Chapter 67 Lack of Love is Not Shameful
After reading the document, Fang Ke sat in the chair with his eyes closed for a long time.
Fang Jimin is a complicated person, so complicated that he is completely incomprehensible.
When he was a child, he thought Fang Jimin was an entrepreneur who only cared about money and interests and regarded family and love as dirt.
But Fang Jimin never took the initiative to quarrel with Su Lixia. In front of Su Lixia, he always remained silent, not explaining or arguing, but also not solving the problem.
Fang Jimin never lacked his living expenses. Even after he ran away from home, Fang Jimin would send him money at a fixed time every month, and each time he would send him hundreds of millions of dollars.
Fang Jimin seems to love Su Lixia very much, otherwise how could he be so patient? But if he loves Su Lixia, why would he cheat on her, and why did he choose to kill Su Lixia for another woman?
Fang Jimin seems to be very responsible and loves his son very much, but why does Fang Jimin never stand up to protect him and let the shackles of sin be put on him?
Fang Jimin seems to be very protective of humanity and is willing to sacrifice his son and wife for the greater good.
But why did he sell arms to Weird and leak the secrets of the institute?
Is Fang Jimin a decent manager or a rule breaker?
This question seems to never have an answer.
No one knows what Fang Jimin is thinking in his heart. Maybe he thinks one way at one time and another way at another. Sometimes he feels that he should be great, and sometimes he is greedy for profit and takes the chance to do treacherous things.
Is Fang Jimin a bad person? It seems he's not completely bad.
But Fang Jimin is really not a good person.
Human nature is too complicated. He doesn't want to study it, nor does he care. He only knows that he doesn't want Fang Jimin to live too comfortably.
But he didn't really want to kill Fang Jimin. Death was such a simple thing. He just wanted Fang Jimin to taste his pain.
He spent a full three months on the operation, taking a multi-pronged approach from various entry points. One thing after another was revealed by "coincidence", and the overwhelming doubts were like an airtight net, which made Fang Jimin breathless.
It was a windy and snowy afternoon when Fang Jimin came to the door. He was gray-haired and had nowhere to go. The bank had frozen his cards, the security bureau had sealed his house, his remarried wife had been taken away, and the first-instance verdict was about to be announced. He might be shot tomorrow, or maybe after a while, he would be sued in the Yuling Court.
He was caught because he didn't do things cleanly, so he admitted it and had no regrets, but... his youngest son was only ten years old.
Mi Shimeng opened the door, but Fang Jimin didn't go in. He just said that he had something to talk to Fang Ke about.
Fang Ke was just going downstairs to look for Chen Cinian who was reading a newspaper in the living room. As soon as he turned the corner, he saw Fang Jimin with a tired look on his face. He stopped and refused to go downstairs.
Shen Cinian continued to read the newspaper, with no intention of intervening for the time being. He occasionally took a sip of tea, and a cold light flashed across his glasses.
Fang Jimin spoke first. He stood at the door, his tone hesitant, even a little humble, "Yuanyuan, are you... favored over there?"
Fang Ke subconsciously felt a little disgusted. He pursed his lips and said nothing, looking at Fang Jimin coldly.
Fang Jimin seemed to be stung by that look. He paused, swallowed a few times, and spoke again: "Dad...there's nothing I can do...if..."
"If you could help contact..."
"Why?" Fang Ke glanced at Shen Cinian who was sitting still, and his heart suddenly felt much more relaxed.
He didn't need to care about what kind of person Fang Jimin was. The only person he needed to care about was Shen Cinian.
"Dad raised you for eighteen years..." Fang Jimin paused for a long time, licked his cracked lips, and continued, "Your mother left you alone after you were born, and Dad raised you all by himself for many years. You may not remember, but when you were a little kid and wanted to ride a horse, Dad put you on his neck. Dad..."
He was telling the truth. Compared to that aloof singer, Fang Jimin believed that as a capitalist, he was at least truly compassionate, even though that compassion was very thin.
But he loved both Fang Ke and Su Lixia. Even though Fang Ke was so rebellious back then, he never said a harsh word to him. He just remained silent and allowed Fang Ke to question and vent without saying a word.
He was actually feeling very sad. Su Lixia didn't love him and was unwilling to divorce him. Li Lele truly loved him. He wanted to divorce and be with Li Lele, that was all.
He knew that he was a coward, a fence-sitter who believed whatever others said and had no opinions of his own. He owed Fang Ke a lot, but he didn't do it on purpose. The locator and the collar were the players' ideas. He had too many things to consider. He didn't want to lose his current status and money. He only needed to let Fang Ke suffer a little bit of grievance to have the best of both worlds. At worst, he could give Fang Ke a little more money later to compensate Fang Ke.
Why doesn’t Fang Ke understand his difficulties? Why does he have to be against him?
Why does Fang Ke like his mother who only loves music and doesn't love his father and Yuanyuan, but doesn't like his father who makes money to spend on his mother and Yuanyuan?
It’s obvious that mom doesn’t love this family at all, but at least he still takes care of the family.
Although the family later fell apart.
But Fang Jimin can live a good life. He, Li Lele and his youngest son have always lived well, so how can this be his problem alone?
Su Lixia was too cold and didn't want to live with him, and Fang Ke was too rebellious and refused to understand him once.
"Yuanyuan, Dad is old now. I feel sorry for you, but I have my own difficulties. Do you still remember when I took you there when you were a child..."
"I don't remember anything you said," Fang Ke put his hands in his pockets. He walked down the stairs towards Shen Qinian and said nonchalantly as he walked: "You've already sold me out. The person you're looking for has bought out our relationship. I have no right to help you without his permission."
Shen Cinian paused holding the newspaper, and the look behind the newspaper became somewhat helpless.
Fang Ke walked over, sat on his left leg, and gave him a bear hug that crumpled the newspaper.
Chen Cinian became more and more helpless, and signaled Mi Shimeng to see the guest off with his eyes.
Fang Jimin wanted to say something, but he couldn't see the face behind the newspaper. Seeing Fang Ke sitting down without any hesitation, he was worried that the person sitting there was the dreaded head of the Shen Group. He couldn't afford to offend such a person, so he could only leave in disgrace.
"Chen Qinian," Fang Ke nudged his head against Shen Qinian's neck, "I feel uncomfortable. I don't know how to say it, but I just feel blocked."
"Well," Shen Cinian put his arm around Fang Ke's waist, his tone nonchalant, even a little lazy, "Then what should I do? Play games with you."
Fang Ke moved his head and shook it slowly, "No, I don't want the master now, I want you."
"Okay," Shen Cinian patted his back, coaxing him like a child, "Then tell me what makes you unhappy?"
"I just can't figure it out... I feel like everyone is complicated, and I'm complicated too. I don't think I've told you about my family yet... I just feel like... I can't quite tell what's true and what's false..."
Shen Ci Nian suddenly interrupted him: "Sit with your legs apart. Don't just press on my left leg. It's tiring."
"You..." Fang Ke was a little irritated by him, "I'm talking to you seriously!"
"What's there to say? It's just that the little stupid dog got soft-hearted. It's no big deal." Shen Qinian hugged the person a little higher, patted his back and shook his legs. "Okay, be good. Kindness doesn't have to be so bottom-line..."
Be good!
Fang Ke's sadness instantly vanished after he did that, and the only thing on his mind was breaking Shen Qinian's glasses!
"I'm not kind at all, I'll slap you!"
The dog tried to attack its owner with its paws, but was suppressed by the owner's palm.
Shen Ci Nian restrained him with unquestionable strength, and then guided him with a steady tone and clear logic: "It is a fact that Fang Jimin broke the law and committed a crime. This has nothing to do with whether he has feelings for you. Do you understand?"
"oh."
"He did all these things himself. Just because he did good doesn't mean his bad deeds can be offset. It doesn't mean that if he eats vegetarian food and worships Buddha with a kind heart, then his killing doesn't count as murder and he can be saved. That doesn't make sense. I don't blame you for being moved by these few words of warmth that were spoken in who knows when. I know you lack love, but..."
Shen Cinian suddenly paused because Fang Ke was biting his neck.
The puppy got angry and its bite hurt a little.
"Who the hell is lacking love?" Fang Ke said, almost squeezing out the words from between his teeth. "What the hell are you talking about!"
Shen Cinian sighed, patted his back with one hand, and rubbed Fang Ke's head with the other. "No one said you can't lack love. It's just that you want love. It's not a big deal. I didn't say it's wrong, and I didn't say you can't do it. It's not something to be ashamed of. Okay, stop biting. If you continue to do this, the teacher will punish you."
Fang Ke stopped biting him and buried his face in the crook of his neck. Soon, the skin there felt wet.
"Fang Jimin broke the law, so he deserved it. Sending him to jail wasn't a bad thing. Helping him was a mistake. Justice doesn't tolerate personal feelings. Otherwise, equality for all would be a joke. Am I clear?"
It was very clear, extremely clear, so clear that he was no longer bothered by anything.
He stopped struggling and just started crying, silently, his sobs were muffled. He was trying to suppress his tears while speaking, and his tone sounded very suppressed. "Then I... feel bad too..."
"I don't regret making him suffer, I just, I just, I..."
"I'm not happy. I don't know why. I'm just not happy."
“Shen Ci Nian, I feel bad.”
"I know," Shen Qinian said helplessly and dotingly. He patted Fang Ke's back again and again, "Isn't this just coaxing you?"
"I know you're unhappy. If you're unhappy, just be unhappy. The reason for your unhappiness is actually very simple."
"Because you have never been a bad kid. You don't want to take revenge on anyone. In fact, you just want recognition and favor."
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