On the second day of every Lunar New Year, Chen Xian would go to the welfare home to help out until the eighth day when work would resume.
I just arrived at the door of the welfare home, took out my cell phone and checked the time. It was eight o'clock.
Many people are still asleep.
But he found that a pink Beetle had stopped at the door of the welfare home.
The snow has stopped and the sun is out. The director's mother is taking a chubby baby to bask in the sun in the yard.
It’s Qingqing.
Qingqing was sharp-eyed and was the first to see Shen Xian. She immediately broke free from the arms of the dean’s mother and rushed towards Shen Xian: “Dad, Dad!”
Shen Xian's heart melted instantly. He put the gift on the ground and hugged Qing Qing: "Why are you so excited?"
Qingqing hugged Chen Xian's neck and rubbed her little face against his chin: "I miss Daddy!"
The dean’s mother came out and said to Shen Xian: “Your daughter is so cute!”
Chen Xian did not explain to the dean that this was not his daughter. He just smiled and said, "She is very cute and quirky."
Then he looked deeper into the yard.
There was a beautiful figure standing there, looking at him with a smile.
Although she was smiling, Chen Xian discovered that tears appeared in her almond-shaped eyes.
He frowned, put Qingqing on the ground, held Qingqing in one hand, and carried the gift in the other, and walked towards the welfare home.
"Are the children all up?" Shen Xian asked the director's mother.
The Dean’s mother said, “Not yet.”
When we walked into the garden, we saw clotheslines filled with clothes and bed sheets.
At Zhou Wan's feet, there was a basin of washed water that had not yet been dried.
Looking at her hands again, they were already red from the cold and her manicure had disappeared.
There are several washing machines in the welfare home, but clothes cannot be thrown directly into the washing machines. They need to be scrubbed first and then thrown into the washing machines.
Zhou Wan has been busy with this work these two days.
“You’re here.” Zhou Wan walked to the side of Shen Xian, took the things in Shen Xian’s hand, and spoke in a low voice.
His tone was filled with guilt and a hint of panic.
Shen Xian smiled and nodded, then looked at her: “Why do you have time to come here today?”
He smiled brightly and looked at Zhou Wan calmly without any evasiveness in his eyes.
When Zhou Wan saw Chen Xian's smile and calm eyes, his face suddenly turned pale, and he felt a sense of powerlessness rising in his heart.
She doesn't understand love, but she knows that when a person can face another person calmly, it only proves that he or she has let it go in his or her heart!
She understood that the way Chen Xian looked at her now was no different from the way he looked at Ning Cai and Ye Yuning!
Is there really no way to save it?
"Qingqing, let's go see if the other kids are up." The director's mother picked up Qingqing, leaving the two young people space to spend time together.
When Xiao Ling, a girl with a ponytail, heard that Chen Xian was coming, she jumped up and down to greet him, but was pulled away by the dean's mother.
"Chen Xian, how have you been recently?" Zhou Wan looked at Chen Xian's face with a hint of obsession in his eyes.
It's been almost four years. Ever since I saw this face and saw him curled up in bed four years ago, I have fallen in love with him.
Until now, I still can’t get enough of it.
"It's fine. Look, I've gained weight." Shen Xian smiled and pinched his cheek.
The more relaxed and easy-going he spoke, the more frightened Zhou Wan felt.
In a relationship, only when you are not afraid of losing, your attitude will become casual.
It was obvious that Shen Xian was no longer afraid of losing her.
"Is there still a possibility between us?" Zhou Wan asked with a trembling voice, sadness deep in his eyes.
Shen Xian felt that he should make things clear today, so he looked into her eyes and said seriously: “Wanwan, you know, before the Red-crowned Goose incident, my love was turbulent, and I didn’t even have the rationality to love you.”
"I've known about the class gap between us for a long time. I know you have a good family background, but I also know that your family will not allow my intervention and existence."
"I am sensitive, selfish, and insecure. I am always at a disadvantage in love and often worry about gains and losses. But I still love you without hesitation. At that time, I was sincere and had unimaginable courage."
"But later, I began to use my clear mind to suppress my turbulent heart. The night I went to see you, I began to understand that my boiling love would eventually turn into ashes."
"I'm sorry, I'm not blaming you, but this is the situation, let's let it go, okay?"
Shen Xian said a lot, his tone was serious and his attitude was frank.
How could Zhou Wan accept it?
"I already know I was wrong, why don't you even give me a chance to make amends?"
"I can change all those bad habits of mine that you don't like for you."
"You think I'm high and mighty, you think I'm delicate, you think I'm spoiled, I can change all of that for you."
"What I want is very simple, I just hope you can be by my side!"
Her tears began to flow again.
Chen Xian looked at the clothes drying around and the disappearing nail polish on her hands, and sighed: "You see, people always tend to use a self-abuse method to create a false illusion of infatuation so that they can stand on the moral high ground of love and gain a deformed sense of satisfaction and security."
"You feel guilty, so you come to the welfare home to help, but I think you are torturing yourself."
"In fact, whether it's standing downstairs of the other person's house on a snowy night or bringing her a cup of milk tea in the heavy rain, when I think back on it, I often feel that it was a big deal. But for me, a cup of milk tea is just a cup of milk tea. It can't carry the earth-shattering emotions you want to express."
"You are always eager to express your love, but you often end up getting caught up in the performance without even realizing it. That's why the memories of two people are distorted. I often don't have the same feelings about the past that you think is unforgettable, or even don't know about it."
"Just like your fireworks all over the city, you are moving yourself."
Zhou Wan shook her head frantically: "No, no, I'm not torturing myself, nor am I putting on a show for you. I really want to be close to you. I want to walk your path. I want to empathize with your experience."
“Only by going through what you’ve been through can I feel your pain.”
"But every time I feel it, I feel more guilty."
"I deeply regret the things I did and said to hurt you in the past, but it has already happened, and I can only do my best to make amends."
She looked at Chen Xian with tears in her eyes, and couldn't help but pull Chen Xian's hand: "Chen Xian, give me a chance to make up for my debt, okay?"
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