96 Afterwards
◎With me in the future, I will never let you feel any pain again◎
Rong Qianyu lay on the bed, and no matter what Xue Ji did, his face began to turn red, his breathing became a little rapid, and a heat that could not be suppressed was surging in his body.
He endured this heat for a long time. From the moment Rong Qianyu came to find him with an umbrella, he wanted to do it. However, due to physical reasons, he didn't dare to do it. He was also afraid that Rong Qianyu would see his frightened look.
Although Rong Qianyu wouldn't say anything, this was his most shameful place after all. He himself didn't even want to look at it, let alone others, for fear of scaring her.
Xue Ji helped the person sit up again. Rong Qianyu's head gradually became dizzy, but her back was cold and she had no one to lean on, so she could only hold his arm, and the two of them snuggled up to each other tightly.
He held Rong Qianyu's hot face, and the breathing sound beside her ear became more and more scorching. He took off the white cloth on her eyes, letting her look at him completely.
Rong Qianyu slowly opened her eyes and looked up at him, only to see that his eyes were full of expectation and desire. She glanced at him in the misty smoke. Xue Ji smiled nonchalantly and kissed her again.
The two pressed tightly together, their skin touching, kissing passionately, like beasts trapped for years finally freed and redeemed. Rong Qianyu felt a tingling sensation all over her body, a mixture of nervousness and excitement. This was a scene she had imagined in her dreams before, but in reality, Xue Ji was much more gentle.
She bent over and kissed him, twisting her waist, her long hair falling over her shoulders, and she smiled from time to time.
It was quiet outside the house, so quiet that one could almost hear each other's heartbeats.
Open the window to let in the autumn moonlight, extinguish the candle and unbutton the silk dress. Smile behind the curtains, the whole body is filled with the fragrance of orchids and hyacinths.
The next morning, the room was filled with the scent of love, and the two fell asleep in each other's arms.
Rong Qianyu had been feeling tired lately and had been sleeping soundly, while Xue Ji woke up early. He leaned on his arm and quietly looked at the woman in front of him, the woman he had admired for so long and finally got.
The scene last night was still vivid in his mind. He didn't dare to use too much force, for fear of hurting her. He was also afraid that if he really hurt her, she would not tell him for the sake of face, so he was always cautious.
Qingyun knew that the two of them would inevitably have a fight, so he boiled hot water for them early. Rong Qianyu was still asleep, so Xue Ji went to take a shower first.
Looking at himself in the mirror, he saw traces of last night's love, and a few scratches on his arms. Looking down, he still saw the scars that were hard to look at. He didn't want to look at them, as they always reminded him of the days when he didn't have enough food and was forced to beg for food.
After bathing, he dressed and burned some incense again before returning to the house.
Rong Qianyu slept soundly, having tossed and turned for too long the previous night, and being exhausted from recovering from a serious illness. Sunlight slanted into the room, and she lazily opened her eyes to see Xue Ji, already dressed and sitting beside the bed, looking at her.
She opened her eyes slightly and smelled a hint of fragrance. Her vision gradually became clear. The sunlight shining through the window sprinkled on her body like gold, and her heart felt warm.
Seeing that the person was not in bed, she asked, "When did you wake up?"
Xue Ji saw that she had woken up, and quickly put down the teacup in his hand, and rushed over to squeeze in with her, "You just woke up a while ago."
She sat up lazily, stretching her lower body and causing it to swell and hurt. Her voice was hoarse, "What time is it?"
"It's two quarters past four in the morning." Xue Ji said.
"It's so late, why don't they wake me up?" She had never gotten up so late before, and today she slept until noon.
She sat up and wanted to take a shower, but her body was too tired and it hurt when she moved.
"Don't worry, don't worry," Xue Ji hurried to help her up, "They are all very sensible. If you hadn't said anything today, they wouldn't have come in to disturb us."
"Let me carry you to take a bath."
"good."
Xue Ji carried Rong Qianyu to take a bath, helped her take off her clothes very gently, put her in a wooden tub, and scooped up hot water to pour over her body.
Rong Qianyu no longer had the nervousness she had last night. Instead, she enjoyed Xue Ji's service very naturally. She closed her eyes, took a deep breath, and the fragrance filled the entire room.
Xue Ji helped her clean up, "It is a unique honor to serve as a bathing assistant for the Empress!"
Rong Qianyu raised her eyes to look at him, "It really is, it's an honor."
The mirror reflected her fair body in the wooden barrel, water droplets slid down her shoulders, and hot steam filled the room, blurring the clear shadows of the two people in the mirror.
Her delicate body was faintly visible in the mist, its outlines clear and soft, and the spots on her body revealed the intense scene of last night. Xue Ji helped her rub her shoulders and comb her hair. She stretched her body, immersed herself in the tranquility, and enjoyed this pleasant moment.
After the bath, Xue Ji considerately helped her put on her clothes, and stroked her delicate skin with his fingers, from her wrist to her neck, and then to her flushed little face.
The two of them snuggled together. Rong Qianyu pulled Xue Ji and looked up at him, "Jiming?"
Xue Ji whispered: "What's wrong?"
She lay in his arms, playing with the strands of hair that fell on his chest, "We're not hiding anything now, are we?"
Xue Ji nodded, "Yes."
"I want to see it."
This was the second time she made this request. The reason why she blindfolded Rong Qianyu last night was because she was afraid that she would see it, but she could more or less feel the entanglement of their bodies.
This is Xue Ji's inner demon. He dare not face it, nor does he want to face it. This is the biggest problem facing both of them right now.
But Xue Ji still refused, and Rong Qianyu was not very happy. She thought that if he could face up to this matter, he must face it.
He pretended not to understand and tried to refuse and get away with it, but Rong Qianyu had found the right moment this time and would not let him get away with it again.
"You're looking at me, and I don't think it's fair!"
"I'm afraid of you... afraid..." He dodged and dodged as soon as this matter was mentioned, and became anxious.
Rong Qianyu didn't want anything to be hidden between them, so she guided him earnestly, "Why do you think so? Since we're together, of course I accept everything about you. You must get over this inner demon!"
"But... you don't want to see it," he lowered his head in embarrassment. His hand holding hers suddenly turned cold. He murmured to himself, "It's very ugly."
"Don't scare me! Last night you clearly..."
"You really want to see it?"
Rong Qianyu nodded, her eyes full of sincerity and earnestness.
"Then don't be afraid." He was still very embarrassed. He took a step back awkwardly, slowly took off his pants, and asked with his head tilted back, "It looks ugly, doesn't it?"
It was the first time that Rong Qianyu saw his scars so clearly. The entire wound had recovered and become extremely smooth, but the previous incision was still clearly visible. She felt so distressed that she touched it gently with trembling hands.
The moment he touched her, Xue Ji felt bitter in his heart, his breathing quickened and he trembled, biting his lip and saying nothing. It was the first time they were face to face, so openly exposed in front of each other, and both of them couldn't help crying.
"All white..."
Rong Qianyu touched the wound. Before she saw it, she had prepared herself mentally, imagining what kind of wound it would be, what a tragic scene it would be. But when she actually saw it, her heart ached, and she couldn't help crying. She didn't dare to think about how much pain she had endured to get to this point.
Xue Ji looked down at her, "Dirty..."
"Don't feel any pain anymore." Then she kissed him where the wound was.
"Qian'er!" Xue Ji felt numb and dazed.
"With me here, you won't feel any pain anymore." She said affectionately, "Jiming, we are one now. I'll help you share the burden."
Rong Qianyu's words undoubtedly gave Xue Ji a reassurance. In the past, he had to bear all these pains alone, but now she was with him.
When one person suffers, two people become happy.
He touched Rong Qianyu's face, feeling relieved, and nodded in response.
The two people completely possessed each other, with nothing to hide anymore, and they leaned against each other, basking in the warm sunshine outside the window.
"Let them in."
"No, I still want to look at you."
Rong Qianyu leaned on his shoulder, one hand on his chest, enjoying the comfort at the moment. "I won't run away. Haven't you seen enough?"
“I can’t get enough of it.”
"Okay, let them in. I'm hungry."
"Okay." Xue Ji got out of bed, put on his shoes and went to open the door. As soon as he pushed the door open, three people rushed in like a swarm of bees, as if they had been waiting at the door for a long time, just waiting for the door to open at this moment.
It seems like he is here to catch someone committing adultery.
"Empress, Empress!" Qingyun shouted the loudest.
Xue Ji was annoyed by the noise and yelling, "Why are you making such a fuss?"
After being lectured by Xue Ji, Qing Yun forgot what he was about to say. He looked at the marks on his neck and began to daydream, "Sir, your neck!"
Xue Ji glared at her impatiently, "You're surprised by what you've seen. What's the matter?"
"Princess...Princess..."
When she heard that it was Fu Tao's matter, Rong Qianyu rushed out of the house to inquire. She had only been away from the palace for twenty days, so nothing could go wrong.
"What happened to Tao'er?"
"Princess..." Qingyun stammered and couldn't say anything.
Rong Pan's face was very ugly, and he choked up with sobs, "Young Master Huang got married a few days ago. The two of them said they met, and I don't know what they said, but the eldest princess swallowed gold and committed suicide!"
"What!!"
Xue Ji and Rong Qianyu were both shocked when they heard the news.
Rong Qianyu really couldn't accept this. The last time she saw Fu Tao, he was still looking naughty and said that he didn't care anymore. At that time, Rong Qianyu thought he had let it go, but she never thought that he had reached a dead end.
That day they had agreed to go to the suburbs to see the cherry blossoms in the spring, but they never got to see them. That hurried meeting turned out to be a farewell forever.
Fu Tao has always been a lively person. Although she is sometimes a little willful, she is still young after all. She is only sixteen years old.
"How did you know?"
"Here is a letter. Fan Zhi, the maidservant beside the eldest princess, said that she wanted to pass it on to the empress." Yuan Qing took out the letter and handed it to Rong Qianyu.
Rong Qianyu couldn't bear to open the letter, her hands shaking uncontrollably. She had always considered Fu Tao a younger sister, a sister who made up for her regret of not being able to be an older sister. But before she could make up for it, her sister passed away.
"What's in the letter?" She stared at the letter blankly, unable to open it.
"I don't know," Yuan Qing shook her head. "Please open it yourself, Your Majesty. It's written by the eldest princess herself, and we servants haven't opened it yet."
Rong Qianyu opened the envelope, and tears dripped down her cheeks onto the letter paper, every word was heartbreaking.
【Author’s words】
①From "Midnight Songs of the Four Seasons"
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