Chapter 214: Vifiya and Vifiya's Memory
"Are you angry?"
"No."
In a transparent space with no visible edge, Vifiya was floating around with her knees hugged. She blinked slowly.
Well, she's angry.
Without waiting for Vifiya to say anything, [Vifiya] said with understanding: "Jiang Suian, you just woke up, right? Rest if you're tired. Don't worry about anything else."
"I won't do anything to your friends, or your..."
"I know. I believe you."
The voice in my head was soft, carrying a strong sense of fatigue.
"I know you'll handle it well."
Vifiya, sitting on the carved bench, blinked. She gave a faint smile, clearly pleased by Vifiya's trust. "Of course."
Red threads in the transparent space surrounded the black-haired girl with her eyes closed, brushing past cracks that she herself had not noticed.
After returning from the past, another god from her hometown forced her to stay and did not allow her to return to Vifiya's body immediately.
He said she needed to rest.
In order to reassure her, they specially helped to remove the limitation that prevented Vifiya from controlling her own body.
The entire transparent space was very strange to Vifiya. She felt relaxed in it for the first time in a long time, completely relaxed.
Without rebirth, the brain does not need to think constantly, does not need to worry about every next step, does not need to worry about making the wrong choice, does not need to be afraid that someone else will die because of her...
It really is a great space to escape to.
She is indeed a coward.
She knew she couldn't.
After relaxing, she felt an unexpected sense of emptiness. In her previous imagination, she thought she would cry.
Vifiya half-closed her eyes and asked, "Do you want to see my memories?"
She knew that [Vefiya] was asking about her, and instead of asking others, it would be more convenient to just wait for her to wake up and ask her if she could see her memories.
"I don't want it." [Vefiya] refused without thinking.
She knew what Jiang Suian was thinking. She must have felt that since she had her memories, then as Jiang Suian's memories, [Vifiya] should also know them.
Vifiya lowered her eyes and thought for a moment, then asked, "Are you worried about seeing all my memories? It's okay, just control yourself and only see what I have in this life. I know you can do it."
[Vifiya]'s eyes fell on the cover of the "Basic Pharmacy Illustrated Book".
The black-haired girl's eyelashes trembled, and her voice was soft: "But, I might not be so happy."
Jiang Suian is testing.
[Vefiya] came to the conclusion in an instant.
She turned her head while lying on the carved bench. The snow outside the window was invisible at night without light.
"No, I don't want to." She was still looking at the invisible snow in the distance. "Jiang Suian, I just want you to tell me in person, that's why I haven't asked."
The power of the red thread is gentle, soothing any emotional fluctuations that Vifiya may have.
Yes, she is so smart, how could she not guess it.
Vifiya released her hands from hugging her knees and placed them on her chest. Her dark pupils did not fluctuate and were out of focus.
"[Vefia], I'm sorry."
The room was silent.
The black-haired girl mumbled, "I'm sorry."
…
"sorry."
Vifiya knew that all her apologies could not change the facts, because the facts had long been pale and powerless.
"Neve...Neve is dead."
"She died because of me... because of me."
"sorry."
"she……"
The girl with blonde hair and red eyes put her hand on the cover of the book to prevent it from sliding down her body.
She said nothing and listened quietly to the voice in her head.
The light from the candlestick swayed gently, the same as all the candlelight in the past, yet it was also the unique candlelight at this moment.
The candlelight of the past witnessed the past, and the candlelight of the present witnesses the present, and they will all dissipate in the passing world the next day.
In the transparent space, Vifiya recalled everything about Niv, no matter how big or small, every thing she did, her expression, her reaction, her death...
The fatigue in her heart suddenly intensified, making her sleepy.
Vifiya tried to cheer herself up, but she hadn't finished speaking yet. [Vifiya] had the right to know everything.
The red mist spread out from the silver bracelet in her hand, condensed into a thread that reached her heart, and along with the blood flowing in every blood vessel inside, it seeped into her body and relieved her fatigue.
Vefia paused for a moment, her heavy eyelids lifted as she spoke of the day Neve had truly stood by her side, how Neve had helped her find clues to her return home, how Neve had helped her monitor the capital's mansion during her time at Alsain Academy, how Neve had learned how to better care for flowers, how Neve had learned how to make better drinks, how Neve had become a test subject for the former marquis's "resurrection" magic, how Neve had thrust a knife at her, how Neve had left with the Pope, how Neve had died in the church of Iscana's capital, how Neve had eliminated a future threat for her, how Neve had gathered crucial intelligence, how Neve had known... she wasn't [Vefia]...
[Vefiya] heard Vefiya's shallow breathing.
"It was my fault for not resolving the hidden danger ahead of time. It was my fault for not stopping her and letting her go. It was my fault for being too arrogant and thinking she would be fine..."
The Pope has a connection with the false god, and how could Neve stay out of it if she followed her?
"I was...too cowardly. I wanted to escape the fact that Neve wanted to leave."
"No matter what, I should have kept her." Whether letting her continue to stay in the Marquis's Mansion or go to the arranged Selim Territory, the result would be much better than letting her leave.
"sorry."
"[Vefiya]."
…
"It's all my fault."
Vifiya never heard [Vifiya's] voice from beginning to end, and there was silence.
She suddenly became uncertain. On St. Fagus Island, when she met the fake [Vifia], she was able to say decisively that [Vifia] would not say those words to her, but when the real moment came, she couldn't help but feel uneasy.
[Vefiya] Will I be angry? I will be. Anyone would be angry when an important person is gone.
The black-haired girl wrapped her hands around her knees again and buried her face in them.
The worst outcome would be that [Vifiya] would break up with her.
There's nothing you can do about it; it's her fault.
"I didn't ask you to protect her."
A familiar voice entered her ears, and Vifiya's breathing became disordered for a moment, but was then eased by the red thread.
"Have you forgotten, Jiang Suian? What were my original words?"
Original words? Vifiya searched carefully in her mind.
"I've been preparing to pick a lock, and you must open it."
[Vifiya] sat up straight, with a rare solemnity on her face. She was wrong. She didn't expect that her ordinary words could trap Jiang Suian for so long.
She felt complicated for a moment, Jiang Suian, oh Jiang Suian, it seems like I have caused you trouble this time.
[Vefiya] glanced to the side. She needed to convey her thoughts to her, but since she couldn't see the other person's face, her tone became a good medium.
A girl skilled at disguise also knew when to briefly drop her disguise. She spoke firmly, "Listen carefully, Jiang Suian. A person's fate should be chosen by themselves. Niv chose sacrifice, and that is her fate. Every step she takes is a decision she makes for herself, a future she chooses for herself."
"You're not wrong, Jiang Suian. On the contrary, you've done a great job. You've fulfilled my request and also done other things I didn't ask you to do."
Her brows softened: "You have done very well."
After a brief silence, [Vifiya] heard Jiang Suian's nasal response: "Hmm."
Is [Vefiya] really not sad about Niv’s choice? She is.
But more importantly, it was the choice that Niv made herself. Since Niv already knew that it was Jiang Suian in [Vifiya]'s body, she still chose to sacrifice herself. So Niv definitely left without any regrets.
She had guessed it when she woke up and didn't see Neve.
According to Jiang Suian's thinking, she would definitely arrange for Niv to go to other territories in order to protect her, but Niv would definitely not go.
Vifiya lowered her eyes and said, "You've had a hard time along the way."
She didn't hear Jiang Suian's voice again, and it didn't matter whether she heard her last words or not. It was just her own emotion.
She raised her eyes, and the candlelight from the crystal chandelier flickered in her red pupils.
Jiang Suian's condition was really bad, and she talked about Niv twice.
She spoke calmly but haltingly.
Jiang Suian, it's very painful.
[Vifiya] had no expression on her face. Even if she didn't read Jiang Suian's mind, she could feel that Jiang Suian had collapsed inside.
It would be nice to take a break.
[Vifiya] lay back down on the carved bench, holding onto the Basic Pharmacy Guide to prevent it from falling.
She is back, and with Jiang Suian's personality, she will definitely think about a lot of things.
For example, the use of her body, the position of Marquis, and other things she gained in this body...
Jiang Suian always felt guilty towards her.
This guilt grew stronger the longer she disappeared, and she had to find a time when she was in a better state to talk to her.
[Vifiya] glanced at the door, but they really didn't come to the door.
Her mind stopped thinking for a moment, and her hands gently tapped the books, and one dull sound after another came into her ears.
[Vefiya] It doesn't matter.
She doesn't care about anything in the world.
Very boring.
Everyone can see the motives at a glance, can see why they lie, and can easily see why they have changed beyond recognition. Everyone lives their life step by step and numbly.
So ugly.
Even if the world were to be destroyed, even if many people died, including herself, she didn't care.
In the past, when Niv was around, she could barely care about him. Now that Niv is gone, there is only Jiang Suian left. All she has to do is send Jiang Suian back before the destruction.
Just because she could accept Neve's death didn't mean she could accept Jiang Suian's complete death in this world.
Jiang Suian doesn't belong here, and this shouldn't be her grave.
[Vifiya] stopped patting the books. Her hatred for her blood relatives was real, and it was also real that she wanted them to die in the most painful way. As for the Marquis's money and power, she didn't hate them, but she didn't particularly want them either.
If Jiang Suian wants it, just give it to her. She needs it, including her body.
[Vefiya] doesn’t have much attachment to her body. To her, it is just a carrier, a medium for feeling the world.
She has felt the world.
Well, it's boring.
When she was a child, she really wanted to be free and see the world with her own eyes, but because she had never had it before, people always worry about things they can't get, and she is no exception.
As she grew older, she discovered that the world was very, very boring, and it made no difference whether she read it or not.
She emphasized freedom in her memory to imply that Jiang Suian had gained freedom. Jiang Suian wanted to go home, but he couldn't do that without freedom.
Jiang Suian used her body and she stayed inside it. Wherever Jiang Suian went and whatever he saw, she could see it.
[Vifiya] also became a little annoyed for a moment. Jiang Suian was a guy who could easily trap himself.
How many times has she come back?
[Vefiya] closed her eyes, and in the darkness within them, she opened them again.
There's really nothing I can do about you, Jiang Suian.
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