Hearing him say that, Su Jin felt a sense of powerlessness.
She suddenly turned her head and looked him straight in the eyes.
"Chen Yanxiu".
He looked back and asked her with his eyes what was wrong.
Let's break up.
Shen Yanxiu felt a sudden buzzing in his head, his whole body went cold, and he could only feel his heart pounding violently.
Su Jin released his hand, looked at him with a pitying gaze, and repeated herself.
"I don't think we're a good match, let's break up."
Shen Yanxiu took several deep breaths but couldn't calm his frantic breathing. His eyes gradually became sore and blurry.
"...You're joking, right? It's not funny."
Su Jin felt that same feeling again, a sense of powerlessness.
“I would never joke about something like this. A breakup is a breakup, and a divorce is a divorce.”
Su Jin turned around and started walking back. "But if you want to stay somewhere else until you find a place to live, you can stay, but you have to move out within a week."
Su Jin thought for a moment, then changed her answer to: "Within five days."
She believes she has been merciful enough; which ex could be as forgiving as she is?
But Shen Yanxiu looked as if he had suffered a great injustice and pain, his eyes red, "What did I do wrong? Did I mention him and make you unhappy? I will never compare myself to him again, please, please don't be angry."
"No, I'm not angry at all."
Shen Yanxiu hurriedly stepped forward and grabbed her hand. "Is it because I've been wanting to live together that you're annoyed? I'm sorry, if you don't want to see me, I'll move out right away. I'll still be your boyfriend, okay?"
He didn't cry, but his voice was tinged with sobs, and his eyes were pleading.
Su Jin gently withdrew her hand.
"I just feel that we are not suitable for each other, our personalities don't match. You didn't do anything wrong, you're a good person."
Her eyes were sincere, hoping he would understand that she wasn't lying and then leave sensibly.
Unfortunately, even if Shen Yanxiu understood, he would pretend not to.
“Ah Jin…we’re a good match. I can change into whatever personality you like.”
He lowered his head, and a few tears fell.
Su Jin reached out to wipe away his tears. "Don't cry. You didn't do anything wrong. You don't need to change your personality for me. You don't need to wrong yourself for anyone."
The more she tried to comfort Shen Yanxiu, the more heartbroken he became. He even squatted down and covered his face to cry. But fearing that she might take the opportunity to run away, he reached out and gently tugged at Su Jin's pants.
Su Jin had no choice but to squat down as well.
"Shen Yanxiu, please don't be like this. It's nice to be with you, but some of your reactions make me feel guilty. You don't need to apologize, it's not your fault, maybe I'm just not suited for dating."
Shen Yanxiu suddenly hugged her neck and wouldn't let go, causing him to kneel in the snow.
"No... I don't want to be separated from you, I'll die, I'll lose my life."
Su Jin gently patted his back, "Don't talk nonsense. Everyone can live without anyone else. You are an independent individual."
His hug was quite light, and Su Jin easily broke free with a gentle struggle.
"Okay, I'm going back now, it's too cold outside."
She's so stupid to bring up this troublesome suggestion in public; she should have done it at home.
Shen Yanxiu slowly got up. The part of his pants below the knees was wet, and the cold wind made them feel cold and stiff.
He followed her, his steps uneven.
...
Su Jin opened the door without closing it, letting the people following behind her in.
She wasn't that heartless to lock someone outside in the dead of winter.
Even after entering the house, Shen Yanxiu was still shivering from the cold.
His tears had dried up along the way, and his voice was hoarse and barely audible.
“Ajin, I will do better... I don’t object to whoever you like, you can be with whoever you want, I can take care of you... I just want to stay by your side.”
Su Jin was completely confused.
"I won't be with anyone. I want to break up with you, not because of anyone else, but because we're not a good match."
Shen Yanxiu slumped into a chair. "Actually, I know everything. Every time you go out, it's to see him... right?"
He looked up, his eyes welling up with tears again.
"ah?"
"Every time you come back, your coat smells of men's cologne, it's from your ex-husband..."
Shen Yanxiu choked up.
"I'll continue to pretend I don't know. Just consider yourself someone who's hired to take care of you for free, okay?"
Su Jin frowned and opened her mouth, "You...you always secretly smell my coat?"
She exclaimed "Wow!" and lamented that there wasn't a single normal person around her.
“I have nothing to do with him. Every time we meet, it's in public. I go to see him because I have something to talk about. I didn't break up with you because of him.”
Upon hearing this, Shen Yanxiu pushed back his chair and tried to stand up, but his knees buckled and he knelt down.
Su Jin was shocked, "You..."
He knelt on the ground and confessed to crimes he did not commit.
"I was wrong. Like your ex-husband, I can't live without you."
He clasped his hands together and said, "Please let me stay by your side. I won't say anything, and I'll do whatever you ask me to do."
Su Jin repeated, "Listen, you are not anyone's property. You are a person. Don't beg others without any dignity, okay?"
Shen Yanxiu supported himself on his knees to stand up; his old injury wouldn't allow him to kneel for too long.
"I was wrong, I'll never do it again. I'll be a decent human being, please don't abandon me..."
Su Jin covered her face. "I'm not ordering you around, please don't do this. Can't we give each other some dignity and not make things so ugly?"
Su Jin now thinks that Gu Xingze is good at least in this respect: he gave each other enough dignity when they separated and did not make a scene at the Civil Affairs Bureau.
She felt a headache.
“I’m going to sleep now. It doesn’t matter to me whether you stay here or not, but you have to move out within five days. If you can’t find a place to rent, you can tell me and I will help you find one.”
She had already said all she could, and felt she had said everything she could to him, so she didn't want to say another word to him today.
Shen Yanxiu watched her door close, then slowly curled up on the floor and cried silently.
...
When Su Jin woke up, she thought she would see Shen Yanxiu again, after all, judging from his behavior yesterday, he was very unwilling to break up.
But no.
There was no one else in the house except her and a dog.
But there was breakfast on the table, with a note next to it.
"If it's cooled down, microwave it for three minutes, but don't put the eggs in."
It seems he's come to his senses.
Su Jin sat down and started eating in a good mood.
Just when she thought Shen Yanxiu was going to stay at a hotel, there was a knock on the door just before lunchtime.
She went to open the door and saw Shen Yanxiu looking haggard.
"..."
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