It is said that before a person dies, his or her life experiences will flash through his or her mind like a kaleidoscope.

Xu Qingzhi died suddenly once, and it was true.

At this moment, all of Xixi's memories flooded into Xu Qingzhi's mind in an instant.

When I was a child, I was too short and could only see adults’ legs, so Xixi always liked to stretch out her arms and let adults hug her.

Dad would happily hold her on his neck.

"Our Sissi has grown taller all of a sudden."

My mother, who was not far away, was beating the dried rapeseed with a long pole. When she looked over, there was always a smile on her face. The setting sun passed behind her, as if casting a layer of golden halo on her.

After her father passed away, the children in the village always said that she was a fatherless child and refused to play with her.

In that case, when she grows up, she won't understand why she can't play with children without fathers, but when she was a child, she kept nagging at everyone and no one really liked to play with her.

Her mother took her to the bustling Kyoto. It was the first time she saw the city at night. The dim lights along the road seemed like a beautiful sight to her.

Her mother bought her a hamburger. She was so happy and loved it.

Although her living conditions are not as good as the two-story bungalow in her hometown, she is happy as long as she is with her mother.

She studies hard, is helpful and has a kind personality.

So when a male classmate asked her to help move the basketballs used in physical education class, she nodded and agreed.

The memories of nightmares, even in the revolving memories, seem to be able to taste the bitterness and subsequent despair.

She had no way of going back to school, and for a long time, she couldn't be in the same space with the opposite sex.

Her mother lost her job to take care of her.

Later, my mother fell in love.

Sissi never stopped her mother from finding her true love, but she was not used to having a strange man at home.

"Xixi, from now on you should call him Uncle Qiang. He paid for all your medical expenses. Uncle Qiang is a good man. When you go out to work in the future, you must repay him well."

After treatment, she is now able to accept talking to men.

She listened to her mother and politely called him, "Uncle Qiang."

Uncle Qiang was a trailer driver and was not at home every day. He would go out for a drive and then come back to rest for a few days. Late at night, strange noises would come from the next room, and she could only cover her ears to prevent herself from listening.

However, gradually, she disliked Uncle Qiang's eyes and some of his actions.

That look made her feel like a piece of meat being targeted all the time.

Uncle Qiang would suddenly come back and sit next to her, with his legs spread wide and his dark palms resting on his thighs above his knees.

The back of the fingers of the left hand would naturally touch her exposed thigh.

She felt uncomfortable, but she didn't know where.

Her mother, who was busy in the kitchen, had no time to pay attention to her. She quickly took out the frozen watermelon from the refrigerator and cut it, saying some words to comfort her husband for his hard work in making money.

The man ate the watermelon in his right hand, and his legs spread wider. The back of his left hand rubbed her exposed legs tightly.

She felt uncomfortable, and she got up belatedly and called out, "Mom."

The woman came out of the busy kitchen, holding a plate of washed peaches in her hands, "Xixi, what's wrong? Come, eat some watermelon. Watermelon is so precious this year. Thanks to your uncle Aqiang who took care of us, we can afford to eat this good watermelon."

"Nothing, I just want to go back to my room and paint for a while." Xixi turned around and went back to the room.

She wanted to say something, but was afraid that she was overthinking it.

Later, the toilet door handle broke.

Xixi mentioned several times that she wanted to fix the door, but mom always said, "Your uncle Qiang is out driving and is not here. If you turn on the light, mom will know you are inside and won't open the door."

One time after she finished taking a shower, she suddenly heard the sound of the door unlocking, and she quickly put on her clothes.

The next second, the toilet door opened from the inside.

The steam from the shower in the bathroom was still hanging against the ceiling. The man looked over and said, "You're showering, why don't you close the door?"

"The door is broken."

"Oh, ask your mother to call someone to fix it."

She mentioned it to her mother several times, but her mother always said that as long as the light was on and the door was closed, she would know there was someone inside and would not go in.

The broken toilet door has never been repaired.

After Uncle Aqiang came back, she was always afraid to take a bath. She would always choose the time when her mother and Uncle Aqiang went out for a walk after dinner, when no one was at home, to take a bath quickly.

Until one time, she had just taken off her clothes and heard the sound of the door outside unlocking.

She hurriedly put on her shirt and then subconsciously leaned against the door.

The next second, someone pushed the door hard.

The man asked knowingly: "Xixi, are you in there?"