Chapter 74 How Can I Not Fall in Love
It was not until he sat in the passenger seat and felt a subtle pain as fine as drizzle from under his body to his scalp that Fang Ke suddenly remembered that Chen Cinian seemed to have forgotten something.
Shen Cinian bought the right to use his virginity and asked him to wash it three times, but except for the initial examination, he never touched it again.
So is the cleansing a lesson for him, or is it to create a fear that he is about to be raped so that he can learn this lesson?
Will he be afraid? No.
So he sat cross-legged in the passenger seat, pulled his seat belt farther away, and brought up the old matter again.
"When are you going to use me?"
Shen Cinian was about to start the car when he paused and remained silent for a long time.
Hesitant? Of course he hesitated, but what was he hesitating about?
I'm not sure. Maybe the person next to me is only 21 years old and too young to be bullied.
Or maybe I simply feel that I shouldn't be irresponsible and make such a hasty decision on such an important matter.
So Shen Qinian said: "I don't plan to use you."
Not surprisingly, I heard a sullen question: "Why?"
Instead of overthinking and guessing, I chose to ask him directly.
Shen Qinian was satisfied in his heart, and of course he also gave encouragement through words and deeds.
"On the way here, I bought you a lot of lollipops in all kinds of flavors. They're in the glove box in front of you."
Shen Cinian said: "I don't use you not because I dislike you or hate you, I just think it should be your candy time now."
Can you eat candy for a whole day? No. So what Shen Cinian meant was... He is still a child and still eating candy, so Shen Cinian doesn't do it with him.
Fang Ke opened the glove box and found a beige dictionary-sized canvas messenger bag inside.
It felt very strange that Chen Cinian actually bought him a bag specifically for him to put his lollipops in.
It’s like buying him candy is not a trivial matter, but an important matter that needs to be taken seriously and needs to be specially marked out in a bag and filled with it.
It is indeed important. Shen Cinian's idea is very simple. Eating this kind of lollipop requires energy and can distract attention, which can help Fang Ke quit drinking and smoking.
Some time ago, he found cigarette butts hidden under the flower bed, and a bottle of wine for entertaining guests at home was missing, but he just didn't reveal it.
Not pointing it out means he doesn't want to pursue the matter, but it doesn't mean he doesn't take it seriously.
"I won't limit how much you eat every day. You're an adult, so you decide for yourself. But you have to be moderate and don't let me find out that you have cavities."
He actually rarely eats sweets and isn't sure if he likes the taste.
If you don't like it, how can you eat more, let alone get cavities?
Fang Ke slung the bag over his shoulder and took out an apple-flavored lollipop. This bag of lollipops was different from all the other brands in the convenience store.
When I opened it, I found a starry sky pattern on it, so beautiful that it was almost impossible to eat.
He knew that this starry sky lollipop was different from ordinary lollipops. One lollipop could be eaten for a long time and was not cheap. Buying one lollipop could buy sixty other ones.
Moreover, this one is a limited edition, and it is definitely not something you can buy “on the way here” as Shen Cinian said.
Shen Cinian was just so good at coaxing him, and every time he coaxed him, he was very attentive and definitely not perfunctory.
He didn't know how to put it in the mouth, just like someone who had never eaten spicy food was faced with a table of nine-square hot pot, he was at a loss.
Shen Ci Nian paid no attention to him, deliberately reducing the amount of gaze he cast on him, leaving him room to explore.
This perfect measure was invisible and imperceptible. Fang Ke could not feel it. He just felt very comfortable, so his heart unconsciously calmed down and he licked it without any psychological burden.
It tasted delicious. Fang Ke was stunned after taking a bite.
The sweetness is not very high, but the taste is very rich. The materials used to make the sugar should be very healthy ingredients.
Although healthy, it’s surprisingly delicious.
It's over, he seems to be addicted.
He suddenly clutched the lollipop and said coldly: "Chen Ci Nian."
"Um"
"I can't control my mouth. Take the candy away. You decide how much to give me every day. You put it in this bag in the morning."
"Okay, Master, I'll help you with that."
Shen Cinian gave him freedom, but he handed the decision-making power of freedom back to Shen Cinian.
This is different from the feeling of Shen Cinian directly taking away his freedom. Shen Cinian is respecting him, so he is also trying to trust Shen Cinian.
In this relationship, Shen Cinian gave him the initiative.
The initiative is a dom's greatest right, but Shen Ci Nian actually chose to give it up.
He was puzzled, so he asked directly while holding a lollipop in his mouth.
Shen Qinian quickly answered him: "You are wrong. This is the right I least need."
"My rights are given by you, and my greatest rights should be the rights you are willing to give me."
"I didn't give you the initiative," Shen Chenian said in a steady tone, just like his usual steady personality and qualities. "This is something you already have."
Unlike the theory of relationship inequality that most people in the circle adhere to, Shen Qinian never asked him to treat himself as a god.
Shen Cinian asked for nothing and defined nothing. He just used actions and details to tell Fang Ke: We are always equal.
Shen Cinian could be his friend, allowing him to joke around.
Shen Cinian could be his teacher, guiding him and teaching him a lot.
Shen Qinian may be his master, but when he kneels down, Shen Qinian is willing to kneel on one knee to give him support instead of looking down on him and being indifferent.
He finally understood why no dom had ever gotten along with him. It was because he hated dogmatism, hated absolute obedience to someone, hated being forced to hand over power, and even more so hated people being superior to him.
Shen Ci Nian was never like this. Shen Ci Nian was tolerant and open-minded, allowing him to break the rules. Shen Ci Nian was emotionally stable and took care of his emotions. Shen Ci Nian never asked anything of him but had the ability to make him willing to give up his power. Shen Ci Nian was so different. Shen Ci Nian was so... suitable for him.
It couldn't be a perfect match, so he wanted another layer of relationship beyond that of friend, master, and teacher.
lovers.
Shen Ci Nian is worthy of him.
Opening one's heart is an extremely difficult process, but after going through long twists and turns and a protracted battle, he felt that the door of his heart had been opened to Shen Qinian.
He didn't know when he fell in love, but he just fell in love.
How can I not love someone like Shen Cinian? The longer I spend with him, the more I want to be with him.
What becomes apparent over time are not flaws, but those qualities that are like gold yet to be discovered.
Shen Qinian is a gold mine. The more you dig, the more you want to own it.
Fang Ke tasted all kinds of flavors in an apple-flavored lollipop, just like Chen Cinian. He actually thought that Chen Cinian was a very simple and ordinary person, but when he was with Chen Cinian, he could even taste some flavor in the air.
The sky of the human world is always gray, but the world of him and Shen Cinian is always full of colors.
Only when he was with Shen Cinian did he truly feel that he was living a normal life.
The life of a normal person is so ordinary, but for Fang Ke, it is not easy.
Because it is not easy, it is precious.
He wanted to...live a good life. He wanted to...behave better.
He thought that Shen Qinian had taken on the responsibilities he should have, and perhaps he should try to fulfill his obligations.
…
Shen Qinian has been very confused recently. He suspects that Fang Ke is being manipulated by some great demon.
It could be Satan, or it could be karma.
Fang Ke got a manservant outfit from somewhere. When he got up in the morning, he actually saw Fang Ke waiting obediently by the bed. When he saw that he woke up, he climbed onto the bed, eager to serve him.
It's strange! The sun is rising from the west. The world is finally coming to an end. The Mayan civilization's prophecy has come true.
Shen Ci Nian retreated silently, feeling very unreal.
Fang Ke knelt in front of Shen Cinian with his legs apart, the tie around his neck just covering the collar of the Security Bureau.
"Chen Cinian..." He seemed a little embarrassed, biting his lower lip for a long time before he could clearly explain his purpose. "Last night... I stayed up all night reading some circle articles."
So what? Going crazy early in the morning trying to imitate the paper man
That's not necessary. Shen Ci Nian thought to himself: I will be very relieved if you let go of my glasses.
Fang Ke continued to whisper shyly: "I want to learn...lip service..."
"I want to..." Please you and make you comfortable.
Before he could finish, Shen Chenian interrupted him, "You slept in your own room last night just to avoid me all night."
So what? Fang Ke was not afraid at all. He moved forward a little, looking like he wanted to try it directly.
Seeing this, Shen Cinian pressed him into his arms and then... coaxed him to sleep.
Under the gentle lullaby, the rhythmic patting, the continuous attack of sleepiness and the temptation of the warm embrace, Fang Ke actually fell asleep...
Before falling asleep, he wondered: What is he doing? What the hell is he wearing? What is he saying? How embarrassing… How could he possibly say such a thing… He must have seen something strange, the sun must not rise from the east anymore, the world must be ending soon and he's lost his mind, the Mayan prophecy of Mars hitting the Earth must finally be fulfilled…
…
Perhaps what happened before he fell asleep was too stimulating, so he had the same dream again.
This time it's clearer.
It seemed like something that happened last century. There was plenty of firewood in the fireplace, and sparks and thin smoke kept rising.
The air was filled with the scent of hawthorn wood. Shen Qinian sat on the old-fashioned sofa covered with gauze and pressed his head towards that place.
"Kiss it, say hello."
Shen Cinian's attitude was nonchalant, but the love in his eyes was inexplicably deep.
The Shen Cinian in the dream was so affectionate. He had never seen such a Shen Cinian in reality.
But in the dream, he kissed me very reluctantly. After serving me hastily, he stood up and walked aside to wipe his mouth. His expression of disgust, which seemed to be well disguised, was actually already evident in his words.
Shen Ci Nian was not angry. He just sat there emotionally stable, suppressing the sadness and love in his eyes, and said in a more casual and indifferent manner: "Come here and buckle my belt for me."
In the dream, he replied: "Fuck you."
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The author has something to say: Don’t be afraid of [dog head holding a rose], the operation will be done very late in the plot.
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