Aoqian's eyes swept up and down, not missing a single detail of Song Xiwei's every change.
Finally, it landed on her fist, which she had clenched several times but failed to swing at him.
His fist wasn't clenched at all; the gap was big enough to fit several of his fingers inside.
Then, Aoqian couldn't help but laugh.
His hearty laughter didn't sound mocking, but rather came from the heart—a genuine joy.
“Song Xiwei, do you know that our feelings are mutual? It’s not just one-sided on my part. Even if you don’t admit it now and can’t say you like me, you do like me. You can’t bear to scold me, you can’t bear to push me away, and you don’t even want to hit me. All your actions tell me that you like me too. I’m so stupid. Why did I insist on getting a verbal answer from you? You’ve already told me through your actions.”
Aoqian looked at Song Xiwei with delight, his eyes sparkling. At this moment, Aoqian was shining, more radiant than ever before.
Song Xiwei was completely confused. She wanted to refute Aoqian's words, but it was nonsense. She didn't push him away because... they had kissed so many times before, there was no need. Yes, that's it.
As for not scolding or hitting him, it's because I felt guilty about leaving Aoqian for the past six months, so I indulged him a bit. That's right, that's how it is.
He went about his business and came up with his own reasons.
Song Xiwei cleared her throat and repeated her understanding to Aoqian.
After listening to Song Xiwei's explanation, Aoqian pondered seriously for a moment, "I have another question."
"You ask too many questions. Fine, ask away." Song Xiwei just wanted to get rid of Aoqian as soon as possible and stop him from acting so irrationally.
To insist that she likes him too is absurd. She herself doesn't even know it, so how could he know?
"You just said that you felt guilty during the six months you were away from me, so you were a bit lenient with me. Then tell me, why do you feel guilty about these six months? Is your guilt because you didn't fulfill the promise you made to me and abandoned me, or is it something else?"
Aoqian's question was very profound.
He seemed to be giving Song Xiwei absolutely no chance to hide herself.
“Of course it is…” Under Ao Qian’s gaze, Song Xiwei thought to herself, damn it, she had so much on her mind, but she couldn’t explain it clearly at the moment.
How can you not be able to explain it clearly?
More often than not, it's out of guilt that they want to cover it up.
Why would someone feel guilty?
Why then should we cover it up?
What are you trying to hide?
What is it that she cannot let Aoqian know...?
As expected, it was still the secret that she was a woman.
If she admits that she likes Aoqian, but Aoqian doesn't like her because she's a woman, wouldn't she be humiliating herself?
No, she couldn't take the risk.
She felt that maintaining the status quo with Aoqian was sufficient.
There was no need to take it any further. Besides, she truly believed that love, something so unattainable, was too fickle. She felt that her relationship with Aoqian shouldn't be defined by such a changeable and elusive emotion.
"What? I thought you knew perfectly well why you felt guilty towards me. Why can't you explain it now?" Ao Qian waited a while, but Song Xiwei didn't speak. He gazed at her tenderly. "Should I remind you that you don't actually need to feel guilty towards me? You left for the past six months because I was the only one who made a deal with someone else. Since you left me to save me, you should be the one thanking me. The one who should feel guilty isn't you, is it? So where does your guilt come from?"
Ao Qian's words were incisive, leaving Song Xiwei even more confused.
"Then how can you be sure that what you feel for me is love, not gratitude, not the emotion I feel for saving you so many times, or the brotherhood we've developed from spending so much time together? In short, so many kinds of feelings don't necessarily mean love!"
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