Chapter 62
"Knock knock."
The knock on the door startled Tan Li. She now felt that survivor syndrome was nothing. Tan Xinman almost gave her PTSD!
Such a noisy person, how could she still be mature and stable as described in the book of life.
"Sister, do you want to eat some fruit? Wait a minute, I'll get it for you~"
Tan Xinman finished the conversation by herself and walked away with brisk footsteps.
Tan Li pressed her temples and felt a headache.
**
The other side.
Tan Xinman had just walked down the stairs at the corner, and her expression became serious.
Her hands were still resting on the handrail of the stairs, and her eyebrows were subconsciously wrinkled because of her concentration.
She didn't want to leave Tan Li alone for too long, so she had to sort out the mess in her mind as quickly as possible.
The most unexpected thing for her was that the ability to read Tan Li's mind was still there.
Tan Li's inner voice had been very quiet during this period, and Tan Xinman thought that this inexplicable ability to read her mind had disappeared.
But she was very sure that just before Tan Li closed the door, she heard Tan Li's sigh in her heart.
Why didn't she hear it some time ago?
Tan Xinman's brows were getting deeper and deeper, and her fingers tapped the armrests one by one.
Putting aside the strangeness of this, if the ability to read her mind is still there, then...
maybe it will help Tan Li's psychological treatment!
Tan Xinman's eyes lit up.
She had an uncertain guess. The reason she couldn't hear Tan Li's inner voice some time ago might be that Tan Li's condition worsened, causing her inner loneliness, so her inner voice became less. Then perhaps, the frequency of hearing inner voices can be used as a measure of Tan Li's mental health.
Secondly, her guess about Tan Li's personality has changed again in their previous interactions.
Indifference may be her biggest misunderstanding of Tan Li.
She just stuck to Tan Li all the way, intending to make Tan Li angry. According to her previous understanding of Tan Li, her behavior would most likely result in a big gift package of close contact with the ground, just like Ying Xu did at the time.
Although anger is also a negative emotion, compared to numbness, Tan Xinman still chose to use this easiest emotion as the entry point.
Unfortunately, she miscalculated.
Although Tan Li was impatient and said she was malicious, she didn't really push herself away.
Compared to indifference, perhaps gentleness is the underlying color of Tan Li hidden deep inside.
Thinking of this, Tan Xinman suddenly realized that indeed, according to the data, gentle and kind people are actually more likely to fall into some negative emotions, because such people have higher requirements for their own sense of morality and have better expectations for the world.
Therefore, sometimes they are hurt more deeply by this unreasonable world.
If Tan Li is really extremely indifferent, then she should be immune to all poisons.
But even so, will it be of any help to Tan Li's treatment direction?
Tan Xinman's train of thought seemed to have hit a dead end, and she unconsciously quickened the pace of her fingers tapping the handrail. Tan
Xinman was not the type of person who would keep trying to solve a problem until she could solve it. Her original train of thought was blocked at this moment, and she quickly changed the direction of her thinking.
Survivor syndrome.
As a survivor of a catastrophic event caused by human or non-human factors, the patient will have a variety of negative emotions such as guilt, self-blame, and regret .
This kind of psychological disorder is both simple and difficult to treat.
The simple part is to let the patient know that it is not his fault to survive, and it is not his fault that others died, and that's all. But
the difficulty lies in that, except for the patient himself who can forgive himself, no one can tell the patient on behalf of the other dead people that it is not your fault.
As for Tan Li's situation, there is another difficulty. No one knows what Tan Li has experienced.
If we can know the real cause of Tan Li's illness, it may be helpful for treatment...
Tan Xinman thought a lot in her mind, and finally let go of her hand on the handrail of the stairs, and walked quickly to the kitchen. While walking, she made plans for future actions one by one.
**
The next day, Tan Xinman played her clingy spirit to the extreme.
In the morning.
"Sister, get up and have breakfast~" Tan Xinman knocked on the door, "It's not good for your stomach if you don't eat breakfast in the morning~ Get up~ The sun is shining on your butt~"
Tan Li covered her head with the quilt and covered her ears with a pillow, but she couldn't resist Tan Xinman's persistent knocking on the door.
She could have ignored it, but...
"Sister? Haven't you gotten up yet? Is anything wrong with you? If you don't make a sound, I'll come in with the spare key!"
As she spoke, Tan Li could still hear the sound of a key being taken out from outside the door, and then the key was slowly pushed into the keyhole...
Tan Li: ...
What's the use of her having such good hearing!
Before Tan Xinman turned the key, the door of Tan Li's room opened from the inside.
Tan Li's face was dark, and there were ice chips in her eyes, "Tan Xinman, don't you know not to disturb other people's sleep?"
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Tan Xinman quickly admitted her mistake, squeezed in the door, and took Tan Li's arm, "Sister, I want to have breakfast with you~"
She is in her 20s, but still acts like a child.
Tan Li was just thinking about whether to suppress Tan Xinman with force, when Tan Li suddenly raised her hand and hugged Tan Li in her arms.
"Sister, good morning~ The weather is very good today~"
Tan Li's limbs suddenly stiffened, and her brain crashed for a moment.
After she returned to the real world, she was hugged by others, such as when she met Wu Xiu and Tan Pei for the first time, she was hugged by them.
It was just that Tan Li had just come out of the Infinite Flow World not long ago, not to mention the blood flowing, even the cracks in her bones were cold.
That time, although she was held, she seemed to be a bystander, watching a not-so-clever situation comedy.
Later, maybe Wu Xiu felt something, she seldom hugged her anymore, but she held her hand more often.
It had been a long time since she had such close contact with someone, and Tan Li only felt a warm and soft feeling surrounding her, and she couldn't react for a while.
"Huh?" A puzzled single voice suddenly came from the corner of the corridor.
Tan Li suddenly woke up, and almost at the same time, she had a very bad premonition.
"Da Li, Man Man?" Wu Xiu approached the two, "What are you doing?"
Tan Xinman said calmly, "Mom, I want to give my sister a good morning hug."
"Ah? Oh, oh." Wu Xiu didn't understand when Tan Li and Tan Xinman had such a good relationship.
She tilted her head, seeming a little hesitant, but Tan Xinman gave her an encouraging look.
Tan Li:! No!
Before she could refuse, Wu Xiu had already realized and opened her arms -
Tan Li's eyes were dead.
In front of her was Tan Xinman hugging her, and Wu Xiu hugged Tan Li and the other two at the same time, and the three of them were huddled together.
"Then mommy will give you a good morning hug too~" Wu Xiu smiled sweetly and rubbed Tan Li and the other two's backs with her hands.
Although she was still a little worried that Tan Li didn't like her hug, she was able to hug her dear daughter! Super happy~
Tan Li, who was sandwiched between the two, swayed left and right uncontrollably with the two of them.
[…Help.]
However, even after hearing this voice in their hearts, the two people in front of them only paused for a moment, and there was no more unnecessary reaction.
Tan Li let out a long sigh.
She was good at fighting and killing, but this kind of warm and soft jade hug was really deadly.
Tan Li couldn't do anything to the two girls who looked like they couldn't stand being beaten, so she could only freeze in place for a while, and then, she said something harsh.
Of course, Tan Li used to be the type who would hit you and never nag, so she didn't light up the skill point of saying harsh words.
"Let me go, I'm going to be angry if you don't let me go." Tan Li said with a straight face.
Wu Xiu was stunned, and was about to let go of Tan Li-
Tan Xinman held Wu Xiu's hand from the other side, "Sister is shy, Mom, let's hug for a while."
Tan Li:? ? ?
"Tan Xinman, why didn't I know you were so quick to spread rumors before?" Tan Li felt the warmth on both sides slowly infecting her, making her more and more uncomfortable.
Tan Xinman winked playfully, "If sister likes it, I'll try harder?"
Tan Li: ... I ca
n't compare with Tan Xinman in terms of thick skin.
She was a little irritable, she couldn't do anything to ordinary people, and she couldn't compare with Tan Xinman in terms of shamelessness. People say that when a scholar meets a soldier, it's hard to explain. But she felt that when she, a soldier, met Tan Xinman, a scholar, it was like Sun Wukong meeting Tang Monk chanting scriptures, and she had a headache.
Wu Xiu was actually always a little cautious.
She and Tan Li had been separated for so many years, and after finally getting back together, her daughter was completely different from what she had imagined. Wu Xiu had not participated in Tan Li's 23 years, and she didn't know what kind of mother Tan Li wanted. She didn't know
if it was because of Mi Bu's mood, or because Wu Xiu wanted to restore the lost mother-daughter relationship between her and Tan Li, Wu Xiu simply returned to the mood when she first became a mother, fearing that she had not done well enough.
She wanted to get closer, but didn't dare to get too close.
She carefully looked at Tan Li's face, and seeing that she was impatient, she wanted to let her go as she wished.
But after listening to Tan Xinman's words, she hesitated for a little while. She found that although Tan Li was impatient on the surface, her expression was more helpless.
She didn't particularly reject close contact with herself or other people!
Wu Xiu's eyes gradually widened, and she suddenly realized, was she too cautious before?
In fact, could she not be so cautious with her own daughter?
Thinking of this, Wu Xiu's strength in her hands suddenly increased, and she hugged Tan Li tightly in her arms.
"Da Li, Mommy also wants to hold you for a while longer. Mommy wants to make up for the time when she didn't hold you before." Tan Li was a little taller than Wu Xiu, so Wu Xiu could only raise her hand and gently stroke Tan Li's hair at the back of her head as if she was soothing a baby to sleep.
Tan Xinman slowly let go of Tan Li and gave her seat to Wu Xiu.
She looked at Tan Li's stiff but slightly evasive gaze, and became more and more confident -
Tan Li might not need their guilt, compensation, or even family affection before, but now...
as long as they give her the best things and feelings in the world, Tan Li's empty heart will be filled one day!
Even if Tan Li has a bottomless pit in her heart.
Tan Xinman secretly made up her mind that she owed Tan Li a lot and had never known how to make up for it, but now, she finally found the direction - she
would find a lot of light for Tan Li to illuminate her world.
She would plant a lot of flowers for Tan Li to perfume her heart.
And Tan Li, looking at the growing light in Tan Xinman's eyes -
[It's terrible. ]
This was the first time she realized that she had to control her inner voice, but she failed.