Chapter 64 Chapter 64 "But it's full,...
"But Manman, I have no home anymore."
Jin Man paused, and a voice with a hint of crying behind him made him suspect that he had heard it wrong.
He hesitated for a moment, without looking back, and strode forward in the cold wind. He could not hide, could not avoid, and could not even turn a blind eye, but he always had the right to choose his own life, choose not to shed tears anymore, and pray for others to love him.
Those days were so bitter, so bitter that he felt sad just thinking about them.
Who doesn’t want to be cared for and loved? And who is born to be worthless?
But before he took a few steps, he was hugged tightly from behind.
"Why, why don't you give me a chance? You're so good to everyone, but you're only mean to me. You forgive everyone who hurts and cheats on you, but why don't you give me a chance? Manman, this is so cruel, so cruel."
There are people like this in the world who always turn the tables, saying the softest words but doing the cruelest things. They clearly take advantage of others and treat them like garbage, yet they act as if they have suffered a great injustice.
When it snowed heavily, he should have let Lu Yanlin freeze to death in the car, and put an end to it once and for all.
If he had not met this person, he might have had his own family and lived a happy life.
Now, the executioner stood up with a clear conscience and accused the person being beheaded of not being merciful enough.
Why can't you forgive me?
Yeah, why?
In this world, there is a man named Jin Man who has always gone with the flow. No matter others scold or hit him, he can just smile and get by. But who would have thought that love can also hurt people?
Jin Man was burning with rage. He hated this cold-hearted, shameless bastard. He hated that he knew he hated him and wanted to kill him, but he still acted like a human being and hung around in front of him.
Jin Man clenched his fists, his voice cracking uncontrollably: "You don't have a home, so what about mine?"
Jin Man broke free from those hands, turned around and grabbed Lu Yanlin's collar, roaring with red eyes: "Why should I forgive you? What do I owe you? You treat me like... like a dog on the side of the road, a flower in a pot. I like you so much, I have liked you so much, but do you even treat me as a human being? Why did you lie to me? Why did you say that?"
"I have never hated anyone in my life, but I hate you. Are you satisfied?"
Lu Yanlin stared at him blankly. Those words pierced Lu Yanlin's heart, sharper than a knife.
He was drunk, but even at this time, he could still understand every word Jin Man said.
Memory didn't hold back its butcher knife, but rather it was rubbing its fists, accumulating enough damage, and then giving him a fatal blow.
The Omega's tall body trembled slightly, and he choked and couldn't speak clearly. He drooped his eyelashes weakly and took deep breaths to calm his emotions.
The feeling rising from the depths of my heart spreads throughout my body.
He knew it was pain.
The pain was so severe that every breath required effort, and the brain was paralyzed by the pain, but the body's senses were extremely clear.
"Manman, you've never said these words to me, so many times, why didn't you say it?"
Jin Man was stunned, and his heart was filled with infinite sadness, because he also had self-esteem, and he would never be able to say those words to the person he loved.
His eyes were as calm as a lake, and he whispered, "How do you want me to ask? Do you want me to rank them personally?"
Lu Yanlin said impatiently: "I don't have it."
"Manman, I won't let myself get so anxious about gains and losses because of a kitten or a puppy. I won't rush into a fire and seek death for a pot of flowers in the garden."
Jin Man said hoarsely: "It doesn't matter anymore."
Lu Yanlin's pupils gradually dilated. He lowered his head, sobbing uncontrollably. The veins on his hands bulged as he tugged at Jin Man's sleeves tightly. "It's important."
Jin Man tugged at his sleeves, his tone calm and relieved: "Lu Yanlin, you've been with me for so long, you must know better than me. I'm trying to forget this relationship. I don't like you now, and I'm afraid I won't be able to like you in the future. Please stop here."
"No!"
Lu Yanlin wiped away his tears fiercely and hugged Jin Man tightly. Tears and sighs fell into his ears, crushing the cold wind of the night. He could not remember his pride and reserve, forgot his identity, and regretted his previous thoughts so much that he wanted to die immediately.
He stabbed the person he loved countless times, and he killed Jin Man, who loved him wholeheartedly, bit by bit.
He knelt on one knee, his dark hair rustling in the night wind, and rested his forehead against the other's clothes, pleading humbly: "It doesn't matter if you hate me."
"Hate me for being so selfish, hate me for not being nice to you, hate me for loving you but never saying it. You can hit me, scold me, it doesn't matter, it's my fault, but I've never disliked you. I love you, can you please forgive me just once more?"
The cold wind on the new moon night is biting and the moon is as cold as water.
Jin Man's heart had never been as angry as it was today.
After such a passionate emotion died out, the remaining embers were about to burn him.
He really wanted to tell Lu Yanlin that love was not calculated that way.
Just because of a few words and a moment of repentance, he couldn't bear to be stepped on by others again with his true heart.
He pried Lu Yanlin's hands apart with force: "No."
Ta-da——
The car door opened from the inside.
Lu Zhi looked serious and pushed Duoduo. The child, with sleepy eyes, cried out "ouch" and rolled to the feet of Alpha.
Zhou Yu walked out of the darkness with a cigarette in his mouth, picked up Duoduo and stuffed him into Jin Man's arms, wiping away the tears from his face.
"elder brother."
Zhou Yu put his arm around Jin Man's shoulders, preventing him from looking back. He heard staggering footsteps behind him.
Lu Zhi's voice was exceptionally calm and clear: "Uncle, my father is drunk, help him get in the car."
The driver held Lu Yanlin and dragged him to prevent him from moving forward.
"Gold full!"
Lu Yanlin's soul seemed to be suddenly sucked away. He looked confused, his steps were unsteady, and his mind was blank. All he could think of was Jin Man leaving. He shouted at the back, no longer holding back: "Don't go. You've been away from me for so many days. You won't let me dream about you, and you don't want to talk to me. I really can't stand it... It's so cold today, I feel so uncomfortable. Please look back at me again. Don't ignore me, Manman, I beg you."
Jin Man opened his eyes wide in shock and wanted to stop, but Zhou Yu was like a wall, blocking everything.
He waved his cigarette-holding hand and stamped his feet: "If you're cold, go home and warm yourself by the fire. If you can't sleep, take some sleeping pills."
Jin Man got in the car. Yue Wei opened his eyes, looked around, and mumbled a few words, half asleep and half awake. A warm current rushed over him, and all the sounds seemed to be amplified countless times. The noise and clamor diluted the coldness of the winter day.
Yue Wei said: "Squad leader, it's so boring."
Zhou Yu said he had a lot of things to do, he put out his cigarette and opened the car window.
The cold wind blew in, the bright white moon hung on the branches, the deep blue mountains were fast asleep, and the flowing mountain breeze mixed with the barking of dogs in the countryside was like an endless thick quilt, wrapping people's hearts tightly.
Zhou Yu said: "Manman, life is only 30,000 days long. No matter how difficult the obstacles are, they can't stop people from growing old. Don't think too much, don't overthink it. People have to learn to live with an open mind."
"Brother, I know."
Zhou Yu had a teachable expression on his face and patted the cigarette ash off his thigh: "Okay, let's go home."
"Manman, are you cold?"
Duoduo hugged Jinman and put his little hands against his face. Jinman nodded, a sour feeling welling up in his heart, and he snorted, "It's cold."
Duoduo immediately hugged him and held his face: "Are you warm?"
Jin Man laughed and pushed him away: "Okay, it's warm now, sit down and don't catch a cold."
The roses quickly withered in winter, so Jin Man bought some thin cotton to protect the branches to prevent them from freezing to death when the frost came.
His Wuling car broke down recently and was sent for repair. Zhou Yu found a way to get him a tricycle so that he could drive it to deliver goods.
Zhou Yu said that he had done too much physical work and had many health problems when he got older. He wanted to introduce him to some other jobs, but the town was small and there was no way for the time being.
Jin Man was not in a hurry. Winter was coming and the weather was cold, so washing clothes and other things were very hard work. He had two chilblains on his hands. When he was picking up Duoduo, Lu Zhi saw it and his calves felt like they were rooted to the ground and he couldn't walk. He grabbed Jin Man's hand and said nothing.
He returned to kindergarten a few days ago and saw the two children playing together all day long, and he couldn't avoid them even if he wanted to.
"dad."
Lu Zhi looked up at him, his eyes red like a little rabbit, extremely disappointed. He accused: "I'm very angry now. Father promised not to make you sad, but he couldn't even protect you."
Jin Manshua quickly pulled his hand back, and Lu Zhi said firmly: "He is not keeping his word and is not trustworthy."
Duoduo didn't understand, so he gave Manman half a roasted sweet potato and patted his chest optimistically: "I will protect Manman!"
Lu Zhi: "Don't wipe the dirt on your clothes anymore. It will increase Dad's burden. I will supervise you."
Duoduo blushed, put her hands behind her back, and argued, "I didn't."
Lu Zhi's face was cold and he stuffed a handkerchief into his pocket.
Jin Man: “…”
He was at a loss for words and didn't know what to explain. He patted his head and led the two children to the roadside to buy two grilled sausages.
The driver respectfully took Lu Zhi's schoolbag, thanked Jin Man, and watched the simple father and son leave before opening the car door.
The Omega in the carriage was silent and indifferent, with long black eyebrows, cold eyes and an imposing aura. I don't know how long he had been looking at me like that.
He lowered his eyes and met the identical little ice man.
Lu Zhi lowered his head, feeling very sad. He didn't want his father to help and disrupt his father's life, but he also didn't want his father to work so hard.
Jin Man enrolled in an adult college where he could choose from many types of jobs. He planned to study fruit tree cultivation and then take a certification exam.
An investor came to Liuhe Town, building roads and bridges, and seemed to be preparing to build a processing plant.
Jin Man's work suddenly became busy and he had no time to do the laundry. Coincidentally, a new laundry shop opened in the town with very reasonable prices, so he sent all his father and his father's clothes to the laundry shop, which relieved a great burden.
Fruit tree experts from the province came for an on-site inspection, and several groups of people wandered around the mountains for several days.
The government sent cadres to the village to hold mobilization meetings, encouraging everyone to plant fruit trees and build greenhouses. The fresh fruits grown were purchased by enterprises according to standards at a unified price at a very affordable price.
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