Chapter 36 Afraid to Face

the next day.

It happened to be the weekend when I had no classes.

After Su woke up, she stood in front of the mirror and started to change her clothes and fix her hair.

I took a look at the couple's shirt that I asked the system for yesterday. The words on it were so embarrassing.

She decided to wear the shirt inside and a light brown knitted cardigan over it.

She wore a plaid skirt underneath, and because she was afraid of the cold, Su Mi also wore leg socks underneath.

She pulled a small part of her hair out on both sides and tied it into two scorpion braids, which were tucked behind her ears.

Looking in the mirror, the princess-like hairstyle makes her look particularly sweet and gentle today. However, if you look closely at the upturned curve of her almond-shaped eyes, she still has a unique charm.

After getting ready, she opened her phone and saw the last message she sent. Xiao Xuanjin did not reply to the message.

I don't know whether he will break the appointment today.

Su Mi wasn't sure what he was thinking, but she was determined to go and wait.

What if...he comes?

He is no longer the same as before.

After choosing the right time, Su Mi put his item into his bag and went out carrying it.

She walked directly to the school gate and stood next to a stone pillar to wait.

Some boys recognized her and tried to chat with her, but she politely declined.

My eyes were fixed on the direction the car was coming from, but I didn't see the familiar blue sports car.

I looked down at the time and saw it was already two o'clock, so I thought there was no rush and decided to wait a little longer.

After waiting for an hour, the person still didn't come.

Su Mi stared at the direction of the road without blinking. He felt a little numb, and all the expectations and fantasies in his heart were shattered.

Countless voices in her heart told her that Xiao Xuanjin would not come and she should stop waiting.

From the beginning to the end, it seemed that he had never agreed to her, it was just her wishful thinking.

Yes, maybe she was too optimistic, which was why she felt that Xiao Xuanjin treated her differently now.

Looking at the students coming and going, Su Mi smiled to himself and walked along the path beside.

There are maple trees on both sides of the road. It is the golden autumn season, and the ground is covered with golden fallen leaves. Every time you step on them, you can hear the leaves creaking, like a painful wail.

Before my eyes are fallen leaves accompanied by the cold wind, rustling around, spinning in the air and reluctantly falling to the ground, only to be trampled into the mud by people coming and going, and return to dust.

Su Mi looked up as he walked, and couldn't help but reach out to pick up a leaf and play with it between his fingertips.

The mood is low and gloomy.

…

For the next few days, Xiao Xuanjin did not show up at school.

Su Mi sent him a message, but he didn't reply.

After asking around, I found out that he had gone abroad for something and had taken leave from school.

Su Mi knew that Xiao Xuanjin had unilaterally pressed the pause button between them.

Clearly he had already given her vague yet intuitive hints before.

When she felt that their relationship could move forward and was ready to take action, his direct actions gave her a loud warning.

Su Mi accepted everything he gave her calmly, but he didn't intend to give in just like that.

Even if she died, she had to die with a clear understanding and she had to get everything clear.

In a blink of an eye, half a month has passed.

Like other students in the college, Su Mi attended classes and studied as usual.

That day, when she came out of the library, it was already night outside.

As she came down from the circular staircase, she heard several girls passing by talking.

"Have you heard? Mr. Xiao is back to school."

"When did it happen?"

"I just saw his car parked at the school today."

"Come to think of it, I haven't seen him come to class for a long time."

The two people walked farther and farther away. Su Mi paused for a moment and walked towards the girls' dormitory.

When I got back to the dormitory, they hadn't come back yet.

After turning on the light, Su Mi put the book on the table, sat on the chair, and adjusted his mood.

The only thing that kept repeating in my mind was this sentence: He's back.

As time went by, she didn't even know how to ask him why he didn't come that day.

Or rather, her original arrogance and emotions had been smoothed over time, and she herself had forgotten how angry and depressed she was at the time.

She had been quiet for so long that there were no ripples in her heart.

Time is indeed a good thing, she thought.

During this period of time, she had been numbing herself, and the hope in her heart was getting slimmer and slimmer. Unconsciously, her self-protection consciousness had been activated, and she began to be afraid to face it.

I am afraid that I will soon face a death sentence.

Thinking of this, she opened a professional book and read it, lowering her head, forcing herself to concentrate and not think about anything else.

Until the cell phone rang, the originally quiet environment was disrupted by the noise.

Su Mi raised his head and waited for the ringing to last for a long time before he finally realized what was going on and picked up the phone.

Pick up, "Hello."

"Mi'er, where are you? Come out and play. Guess who's back?"

It was Fang Yutong's voice on the other end of the phone, and the background sound was like that of a bar, a bit noisy.

Su Mi knew who she was talking about, but she was afraid to face that person now, afraid that person would reject her outright, afraid that all her hopes would be shattered.

"I'm not going. You guys go have fun."

Fang Yutong continued to ask her, "Are you really not coming? I'm telling you, Brother Xiao is back, are you sure you won't come?"

Su Mi pursed her lips and said, "No, I won't go. You guys are having fun."

Having said that, he hung up the phone.

In order to avoid being affected any further, she turned off her cell phone.

She read for a while, but found it difficult to concentrate. Finally, she took a shower, climbed into bed, and fell asleep.

Surprisingly, she fell asleep quickly and slept soundly.

She didn't even know when Fang Yutong and the others came back.

Wait until you wake up the next day.

It was already bright outside.

Su Mi lay in bed, but didn't get up because he had classes in the afternoon.

I turned over, picked up the phone, and prepared to turn it on, but there was no response after a long time.

Then I remembered to charge my phone.

Seeing that she was awake, Liao Qian, who was still in the dormitory, was about to go out and asked her, "Do you want to go eat together?"

"No, I'm not hungry yet."

Su Mi always felt lazy today and didn't want to move.

"Then... I'll be leaving first."

"Um."

After Liao Qian left, Su Mi lay on the bed, changed his position, and fell asleep again while hugging the quilt.

When I woke up again, there was noise in the dormitory.

"You go and shout."

"you go."

Su Mi opened the curtain, looking sleepy, "What are you guys arguing about?"

Fang Yutong asked, "Mi'er, don't you have classes today?"

"It's afternoon, still early."

Liao Qian looked at the watch and said, "It's already one o'clock. Do you want to come downstairs and eat something? It'll be just in time for class after you finish eating."

As he spoke, Su Mi saw that Liao Qian had a packed meal in her hand, and the aroma of the meal was already wafting towards him.

Su Mi had a keen sense of smell and asked, "Did you buy it for me?"

"yes."

Su Mi climbed down quickly and ran over to take a look. There were crispy spare ribs, blanched shrimps and sweet and sour fish, which were very nutritious.

"How much is it? I'll transfer it to you."

Liao Qian smiled and said, "No, just eat it."

Su Mi was about to go wash up when she heard Fang Yutong ask her, "Baby, where's your phone?"

"Uh, it's charging."