hurt, it won't be serious."
Eddie didn't express his thoughts. He had been punished several times along with Fei Yi. Sometimes he would secretly help her prepare the punishment. As long as Fei Yi was not hurt, there was no need for anything else.
Like Nerys, Vifia was being punished in Samson Tower for the first time. She was not afraid. Instead, she was thinking about the scene she had seen in the blind spot of the stone stairs.
The white light that appeared in the green-haired boy's hand at that time might be the reason why he was able to survive the devil's hands.
If that was the case, she would need to change her plans, as she knew she didn't have the strength he displayed.
She had no intention of putting him in danger.
Vifia couldn't understand his reaction at that time, but surprisingly, the boy became very well behaved and even responded to her words. For example, when she asked him to go back to the dormitory, he went back obediently, but he still didn't speak.
It was also possible that he was going back to the dormitory anyway, Vifiya thought.
She paid attention to the conversation between Nerys and the others, and estimated that it was about time. She grasped the small object in her palm and jumped off the edge of the bed.
Nerys's eyes followed her movements. She had taken the initiative to plan the escape from the tower last night, and she had been prepared for any punishment.
What the fat guy said was not right. She was not afraid. Rather than being afraid, she was more concerned about...
Her gaze on Vifiya was so intense that Vifiya couldn't help but ask, "What's wrong?"
"Are you leaving St. Fagus Island?" Nerys stared at her, not wanting to miss any subtle expression on her face.
She returned to the dormitory too late last night and didn't have time to ask.
Hearing Nerys' question, Fei Yi and the other two couldn't help but look at her. They were also curious about this matter.
Vifia was not surprised that she would ask directly. Since the red-haired girl had pointed it out, she had no intention of hiding it: "Yes."
Nerys's eyes suddenly became worried and somewhat disapproving, as if she was looking at an ignorant child.
Fei Yi was full of curiosity and asked excitedly, "Why are you leaving?"
Without waiting for Vifiya to answer, she stretched out her index finger and shook it: "Don't tell me yet, let me guess!"
She narrowed her eyes and said thoughtfully, "It's not possible that she was scared by the people on the island..."
She raised her eyes, one hand stretched out on the bed, the whole person looked lazy and unfocused: "Is it because of the past?"
Weifeiya discovered that perhaps Feiyi was more perceptive than she had imagined. She did not deny it: "You are right."
The little fat boy blinked in surprise and asked doubtfully, "What was so good about the past?"
He obviously didn't understand why Xiao Hui was so obsessed with getting back the past.
After getting the answer, Nerys lowered her head and remained silent for a long time. Her lips moved and she asked, "Don't you like it here? Is it one of us who makes you unhappy, or..."
The girl raised her eyes: "Is everyone not good enough?"
Only the last sentence was enough for Vifia to understand her purpose: she was trying to stop her.
Eddie, who was always paying attention to Fei Yi, raised his eyelids and turned his head towards Vifiya. Even though he knew she was in danger, he should have warned her because she saved him and Fei Yi from the chain monster.
"It's okay to never find it. We all live in a muddled way anyway. Isn't it better here?"
Vifiya was surprised that even Eddie would join them in stopping her. Why?
The little fat boy touched his belly and hesitated to speak. He didn't know whether Xiao Hui would like what he said.
But he always felt that he should say it, so he hesitated and said, "I...I won't stop you, Xiaohui, but Saint Fagus Island is really good now."
Vifiya saw all their reactions and she keenly noticed that the atmosphere in the dormitory had become inexplicably depressed.
It's not that she can't understand their concerns. Everyone on the island has their own "differences". Perhaps because of this "difference", they have to become aliens in the eyes of others. They...
"Don't you know?" Eddie stood up straight, interrupting Vifia's thoughts and looking at her suspiciously.
There was no hiding of doubt in Vifiya's eyes.
Eddie still didn't understand something. He asked Nerys in surprise, "Didn't you tell her?"
Realizing what he was asking, Nerys's face was filled with astonishment. She glanced at Vifiya and realized that she really didn't know.
"Ah, I thought Xiao Hui knew." She looked back at Eddie.
Eddie shook his head, indicating that she didn't need to blame herself for such a small matter, nor did she need to blame her.
After all, who doesn't know what St. Fagus Island is?
Everyone knows this, anyone who has ever drifted aimlessly on the sea in a small boat knows this.
Eddie stared at Vifiya for a long time.
People who are good at observation are more sensitive than ordinary people, especially since she has always wanted to regain her memory.
"Forget it, let me do it." He raised his hand, signaling Nerys not to speak. He knew that Nerys still could not completely accept the fact that everyone knew.
"We are all abandoned people." He said calmly, as if he was talking about something ordinary.
Vifiya's pupils shrank, and she clearly felt her breathing stagnate.
"The entire St. Fagus Island is full of abandoned people." As Eddie finished his words, the dormitory fell silent.
The nameless seabird flapped its wings, swayed left and right to steady its body, and landed on the windowsill behind Vifia.
His gray eyes moved back and forth, and he raised his head and let out a low cry.
“Woo—woo—”
Nerys turned her head away and didn't look at Vifia.
The little fat man was also silent at this moment.
"That's not right." Fei Yi glanced at the seabird and tilted her head with a smile. "And there are also people who exile themselves."
Eddie thought about it and added, "The reason why St. Fagus Island is my hometown is because it accepts everything about you."
It will accept your imperfections, it will accept the side of you that is not accepted by others, it will accept your unbearableness, your imperfections...
No matter how strange you seem to others, no matter what your past is like, you are just a "normal person" here.
No one will ask where you come from or your past because it is no longer important.
No matter how many rules and regulations it has, it is the best place to be a hometown.
Hometown will not despise any of its children.
Vifiya's eyelashes trembled and she lowered her eyes.
She never thought about the answer Eddie gave.
Abandoned and self-exiled.
No matter which one it is, it indicates that there is no need to look for the past.
No wonder they envy themselves for not remembering.
No wonder they don't understand why they are looking for the past.
Yes, it makes sense, everything makes sense.
Why do some people have subtle “differences” but are still in Samson Tower?
Why did I get on the boat? Because I was abandoned.
There is no "difference" at all. It turns out the real reason is being abandoned, abandoned.
What about her...was she abandoned?
Or...did she exile herself?
Vifiya didn't know.
She found that being different was easier for her to accept than being abandoned.
Being abandoned means that even if you find your past, no one will be willing to acknowledge you.
Self-exile means that even if you find your past, you will still be in pain and unwilling to admit yourself.
"Even so, are you leaving?" Eddie was still as calm as before.
All eyes in the dormitory were focused on her again.
Fei Yi hummed a light tune from somewhere unknown, tapping her fingers on the bed.
Should I leave again? Weifeiya asked herself the same question in her heart.
Why does she want to regain her memory?
She admitted that she felt a moment of frustration after realizing what Eddie and Fei Yi said was true.
No one wants to be abandoned, and no one wants to go into self-exile.
She wanted to regain her memory, and perhaps she did want to know why she came to St. Fagus Island.
But more importantly, she wanted to find her own fulcrum.
People who have lost their past cannot find anything to support themselves.
Vifiya opened her mouth, and the answer was obvious.
The girl raised her head, her eyes firm: "Of course."
Fei Yi's humming suddenly stopped. She pursed her lips and observed Vifiya's expression, and found that she was actually serious.
Nerys and the little fat man didn't expect that after knowing the real reason, she would still not change her decision.
"Why?" Fei Yi's voice was light.
Faced with her question, Weifeiya didn't intend to hide her thoughts, because the answer was always simple: "If even I am unwilling to retrieve it, then how terrible was my past, and how eager was I to deny my life?"
She was unwilling to deny her past and her life, as this would be denying herself, and it would become meaningless.
The past is unknown to her now. She doesn't know how bizarre it will be and how painful it will make her.
However, no matter how unbearable it is, it is still a part of her, a part of her life.
Eddie was right. Although living in a confused state was not bad, Vifia always felt that she couldn't go on like this.
There was always a faint voice in her mind telling her to keep moving forward, keep moving forward, and not stop.
Fei Yi hummed the tune again, and the black-haired girl's determination had been conveyed to each of them.
Nerys pursed her lips and breathed a sigh of relief. She should have known that Xiao Hui was always very determined.
The fat boy silently changed the subject: "Let's go find Madam Maggie. If we keep her waiting for too long, our punishment might get worse."
The small object in her hand was stained with Vifiya's warmth, and she said to them, "No, don't go."
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