Chapter 187 Want a Child

Su Mi thought about it and agreed. Since he cooked for her today, she should eat more.

So I picked up the knife, cut a piece of steak and put it in my mouth. The beef was very tender and tasted very good.

She praised him generously, "It's delicious. Honey, your cooking skills are on par with those top chefs."

"Really?"

"Yeah." Su Mi answered sincerely.

"Then eat more." Xiao Xuanjin looked calm and spoke in a gentle tone.

"good."

The two of them lowered their heads and ate their meals without saying anything else. The only sounds in the air were the slight hissing of the blade slowly cutting into the tender meat and the crisp sound of the knife hitting the plate.

Such silence was too long, and Su Mi took the initiative to speak to break the silence, "Husband, are you... still angry with me?"

Xiao Xuanjin put down the knife in his right hand, and still held the fork handle in his left hand, with the tip of the fork teeth against the plate, "Why should I be angry?"

"This morning...I was impulsive and I had a bad attitude."

Xiao Xuanjin squinted at her. She was now actively admitting her mistakes and seeking peace, with a flattering look on her face. "Why should you apologize? You are not wrong."

"Ah?" Su Mi didn't react. What did he mean?

It's not about who is right or wrong in this matter, it's just that they each have their own persistence. She doesn't want to be constrained, while he wants to control her.

She apologized only because she was willing to compromise and make concessions if he felt at ease.

"You don't have to apologize to me."

After saying that, Xiao Xuanjin lowered his head, picked up the knife, and continued to cut the steak slowly. "I was inconsiderate about that matter. I won't mention it again."

Is he... choosing to give in?

So he cooked to apologize to her?

But she had been planning to agree. "I want to say, if you can feel at ease doing that, I can accept it."

"Accept?" Xiao Xuanjin raised his eyes, his gaze cold but firm, "Su Su, this is not like you."

"Why not like me?"

"I remember that you hated it the most when people checked on you. Didn't you trust me? How can you let me spy on you so blatantly now?"

Su Mi thought back to how she had threatened him many years ago with a fake photo of a luxury car in Lianxi, but her plan was later exposed. She didn't expect Xiao Xuanjin still remembered it.

"I just want to reassure you. I can tolerate the rest."

When she said this, Xiao Xuanjin still caught the flash of frustration in her eyes.

Although she appeared calm, she probably still felt a sense of tragedy in her heart, as if she was being restrained.

Xiao Xuanjin sighed, "Su Su, if I really wanted to spy on you, I could have done it in secret. You wouldn't have noticed. Why would I bother to tell you?"

Su Mi looked at him in surprise, "What do you mean?"

Xiao Xuanjin looked at her confused eyes and originally thought that since she had misunderstood, he should just let her misunderstand. He would just take the blame and take back what he had said and everything would be fine.

After all, she already felt guilty towards him. If she knew that she had misunderstood him, she would probably fight with herself again, which he didn't want to see.

But now that she seemed to be still trapped in the vortex of his refusal to believe her, he couldn't help but want to give her a hand.

Perhaps, he didn't do well enough, so she still didn't trust him completely in her heart.

She still couldn't let go of what happened that year. After all, he didn't give her enough sense of security.

"You are in Hwaseong now. It shouldn't be difficult for me to monitor your every move."

Yes, how could she be so confused? How could she not think of this? She misunderstood. She was mean-spirited and did not believe him. She kept putting him in the past and speculating about him. She was still brooding over the past and refused to move on from it.

She also said that she would be nice to him, but what did she do?

Thinking of this, she lowered her head, no longer feeling the solemn and heroic spirit she had just shown.

A shadow loomed before my eyes, and his breath was approaching.

Su Mi raised his eyes, his eyes were a little red.

Xiao Xuanjin squatted down and held her fingers that were clenched tightly on her legs.

He pried her fingers apart with force and saw that her nails had sunk into his palm, leaving deep red marks that were a little blue. If he tried harder, it would probably break.

He sighed helplessly, rubbed it gently with his fingertips, and looked at it with pity, "I don't blame you."

"But I blame myself."

"Then if you scratch yourself, won't I be the one who feels bad?"

Xiao Xuanjin squatted beside her, looking up into her eyes, trying to drive away the shadow in her heart, "Su Su, listen carefully to what I am saying now."

"I forgive you. I won't pursue the past any more. From now on, you can just be yourself and do whatever you want. You don't have to feel guilty or sorry towards me."

Su Mi's eyelashes trembled slightly, and her lips moved, "But... do you not mind what I did before?"

She seemed to have not explained anything yet, so how could he forgive her.

He had never said a word of forgiving her before, but he never expected that today, when she was caught off guard, he would actually say it.

But strangely enough, even after being forgiven, she did not feel happy at all. Instead, she felt extremely heavy and almost suffocated.

"Now that we are husband and wife, we can't always be affected by the past. Besides, you are willing to entrust your life to me. For me, this is enough."

Su Mi's eyes were filled with tears. She leaned down, put her arms around him, and put her head close to him. Her voice was shaking uncontrollably, "Xiao Jinjin... I'm sorry."

Xiao Xuanjin touched the back of her head, feeling her emotions erupting, and said in a coaxing tone, "No need to apologize, it's my fault."

"You are very good, it's me who is not good." Su Mi's voice was trembling.

What's the point of arguing about who is good and who is bad? Xiao Xuanjin picked up the person and walked upstairs.

Su Mi wrapped her arms around his neck tightly, staring at his profile.

"husband."

"Um."

"Let's have a baby."

Xiao Xuanjin paused and replied, "No, it's too noisy."

"Ah?" Su Mi thought he would agree.

Xiao Xuanjin continued walking towards the bedroom and asked casually, "Do you really want it?"

"Aren't you curious about what our baby will look like?"

Xiao Xuanjin couldn't help but think of what Uncle Fu had said before. He said that the young lady is beautiful and has a good personality, and the baby you will have after you get married will definitely be very handsome.

"Not curious."

Forget it, Su Mi just pursed her lips and said nothing, just pretend she didn’t say anything.

Xiao Xuanjin glanced down at her, curled his lips and said nothing.

After arriving at the bedroom and putting the person on the bed, he spoke, "Wait a little longer. I don't want more people to disturb our world of two."

Su Mi thought about it and it made sense. They had finally been together and had just gotten married, so there was no need to rush.

Then Xiao Xuanjin said, "I'm mainly afraid that little guy will steal my wife."