Song Xiwei gave Aoqian a deep look. "It's not possible for us. We're not suitable. You and Yuan Ziche were able to reconcile and realize each other's feelings because you had a foundation of affection. As for me, we weren't adversaries from the start. I was always afraid he would turn to the dark side, so I stayed by his side to protect him. Although we later trusted each other and became partners who could entrust their backs to each other, that was a bond forged through countless battles and close encounters. I think love should be something romantic, beautiful, and ethereal. It's definitely not like what happened between us. If he finds out I lied to him, all our previous friendship will be affected. Rather than losing even a friend, I don't think it's worth taking that risk. I don't want such an unreliable change."
Song Xiwei spoke these words to Xiao Zhuang telepathically; these were some of her little secrets that she couldn't let Aoqian hear.
Xiao Zhuang's reaction was quite different from Song Xiwei's. Perhaps because he had been through it all, he felt that Song Xiwei's behavior clearly wasn't due to dislike, but rather fear that she would regret it later if she liked the other person. She would not only lose love, but also her friendships and brothers.
From this perspective, Song Xiwei clearly cares a lot, even more than she imagined.
It's unclear whether she's deceiving herself or if she's genuinely slow to react and unwilling to believe the fact that she's fallen for Aoqian.
"But how will you know if love will disappoint you if you don't try? If your love blossoms, he won't care that you lied about being a woman, because he likes you. So whether you are a man or a woman, I think you shouldn't run away."
Xiao Zhuang paused for a moment, then added, "In my mind, you've always been my guiding light. You're always so strong, so determined, and so driven. But I never imagined you'd be such a coward when it comes to love. What's there to be afraid of? What if he changes his mind and we can't be friends anymore? That's his loss too. You're such a good friend; anyone who abandons you is losing out. Don't lower yourself like that!"
Xiao Zhuang's words seemed to have cracked a hole in Song Xiwei's strong heart, making her eager to try, yet she was restrained by reason. It felt like there were two little people fighting in her mind.
One person said, "It's not like you'll lose anything by trying. What if it turns out well? Isn't that great?" Don't you envy Xiao Zhuang and Yuan Ziche's love? Although the process was so heartbreaking, the result was beautiful. Look at Xiao Zhuang's bright smile; it's something you'll never see in anyone else. It's because of Yuan Ziche that Xiao Zhuang has such a unique appearance.
So why can't I give it a try? Maybe I can discover a different side of Song Xiwei?
Moreover, Aoqian is so handsome, even more handsome than Yuan Ziche. Although his personality is sometimes awkward, he only shows his most unique, childish, and aggrieved side to himself.
Song Xiwei was truly unwilling to simply hand over such a promising talent to someone else.
But another voice started clamoring in my head.
It's true that you lied to him. You had many opportunities to be honest with him, but you kept putting it off. Now, so much time has passed, and you still haven't told him the truth.
What happens after I agree to be with him? How could he not be angry when he discovers my deception?
Thinking about what she had done to save Aoqian, and how she had even tried to deny it by saying she had used a magic spell to transform into a woman...
When everything is exposed, how will she face herself?
The two little people were fighting so fiercely that she only belatedly realized when Xiao Zhuang left and when Ao Qian had changed his clothes.
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