Chapter 187 Want a Child
Su Mi thought about it and agreed. Since he cooked for her himself today, she should eat more.
So I picked up the knife, cut a piece of steak and put it in my mouth. The beef was very tender and tasted great.
She praised him generously, "It's delicious. Honey, your cooking skills are on par with those first-class chefs."
"Yeah?"
"Yeah." Su Mi answered sincerely.
"Then eat more." Xiao Xuanjin looked calm and spoke in a gentle tone.
"good."
The two of them lowered their heads and ate their food without saying anything else. The only sounds in the air were the subtle hissing of the blade slowly cutting into the tender meat and the crisp sound of the knife hitting the plate.
This kind of silence was too long, and Su Mi took the initiative to break the silence, "Husband, are you... still angry with me?"
Xiao Xuanjin put down the knife in his right hand, still holding the fork handle in his left hand, with the tip of the fork against the plate, "Why should I be angry?"
"This morning...I was impulsive and had a bad attitude."
Xiao Xuanjin squinted at her. She was now actively admitting her mistakes and seeking peace, with a flattering look on her face. "Why should I apologize? You did nothing wrong."
"Ah?" Su Mi didn't react. What did he mean?
In fact, this matter is not about who is right or wrong. It’s just that they each have their own persistence. She doesn’t want to be bound by constraints, while he wants to control her.
The reason she apologized was simply because she was willing to compromise and make concessions if he could feel at ease.
"You don't have to apologize to me."
After saying that, Xiao Xuanjin lowered his head, picked up the knife, and continued to cut the steak slowly. "I was inconsiderate about that matter. I won't mention it again."
Is he... choosing to give in?
So he cooked to apologize to her?
But she had already planned to agree. "I want to say that if you can feel at ease doing that, I can accept it."
"Accept?" Xiao Xuanjin raised his eyes, his gaze cold but firm, "Susu, this is not like you."
"Why doesn't it look like me?"
"I remember that you used to hate people checking on you. Didn't you trust me? How could you be willing to let me spy on you so openly now?"
Su Mi thought back to how she had attacked him many years ago with a fake photo of a luxury car in Lianxi, but her plan was later exposed. However, she didn't expect Xiao Xuanjin still remembered it.
"I just want to reassure you. I can tolerate the rest."
When she said this, Xiao Xuanjin still caught the flash of frustration in her eyes.
Although she appeared calm, she probably still felt a tragic sense of being restricted in her heart.
Xiao Xuanjin sighed, "Susu, if I really wanted to spy on you, wouldn't I just do it in secret? You wouldn't notice. Why should I bother telling you?"
Su Mi looked at him in surprise, "What do you mean?"
Xiao Xuanjin looked at her confused eyes and originally thought that since she had misunderstood, he should let her misunderstand. He would just take the blame and take back what he said and everything would be fine.
After all, she already felt guilty towards him. If she knew that she had misunderstood him, she would probably fight with herself again, which was something he didn't want to see.
But now that she seemed to be still trapped in the vortex of him refusing to believe her, he couldn't help but want to help her.
Perhaps, he didn't do well enough, which made her still not fully trust him.
She still couldn't let go of what happened back then. After all, it was because he didn't give her enough sense of security.
"You are in Huacheng now. It shouldn't be difficult for me to monitor your every move."
Yes, how could she be confused? How could she not think of this? She misunderstood. She was mean-spirited and did not believe him. She put him in the past and speculated about him. She was still brooding over the past and refused to move on from it.
She also said that she would be nice to him, but what did she do herself?
Thinking of this, she lowered her head, no longer having the majestic air of a hero who had just died.
A shadow loomed before my eyes, his presence looming.
Su Mi raised his eyes, his eyes were a little red.
Xiao Xuanjin squatted down and held her fingers that were clenched tightly on her legs.
He pried her fingers apart with force and saw that her nails had dug into his palm, leaving deep, red marks that were a bit blue. If he pushed any harder, he was afraid they would break.
He sighed helplessly, rubbing it gently with his fingertips, his eyes filled with pity, "I don't blame you."
"But I blame myself."
"Then if you scratch yourself, won't I be the one who feels bad?"
Xiao Xuanjin squatted beside her, looking up into her eyes, trying to dispel the shadow in her heart, "Susu, listen carefully to what I am saying now."
"I forgive you. I won't pursue the past any more. From now on, just be yourself and do whatever you want. You don't need to feel guilty or sorry towards me."
Su Mi's eyelashes trembled slightly, and her lips moved, "But... don't you mind what I did before?"
It seemed like she hadn't explained anything yet, so how could he forgive her?
He had never said that he forgave her before, but he didn't expect that today, when he was completely off guard, he would actually say it.
But it was strange that even after being forgiven, she didn't feel happy at all. Instead, she felt extremely heavy, almost suffocating.
"We are already husband and wife now, and we can't let the past affect us. Besides, you are willing to entrust your life to me. For me, this is enough."
Su Mi's eyes were filled with tears. She leaned forward, put her arms around him, and put her head very close to him. Her voice trembled uncontrollably, "Xiao Jinjin... I'm sorry."
Xiao Xuanjin touched the back of her head, feeling her emotional outburst, and spoke in a coaxing tone, "No need to apologize, it's my fault."
"You are very good, it's me who is not good." Su Mi's voice was trembling.
What’s the point of worrying about who is good and who is bad? Xiao Xuanjin picked up the person and walked upstairs.
Su Mi hugged his neck tightly, staring at his profile.
"husband."
"Um."
"Let's have a baby."
Xiao Xuanjin paused and replied, "No, it's too noisy."
"Ah?" Su Mi thought he would agree.
Xiao Xuanjin continued walking towards the bedroom and asked casually, "Do you really want it?"
"Aren't you curious about what our baby will look like?"
Xiao Xuanjin couldn't help but think of what Uncle Fu had said before. He said that the young lady is beautiful and has a good personality. The baby you have after you get married will definitely be very handsome.
"Not curious."
Forget it, Su Mi pursed her lips and said nothing, just pretend she didn’t say anything.
Xiao Xuanjin glanced down at her, curled his lips and said nothing.
After reaching the bedroom and putting the person on the bed, he spoke, "Wait a little longer. I don't want more people to disturb our world of two."
Su Mi thought about it and it made sense. They had finally gotten together and had just gotten married, so there was no need to rush.
Then Xiao Xuanjin said, "I'm mainly worried that the little guy will steal my wife."
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