50 Low self-esteem
◎Serving at banquets and entertaining guests is a waste of time. Spring outings are a special night out.◎
The next morning, after Rong Qianyu woke up from her drunken streak, she looked at the room full of absurd traces. She lay in Xue Ji's arms with her clothes half-unbuttoned, but he was the same as before, having only taken off his shirt.
When she regained consciousness, she also felt it was ridiculous. After all, she couldn't really come to the Imperial Household Department without any regard for the seriousness of the matter and have sex with him for such an inexplicable reason.
She was a little panicked, unsure how to face Xue Ji. The previous times, she'd been sober and everything she'd done was within her limits. This time, she'd really gone too far. She'd been drinking, and she couldn't recall the events of yesterday. She only remembered the heaving of her chest and his harsh, heavy breathing.
After putting on clothes, he returned to Weixuan Hall in the dim light before dawn.
More than half an hour passed before Xue Ji woke up under the sunlight. He turned over and tried to peek at the person beside him, but he couldn't find anyone when he touched around.
He finally woke up from his dream. The seat next to him had long lost its warmth. He sat up and recalled what happened last night.
His sudden awakening made him unable to act impulsively like he did yesterday. He put on his clothes and sat quietly by the bed.
The joy is over, the warmth fades away, and what he has to face is the whole world and his own filthy and inferior heart.
Although only a few hours had passed, it felt like a lifetime ago.
"Sir?" Qingyun tiptoed and knocked on the door.
"Come in!"
He looked healthy, his face flushed, and reminded her, "My Lord, it's time to bathe. Wear blue today..."
Xue Ji's inner garment was half-open, revealing her firm and smooth skin beneath the silk. She was startled and shyly turned her head away.
"Turn around."
Qingyun: “…”
Xue Ji was struggling with his thoughts, but he was still pretending to be stupid. "Turn around!"
"Where's the Queen?"
Qingyun replied: "Of course he's gone."
He seemed to have guessed it and replied weakly, "Oh."
Qingyun noticed that he was crestfallen, and he could easily guess that he was probably complaining after waking up alone this morning because he had a bad night. "Your Excellency seems very disappointed?"
"Stop talking!"
He was only sixteen or seventeen years old this year, considered young, but he had been in the palace for a long time, especially following Xue Ji, and had learned to be sarcastic. "I just want you to take care of yourself, my Lord, and don't hurt yourself."
Xue Ji thought he was innocent and cute, but after hearing this, he had to re-evaluate him. "What are you thinking about?"
Qingyun was a little embarrassed, turned his head away and blushed, "No! Nothing!"
"There is no time to spare for entertaining guests and banquets, and every night I go on spring outings."
"Really? Sir, you can still stay up all night without a dick?"
"Get lost! What on earth are you dreaming of at such a young age? You're getting even more outrageous!"
Xue Ji was getting annoyed by his nagging, but he actually found it more amusing. It was the first time he had seen his master so distracted. "I'm seventeen and I'm old enough to be a father. My Lord, you should have two or three by your age."
After driving Qingyun away, Xue Ji picked up the clothes scattered around him one by one, dressed himself, and fell into deeper inferiority.
The magpies outside the window were calling so happily that it gave him a headache.
It was true that he liked Rong Qianyu, and she seemed to like him too, but she ran away this morning. It was normal for her to run away. How could he be liked by others when he was a eunuch?
Everyone says that eunuchs are crazy and bad. What's the point of being good-looking? They are destined to be treated like slaves.
He had never felt as conflicted as he did today, with a surge of guilt. If he were a normal man, would he have stayed with her in an ordinary family, instead of being suffocated by the imperial power like he was now?
If he was a normal man, would he be braver and hide her, love her day and night, and she would not run away? But all this was in vain.
He didn't have that opportunity, nor that blessing. The more he thought about it, the more his heart felt like it was torn apart, and the pain was unbearable.
He loved her so much, but he didn't even have a fair chance.
“Qingyun, Qingyun!”
Qingyun came running in again, "What's wrong, sir?"
"What time is it now?"
"It's the morning hour."
He asked again: "When did the Crown Princess leave?"
"The Queen has been gone for just over half an hour."
"Only? Just over half an hour?" Qingyun's light words made him feel like he was struck by lightning. "I was sleeping at that time?"
Qingyun nodded, "Yes, the Queen specifically said not to wake you up."
He had wanted to use someone else's words to ease his frustration, but it was just rubbing salt into the wound. He muttered softly, "She ran away on her own..."
Qingyun: "What?"
Xue Ji was furious when he saw him, "Get out!"
He was upset, and Rong Qianyu was also tossing and turning, feeling very depressed.
Rong Pan waited for a long time until it came back, "Why did the queen come back so late?!"
She looked exhausted, with bloodshot eyes. "Tell them they don't need to come and pay their respects today. Just say I'm not feeling well and can't get up."
As soon as he raised his hand, he saw her bruised wrist, "Madam, your wrist..."
Rong Qianyu only realized after hearing what she said that she had been drinking a lot last night, and she was hazy and couldn't remember much of what happened. She only remembered that it seemed to be late in the night when Xue Ji tied her up and groped her, with his wrists clamped. She couldn't see his face, only her body rising and falling non-stop, and she was covered in sweat.
She said casually, "He pinched me."
"Your Majesty, you and Master Xue are..."
Rong Pan didn't understand what was going on. "Then who are you?"
She changed the subject and said, "He found Aunt Pu!"
"real!"
Rong Qianyu nodded and said, "It wasn't Aunt Pu who did what happened back then. It was He Wanrou who ordered it. She ended up living in extreme poverty because of it. If I ever have the final say in my mother's death, I will make He Wanrou pay for both my mother's and my brother's lives with blood."
Upon hearing the news about Aunt Pu, Rong Pan was both surprised and delighted. "Where is Aunt Pu living now? How did Lord Xue find her?"
"I asked Xue Ji to find her a good place to live. My aunt has been in Da Zhou since she left Rongguo."
"There is always a way out. The matter between the Empress and the young prince will definitely be resolved. I won't bother you anymore. You can rest first."
After she left, Rong Qianyu finally breathed a sigh of relief. She had been up late last night and felt exhausted when she woke up this morning.
Looking at the work marks on her wrist, she thought to herself, what a bastard.
After taking off her hair accessories, she lay on the bed, and with her eyes closed she could only recall the joy of last night. Xue Ji bent down and whispered affectionately in her ear, reaching out to help her tuck her loose and fluffy hair behind her ear, and his cold fingertips slid across her limp waist.
He took a piece of white silk and covered her eyes. She trembled all over, and then the burning pain and itchiness in her lower body rushed from her lower body to her chest.
She fell into a deep sleep exhausted. In her dream, Xue Ji was healthy and she was willing to crawl under him, letting him torment her.
The body is the most honest thing. She likes Xue Ji, but being in the center of the imperial power where undercurrents are surging, it is difficult to be cautious. Taking one more step may result in death. She cannot take risks, nor can she let him take risks.
In the dream, I seemed to have escaped from the high palace walls, the veil slowly fell, there were no grudges or entanglements, only pure desire and joy.
Only the two of them were left.
Wushan was in the middle of a lovemaking match when she was suddenly woken up by Rong Pan. "Your Majesty, something's wrong! The Queen is urgently summoning you. Your Majesty is ill!"
She opened the gauze curtain and stood up in panic, asking, "Why are you sick out of nowhere?"
She hurried to Fengyi Palace again, "Your Majesty, what happened to His Majesty? Why did he fall ill so suddenly?"
Fu Kang's illness this time was sudden, and Bai Yi was also caught off guard. "He already had a headache, and the border situation has been tense recently, and Your Majesty is worried, so the evil wind entered his body and he fell ill."
"The front lines are tense, and Your Majesty is indeed very busy with all the affairs he has to attend to."
"We still have to arrange for someone to take care of him right now."
Rong Qianyu has always been thorough in her work. "I'll take care of all of this, Your Majesty, don't worry too much."
Bai Yi pulled her aside and whispered, "Of course, we are completely confident in your safety, but... Cui has also said she wants to come and take care of you, so I'm a little embarrassed."
【Author’s words】
Princess, please collect it and give me a heart~
Next book: "I Stop Pretending After Being Robbed by the Prince"
Prince × Stepmother
[Robbery + Chasing Wife to the Crematorium + Cultivation + Substitute Literature]
Playing the Pig and Eating the Tiger Crazy Critics of the Prince × Playing Hard to Get and Fishing for a Beauty
Xu Siyan, the youngest daughter of Duke Qi, has been in the palace for two years without favor. When the queen passes away, the mourning hall catches fire. It is said that Xu Siyan is doomed to be buried with the queen, but she is saved by the crown prince Qi Yu, whom she has never met.
Xu Siyan set his sights on the gentle and elegant Crown Prince, and his assassination attempt on the emperor was discovered by Qi Yu.
She knelt on the ground and begged him for mercy. She couldn't die. She had more important things to do.
She became the secret lover of Prince Qi Yu.
Qi Yu pinched the beauty's chin and looked her up and down, "In that case, mother, please stay and warm my bed."
Xu Siyan desperately wanted to grab this life-saving straw, using all means to seduce her, but she was willing to surrender without sincerity.
When he learned that the other party was going to get married, he became depressed and always wanted more and more.
Qi Yu was devoted to her but never fell in love with her. He had another beautiful woman in his heart, whom he kept deep in his heart and never showed to anyone, and he would not allow anyone to interfere.
When he was in power and his bed was deserted, he suddenly thought of someone, but he couldn't find her anywhere in the palace.
Sitting alone on the high platform, his pampered beauty disappeared, and he realized that he had already fallen for her and couldn't extricate himself.
He put aside his once arrogant pride and this time it was his turn to please and flatter Xu Siyan, just hoping that she would change her mind.
Small Theater:
Qi Yu after his wife ran away: I will tie her up when I catch her, and I will take care of her day and night so that she won’t dare to run away again!
Qi Yu, who was locked outside by his wife, said: I must let my wife know who has the final say!
Qi Yu finally mustered up the courage to break into the house: I was wrong, honey, please pay attention to me.
Stepmother literature first loves after sex, the emperor is not the male protagonist's biological father
Double Clean 1v1, starting male 18, female 16
The male and female protagonists have dissolved their nominal mother-son relationship when they were together
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