How miserable is it for a woman who can’t have children?
Last night, Lin Minjun drank a soup that was said to cure women's infertility. In a blink of an eye, she vomited for half the night. She had not slept for long in bed when she was woken up by her husband Lu Deping.
Lu Deping's mother somehow heard that there was an old Miao doctor in Mengzi who specialized in treating infertility. She made countless phone calls before dawn, urging the couple to go and see the doctor.
Lin Minjun had been vomiting for half the night and was already feeling unwell, and when the wind blew, her head started to hurt again.
The newly launched Passat was speeding on the highway, Lin Minjun was sitting in the back seat and Lu Deping was driving in the front, and the two did not say a word along the way.
The wind was howling, and Lin Minjun had a splitting headache. Suddenly, she opened her lips and said, "Deping, let's go home. I don't want to go."
Lu Deping continued to step on the accelerator, his tone was gentle but his attitude was firm.
"Hold on for a minute, I'll drive and you can sleep in the back, okay?"
Lin Minjun didn't say anything.
Lu Deping sighed and said, "My mom asked an old classmate to find out about this. If we didn't go, they would be so disappointed. During the Chinese New Year, relatives would gossip about us behind our backs."
He softened his tone and continued, "House, car, money, we have everything that others have, and we also have everything that others don't have. Those people in the past must be so jealous of you now. You have everything in your life except a child. Can you be patient for a while, please?"
Following her husband's words, Lin Minjun began to recall her life.
When she was 22 years old, the educated youth returned to the city. She, a country girl, followed her husband back to the capital and married into a courtyard house.
After marriage, her husband took advantage of the reform and opening up and suddenly became rich in business, and she became a wealthy wife who never had to worry about food and drink.
Although she was later diagnosed with infertility, her mother-in-law and her family were still very kind to her, encouraging her to get injections, take medicine, see a doctor, and even have in vitro fertilization.
At first, I tried to be scientific and went to a large hospital in the capital. Later, I started looking for folk remedies for having children. To be funny, I even asked someone to help me with my pregnancy.
After hearing this, everyone said that women who could not give birth would have been dumped by their husband's family long ago, but the Lu family did not do that. They encouraged and tolerated her in every way. They said that the Lu family was kind and righteous, and her mother-in-law and husband were kind and righteous. They even praised her for her good fortune, saying that she had climbed up a high branch and fell into a nest of blessings.
Yes, in the eyes of outsiders, she did live a prosperous and happy life.
But only Lin Minjun knew that her life had been ruined long ago, as early as the day she was diagnosed with infertility.
Injections, medication, surgeries, and in vitro fertilization, the twenty-year journey to have a child has torn her body to pieces, leaving her no longer recognizable as a human.
When she thought of this, she felt a lump in her chest, making it hard for her to breathe.
With her head leaning against the car window, Lin Minjun closed her eyes and whispered, "Deping, let's get a divorce."
"What nonsense are you talking about? Divorce? I don't agree! Absolutely not!" Lu Deping said without hesitation, in a fierce voice, "We have a good relationship, why do we want a divorce!"
After the word "divorce" came out of his mouth, the feeling of being choked up in his heart was relieved a lot. Lin Minjun opened her eyes and persuaded him, "It's not too late for you now. Divorce me, find a woman who can give birth to a child, and have another child. Then you will have everything you need, and we will both be free."
Lin Minjun thought this was the best solution, but Lu Deping became even more agitated and slammed the steering wheel hard, "This is not freedom. Are you going to dump me? Don't you want to live with me anymore? Isn't it just to see a doctor and have a child, just to ease my mother's heart? Why can't you just be patient?"
There was no movement in the back seat, so he turned to look at his wife. He was about to continue arguing, but suddenly he saw his wife's dead look, as if she had no emotions at all. Her body was still there, but her heart was no longer with her.
Lu Deping suddenly felt panicky. He didn't want to get divorced. He was terrified. "Then let's not have the child. Can we not get divorced? Let's not go. I'll take you home now and not have the child..."
As he spoke, he turned the steering wheel subconsciously.
"We'll talk when we get back. Lu Deping, watch the road, watch the road!" Lin Minjun cried.
Bang!
The speeding Passat crashed into another car and was thrown to the side of the road. Lin Minjun was also thrown forward.
A sharp pain came over her, as if it was going to tear her apart. This must be life-threatening.
Before she died, Lin Minjun only felt regretful that she died like this and had wasted her youth in vain.
It would be great if I could do it all over again. If I could do it all over again, I would not marry or have children.
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Bang bang bang!
Lin Minjun was awakened by the sound of knocking on the car window. She knew that she had been in a car accident and she probably wasn't dead. It could be the police knocking on the car window.
But when she opened her eyes, she found something was wrong.
She was in a moving train, one of those old-fashioned green ones.
The people knocking on the window were not policemen, but a group of young people in green clothes. They were not knocking on the windows of a Passat, but on the windows of a train.
Lin Minjun slowly raised her upper body. Her hearing returned. She heard the group of young people crying and shouting, "Capital, I'm finally back. I'm home."
"The capital! The capital."
He knocked on the glass and shouted, his eyes greedily staring at everything passing by outside the window.
Lin Minjun also followed their gaze to look outside the train. The scenery was rapidly receding, and all that could be seen were farmlands, low houses, and people wearing gray clothes on the road.
But the capital is obviously not like this!
At this time Lin Minjun took another breath. She realized that she knew almost all the people lying on the window. They were all old friends, the educated youth who returned to the capital from Qujing with her. Everyone's appearance had changed and they all looked younger.
The person closest to her is Shen Hongyu. In her memory, Shen Hongyu is almost fifty years old. She always likes to inject something called uric acid into her face, making her face pitted and shiny. Old friends say that her face looks like a steamed bun.
But when she looked at Shen Hongyu beside her, although there was no smile on her face, there were no wrinkles on her face either, and she clearly looked to be in her twenties.
Has her life really started over again?
Lin Minjun thought she was dreaming, but the dream was so real that she couldn't help but feel hopeful.
Holding Shen Hongyu's hand, Lin Minjun asked, "Sister Hongyu, what time is it now?"
Shen Hongyu was in a daze and didn't say a word, but the educated youth next to her turned around, wiped their tears, and said with a smile, "Little Ajun, you've fallen asleep! It's past six in the afternoon and it's almost dark. We, the educated youth returning to the city, will arrive in the capital soon!" At the end, his tone was almost excited.
Return to the city, educated youth.
Word after word entered Lin Minjun's ears. She was surprised and happy. The return of educated youth to the city was something that happened when they were young, and the name "Xiao Ajun" was only called by people when she was young.
She pinched herself hard and felt the pain immediately. Only then did Lin Minjun dare to believe that she was truly reborn and returned to the past.
She went back to 1981! On the train back to the capital from Qujing, Yunnan with her husband!
A series of whistle sounds were heard, indicating that the train was about to arrive at the station.
From a distance, someone came from another carriage and said, "Minjun, Minjun, the train has arrived. Come home with me."
This is her husband from her previous life, Lu Deping.
Among a group of educated youths wearing old-fashioned military uniforms, Lu Deping was dressed in a white shirt, looking gentle and handsome. He was carrying a turquoise backpack and came over to shake Lin Minjun's hand, "Let's go home together. When we settle down, we'll get the marriage certificate and get married."
As soon as these words were spoken, every educated youth in the carriage looked uneasy.
In her previous life, Lin Minjun was so focused on Lu Deping that she didn't pay attention to the reactions of the people around her. After her rebirth, she found that there were already clues to some things.
The author has something to say:
The article is published! It will be published in October! Some of the place names in the article are made up by me, which is fictional. Please don't associate it with reality, this is fictional.
The prices and food in this article refer to "Bing Xin Diary", "Yunnan Cooking Collection" and "Suiyuan Food List" respectively.
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My next book "Days in the 1960s"
Xiao Baozhen was reborn. When she opened her eyes, she heard her mother crying, "What should I do? I finally found a good match in the city and he is about to come to propose marriage, but your shameless cousin actually snatched the match from my sister. My daughter, you have a miserable life!"
A divorced man with three children, is he considered a good partner?
In her last life, when she got married, she had to fight with her noisy and troublesome mother-in-law, her sweet-looking but cruel sister-in-law, and she also had to take the trouble to raise three naughty children. She was spoiled by her parents since she was a child, and not only did she tire herself into a yellow-faced woman, but her husband also complained about her.
If you marry into the family, you will have a miserable life! Whoever wants to be the stepmother can do it!
Xiao Baozhen didn't care, but the matchmaker felt bad and introduced another person from the city.
"The young man is a key employee of the factory. He has a city hukou and a good character, but he is a bit introverted. He has no parents and a younger brother who is a burden."
No father, no mother, few words but lots of money, is this considered a disadvantage?!
Xiao Baozhen stared at the handsome face and red earlobes of the man opposite her and nodded.
So the two sisters married into the same compound, and lived their daily lives together, seeing each other every day...
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Xiao Baozhu had a dream. In the dream, her cousin Baozhen was the heroine of a period novel. She married into the city and became a stepmother. The three children she raised all became big bosses, and her husband was the richest man in the province.
After waking up, she thought about it over and over again and felt unhappy. Why was her cousin so lucky and she was not?
Suddenly, I had a sudden thought: why can't she do it? It's just being a stepmother, who cares?
When Xiao Baozhu heard that her cousin had also married into a large courtyard and that the couple was a notoriously poor family in the courtyard, she almost laughed her belly off.
But who can explain why my cousin's family lives such a happy and harmonious life, and why she is still spoiled by her husband and is still cute and lovely.
Why isn't her man the richest man? Why is her stepson still so unlucky?
why!